A Kind Goblin's Bird

“How can I be happy if the wife’s not there?”

“…….”

“Why are you so thin?”

Sa Heon-yeong asked, leaning against the door frame. He looked a little tired. It’s a strange dream in many ways. Young-young looked up at Sa Heon-yeong. In her dreams, he was always strong, but today he seemed to be unable to stand in many ways.

When Young-young did not answer, Sa Heon-Young asked again.

“Is Court Lady Yoon’s service not good enough?”

Young-young shook her head. Court Lady Yoon did a really good job. She was like a mother. When Young-young had a fever, she changed the towels, and when Young-young said that she would not eat, she comforted her with a spoonful of water. She was a better person than Young-young thought.

“But why…….”

Sa Heon-yeong, whose words became unclear, whispered with a sigh. He doesn’t know where to touch. He can’t even touch her because he’s afraid it’s going to go wrong.

Sa Heon-yeong spread his arms. Come here. He whispered. He seemed afraid. Although she thought this dream was strange in many ways because it was unlike him who was always confident, she walked into Sa Heon-yeong’s arms.

It had been a while, so she hesitated for some reason. As Young-young rolled her eyes down, Sa Heon-yeong bowed back and asked, trying to make eye contact with her.

“Are you in pain?”

Looking at that face, Young-young suddenly wanted to talk.

She wanted to say things she wouldn’t have been able to say to the real Sa Heon-yeong. But since this Sa Heon-young is the Sa Heon-young in her dreams, she can say it. Actually, it’s me. It’s real.

“I’m sorry.”

Young-young raised her hand and carefully grabbed Sa Heon-yeong’s collar and apologized. She was worried that he would shake it off, but he gave her his clothes altogether. Still, he didn’t touch Young-young’s body.

“What do you mean?”

“Lord Heonyoung saved me.”

At that, Sa Heon-young laughed. Tears welled up in his eyes.

“I do…… ?”

“Hmm. You welcomed me as a bride.”

Ahh. When Sa Heon-yeong answered, Young-young raised her hand and gently touched Sa Heon-yeong’s cheek.

This dream is so real. But it felt better than this. Sa Heon-yeong’s cheeks were thin. It was good though. It felt like her fingertips would melt more than touching any silk. Will she be able to dream this dream again? No, it will probably be difficult. So, for her…..

“I’m so sorry. You saved me.”

“…… ?”

“I think I should die.”

At that moment, Sa Heon-yeong’s arms grabbed Young-young’s forearms with strong force.

“What do you mean—?!”

He growled No, he screamed. His face, which had turned white, seemed to stop breathing at any moment. Young-young was more concerned about his face being too white than her arm hurting, so she patted his cheek with her hand.

“I’m sorry.”

“Young-ah!”

“But it is very difficult for me to live without Lord Heonyeong.”

It was as if time had stopped around Sa Heon-yeong. All of him stopped at once. Young-young smiled softly and continued to caress Sa Heon-young’s cheek.

“I can’t live. Mother persuaded me not to die until I took revenge on the Song family, but anyway, my family is ruined, so I think I can die now.”

Sa Heon-yeong shook his head. He said, unable to breathe properly, like a man whose heart had been cut out.

“Did, didn’t I come here?”

“This is a dream.”

Young-young shook her head. A dream is just a dream. When she opens her eyes, he won’t be there. She’s all right with everything. She thinks she could starve for ten days instead of four. If only she could see him one more time, she could.

…… But now it’s all wrong.

“Court Lady Yoon said that. A deposed queen will never see the king again.”

At that moment, Sa Heon-young exploded.

“We’ll never see each other again, we’ll never see each other again, why? … !”

Sa Heon-yeong shouted like he was vomiting his blood.

“Why did you do that, why, why!”

He said he wouldn’t be able to even touch her because he feared something would go wrong. “Why did you do that?” he cried. Young-young looked up at Sa Heon-yeong, shaking wildly. Slowly her gaze glided away. It was because Sa Heon-yeong was sliding on the doorframe.

He knelt down on his knees and buried his face in Yeong-young’s chest. Feeling her chest soaking wet, Young-young looked down at him blankly. He was crying out loud like a child. Seeing him collapsing in sorrow and fear, Young-young slowly reached out and embraced his head. He wept in Yeong-young’s arms.

“All you had to do was to sing that song over and over again……. What if I’m a goblin? If I am ……. If I have you…….”

‘What does it mean, my child? Of course, I raised Heon-yeong as my son, but that’s because of my weak heart, not because he really is my child. Ha, haha, definitely not. Of course.’

The empress’s voice was still vivid in Young-young’s ears. It was that voice. Those words touched Young-young’s something forever. She didn’t know she had been so stubborn and tough. But Young-young could never sing as long as she heard those words.

However, Young-young had no intention of telling Heon-yeong about this through her mouth, so he firmly closed her mouth.

Sa Heon-young is crying. Suddenly, Young-Young thought about what the current Sa Heon-Young would be doing. Is he crying too? Will he be very upset? Does he think so too?

“I’m sorry.”

Young-young hugged Sa Heon-yeong’s head tightly and apologized. I’m sorry for hurting you. I can’t sing at that moment, I’m really sorry.

And I’m sorry that you saved me and I have to die. If I died and made you cry again, I’m sorry too. I’m sorry for everything. Everything.