A Famous Traitor and Treacherous Genius

334 – Memories of a Traitor (2)

#19-12-22.

Everyone says that love is eternal when you get married, but I saw that love is not eternal.

And I used love.

By using the emotion of love, traitor Gray achieved the desired result.

-You have been witched more women than you thought. Well done, Gray. While I train Noir, you can charm more ladies there and make them join our side.

I have achieved more goals than my father ever commanded me to do.

Gray the libertine.

At first, women criticized me by saying, ‘How can you leave me behind and date other women?’ But little by little, they started to think that I was doing the same to me because I was meeting other women without hearing their words.

-It’s actually better, isn’t it? A man of that caliber deserves such pride in himself.

Later on, there were people who said that I looked like a bad piece of trash, but they could forgive me by looking at my face.

I haven’t heard much good things from men.

It was natural.

Because of that Gray Gibraltar, there was a rumor that all the women we would marry in the future would come as women who had already been tamed by men, and because of that, I couldn’t get along well with many men.

It was a conspiracy.

Because of an oath that was not an oath in Gibraltar, I did not cross the line until I was 20.

However, those standing in black seemed to think that I, who was stepping into that black, was the same black as them.

Even though I didn’t cross the line, I became a scoundrel and ended up messing with many women-

-Is it so! I spent the night with Lord Gray!

The ladies I had seduced to get information actually used the rumor to force me to take responsibility, and in effect, I ended up being a piece of trash who did things like that.

-The Guardian of Gibraltar can’t do that! I, Falwood Roland, believe that Gray Gibraltar will be a more upright guardian than anyone else!

There were also people who defended me.

Although they understood my intention to become friends in order to obtain information, there were also people who accepted my reasonable approach as a ‘friend’ and spoke out for me.

However, he also regarded me as the ‘heir to the Gibraltar family.’

It wasn’t until later that I understood why he spoke from that perspective, but at the time, I couldn’t help but think that the heir to the Roland family also thought of me as just a protector of Nostrum.

Once, we cleared up our misunderstandings about each other.

But that was after losing what was most precious to each other.

Anyway.

That’s how I whispered false love to many people, shared friendships, formed friendships, participated in social activities, and gathered information.

There were two problems in the process.

One.

“Lord Gray. You would do nothing like that? I cannot accept you like that.”

My relationship with Princess Naria worsened.

Her father instructed me to seduce Princess Naria and find out the location of St. Geonostrum, the composition of the royal palace’s troops, and a ‘secret passage known only to the royal family’ that could later infiltrate the royal family.

But Naria completely rejected me.

She hated being a libertine and hated having people whisper love to her.

I also seemed reluctant to have someone like me show rational interest in me.

Now I have a vague idea of the reason, but at the time, it was purely a situation that seriously hurt the pride of a man 17 years younger than me.

To put it naively, I acted out in social circles, saying, ‘I’m the first person to make me like this.’

To be honest.

-I want to see what the iron-blooded princess will be like when she falls in love.

I wanted to see what Princess Naria would do when she fell in love, hitting a wall as strong as the Gibraltar Gorge.

When a woman like this falls in love, I am very curious about what she will be like.

Perhaps Naria at that time could have sensed my base intentions

The love he whispered to himself was not true love, but rather a love for himself, the ‘Gray Gibraltar’ who made Naria fall in love.

Naria was a difficult enemy.

I couldn’t win Naria’s heart during her three years at the academy.

And those three years.

During those three years, I continued to receive approaches from a woman.

“I packed this lunch box today!”

“I’ve already eaten. Please eat as much as you want, princess.”

“Today is candy! Here, Aang.”

“Leave it there. “I don’t like sweets.”

“I have summarized the contents of the exam this time. Would you like to take a look?”

“You get an A+ even if you don’t take the test. There’s no need.”

“Buuu.”

Astasia.

She continued to attack me even though I rejected her, just as Naria rejected me coldly.

Eventually, the story spread that a strange love triangle had formed throughout the three years of the academy.

Astasia is an international student in the Empire, and when I entered the student council, she followed me in and tried to stay with me.

She even became the better student council president than anyone else, and even held social events where I openly encouraged Naria to date.

After three years of passionate courtship, I even heard classmates from the same grade with whom I spent three years saying, ‘Isn’t it time to give up at this point?’

Astasia?

No.

How about giving up on attacking Naria and embracing Astasia, who keeps clinging to you from behind?

Such a story.

It was something that students could say, regardless of whether they were studying abroad in the empire or not.

Some even giggled with the base intention of so-called ‘eat it and throw it away’ because the relationship with the empire would be severed.

I couldn’t say anything.

In fact, Gray, the libertine, took the first kiss of many women, but after getting the information he wanted, he left them alone or only met them infrequently.

Someone said that if relations with the empire improved, it would be possible to keep the empire’s granddaughter (as it was at the time) hostage in Gibraltar.

It was obvious.

There was absolutely no exchange between the kingdom and the empire, the Sirene Strait was never opened, and the only officially sent envoys were Ministry of Foreign Affairs staff and imperial students studying abroad to discuss academy admissions.

Use Astacia, the granddaughter of the queen.

As a kingdom citizen, as a guardian of Nostrum, as a man, as a male.

Many people asked me to do that, but I couldn’t do that to the granddaughter of Astasia.

A woman who approached me to take advantage of me.

I already knew that many daughters of Nostrum were approaching me with those eyes, and Astasia was the same.

Desperation for survival.

The meticulousness of understanding and accessing information about the existence of Gray.

A cowardice that hides one’s true nature and only shows the side that the other person likes.

It felt like she was seeing me approaching Lia in that way, and maybe I had an absurd amount of sympathy for her.

Or maybe I’m tired.

I whispered love to many people and exchanged traces of that love.

Whether it’s love that was created.

Whether it’s love with a purpose.

Only.

Astasia, because she was the only one who kept telling me ‘I love you’.

* * *

#19-12-31.

“I like you, Naria. Will you marry me?”

“I don’t like it.”

Just before I became an adult, I confessed to Naria.

Why?

My father ordered it.

Even though her mother did that, why did she want to get married?

I couldn’t have guessed, but perhaps my father was aiming to build an image of Gibraltar as ‘a half-assed idiot who thinks about the future of Nostrum despite his mother’s concerns.’

In her generation, the relationship became one of scandalous rumors in social circles, but in her children’s generation, that relationship will have to change.

Since he showed himself as a typical defender of Gibraltar and Nostrum, no one could tell that his father would betray the country.

Still, isn’t it too much to confess?

An error occurred.

Even though he did this, he created a situation where he asked if he would refuse even if he confessed in front of all the expected graduates and current students.

I was rejected.

For a boy who became an adult with his first digit changed according to the imperial calendar, that rejection was a very big wound.

It was shameful, unpleasant, and filled with jealousy.

When I think about it now, it was the worst timing.

Just before Naria became an adult.

From a young age, when Naria was probably growing up as someone’s ‘spare’, she was informed that the insurance was activated.

In a situation where her life could be at risk, I didn’t even help her properly and just spoke my love to her, so she would have rejected me in front of everyone.

Fortunately, Naria did not die.

The incompetent king at the time achieved what he wanted, and he had no reason to waste time.

When she gets old and dies, unless she wants to die, she wants to go back to her childhood.

Anyway, I broke down at that time.

Her pride was hurt, and she was frustrated and angry at the thought that she had ultimately failed in the mission her father had given her.

“Grey.”

Astasia came to me too.

While I was alone in my room venting, she opened the door and came in to try to comfort me.

“Are you okay?”

“Ha…!”

Maybe it wasn’t, it was definitely an outburst of anger.

“Are you okay? There’s no way you’re okay!”

“…”

“Don’t you know better! The feeling of being rejected!”

“Yes, I know.”

Even when my self-esteem was shattered and collapsed.

“But I won’t give up.”

Astasia tried to help me up.

“Ha…!”

In a fit of rage, I pushed Astacia onto her bed.

“In that case.”

Astasia fell down, and I got on top of her and forcibly ripped off her coat.

“Are you saying you don’t care if I do this? Huh? Because I have to do something to survive!”

“…If that is your will.”

Even though I know that I will become a target for venting my anger.

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“I still want you to be someone who truly loves someone.”

Astasia comforted me and supported me.

“And I hope that the target is none other than me.”

At the same time, she wanted me.

“Why? Why?”

“Hmm, I don’t know. “I did this, but why is that?”

Astasia looked up at me and smiled brightly.

“Perhaps it is because, among the many reasons, there is some love in a pure sense.”

With a most pure smile.

“…Then, take a look.”

I accepted.

And I was curious.

“What is love?”

What kind of love does the princess, who grew up receiving more love than anyone else, teach us?

“Well, I don’t know either.”

That moment.

I saw someone in her eyes

“I have never received love from anyone. There were many people who whispered love, but they were all lies and empty words.”

Myself.

“So, wouldn’t you like to find out?”

The purpose of Emperor Astasia’s granddaughter’s study abroad in the empire was the world of beauty, and the destination was Gray Gibraltar.

“What does it mean to love?”

The beauty world was concluded on the day they became adults.

The day Gibraltar gave up Nostrum and kissed Thersian.

That day.

Gray Gibraltar became a traitor.