deep in time

Chapter 15 (3)
And what puzzles me the most is that no matter how early I wake up, every morning when my mother stands beside the bed with a smile and whispers, "It's time to get up, I'm going to be late for school", I will feel strange for no reason. ——Could it be that I really slept so deeply, why didn't my mother wake up every morning, wash my face and mouth, and the sound of cooking and cooking didn't wake me up?

One can imagine that scene. On a winter morning, when the sky is not completely bright, my mother gently moves her body away from her side little by little, until she gets out of the quilt, and then gently strokes the quilt for herself. , closed the door, and tiptoed frangipani in the kitchen, so carefully, so as not to wake myself up.

Sometimes I wake up early and hear my mother busy in the small kitchen separated by a wall. When I wait for my mother to come in, I immediately open my eyes and answer loudly, "I'm up." You will be happy for a while when you dance.

Is there really such a good past?
Is there really such a happy self?
[six]
Breakfast is porridge and fried eggs, as well as a side dish.

By the time Cheng Lichen walked out of the bedroom, the porridge was already a bit cold, Baili was already standing by the gate with his schoolbag on his back, with no expression on his face, he glanced at Cheng Lichen and walked out.

Cheng Lichen walked towards the dining table with some embarrassment.

From Baili knocking on the door to now, he first went into the bathroom, looked in the mirror, and smelled the smell of overnight alcohol on his body, so he washed his hair and took a shower, and it was already [-]:[-] when he came out, he knew What Baili didn't say was "You will be late later".

In fact, no matter how fast you rush, you will still be late.

The boy went out after 15 minutes, waited at the intersection, and slowly counted down the number of seconds when the red light flashed. Turning to the right was the direction of Ping'an Hutong, which was the direction of his mother's house.On the street with people coming and going, Cheng Lichen held the handlebar tightly. He seemed to hear a slight sob from the bottom of his heart when the green light turned on. Fly in the direction of the school.

Arrived 10 minutes late.

After class, Ji Nan leaned on his chair, teasing: "Did Yueyuan turn into a werewolf last night?"

The hangover Cheng Lichen's eyes were bloodshot, he pushed Ji Nan angrily, and replied solemnly: "Have you become a vampire?"

Ji Nan laughed out loud.

very nice.There is no shadow in Ji Nan's eyes.

A long, long time ago, when I was not in the same class as Ji Nan, I would occasionally hear the girls in the back suppressing their voices and discussing "Wow! The boy in the third class can go to shoot toothpaste commercials", "Ha, look When I saw his smile, I felt a little happier", but it was more about the admiration, envy, and approval that couldn't be concealed in the tone of many boys around when they mentioned Ji Nan.

They are all of the same age, and it is by no means easy to win a round of applause.

"How old are you?"

"What qualifications do you have to point fingers at me!"

"Have you ever surpassed me?"

Even if they didn't say it out loud, the boys all had such thoughts in their hearts.

Cheng Lichen always had such a cold expression. I don't know how many boys secretly said that he was playing cool and disliked him. Naturally, he didn't have many friends.But Ji Nan is different, he will always be the core figure of the team, and there will always be a group of people laughing and laughing around him.

Facing a leader who is naturally friendly, it would be a lie for a lone ranger to say that he does not envy the excitement.

In fact, the personality gap between the two people who have just entered the first year of junior high school is not so obvious.It's just Cheng Lichen, who is a little withdrawn, and Ji Nan, who is a little more outgoing.But time is the best carving knife, and gradually the outlines of youth become distinct.

Every teenager is a castle.

The outer wall of Ji Nan's castle is covered with red roses, while outside Cheng Lichen's castle there are only mottled and cold light and shadows.

If they had known each other after that time when they were young, flying flowers and angry horses, these two teenagers with very different personalities might dislike each other, and even fight each other.

But they met each other at the most suitable time.

Together with Ji Nan, I called friends to play games, joined the basketball team, and met some people. On the way, some boys greeted him, knowing that his face was cold but his heart was not cold.

Speaking of playing basketball, Cheng Lichen will never forget that on the basketball court, Jin Nan ran and jumped with him. He learned from Ji Nan to make the basketball turn dozens of circles in his hands. Ji Nan corrected his movements. Wrong, although his basketball was better than Ji Nan's later, but Jinan never cared about it, he just introduced to everyone more proudly "I am Ah Chen's master".

We often practice together until the night completely sinks, only a vague basketball hoop can be seen, and we walk to the bicycle shed with our shoulders and backs hooked up, and ride our bicycles one after another on the street.

This scene is repeated over and over again.

It was the first time that they hugged each other after winning the game against the next class; the first time they lost the game against an out-of-school team, and threw basketballs at the wall until exhausted; It was the first time they gave each other gifts, and they rushed to download a bunch of "enlightenment" educational films to each other's computer.

According to Ji Nan, this is a "revolutionary friendship" made of copper and iron.

Cheng Lichen pressed his aching temple.

Ji Nan put his whole body on the desk suspiciously, looked at Cheng Lichen, and said, "You couldn't sleep all night last night, and you drank too much?"

"Is the smell that strong?" Cheng Lichen lowered his voice.

"Hmm. What's the matter? It's not going to be Superman."

"Hmph. I've got Batman on me!" With a mocking tone.

The light was dense, and Cheng Lichen seemed to be wrapped in a heavy mass, and there was something else in his indifferent expression.Ji Nan sensitively felt Cheng Lichen's irritability, but several boys and girls next to him came over to join in, and Jin Nan pressed "what's the matter" into his throat.What's weird is the central position, Cheng Lichen's deskmate Baili kept his head buried in the exercises, as if he didn't hear what was going on outside the window and was indifferent.Everyone has not forgotten that Baili had a real fight with Cheng Lichen not long after she came to school, and then she was involved in the school bag incident and school forum posts. Although Baili became the focus, she seemed to be nothing. Same.

There are usually girls who discuss it in private. "I probably haven't seen the post, otherwise how could it be so calm and clear?" Then the topic changed to "I didn't even save the photo, so the post was blocked."

There seemed to be regret in his tone.

That is, the heroine of the farce is not me, I don't have any extra emotions to help others feel sad, just watch the excitement.

[seven]
After school in the afternoon, Cheng Lichen and Ji Nan walked side by side to the end of the school road.

Cheng Lichen hesitated to speak.

"What's the matter?" Ji Nan put away his smile and asked solemnly.

"That..." Cheng Lichen hesitated for a moment, and said in a low voice, "My mother... is near Ping'an Hutong. I saw her yesterday."

About his mother is Cheng Lichen's biggest secret, but he shared this secret with Ji Nan.

Ji Nan was taken aback: "You are not in a good spirit today, is it also because of this?"

"Yes." Cheng Lichen nodded.

"Is your mother not doing well?" In a cautious tone.

"Ah."

"then what should we do?"

"I don't know." There was nothing in his eyes.

Ji Nan patted him on the shoulder, and fell silent with him.

At the same time, Baili is in the school logistics department less than 100 meters away.

A staff member sat behind the huge desk, and he pushed several [-]-motif papers in front of Baili: "Your application has been approved. This is a work-study agreement, would you like to take a look at it?"

"No need. The head teacher has already told me." Baili picked up a pen from the table, turned to the last page, and quickly signed his name.

"The school's back office building has a total of six floors. There are twelve toilets. You can start working at five o'clock in the afternoon after school. There is another classmate who will do this job with you. The two of you will take turns to arrange shifts, understand?"

"Yeah." Baili took the work-study agreement that belonged to him on the desk.

She told her head teacher about her situation before, and the head teacher asked her to write an application. After a month, there was finally a vacancy for her to fill.If you work 220 days a month, you can get [-] yuan.She was in desperate need of money, and it was certainly a good job.

Baili took a deep breath, and after going out, he bowed deeply to Teacher Xu, the class teacher who came with him: "Thank you teacher."

"This kid..." The chubby homeroom teacher had a smile on his face and waved his hands quickly.

[Eight]
The girl came out from the corridor, and the sudden strong sunlight made the girl's eyes narrow reflexively.

When he opened his eyes again, he saw Liu Yujing on the only way.

There are several girls in the same class beside Liu Yujing, but some of them are naturally the focus of attention.At first glance, Baili was stunned for a moment by the quiet silhouette of Liu Yujing, who was carrying a schoolbag and resting on the leaves like a butterfly.

"Hi, Baili." Liu Yujing smiled sweetly.

"Hi." Baili walked over lightly, and the curled corners of the agreement held between his fingers fluttered gently with the walking air.

It stopped in front of Liu Yujing who was smiling brightly.

"What is this?" The girl pointed curiously at the thin sheets of paper in Baili's hand, "Can I have a look?"

"Work-study agreement." Baili handed over the agreement.

"Ah, cleaning the toilet, such a dirty job, you really are not afraid of hard work." The girl quickly scanned it, her eyes filled with sympathy, "Baili, if you have difficulties, I can help you."

"Thank you." Baili smiled sincerely, "The money that can be earned with two hands is not hard at all."

"Ah..." The other girl turned her head unconsciously.

"What did you say 'the money that can be earned with both hands is not hard', I thought she was filming an inspirational idol drama on Mango TV..." The tone was full of disdain.

Of course, this was only said after Baili left.

Of course, the attention paid to Baili was nothing more than that. A few girls remembered the important task of wandering on this road leading to the teacher's office building: "Yu Jing, maybe your card didn't fall here?"

Liu Yujing turned around slowly, holding the school shirt tightly with her hands hanging on one side, and smiled: "Forget it, if you can't find the hairpin, I don't want it. I invite everyone to drink, what flavor do you want?"

The path gradually returned to silence, like a crypt that leads to nowhere.

From hearing the head teacher tell Baili, "Go to the school office after school in the afternoon", to find out that "work-study program to clean the toilet" is not difficult, and it is not difficult to attract a few classmates by "the card is issued on this road". It's not difficult to pretend to meet Baili by chance, but why is it so difficult to see what you want to see?
I've tried my best to figure out why I look so ridiculous in front of you.

I just want to see you embattled in your new surroundings, haunted by vicious rumours, embarrassed and panicked, self-conscious about life's embarrassment.

However, why can you maintain such a calm expression when you wear outdated shoes, are said to be "dirt like antiques", and wash toilets to earn living expenses?

I don't believe that there are people in this world who are not controlled by material desires.

"The abundance of mind and spirit is far more important than material things" can only deceive children!

only--

Why is it me who has been embarrassed and panicked.

I'm the one who's trying to get rid of a bad past.

(End of this chapter)