Transcendence only to be your princess

Chapter 140

Now that I have arrived in Zhouchao, I have forgotten how many days have passed since I left Lianchao, but I feel that the day when I can get snow lotus is not far away when I can come to Zhouchao.Shuo, you know what?I'm pregnant.I am really happy to have a child that belongs to us. I just think about our family living happily together in the future. I love you and you love me, and I feel that this life is not in vain.So, you can't leave me and the baby.I'm still waiting for you to wake up and name the baby, and in the meantime, I'll be fine, and the baby will be fine.

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Huangfu Shuo's hands were finally unable to pick up the paper, and he covered his face and began to cry.Baby?She never mentioned it to him, even during the days when he forgot about her, she never mentioned it... And she was still so slim, she didn't look like a pregnant woman at all.This made Huangfu Shuo not have the courage to continue looking down, because he had guessed that something bad must have happened to her in the days to come, so the child would be gone...

"Boy, it's because dad didn't protect you well, and he didn't protect your mother well..." Huangfu Shuo kept repeating these words in a murmur.

When Qian Yange saw this place, tears were already streaming down her face, and she couldn't help touching her stomach with her hands. It was flat, but there was a child born here, a child who hadn't had time to see the world.Even if she can only watch this man who is in grief and weep sadly, and cannot wipe away his tears with her own hands, and cannot tell him that everything will be fine, but one day, she will come back here, by his side, Make him happy again.

After a long time, Huangfu Shuo finally raised his hand to wipe away his tears. With trembling hands, he picked up the paper he had just put down. He carefully folded them up neatly, and continued to look down again:
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The past few days have really made me tired, and now I have really experienced the difficulty of being a maid. I have to go to bed later than others, and wake up earlier than others, hey!These people are simply working with their lives!Like them...or maybe because I'm pregnant, I feel tired easily.Qingqing was originally a master who was easy to serve, but now I have tragically become Zou Nianqing's personal maid!He is definitely a difficult person to serve. If I had known earlier, I would not have made desserts for them. Hey, I really regret pushing myself to the forefront.What made me feel even worse was that after only one day in Zou Nianqing's mansion, he discovered Murong Xiyu's alluring face. Then I cheated, who knew he didn't let me go, and then I Arguing with him, who knew that he didn't have any gentleman's demeanor, and splashed water all over me!I still get angry thinking about it now!

Maybe I should think of something happy.The breeze passed by, so soft, like every time you secretly kissed my cheek, I smiled, just because I thought of you.

In my heart, missing seems to be an ancient one-line classic.In the long river of time, free shuttle.The expression of words has become beyond recognition after years of polishing, but it still retains a purely natural state of thought and the most primitive way.Between the lines, we can easily appreciate the rhyme, and that is the taste of missing.

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Shutter, woo woo... Our baby is gone!Gone... Gone...!When Zou Nianqing suddenly appeared in my room, I knew something was going to happen, but I really didn't expect that he would use such a despicable method, let alone that he would harm our baby...

That is our first baby, how much I am looking forward to his (her) arrival, how can I accept that in a short period of time he (she) will leave my body like a puddle of blood Oh... Shuo, I hurt so much... My heart hurts so much, I hate Zou Nianqing, I hate him!Why would he do this!Why did he abort our child without my consent!why why!The baby is gone and I haven't heard anything about you waking up, I thought, just let me sleep like you.

But now, I wake up, I wake up when I wake up, since God let me wake up, it means that everything is not over yet.

I remember that when I was in a coma, I heard what Qi Lingling said and what Zou Nianqing said. Although it was very vague, I still heard the general content intermittently, but they were not the reason for my survival. Later, What Qingqing said stimulated me... But the child is gone, and you don't know if you woke up. I feel as if my sky has collapsed in an instant... My heart is like being hollowed out.

Days like this make me miserable.In countless dark nights, I stretched out my long arms, trying to grab back yesterday's dream, but my steps went further and further away, and what I could grab back was already beyond recognition; what I couldn't grab back still caused me unbearable pain.It will become my pain, the lingering shadow of my life.Although every miss is like salt on the knife's edge, it hurts again and again, but I still can't help looking back, I groan in the pain, and I am born again in the pain.So in the end, I stood up from the sadness and pain, wiped my face, gritted my teeth and bowed my head like the sailor in the inspirational song, and went to the shore, and I was alive.

In the end, I named the child who has not had time to come to this world, Huangfu Mingyuan (Yan).In any case, the lost child is always on my mind.He (she) will always live in my heart.

Allow yourself to bear what you have lost, maybe you will feel very painful, but you have to bear it yourself, others cannot replace you.There are injuries and pains, but this proves that I have grown up and matured.When I lose, I will cry, find a way to vent, or write word by word in the diary like now, let it listen to myself... Afterwards, I believe that my world will still be full of sunshine.

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I tried to forgive Zou Nianqing during these days, because I overheard some words about my physical condition from the servant girl. Although I didn't believe all of them, I also knew clearly that hating someone is exhausting. Yes, now my heart is very tired, and I don't want to give myself more burdens, so I will try to forgive him.Shuo, do you think I made this decision right?

I buried our child in my heart, locked a lock, and became the untouchable sadness in my heart. I wanted to be the happy self again.

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Shuo, wait for me, I'm going back soon.Zou Nianqing promised to give me Tianshan Snow Lotus, but he asked me to agree to one condition. I don't know what kind of condition he will ask, so I haven't agreed to him yet... But as long as I can cure your illness, I think I can promise him one. Conditions are not too much...

(End of this chapter)