loving you carefully

Chapter 13 I will always be with you, in a position that will not embarrass you
Back home, sleeping on her soft and comfortable bed, Lin Naixue slept soundly this time.

Li Runcheng came to her house very early, and what he saw when he walked in was the picture of her sleeping soundly with a big bear doll in her arms.

Bear dolls can be seen almost everywhere in her room, on stickers, on quilts, on clothes, and even the slippers have patterns of bear dolls.

He couldn't help but slightly raised the corners of his lips and smiled - it seems that Naixue really likes bear dolls, and now he knows what gift to give her next time she celebrates her birthday.

It was almost past the time for breakfast, even if he couldn't bear it, he still had to wake her up for breakfast.

"Nayuki, wake up..."

He leaned over slightly and called her softly.

In a daze, Lin Naixue thought it was her father who was waking her up, but after thinking about it carefully, this voice didn't seem to be her father's voice, nor Lei Yilie's voice, this voice...

She suddenly opened her eyes, saw Li Runcheng sitting beside her bed, and called out in surprise: "Senior Runcheng!"

She had just woken up from her sleep, with a trace of sleepiness in her eyes, and her hair was a little disheveled, looking very loving.

Li Runcheng couldn't help but smiled slightly, and said softly: "I know you must be very tired, but now I have to wake you up for breakfast, or it will be bad for your stomach."

Lin Naixue turned her head to look out the window, and found that it was getting late, she said a little embarrassedly, "Thank you, Senior Runcheng, I'll get up right away."

As she said that, she carefully moved the leg with the injured ankle, sat up and was about to wash up.

"I'll help you."

As Li Runcheng said, he squatted down, carefully helped Naixue put on the slippers, then opened his arms, hugged Naixue in a standard "princess hug" posture, and then walked towards the bathroom.

Lin Naixue only felt that the scene in front of her suddenly rotated, and then she realized that she was being held in Li Runcheng's arms and walking out the door.

Her face became hot immediately, and she said in embarrassment: "Senior Runcheng, I can go by myself."

Li Runcheng's expression was also a little unnatural, but he tried his best to hide it: "The sprain on your foot is quite serious, if you don't touch the injured part and don't touch it, then you can recover quickly."

"But……"

Lin Naixue wanted to say something, but found that Lei Yilie, who lived diagonally opposite, also opened the door and came out at this moment.

When he saw Li Runcheng coming out of the room with Naixue in his arms, a look of astonishment flashed in his eyes, and then his eyes became cold.

"Good morning, Yilie." Li Runcheng greeted him politely.

Lei Yilie looked away lightly, did not speak, but also stood at the door without moving.

Lin Naixue felt extremely embarrassed, she opened her mouth to say something, but she didn't know what to say.And she is not sure if the current Yilie has become that demon again.

Li Runcheng seemed to have expected that Lei Yilie would treat him like this, so after he greeted him, he walked into the bathroom with Naixue in his arms.

He thoughtfully prepared a stool for Naixue, and after putting her down and letting her sit down, he even squeezed the toothpaste for her himself, wrung out the towel for her and watched her wipe her face.

Lei Yilie was leaning against his door, looking in the direction of the bathroom from afar.

There seemed to be no expression on his face other than indifference, with his hands in his pockets and his body leaning against the wall, looking very leisurely.

However, Lei Yilie felt as if he had knocked over a bottle of five flavors.

Lei Yilie really wanted to pull Li Runcheng out of the bathroom, then unceremoniously push him out of the door, lock him out forever and never let him in again, never let him see Naixue again, but in the end Lei Yilie still endured Living.

Because he knew that he could no longer act willfully and do anything that might hurt Naixue.

Although he felt bitter, he had to admit that Li Runcheng held a certain place in Naixue's heart.

She is such a kind person, as long as others treat her a little bit kindly, she will firmly remember, and then treat and cherish that person as a treasure.

Besides, Li Runcheng approached her intentionally, caring for her and protecting her with all his heart.In this regard, what he did was far less than half as good as Li Runcheng.

After grooming, Lin Naixue wanted to leave by herself, but before she could speak, Li Runcheng picked her up and walked out of the bathroom.

She saw Lei Yilie who was always looking in the direction of the bathroom, feeling very conflicted.

Senior Runcheng treats her so well, will Yilie care?

She didn't want Yilie to do something bad to Senior Runcheng because of her anger, but there was a glimmer of hope in her heart, hoping to see Yilie care about her reaction.

But Li Runcheng didn't seem to notice the undercurrent between them, he directly carried her downstairs and placed her by the dining table.

Lin Naixue couldn't help being a little surprised to see the extraordinarily sumptuous breakfast on the table. Her mother likes to cook Western-style breakfast, but the porridge, side dishes and shrimp dumpling siu mai on the table are authentic oriental delicacies.

Seeing Naixue's surprised expression, Li Runcheng said nervously, "This is the breakfast I specially prepared for you, try it and see if you like it."

"Did you make it senior?" Lin Naixue was very touched, and said to Li Runcheng sincerely after eating a delicious breakfast, "These are delicious, thank you Senior Runcheng."

Li Runcheng could see that Naixue really enjoyed eating, and he also felt very relieved.It feels really happy to be able to make breakfast for the person I like by myself, and to see her feasting on it.

After washing up, Lei Yilie went downstairs, without even looking at the food on the dining table, he went to the cupboard and took a piece of bread baked by his mother and a box of milk for breakfast, then sat on the sofa and watched TV boringly while eating .

Lin Naixue opened her mouth and wanted to ask Yilie to come and eat with her, but thinking that this was Li Runcheng's breakfast specially made for her, she guessed that Yilie might not like it, so she had to give up.

Li Runcheng knew in his heart that Lei Yilie rejected his coming, but as long as he could protect Naixue, he didn't have to care about anything.

After quietly waiting for Lin Naixue to finish her breakfast, he picked her up again.

However, this time he hesitated.

In the living room, Lei Yilie was sitting there boredly playing with the TV remote control, changing channels very frequently, as if watching any program was not pleasing to the eye.

It can be seen that Lei Yilie is very upset now.

Li Runcheng hesitated whether to carry Naixue back to her room or carry her to the sofa in the living room.He thought about it carefully, Naixue had just finished breakfast, so it was not suitable for her to rest in bed.For the sake of her health, he finally placed Naixue on the sofa.

Lei Yilie kept gloomy and didn't look at them, as if they were as transparent as the air around them.

It wasn't until Li Runcheng put Naixue down, packed up the dishes and went to the kitchen to wash the dishes, that he picked up the bread and took a bite, still holding the remote control in his hand, playing the game of changing channels boringly.

"Eli..."

After a long time, Nayuki finally plucked up the courage to speak.

Lei Yilie glanced at her, then took his eyes away from her lightly, and said "hmm" as if he was very impatient, which was regarded as an answer.

Lin Naixue didn't notice how complicated Yilie looked at her.

Although he only answered one word briefly, Naixue still felt very happy. She felt that Lei Yilie hadn't completely turned back into a demon.

If it was a devil, it would be impossible for him to ignore her in such a good temper.

At this time, out of the corner of her eye, she noticed that the scene of "Animal World" skipped on the TV, which was her favorite program, and she couldn't help but blurted out: "Wait a minute, I want to watch "Animal World."

Lei Yilie pressed his hand on the remote control for a moment, and subconsciously wanted to press the channel back.

However, the next second he stopped wanting to change the channel, raised the remote control in his hand, and said something that surprised himself: "If you want to change the channel, get the remote control yourself!"

After speaking, both of them were stunned, looking straight at each other as if they had been cast by some magic.

Before Lin Naixue had time to see something in his eyes, he already looked away unnaturally, pretending to be eating bread seriously.

Seeing that Yi Lie was just pretending to be indifferent, Lin Naixue slightly curved her lips and smiled, a warm current flowed in her heart - just like at the beginning, she hoped so much to get along with him.

No matter what kind of emotion it is, as long as she can feel him who is as perfect as an angel and talk to him, she will be satisfied.

Now, she felt that the distance between her and him was only one step away from her original wish—maybe even closer.

She carefully moved from the sofa to Lei Yilie's side, reaching out to take the remote control from him.Unexpectedly, he suddenly changed his mind and raised the remote control high.

"Yi Lie?" She looked at him suspiciously, and found a sly look in his blue eyes.

For some reason, she felt that Lei Yilie didn't really want to tease her by doing this, but just wanted to make fun of her.

She had never seen such a Yilie, nor had she been in contact with such a Yilie, and a strange feeling emerged in her heart.

Seeing her staring at him blankly, Lei Yilie wanted to tease her a few words but couldn't change his attitude for a while, and said with a strange expression: "Don't you want to watch TV? Come and get the remote control, you can change it as you like." What program."

Puchi... Lin Naixue couldn't help laughing, her eyes were slightly red, she had waited a long time for the day when she could get along with him easily, it was really long, so long that she almost gave up.

When Lei Yilie lowered his head to bite the bread again, she suddenly reached out to grab the remote control in his hand, if her arm was not long enough, she would have snatched the remote control away.

Being attacked by her once, Lei Yilie immediately put down the bread, raised the remote control high, and looked at her provocatively.

Seeing his smug and childish look, Lin Naixue also became playful.

She rushed forward and grabbed Lei Yilie's arm shamelessly, trying to stretch her hand to grab the remote control.Of course, Lei Yilie would not let her get it so easily, and the two quickly quarreled on the sofa.

And because Lei Yilie had to be careful not to touch Naixue's injured foot, he almost let Naixue snatch the remote control several times.

In the end, he had to imprison Naixue under his body with one arm, and then proudly dangled the remote control in front of her, his happy eyes seemed to say: You can't get it, you can't get it...

Li Runcheng happened to see this scene when he came out of the kitchen, and he was a little confused for a while.The two people fighting on the sofa look like two people in love, it looks very sweet.

He couldn't help but think of Naixue's expression when he talked about Lei Yilie in the hospital, Lei Yilie's expression when he stopped him from taking care of Naixue, and Lei Yilie's displeasure when he hugged Naixue to wash up just now And Nayuki's unnaturalness...

Looking at the two people who were fighting intimately in front of him, he seemed to understand something, his heart ached as if being stabbed by a needle, and he was a little unwilling.

Lin Naixue originally wanted to ask Lei Yilie to give her the remote control, but out of the corner of her eye, she saw Li Runcheng coming out of the kitchen, and the smile on her face froze in embarrassment.

Seeing that Naixue's expression was wrong, Lei Yilie raised his head and saw Li Runcheng looking straight at this side, so the expression on his face returned to indifference in an instant.He retracted his gaze lightly, let go of Nayuki calmly, and stuffed the remote control into her hand.

Lin Naixue sat back with an unnatural expression, took the remote control and switched to the channel she wanted to watch, then smiled awkwardly at Li Runcheng, and said, "Senior Runcheng, come and watch TV together."

Li Runcheng glanced back and forth between the two of them, and finally smiled gently and said, "Okay."

He went to sit between Naixue and Lei Yilie, so the three sat on the sofa watching TV with their own thoughts.

Lin Naixue didn't know how the day went.The three of them actually sat on the sofa watching TV together but rarely talked, and sat like that for a whole day.

In the evening, when Li Runcheng said that she was going home, she felt that her mind was still in chaos.

She insisted on sending Li Runcheng to the entrance, watched him turn and walk out of the yard, and then stared at the closed gate in a daze.

Lei Yilie saw that she was holding on to the entrance door and didn't come in for a long time, thinking that she was reluctant to let Li Runcheng leave.Suddenly, an inexplicable anger welled up in his heart. With a sullen face, he walked to the entrance in three or two steps, half pulled and half hugged Naixue back to the living room, and asked in a very unfriendly tone: "Lin Naixue, do you want Will it become a watchdog stone?"

"What?" Lin Naixue came back to her senses, and stared at Lei Yilie inexplicably.The strange thing is that she clearly felt that he was angry, but this time she was not afraid at all.

Lei Yilie put her on the sofa, sat beside her and asked angrily: "You don't like that guy Li Runcheng, do you?"

"What nonsense are you talking about?" Lin Naixue replied immediately, "Senior has always been someone I respect very much, just like a big brother."

Hearing her denial, Lei Yilie couldn't help but burst into joy, and still said stubbornly: "It's better to be like that."

Before his words fell, the two of them heard a slight sound from the entrance at the same time.

Lin Naixue looked up and was surprised to see Li Runcheng standing there.

Li Runcheng's hand holding the door frame of the entrance was clenched so tightly, and Sunshine's handsome face was also tense, as if covered with a layer of sadness, and his eyes were full of disappointment.

Seeing that the two people on the sofa turned their heads to look at him, Li Runcheng tried his best to suppress his fluctuating emotions, changed his shoes and walked into the living room, took the mobile phone he left on the sofa and said "I forgot to take the mobile phone", and then quickly He turned around and walked to the entrance to change his shoes, and went out again.

Seeing this situation, Lin Naixue was anxious, and hurriedly limped after her: "Senior Runcheng!"

"Naixue!" Lei Yilie reminded angrily behind her, "Your foot injury is still not healed!"

But now Lin Naixue only thinks about Li Runcheng's sad eyes when he left, the senior who was so kind to her, but in the end she was sad because of her, she can't let him leave like this.

She was so anxious that she didn't even change her shoes, and limped closely behind Li Runcheng, saying as she walked, "Senior Runcheng, wait a minute!"

What she said just now echoed in Li Runcheng's ears: "Senior has always been someone I respect very much, just like a big brother."

It turns out that in Nayuki's heart, she has always been just an older brother.

He insisted on refusing to look back at Lin Naixue, and he didn't want to be chased by her, because now he has no way to face Naixue who just treats him like a big brother.

"Senior Runcheng, wait a minute, okay... Ah!" Lin Naixue suddenly fell down in pain from behind, and he remembered that her foot was sprained.

He turned around and saw Naixue fell to the ground, but still looked up at him stubbornly. He felt really uncomfortable.

He knows that whether he likes someone or not cannot be forced.There was nothing wrong with him liking her, but it was also not wrong for her to just treat him like a big brother.

She is such a kind girl, she would rather be hurt than others.But because of his momentary anger, he forgot her injury, causing her to chase after such a long distance with enduring pain.

He blamed himself deeply, ran to Naixue and carefully helped her up, and said, "I'm sorry, Nayuki. Let me see, did you fall somewhere?"

"No, Senior Runcheng, I'm the one who should say I'm sorry." Lin Naixue looked at him apologetically and said.

Li Runcheng shook his head with a wry smile, and said, "No, you don't need to say sorry, it's because I haven't seen my position clearly. I thought we could get closer, but suddenly found that we can only go so far."

Lin Naixue didn't know what to say to comfort him, so she could only lower her head and say apologetically, "I'm sorry."

Li Runcheng suppressed his inner emotions, rubbed her hair pitifully like a big brother next door, and said softly: "Idiot, it's me who should be sad, why do you look sadder than me?"

"I'm sorry, Senior Runcheng." Lin Naixue was still very sad.She could see that Senior Runcheng was obviously sad, but he still smiled so warmly to make her happy.

Li Runcheng picked her up and walked her back home, while trying to restrain the emotions in his voice and said: "Actually, I can feel that your eyes have been on Lei Yilie all the time, but you didn't listen. Before you say it yourself, I don’t want to and I won’t admit it.”

His tone was full of a touch of sadness, but he pretended to be indifferent.

Lin Naixue felt her throat was blocked by something, her nose was sore, and she felt very uncomfortable.

Li Runcheng looked down and saw the tears in Naixue's eyes, and comforted her, "Don't worry, I'm fine. No matter what, I hope you are happy. At least we are still good friends, so you must be happy!"

Lin Naixue's tears finally burst, and she nodded desperately while crying.

She knew that although senior Runcheng looked innocent on the outside, he must be very sad in his heart.She was happy because she met such a good friend like him, but also sad because she hurt such a good friend like him.

Li Runcheng sent Lin Naixue to the gate of the yard and put her down. He stretched out his hand to smooth the slightly messy hair around her ear, and said with some reluctance: "I... I may not be able to protect you like today Yes. But, I will always be with you, in a position that will not embarrass you."

"Thank you...thank you senior..." Lin Naixue choked with sobs, looked at him through tears, felt his gentle gaze, and felt that she was surrounded by warmth.

Li Runcheng took a step back, smiled slightly and said, "Okay, you can go back. Goodbye."

"Well! Goodbye senior!" Lin Naixue cried and nodded, watching him slowly turn and leave.

Even in such a bustling city, the night breeze in late autumn has begun to show its coolness.

No matter how bright the street lamps are, they can't block the stars shining in the sky at night.

Just like Li Runcheng's figure gradually disappearing at the end of the street, although his figure slowly became blurred in Lin Naixue's sight, he became clearer and clearer in her heart, and his position in her heart became more and more clear. It was more important before.

When Lei Yilie watched Lin Naixue chasing after him desperately, he felt his whole heart was hollowed out.

It turned out that her feelings for him were already so deep.

He froze for a long time, then walked to the door in a daze, looking at the empty yard, he slowly sat down leaning on the steps, his eyes were distracted and unfocused.

He thought, at this time, Naixue must have chased after Li Runcheng, right?Under such circumstances, Li Runcheng will definitely confess his love to Naixue, maybe they have confirmed their relationship now and are walking happily together.

No, Naixue's foot is still injured, Li Runcheng will definitely hug her as thoughtfully as he did during the day for a walk on the street.How romantic and warm that picture should be!
He couldn't think about it anymore, because the more happy and warm the picture in his imagination, the more painful his heart would be.Naixue would choose this way, he doesn't blame her.He only blamed himself for not being honest with himself earlier, instead of hurting Nayuki again and again.It was he who didn't cherish the opportunity and pushed Nayuki to others.

When there was a noise from the yard, he stood up full of joy, but when he saw Li Runcheng holding Naixue in his arms and carefully putting her down, his eyes immediately revealed a look of savagery.

Especially when he saw Li Runcheng reaching out to touch Naixue's head, he couldn't help clenching his fists and his face turned livid.

Lin Naixue walked into the yard slowly, seeing Lei Yilie staring at her with red eyes and a terrified expression, she was a little shocked and surprised.

She tentatively called out: "Yi Lie?"

Lei Yilie suppressed the real feeling in his heart, and deliberately mocked her, saying: "Are you back? I thought that the person who took the initiative to chase out would spend the whole night outside romantically. Why, Li Runcheng's arms feel very good, right? You just So you like others to hold you and treat you like a princess?"

"No!" Lin Naixue looked at Lei Yilie with some displeasure, and really didn't like Yilie saying such words.

Seeing her protesting eyes, Lei Yilie couldn't help but think that when she looked at Li Runcheng, her eyes must be very gentle, but she didn't look like this when facing him. Jealousy and anger suddenly arose in his heart, and he raised his voice and said: "I Isn’t that right? I saw him come back holding you with my own eyes! Why are your eyes red, are you reluctant to let him go? If this is the case, why don’t you call him back, or just follow him away! Forever Don't come back!"

Listening to Lei Yilie's inexplicable words, Lin Naixue felt pain and sour in her heart—has he changed back?

Could it be that his kindness to her in the woods that night was all fake?Could it be that what he said to her was just to tease her, and let her believe it before hurting her more deeply?

Thinking of this, tears welled up in her eyes uncontrollably. She felt that her heart was about to be shattered by his cynicism. She cried angrily and asked, "Why? Why are you doing this to me?"

Her tears hurt Lei Yilie's heart and made him sober - he actually made her cry again!
Why can't he always control his emotions and always do things that will hurt her?

He looked at the crying Nayuki anxiously, not knowing what to do, finally bit his lips, stomped his feet and said out loud: "Because I like you! It's because I like you so much that I say this even I find it disgusting myself!"

Lin Naixue was completely stunned, she never thought that he would say such a thing to her.He's kidding, right?He must have said that on purpose to see her joke, right?
However, the look in his eyes now looks very sincere, which makes her want to believe him.But when she thought of his repetitions before, she really couldn't make up her mind for a while.

She was afraid, afraid that after admitting that she also liked him, she would be ridiculed by him again, and she couldn't bear the result.

She froze on the spot indecisively, her heart instinctively wanted to get close to him and believe him, but her rationality told her not to believe his words so easily.

Lei Yilie looked at Lin Naixue expectantly, expecting her positive answer.But he seemed to see only hesitation and distrust in her eyes.

She has always been kind, maybe silence is the answer she gave him?
A silent refusal is always gentler than a direct refusal, isn't it?
Thinking of what happened before, he bent the corners of his mouth bitterly, and said with a self-deprecating smile: "By the way, the love of the devil is really not blessed. I am just a person who was abandoned by fate, and what you want is an angel." .”

Lin Naixue bit her lower lip tightly, not daring to speak.She was afraid that this was just an illusion of hers, and she was afraid that she would find out that the devil was still a devil when she opened her mouth to confirm it. She had experienced this situation many times.If it was just an illusion, then she wanted to stay longer.

Lei Yilie looked at her standing there in a daze, thinking that he had hurt her too much, he would never get her forgiveness again, his heart was cold.

He turned away sadly, not wanting to see her tear-stained face again, and said sadly: "I know, I will move out tomorrow, and I am the one who should leave. If you stay at home, Mom and Dad should I will be happier, please take good care of my mother for me." After finishing speaking, he strode into the house and went straight back to his room.

Lin Naixue looked at the back of him leaving, tears rolled down again like broken beads.She opened her mouth, but she still didn't dare to ask him to stay, because he said that the dream of loving her was too beautiful, and she was really afraid that everything would be nothing in the end.

She stood alone at the gate of the small courtyard, praying silently in her heart: Yilie, if you are true when you say you love me, please don't change in the future.I really can't be sure right now, I need time to prove.If this is just my dream, please allow me to wake up a little later, and a little later...

The moonlight shines on the small courtyard, covering the ground with silver frost.

The gentle night breeze was slightly cool, and gradually dried the tears on her cheeks.

She looked up at the starry night sky, looked at the stars in the night that never seemed to know how to get tired, and prayed silently in her heart——

I hope, really hope that happiness will come soon, and not be stranded again...

(End of this chapter)