Concubine's Survival Handbook

Chapter 268 Extra Story: Lan Yao's Monologue

What was the first meeting like, when and where?Speaking of which, I seem to have almost forgotten.I only remember that red body, the redness seemed to make the world lose its color, and only the fiery redness of you was in my eyes.Chen Zhi, do you still remember our first meeting?
I said I was about to forget, but I lied to you. I always thought that your redness would be the deepest imprint in my life. How could I forget everything about you?But later, I discovered that time can smooth everything, including memory.

do you know.Your image is almost blurred in my mind. How long have we not seen each other.And now, this state of affairs will continue.

You are the proton of Qiguo, and I am the prostitute of Zhao Guofu's family. The identities placed on us are simply a joke to us.I don't believe in the barrier of identity, I try my best to get closer to you.I'm Lan Yao, how could I be disturbed by a small status restriction!I, Lan Yao, always do what I like, so I just indulged myself, and I fell in love with you.

This is the first time I feel distressed for a man, for that masked smile, how many times I want to tell you, if you don't want to laugh, then you don't have to, I, Lan Yao, will cover you from now on.But I know that this is just some rhetoric, meaningless.For example, the concubine who was in a bad mood and hit you casually.I am angry with her and feel sorry for you, but what can I do?

That concubine may be punished but it is more likely that it will have no effect at all, and I can only quietly pray that she will be punished without any substantial action.It was also the first time I realized my own weakness and helplessness, and I really can't cover you at all.

I quietly took the ointment and gave it to you. This is the best thing I can do for you.

I get closer to you again and again, and every time I get closer to you, I secretly rejoice in my heart, which is full of sweetness.

In fact, I envy Jingning very much, not because of her identity or anything else, but because she can be with the person she likes in a fair and honest way, that's great.

For two people who like each other, the most beautiful thing is to have a marriage contract that binds them together since they were young, and when they grow up, they will be able to marry after counting the days, and they will truly be together forever.

We have missed our childhood sweethearts, and I don't want to miss the rest of my life with you.

So, I boldly issued an invitation letter to you, inviting you to my Zhuangzi outside the city, and you readily agreed.In fact, at the moment you agreed, my mood really soared to the extreme, and you also have a good impression of me, who said that we can't be together in the end.I, Lan Yao, have always been a person who breaks the rules.

The days in Zhuangzi outside the city were the happiest time for me, and I don't know if you will think so too.There are no annoying people, only beautiful scenery and confidantes, and there are people you love the most; there is no intrigue, and every day is full of happiness and joy when seeing the person you like.

Jing Ning and Xiao Lin were there to talk about love, and Xiao Yuan seemed to have taken down Fengting, and I have you by my side.So beautiful, so good.What is beautiful is unreal, and what is good is unreal.Bathing in the sunset that day with you, I thought, let’s go on like this, how good it is.The years are quiet and good, and the whole life is safe.

Before leaving Zhuangzi, you said to me softly, "Yaoyao, embroider me a sachet." The voice was low and gentle and charming. Later, I often recalled this passage with my face covered, and my heart was full of shyness.Is it the thought I have been thinking in my heart, or was it that I was confused by your voice at that moment, and made me agree to you so easily?
This is the last time we meet, right?
When I came back, I felt that everything had changed, and rumors arose quietly.In fact, I don't care, I like you, I like Chen Zhi, even if you are Qi Guo's proton, I just like you, so what can I do?But I'm sorry, or helpless, I need to consider the government of Fuguo, who gave birth to me and raised me.

I was grounded and loved my grandfather the most. I don't blame him, but the person who spread the rumors.Qianqian analyzed it, but those few people, hmph, only those few people's virtues still want to ascend to the supreme throne, wishful thinking.Those who stop us will not have good results, this is my curse.

I stayed obediently in Fuguo Duke's Mansion. This is the most obedient time I have ever been. I didn't sneak out of the mansion. I thought, if I am so obedient, grandpa can lift my confinement as soon as possible, so that I can see you again as soon as possible. Bar.

I hold the sachet I embroidered for you, a red plum, I am good at dancing spears and swords, and I don’t like female workers, will you dislike my rough craftsmanship?I think about it, even if you don't like it, I will force you to say what you like.

After all, I sacrificed a lot for this sachet. Because of this sachet, I still need to embroider a few more sachets for my grandfather and parents. I sneak out to see you!

I thought it would be fine to just get grounded and wait for the storm to pass.But I never thought that I would be forced to be sent to my hometown as a last resort. Do you know that I will be forced to leave?Going to Yangzhou, where there is no acquaintance, I don't even know how long I will stay.

I cried and ran to Jing Ning, and I asked her if she could give you the sachet for me.Jing Ning said that this is not safe, yes, at this moment, it seems that everything should be more careful.I stared blankly at the sachet in my hand, I clearly embroidered it, but I couldn't give it to you with my own hands, but I couldn't give it to you, and I didn't even know if I could give it to you again.

Yangzhou is really deserted. Although the scenery is good and the climate is good, but there is no favorite you.I hold the kit and count the days.When will you pick me up and when will we meet again.I've changed, I'm not like myself at all, I'm no longer crazy, I just sit there and remember, remember all the past of you and me.Even if I think about it like this, with your presence, it will still be beautiful, and my smile will still be very sweet.

Finally, I was taken back to the capital. I sat on the carriage and staggered into the capital. Looking at the bustling street market and the majestic palace, tears suddenly filled my eyes.I finally set foot on the same land with you again, breathing the depressing and dry atmosphere of the exclusive capital.

Oh, that's just what I thought, thought I was syncing up to you.But in fact, you are missing.

You go back to the country of Qi, go back to your own country, and be your own king, I believe you have that ability, as long as you want, you can.

In fact, I really want to ask you, did you leave voluntarily, and what about me, what should I do?Did you hesitate for a moment before you left, thinking about me?
Then we...will we meet again?But what's the use of that, when we meet again, you should already be married and have children.The wife is not me.

I suddenly understood the shackles of identity, and I couldn't break it.

There is no chance to give you the sachet anymore, and I suddenly don't want to give it away, and you won't ask for it again in the future.But I can't bear to throw it away.

It's snowing in Beijing.Chen Zhi, goodbye.

(End of this chapter)