The struggle for rebirth is in the harem

Chapter 42

At that time, I felt that everything was good in such a life. If the husband and wife could live like this for the rest of their lives, they would be consummated.

But although I am not in a hurry, she has regrets.They have been married for three years and have not been pregnant yet.

——If I can have a son, I can trade it for anything.

Listening to her words, I just thought it was funny, now that everyone is still very young, there is no need to worry about having children.

——Take me in exchange, are you willing?
I was just joking, but it might as well be a prophecy, she is really willing to part with me.

When she was finally pregnant, I just felt happy and thought a lot about how to raise my son in the future.This child is not easy to come by, she must be a loving mother, then I will be a strict father.

Therefore, when I was told that her life was in critical condition before I heard my son's cry that day, I was stunned for a moment, unable to react.

When he came back to his senses and rushed in front of her, it was already the last time we saw each other in this world.

——I haven’t had time to see peach blossoms this year.

Holding her hand, I was so trembling that I couldn't speak, but she was still able to laugh at Yanyan.Even at this time, she was still so blunt.

Why don't you just say it, you want to live, you want to continue walking with me, you want to see all the scenery in the world and the flowers in spring, summer, autumn and winter.

Thinking of this, the pain in my heart was more and more tearing.

——There is no other word for you today, don’t tell your children to wear reed flowers.

Those were the last words she left.

In the end, I can't let go of it, a newborn child, a husband who can't lose his head.

The moment she left, thunder roared outside the window, and heavy rain poured down.I left all the tears in my life in the rain when I saw her off.

In fact, she is not particularly beautiful, with slender eyebrows and fine eyes, but she is quite pretty.

I have seen many beauties before her.Compassionate or gentle and considerate, they all have bright eyes and good looks, with icy muscles and fine bones.

It's just that after she left, I can no longer see other people in my eyes.

I can't make it for her to only wear a wedding dress once in my life, drink only one cup of wine, and I can't continue the old promise of "the white head will never be apart". I can only seal up my heart for her and sacrifice those who live in her. in the years.

But will keep his eyes open all night long, and repay his life without raising his eyebrows.Zongsi has passed away, but his affection is hard to change.

Just like on the first day after the wedding night, she blew out the phoenix candle that symbolized herself and was still unburned, so the rain after she left also blew out the burning heat of the rest of my life.

Heart and lungs are cold together.

All the love and parting, and the long-term hatred are also buried deep in the loess with her, and the beauty of the past is left in the most beautiful moment of the years.

The mottled shadows on the rice paper, the cold engravings on the bluestone steles, and the one of Lin Chen’s on the many tablets in the ancestral hall, all these have become a symbol of the water, dividing my life into the first half of my life and the second half of my life. .

It's just that the first half of my life was long, looking at a person's smile can last forever, and I wish I could turn my head white for a while.

The second half of life is short, and only the cocoon is left.

The rain outside hit the bluestone steps, and the sound of the wind sounded like weeping and complaining.

Listen, every word and every word is a song of mourning.

Life and death are inseparable.

Live up to this life.

(End of this chapter)