Transcendence only to be your princess

Chapter 138

Or maybe I can convince myself with 'I can't be a mistress willingly'.So, give up.He doesn't belong to you.Barely not happy is not it.

But why did he give me the illusion later on?Or are men like this?I still remember his kisses at that time, the kisses were so affectionate, and they all declared his domineering and possessiveness.But I have already decided to quit, so even if I am very nostalgic for all this, I will try my best to restrain myself, control my heart, and let it no longer fall into it.

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This diary was written longer than the previous ones. Huangfu Shuo didn't realize that Yu'er had such a struggle in his heart until now. However, all of this should be blamed on himself. I also have a deep understanding.At this time, Qian Yange was staring at the papers in a daze, thinking about something seriously.

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Today is his big day, and it is also the day I least want to come.In the past, I didn't understand what it was like to watch my beloved marry someone else, but now I really know it.I have always stubbornly thought that I could smile calmly in the face of anything, but finally, when I mustered up the courage to say congratulations to you and turned around, I ran away in a hurry, suppressing the tears that were about to flow.It turns out that the most painful pain in the world is wanting to love but not being able to love.

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I went home today, and I knew that I would think about things when I was free, so I also actively said that I would cook for them. I didn’t need to use onions, but I still chopped them, but Cutting and cutting, I really couldn't help crying.No matter how hard I try to smile, I still can't match the sadness in my heart.Sometimes laughter is not the best medicine, sometimes it is just the best cover.At that time, I just felt that I was really tired of pretending, and I couldn't continue to pretend.

In life, some people come and go, some people go and return, some people are close at hand, some people are far away, some people pass by, and some people walk together all the way.Maybe they met at the end of a certain two roads, walked together for a while, and said goodbye at the next fork.In any case, the sadness of ending the song is inevitable.Is he and I going to come to an end after all? !

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I am not happy in the field of love now, but apart from love, I am still a happy person.Today I played a matching game for the servants in the mansion. Sometimes, I really envy them, because they don’t have the shackles of the royal family, dignitaries and dignitaries who want to pay attention to this and that, and they can love as much as they want, plainly. we can live with each other...

When I was playing with the one, two, and three wooden figures, the elder brother came. I thought that if the elder brother came, he would definitely come, but I looked behind the elder brother for a long time, but I didn't see him.It is inevitable that I feel a little disappointed. Although I know that he will not come, I still have some extravagant hopes in my heart that he will miss me because I am back, and want to see myself...

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When I woke up this morning and saw him right in front of my eyes, I actually still feel like I'm dreaming.I tell him how I feel, how I feel about him, and I say I love him.This is the first time I say I love someone.I always thought he was just a phantom in my own dream, but who knew it was not!I was instantly flattered to know this was true.It turned out that, despite such a big circle, he also likes himself, yes, he likes him.Why do you say that, in fact, I just feel that I need to judge whether he likes me or loves me, I really can't judge at this time, I think he hides his emotions a little deep, I can't see through.Love is such a sudden thing. From the beginning to the slow progress, every detail is incredible.

But, the good news is that I can be with him, unlike the previous figurehead, this time it is real.Although when I asked him a very unreasonable question, he was really uncomfortable when he said that he wanted to save Concubine Ning first, but he later said that if I die, he will be with me...not all of them Are women made of water? I am still an Aquarius, so will there be more water than other people? !Otherwise, how could I be moved to tears after listening to what he said...

People who are in love are like people in a dream, they don’t know where they are, but if it’s a beautiful dream, I hope we don’t wake up one day.

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It's been a while since I've been back to the palace. During the time I was with him, I was really happy. It was as sweet as eating honey.The happiest thing is to be carefree and accompany the one I love without competing with the world. Just like today, I took his hand and wandered around the palace, and occasionally acted like a baby to him, and my life was really good.Today was also the first time I kissed him voluntarily, I just remember my heart was pounding and I felt like it was going to jump out of my body.After the kiss, I couldn't move my footsteps, and let him take advantage of me... But I'm in a good mood, so I don't care about him, ha ha.

Yes, in fact, what I want is such plain and simple happiness, without too many external factors...

If you say: happiness is like an hourglass, do you think it is passing bit by bit?Or is it accumulating bit by bit?In fact, it is like time, which goes on minute by minute, and we often forget its existence; the happiness that has passed away is hidden in the memory, and the picture outlined in the expectation of the future is happiness, but What is the most important thing now?Perhaps, happiness really needs time to prove, or happiness is waiting for time to complete, but I prefer to believe that in the time of every minute and every second, happiness is also continuously experienced bit by bit.I am experiencing: the happiness at this moment!

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do you know? !I still can't accept such a sudden change. Although I have been rescued from prison by Xiao Chi, I still have no memory of why I did that.Why am I going to assassinate Huangfu Shuo so well?Why did he succeed in assassinating the person he loved?

However, what disappointed me even more was his attitude and his suspicions.That made me feel like I was back when I first met him, he was still so violent, he didn't know how to sympathize, oh no, he knew how to sympathize, but it wasn't about me, it was just being silent with that Shangguan.Is it because happiness comes too fast, so it is easy to break?may be.It is said that the most important thing between lovers is trust, but he doesn't believe in himself, that feeling is really bad.

Then I thought the only way to get out was to leave.So I quietly left while most of them were there.

(End of this chapter)