deep in time

Chapter 21 (1)
[one]
——You face the boy you like with the more beautiful right side of your face, you wear short skirts that only reach [-] centimeters above your knees in winter for the sake of beauty, you even bend down to pick up things for the sake of image, and you have to behave like a ballet dancer .All this is just because you care about how you look to others, but in the hearts of others, what do these deliberate behaviors represent?
...pretentious?That's how it's described.

Liu Yujing, who was inexplicably labeled with modifiers such as "fake" and "dislike", took off her school uniform jacket in the kitchen, revealing a lace chiffon floral top full of idyllic freshness, a few degrees fairer than ordinary people Her skin is as delicate as a peach, and she looks like a girl who just walked out of a cartoon.

"You are so beautiful." Baili said softly after staring blankly for a long time.

"Thank you." Liu Yujing smiled sweetly.

The sky is high, and the big white clouds are blown by the wind.

Memories from years ago flooded back.

The location is not in the kitchen on the 22nd floor, but under the mottled walls of the orphanage, where there are large patches of weeds swaying in the wind. Although the auntie of the orphanage warned that "there are snakes in the weeds, a bite is fatal ", but it did not prevent the two little girls from treating this wasteland as a secret garden.

After school, the two often sneak here to chat.

Guoguo's eyes are slender, and there is a bright mole under her right eye. When she doesn't smile, her face is a little cold, but when she smiles, it makes people feel very warm. She sits on a bunch of broken grass with her knees hugged, feeling melancholy. Looking at the sky, she said softly, "Yuanyuan, do you think we have parents, grandparents, or uncles, aunts, cousins?"

Another little girl sitting next to her raised her head, her eyes had a calmness that children of the same age did not have: "There must be, although Monkey King jumped out of a rock, but we are not monkeys, we are humans, and we must be human." There are relatives."

The firm tone seemed to be convincing himself who was uncertain.

Guoguo thought for a while, and then said: "Today, Xiaojie's mother at the same table made her a bento lunch. She thought her mother's fried eel had garlic in it, so she gave it to me if she didn't like it. I have never eaten it. Such delicious food. Yuanyuan, if I had a mother, would she make delicious bento for me, would it be better than Xiaojie's mother?"

The quiet little girl looked at her with pity, as if she was looking at another self, and then nodded vigorously.

Guoguo stretched out her hand and gently grabbed Yuanyuan's hand.

The two little hands were tightly held together.

The two sympathetic children seemed to be touched by these words, one wept, and the other's eyes gradually turned red.

However, Guoguo's body stiffened suddenly, she was so frightened that she forgot to cry, she saw a black snake standing upright behind Yuanyuan, approaching slowly.Before Yuanyuan, whose back was facing the poisonous snake, could react, Guoguo had already grabbed her and pushed Yuanyuan away.

Guoguo was bitten by a snake. Fortunately, she was rescued in time, but she still stayed in the hospital for three days.In order to punish the two disobedient children, for the next month, both of them were punished without dinner.For two six- and seven-year-olds, that month of empty stomachs was hell.

It was a memory that made my stomach inexplicably pantothenic just thinking about it.

"What are you thinking?" Liu Yujing had already neatly arranged the fruit on the fruit plate.

Baili's eyes gradually focused in a daze, she shook her head in embarrassment, and followed Liu Yujing out of the kitchen.

As soon as he walked into the living room, he heard Ji Nan's cry for help. When he saw Baili, as if he saw a rescuer, he held up the medicine bottle and shouted: "The medicine has run out, it's time to pull out the needle."

Baili said doubtfully, "Alcohol and cotton swabs are nearby."

Followed by Cheng Lichen's smiling words: "It turns out that Anan is afraid of blood."

There was no expression on Baili's face, but the smile had already reached her eyes. She walked over quickly, picked up the cotton swab on the table skillfully, dipped it in alcohol, and pressed the hand holding the cotton swab on the back of Cheng Lichen's hand. After tearing off the adhesive tape with his hands, Ji Nan's eyes dazed for a moment, the needle had already been pulled out, and it dangled down beside the sofa.

Baili was very close to Cheng Lichen, a handful of her hair fell gently on Cheng Lichen's lips, Cheng Lichen seemed to smell a smell that Ji Nan called "girly body fragrance", his face flushed suddenly It was red, and even the needle that was pressed by the cotton swab became hot.

Cheng Lichen wanted to turn his face away, but he couldn't bear it, so it passed for a while.At this time, Baili picked up the cotton swab and found that the needle was still bleeding slowly. She said "ah", and squatted down beside Cheng Lichen's knee, pressing the cotton swab with both hands.

The girl squatting at her feet, looking intently at the cotton swab, wears a long T-shirt with a moon-shaped neckline. It was originally fitted under the collarbone, but because of squatting, the neckline of the T-shirt is a little bit out, and the boy sits high. The tall one, his gaze fell naturally, the words "Okay, throw away the cotton swab" got stuck in his throat, his body suddenly stiffened, and he remained motionless.Because... Through the collar of the T-shirt, he saw a certain "important part" of the girl's chest.

Very beautiful shape, like a green flower.

The photo of Baili's little white T after being splashed by water in the girls' toilet at the school played in a loop in his mind.

With a sound of "bang", there seemed to be blood boiling in the body, the heart beat like a drum, and the blood rushed to the brain all at once, the boy's entire face turned red, even the roots of his ears were no exception.

The cochlea is full of bang bang sounds, like an airplane flying past the ear.

When I looked again, the girl had already loosened the cotton swab, and there was only a needle hole left on the back of the boy's hand that could not be seen if he didn't pay attention.She stood up, threw the swab in the trash, and went to the bathroom to wash her hands.

Liu Yujing, who was looking for bamboo sticks and tissues, and Ji Nan, who was afraid of seeing blood and didn't look at this side at all, didn't notice that Cheng Lichen's small volcano erupted.

Instead, Baili came out after washing his hands, looked at Cheng Lichen's flushed face, and asked doubtfully, "You're burning again, aren't you?"

"Crow's mouth, don't curse me." The boy said hoarsely.

The hour hand points to two o'clock.There are still three and ten minutes before class starts in the afternoon.

During the banter between Ji Nan and Cheng Lichen, "Will the beautiful nurse come tomorrow" and "Do you want to eat hot pot tonight? Go to hell", the door to the room on the 22nd floor was closed.

The boy who was holding on to play with Ji Nan, the moment everyone left, the mask on his face was taken off, and he collapsed on the sofa, as if a hammer was beating in his brain. The feeling of pain is stronger than any previous bad cold.

- Do you think that torturing yourself is the way to solve the problem?

Baili's words resounded quietly in the empty living room.

The boy gradually fell into an empty dream.

[two]
The boy with only one bicycle is worried.

Liu Yujing smiled and took Baili's hand: "I will take the bus to school with Baili. We will wait for you at the school gate."

"Waiting at the school gate...?"

"Did you forget that you didn't bring your school badge?" Liu Yujing's eyes were wide open, her expression was unspeakably cute.

Looking at the two girls walking forward arm in arm, Liu Yujing's hair softly covered her shoulders, her coat was draped over her arms, and the floral chiffon top was blown up by the wind, so light that she seemed about to fly.In contrast, Baili's back is much more ordinary, with a well-groomed school uniform and well-groomed short hair, no different from any female high school student.

Why did Chen feel that she was wearing a mask?Why didn't I like her in the first place?She remembered that she couldn't enter the school gate without the school badge, so she ran over to help him out, justly reprimanded those who jumped in line in front of the fruit stand, enthusiastically visited sick classmates, and——

When the back of Ah Chen's hand was swollen from yelling about getting the injection, she ran to the kitchen and boiled an egg. Regardless of the heat, she rolled the egg back and forth at the needle hole on the back of Ah Chen's hand, her fingers were red from the heat Not a single complaint.

Such a careful and kind girl, did you misunderstand her from the beginning?
Probably because I have watched too many femme fatales in TV dramas, and I subconsciously think that pretty girls don't always have a good heart.

She looks beautiful, but she is not proud of her own beauty, she has no temperament of a young lady, she is not condescending, she is kind and warm.Such girls are not common, and the probability of winning the 500 million lottery is almost the same.

[three]
The bus stepped on the spot and came wobbly.

Among the two girls waiting for the bus at the waiting station arm in arm, one of the girls got on the bus first and went straight through the ticket gate.

The driver frowned and reminded: "Little girl, buy a ticket."

Baili came up at this moment.

Liu Yujing had already reached the middle of the car, she turned around and said with a smile, "Baili, I'm sorry, I didn't bring any change."

"I have." Baili nodded, took out a purple-gray facial tissue bag from the interlayer of the schoolbag, opened it, took out four neatly folded one-dollar bills, and stuffed them into the coin slot.

"Is that my sister's wallet? It looks so strange." A child in the carriage tilted his head and asked his mother.

The mother smiled at Baili, squatted down and talked softly with the child, what she said was unknown, but the little boy was no longer curious, and just called out sweetly when Baili passed by him, " Miss Sister".

In addition, there were many strange glances in the carriage who seemed to glance over inadvertently.

Baili didn't seem to notice, and carefully put the tissue bag back into the middle of the bag.

"Baili, this way—" Liu Yujing found a place at the rear of the car.

The scenery outside the car window flew by, and the wind blew Liu Yujing's thin hair fluttering on the side of her face, tickling, she stretched out her hand to tuck her hair behind her ears, and chatted with Baili.Baili is very quiet, most of the time he just listens to Liu Yujing quietly.

For some reason, Cheng Lichen was mentioned.

"Are you and Cheng Lichen related?" A declarative interrogative sentence.

"Ah... no." Baili paused and said, "I am Uncle Cheng's sponsor."

"What is sponsorship?" Liu Yujing asked curiously with her eyes wide open.

"I can't tell. It's probably... Uncle Cheng subsidizes all my expenses until I graduate from college."

"Is your family...very...poor?" As if she couldn't find any other words, Liu Yujing hesitated and said, "I'm sorry to ask this question."

"It's okay." Baili's calm face showed a rare smile, which was bright enough to illuminate all the haze. She shook her head, "I don't care at all."

——I don't care at all that I don't have a beautiful and fashionable mobile phone, I don't have exquisite and beautiful hair clips, necklaces, clothes, and shoes; Work-study, wash toilets and clean; I don't care at all about my chocolate-colored skin tanned by the hot sun, and the thick calluses on my hands that have been cutting fish with a knife for many years.

——I have also been ashamed and painful because of the strange eyes of others, but after walking for so long in the maze-like long and directionless years, one day I suddenly figured it out.Compared with those things that determine "poor" and "rich", I care more about not being able to have a family, and I care more about not having a father, a mother, or relatives.

[Four]
(End of this chapter)