Inside and Outside the Siege: A Woman's Battle for Marriage

Chapter 13 Lack of self-reliance is fatal (2)
She opened the "Haitian Morning Post" that day and saw Yang Hong's article again.Every time she sees Yang Hong's article, no matter whether the content of the article is attractive or not, she has to read it.After all, she is studying journalism, even if she is a mistress, how can she easily let go of the reporter complex in her heart?
She feels that some things in this world are really unpredictable. For example, Yang Hong, a super ugly girl and dinosaur-level girl who doesn't care about anyone in the dormitory, is now doing so well in "Haitian Morning Post". There are articles from her almost every day, and many of them are large articles.In fact, it's normal to think about it. Yang Hong used to work so hard, she only knew how to read books all day long, and she had no interest. It is normal for her to be a reporter.

Every time she saw Yang Hong's name, she felt a strange feeling in her heart, and even felt a little lost.Naturally, I thought of my previous ideals again. It's ridiculous to think about it now, what kind of Chinese-style Farage, Wu Xiaoli, all go to hell!She is now just a professional mistress in a bustling city, like a drop in the ocean.After studying hard for more than ten years, in the end she only provided sexual services to an old man named Zhang Zhonghou, and became a mistress who couldn't see the sun.

She met Yang Hong on the street that day, and Yang Hong just casually asked her how she was doing in the "Dadi Group".She just said falteringly: "It's okay..."

Throwing down the newspaper, she ran to the balcony and stood for a while, twisted her waist, and glanced at the scenery outside the balcony.Opposite the balcony is a road with a lot of traffic and people coming and going in a hurry.Yes, everyone has their own business and is running around for their livelihood, how can it be like her?Staying at home all day with nothing to do.

She returned to the living room, turned on the TV with the remote control, flipped through a few channels at random, and turned them off again when she found that they were all advertisements.I looked around, sat down and stood up again, but still felt very bored, so I went upstairs to the study to read novels.

This building covers an area of ​​more than 200 square meters. In addition to bedrooms, study rooms, and guest rooms, Zhang Zhonghou also built a gym for her, complete with treadmills, exercise bikes, and electric massage chairs.He even said that he would get a beauty room for her, so that she wouldn't need to go to a beauty parlor, just ask the beauticians from those high-end beauty parlors to come to her directly.

For her, he was indeed considerate and careful.He gave her everything that should be given to her, which showed that in his mind, her position was very important.But despite this, the unstoppable loneliness still permeated the whole house, lingering.She is only in her 20s, a graduate of a key university. She is in the Mood for Love and should have a decent job outside, but she has nothing to do in this house all day long, becoming a caged child kept by Zhang Zhonghou. The canary has become a hot topic that people talk about after dinner: professional mistresses.

Thinking of the word "mistress", she couldn't help but blush a little, this is a role cast aside by the mainstream society!In the past, whenever a mistress was mentioned, she would have sneered at it, thinking that such a person is a social parasite, a rat, who disgraces her parents, and is a type of person with corrupt morals.But now, I have become this kind of person.It's so unpredictable!

Distraught, she called Zhang Zhonghou and said coquettishly, "What are you doing?"

Zhang Zhonghou, who was sitting in the office smoking and drinking tea, said softly, "I'm busy, what are you doing, baby?"

She pouted and said, "I'm bored and in a daze."

"It's okay to go out for a walk!"

"Turning around all day long, I'm already tired of spinning."

"Then read a book and watch TV."

"I don't want to see, I just want to see you."

"Okay, then come back tonight and let you see enough."

"Okay, then I won't bother you. Bobobo..." She kissed the phone a few times, and hung up reluctantly.

She called Zhang Zhonghou almost every day, asking him what he was doing, and chatting with him about some irrelevant topics.In her world, the contacts between friends and classmates are getting less and less, and the social circle is getting smaller and smaller, only Zhang Zhonghou becomes the core of her life.As long as she didn't hear his voice for a day, her heart would be empty.

In order to find the feeling of home, she has to cook by herself every day, wearing an apron and walking around in the kitchen, just like a housewife.Every afternoon she would call to ask him if he would come back for dinner.He occasionally came back to eat, but more often she ate alone.Although she also told herself again and again: You must learn to adapt to a person's life, because you are just his mistress.But the sense of loneliness still lingers around her, unable to dissipate or melt away, making her heart always float in the air and unable to touch the ground.

Just after lunch, Xu Qiuying called Zhang Lina: "Nana, what are you doing?"

Zhang Lina said lazily over there: "Let's play games online at home. How about it? Come and play."

"Okay." After Xu Qiuying finished speaking, she closed the door and went out.

Before thinking about it, Xu Qiuying despised people like Zhang Lina from the bottom of her heart, thinking that such people were superficial, snobbish, frivolous, lecherous, and morally corrupt... In short, every time she saw Zhang Lina at that time, although she didn't say anything, But I can always think of a lot of derogatory words in my heart. Birds of a feather flock together and people are divided into groups. Now that they have become people on the same road, they naturally have a common language.Alas, this is the social reality that Zhang Lina mentioned.

Zhang Lina and Xu Qiuying live in the same community, and Zeng Deyi also bought a 120-square-meter house for Zhang Lina here, but Zhang Lina's name is still not written on it, so Zhang Lina has told Xu Qiuying several times about it.

Xu Qiuying went downstairs, walked along the road of the community on the left for several tens of meters, turned a corner, and arrived at the downstairs of Zhang Lina's house.

As soon as Xu Qiuying entered the door, she complained to Zhang Lina: "Nana, I'm so bored."

Zhang Lina smiled and said, "You will get used to it slowly."

Xu Qiuying sat down on the sofa and continued to mutter, "If you just stay at home all day, when will you be 60 years old!"

"60 years old is still far away. Why do you want to go so far away?" Zhang Lina said in the tone of someone who has experienced it, "Don't think about anything now, but think of ways to get him to give you more money. This is the most realistic Yes." She pointed to the house and said, "This house is said to be for me, but the name on the real estate certificate is still his. I have to tell him to change it to my name quickly, so don't worry? Qiu Ying, you have to ask Mr. Zhang to write your name on the real estate certificate of the house that Mr. Zhang gave you."

Xu Qiuying felt that Zhang Lina was too realistic, and she kept talking about the house and the money. She couldn't help laughing, and said, "As long as two people really love each other. Are you afraid that he won't live in the house?"

"Falling in love is one thing, but giving a house is another." Zhang Lina said earnestly, "The premise and basis for us to fall in love with them is money, not true love. They are attracted to our youth and beauty, and we are attracted to Their money is more like a transaction than love."

Xu Qiuying didn't quite agree with Zhang Lina's point of view, she said: "I really love him."

"Why do you love him? Because he is rich. If he is poor, do you still love him? Qiuying, don't be so naive. Since you love him and he loves you, then you have to fight for more benefits for yourself." If nothing else, let’s just talk about this house, it’s your house only if your name is written on the real estate certificate, otherwise everything else is false.”

Xu Qiuying still felt that Zhang Lina was too realistic. From the beginning of their chat to now, the topic of Zhang Lina had never left the house, it was really like a deal.I thought to myself, once love becomes so snobbish, is it still love?Just say, "Does it have to be so realistic?"

Zhang Lina said: "This is a realistic society, and you must be realistic. Only by becoming realistic will we not be harmed in the future, and we will not be in vain." After thinking about it, he warned, "You have to hurry up. Just ask Mr. Zhang to buy you a car, as rich as he is, you must ask him to buy you a BMW... By the way, remember to write your name on the driving license when the time comes."

Xu Qiuying still smiled and said, "Is it really so serious?"

"You must not have the intention to harm others, and you must be defensive. In today's society, especially for men, it is better to be realistic." Zhang Lina peeled an apple and handed it to Xu Qiuying and said, "I heard that some women from the countryside Children, stupid, don't know how to fight for what they deserve, have been with the boss for a few years, and are satisfied with food, but in the end they have nothing, and some are beaten up by the boss's wife... Qiuying, we can't be too Stupid!"

Zhang Lina's words hurt Xu Qiuying's heart.Because she came from the countryside, and she was from a poor family in a poor rural area, a true poor student.

Xu Qiuying asked: "How is Chen Jing doing now?"

Zhang Lina said: "It's also in Haitian City. Now I'm traveling to Hainan with her husband. Someday I will ask her to come over to play. The three of us have a good chat and play cards. Oh, you are the best of the three of us, and the man you are with is the best. Rich. The one in our family is far inferior to that in yours. Zhang in your family is always a big boss and a big entrepreneur, and Zeng Deyi in our family is at most a big contractor. In the future, you have to ask Mr. Zhang to take care of him more."

Xu Qiuying said: "Nana, are we really going to live like this for the rest of our lives?"

Zhang Lina was about to take a bite of an apple, but when she saw what Xu Qiuying said, she stopped and asked, "Are you going to spend the rest of your life with Mr. Zhang?"

"If you don't intend to be in love forever, why are you together?"

"I didn't think about the long-term, just take one step at a time, and never mind him." Zhang Lina took a bite of an apple and said while chewing, "It's useless to think so much about the current situation...the couple who are currently married by Ming Media are still divorced, let alone us These underground workers?"

Xu Qiuying said faintly: "I always feel that it's such a bad name to follow someone, what's the matter? Every time I think that someone still has a wife at home, I feel uncomfortable."

Zhang Lina suddenly realized, she opened her mouth and laughed, the apple in her mouth appeared and disappeared, she patted Xu Qiuying on the shoulder and said, "So you are jealous of his wife! Hahahaha."

Xu Qiuying suddenly seemed to be seen through by Zhang Lina, her face turned red, and she hurriedly said, "I'm not jealous. Anyway, when I think of his wife, I feel weird... Especially when I do that with him, I think of myself and an old woman It's not a good feeling to share an old man. I'm telling the truth."

"I don't think as much as you. Your imagination is too rich." Zhang Lina smiled, "Well, we are latecomers anyway, why should we compete with other people's wives?"

Xu Qiuying said sincerely: "After all, I love him. If you love someone, you can't stop thinking about the woman around him."

"Just treat it as if you don't see it. Don't think too complicated. I guess you Mr. Zhang seldom have sex with his wife. Such an old woman has long passed away."

"I know I seldom do it, but I still have to do it. After all, it's my wife, and I still have to pay the public food..." Xu Qiuying smiled wryly, and said with great disappointment, "When I think of him having sex with his wife, he will come back to have sex with his wife again." When I do it, I feel sick, unclean, and sometimes even feel a little itchy below."

"Qiuying, you have such a rich imagination, you shouldn't be a mistress, you should be a writer." Zhang Lina put her arms around Xu Qiuying, laughing until her stomach ached and tears came out.

In the evening, Xu Huaiyuan called to ask her sister if she found a job, and Xu Qiuying said she did.

Xu Huaiyuan asked, "What job?"

Xu Qiuying said, "I work as a secretary in a company."

Xu Huaiyuan asked vigilantly, "Is it the boss who lent you money last time?"

"Yes."

"The current bosses are all perverts. You have to be careful."

"understood."

After hanging up the phone, Xu Qiuying thought, how would my brother feel if he knew that she was a mistress now?
The past is not as good as marriage

Xu Qiuying went back to school to get her graduation certificate, and attended the graduation dinner held in her class that night.At the dinner party, those who have found a job are naturally beaming and happy; those who have not found a job, although a little unhappy, still drink heavily and eat a lot of meat, as if they are drunk now.

At this moment, both the male and female students completely let go, everyone played and toasted each other, and the male students also loudly punched and guessed codes, saying goodbye to 4 years of college life in this crazy way .

The four professional mistresses Zhang Lina, Zhang Ting, Chen Jing, and Xu Qiuying had a common topic, so they sat together to cherish each other and toasted to leave.Although everyone doesn't talk bluntly, everyone has a special feeling in their hearts.

Zhang Ting raised her wine glass and said to the other three, "I'm going to Guangdong with him. You guys should take care."

Zhang Lina and Zhang Ting clinked glasses and said, "Take care too."

Xu Qiuying and Chen Jing also said at the same time: "Take care."

Lin Haibo, who came back from Guangdong on purpose, saw Xu Qiuying as if he was seeing an enemy. He didn't say a word, his expression was indifferent, and his eyes could shoot fire.He already knew from his classmates that Xu Qiuying had become Zhang Zhonghou's mistress.In fact, he had expected this day a long time ago, and what made him most angry was that Xu Qiuying refused to admit it at that time, hum!When a bitch still wants to set up a torii.

After another thought, go, go, let her go.Anyway, she dedicated her best youth to him, so let that bastard surnamed Zhang eat his leftovers.

Yang Hong became one of the most important people at the dinner, and several classmates surrounded her asking this and that, their envy was beyond words.Yang Hong was not impolite, and kept happily introducing all kinds of new things she encountered as a reporter to the students, her voice was as loud as if she was a press spokesperson.

Zhang Lina pointed at Yang Hong, made faces at Xu Qiuying and Chen Jing, and said softly, "Look, "Jurassic Park" is starting to be released again."

Several people couldn't help laughing out loud.

Zhang Lina said even more boldly: "Since I learned that this dinosaur went to "Haitian Morning Post", I never read the morning paper again."

Zhang Lina's long-term prejudice against Yang Hong made Xu Qiuying feel a little embarrassed, so she said, "I read the morning paper every day."

Zhang Lina gave Xu Qiuying a blank look and said, "There are so many newspapers to read, why do you want to read this kind of dinosaur newspaper?"

Xu Qiuying said: "Her writing is not bad."

"Is there any use for writing a good article? Are you capable of finding a boyfriend?" Zhang Lina said viciously, "I guess she is still a virgin now, maybe she will be a virgin for the rest of her life."

Chen Jing added naughtily: "She can't pierce it herself?" After speaking, she burst out laughing.

Several people suddenly laughed together.

Walking out of the restaurant, Xu Qiuying saw a few boys squatting among the flowers on the side of the road, vomiting, with extremely painful expressions. One boy was holding a bottle of beer in his hand, drinking a few sips and walking a few steps, walking and stopping, staggering, Singing intermittently while walking: "Will you remember tomorrow... the diary you wrote yesterday... will you still miss tomorrow... you who used to cry the most... who married you who was sentimental... who married your long Offer... who made your wedding dress..."

Xu Qiuying came to wander around the street outside the school alone, her heart twitched, things were different.Here buried her first love, beautiful love.All this has been lost in the wind, gone with the wind, vanished.

After leaving school and returning home, a text message came to my mobile phone. I opened it and saw that it was from Lin Haibo. He said: I despise you for the rest of my life.

Xu Qiuying smiled and deleted the text message.Tears flowed down my face unconsciously.

She said in her heart: Farewell, my university.Farewell to my past...

(End of this chapter)