A Reincarnator's Wish In Danmachi

Shaking my head and avoiding these thoughts about the goddess, Ethan actually realized she wasn't exactly similar to a human, even though Light looked exactly like one...

'I must say...she sure is particular..I have never seen such a weird skin colour, if you can even call it a 'colour'...'

He was rather intrigued by the unusual appearance of the goddess, who appeared to be just like a human...

Realizing Ethan was looking at her properly, Qienta remained with a smile on her face, letting Ethan take his time to look at her but, within seconds, the latter realized the former knew what he was thinking, which led him to look away..

"You're curious about this..aren't you?"

Touching her body to let him understand what she was talking about, Qienta asked this question rather casually. She had well-marked in her memory the moment when Ethan finally decided to ask something about her, for example why his skin was so different from everything he had seen before and, although it wasn't easy to tell him the first time, Qienta now had no problem satisfying the curiosities that Ethan had revealed to her he always wanted to know...

Qienta's random question left Ethan puzzled. He didn't expect the Goddess to be so open to wanting to talk about herself, and first the fact their conversation seemed so casual confused Ethan, just because he was aware that in front of him there was the most powerful being in the entire cosmos, no matter how many Universes there were out of this illusory world, none of them had a more powerful person than she, yet the latter seemed to be rather casual, and didn't seem to have any intention of requesting the use of honorifics from him...

But avoiding getting lost in his thoughts, Ethan once again took a look at her figure, and although he wanted to deny it because he didn't want to pry in her private matters, but Ethan also knew he couldn't lie..

"...Yes"

This was all he responded to her question and, feeling considerably better than before, he raised from the bed while Qienta, with a smile that didn't fade from her face, explained to Ethan why her skin was anything but normal.

"...I used to have the same skin as normal humans, but since all the other Gods were afraid of the power I possessed, I was assigned with the eternal task of watching the souls arrive in the deep void and then enter the cycle of reincarnation, and this has caused my skin to completely disappear after millions of years, remaining only my astral body..."

Reciting these words, Qienta's smile intensified by recalling what had been the conversation the two had had after she had told her this. In fact, at the beginning, Qienta had confessed revealing this to him was very difficult because she was afraid he might see her in a different light, or that he would be frightened by the idea her body was different, but his reply surprised Qienta a lot.

Ethan told her he didn't care about the matter at all, and that her body hadn't definitely lost the charm it had previously, even without skin...

At her words, Ethan understood it wasn't easy at all, especially to feel her own skin disappearing over the millions of years, but in addition to that, Ethan was dwelling on another thing she mentioned in her speech.

"...You said you were assigned by the other Gods to watch over souls for eternity..I believe you knew this would have happened if you stayed in that place..so why did you accept such terms..? for the eternity too..I would've directly punched them as they basically wanted to get rid of you..."

Ethan couldn't understand why Qienta had accepted something so obviously aimed at 'locking her up' in one place with the excuse of having to control the cycle of reincarnation, but to his answer, Qienta giggled..

"...Silly, I accepted their terms because I wanted to be assigned with this role in the first place. Even if they are trying to restrict me or know my whereabouts at any time, I don't mind. I actually already fulfilled my reason for entering that space, so all that's left is taking care of the cycle of the reincarnation for eternity..I have nothing else to do"

Ethan was surprised by his words. Although he didn't know why Qienta wanted to stay in that space for eternity, Ethan still had something to add.

"I...If you achieved what you wanted to achieve in that place, why don't you just leave the job for someone else? There must be a Goddess with a minor divinity related to Souls out there who can work in your place..I don't understand why letting others use you any longer.."

Assuming one had to possess a Divinity related to Souls to watch over them, Ethan thought his way of thinking was only reasonable, but while he let out his feelings to his heart's content, Qienta felt each word he spoke was so painful... as she could feel the Ethan who loved her dearly in the Ethan that was in front of her as the latter said exactly the same things.

'Indeed, this is the man I fell in love with...the only one who would care about me..'

Although Qienta's smile didn't fade from her face, Ethan could see as a teardrop rolled down her cheek, and once that first tear broke free, the rest followed in an unbroken stream.

Ethan was shocked by this sight, having no idea what to say now, but he still sensed the cause was something he had said...

but this moment didn't last long, as Qienta realized what had happened shortly after. Inevitably trying to wipe her tears, she tried to add it wasn't his fault, but before she could make any more excuses, Ethan was the first to speak.

"I'm sorry if I said something that hurt you.. even though you're the one who saved me..I apologize..."

Strangely enough, from the moment Ethan saw Qienta in tears, he could feel as if he had been stabbed by a thousand swords, one sharper than the previous one. Although he didn't know why it hurt him so much, the swords became even sharper seeing Qienta trying to reassure him by telling him it wasn't his fault...

Realizing that it had certainly hurt him seeing her in this miserable state, Qienta repeated to him it wasn't his fault and in reality it was true, Ethan hadn't said anything that had hurt Qienta, and her tears were precisely because the familiarity with the man with whom Qienta had spent the best time of her life was so evident it brought her unconsciously to tears...

After about a quarter of an hour, Qienta looked elsewhere embarrassed by the way the situation was evolving, also because she had shown him a side of her rather shameful for a being who has lived for so long to not remember her precise age...

"It's really not your fault...baka"

Whispering these words for the umpteenth time, Qienta couldn't help but pout as she was rather annoyed by the fact Ethan didn't seem intended to talk with her.

Hearing a noise of chains moving, the attention of both was directed towards them and, after a quarter of an hour of strange silence, Ethan finally spoke

"So..what should I do with this Divinity..? If it intends to kill me, I would gladly let it remain like this for eternity"

His words were rather calm, but his expression said something else. Although she didn't know why the divinity had tried to attempt his life, Ethan couldn't forgive it for the fact it had targeted his memories, just because if there wasn't Qienta to help him, He wouldn't have had memory of all the moments spent together with Ais, Lefiya, and all the people who until now were trying to support him, in one way or another.

Turning her gaze back on him, Qienta saw that Ethan's expression at this time was so filled with hatred it didn't even seem the same face that with a smile full of love hastened to make love to her, but leaving this thought out of her mind with her cheeks red since now was neither the time nor the place to think about this kind of thing, the smile Qienta had until 15 minutes before returned on her lips.

"That would be no fan. Since I can interact within this world, I'll give you a gift you'll surely appreciate..."

In his own words, Ethan saw a panel appear before him.

[[System: Subordinates]]

This was all that was written on the panel, which made Ethan think. Normally the system would add a line of text explaining what had been received, but since the only thing readable on the panel was what had been given to him, Ethan sighed in exasperation as he knew what this meant, but shortly after, he also had a smile on his face.

'I see. You're here, System.'

His words brought a second panel to appear before him.

[Yes]

No longer surprised by the fact the system was beyond the concept of a person with few words, Ethan focused on the gift Qienta bestowed him..

"Is it alright..? I would need a [System Upgrade] to have this..."

To his answer, Qienta giggled again as she replied

"Ask your system, maybe it will be able to reply"

As if Qienta's words were the vessel required for the system to explain, a much larger panel than one would have expected from the system appeared before him.

[As Qienta-sama stated, I can reply to your question. I am merely a creation of Qienta-sama as a way to communicate with the Universe, that does mean the Universe itself bestows you a quest and a reward based on what it wants to give you, but if Qienta-sama who created me decides to gift you something, I can access that particular area because she allowed me to do so...]

Although Ethan was curious to know why the system now seemed suddenly to have such a d.e.s.i.r.e to express itself compared to all the other times, Ethan decided to leave this topic alone, for fear that Qienta could decide it was the case to punish the system too, but since the latter had helped him so much, Ethan avoided this while several questions arose in his mind.

"If that's the case..that means Qienta can basically grant me everything you can access without the need to obtain the System Upgrades?"

When asked, Qienta did not lose her usual smile filled with warmth...

"The others in the world you are fighting every day to try to achieve their d.e.s.i.r.es with their own strength.. Do you really want me to give you access to all the power you own without working hard to get it? Ah but do not misunderstand me, even if you asked me to do so I couldn't anyway, as this would draw the attention of the other Gods to you...which would be catastrophic as I couldn't defend you in any way from their power if they manifest themselves in the real world..."

While the two spoke though, the chains began to tremble, but not because the divinity was trying to escape, more for the shock and fear of what would happen later...

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(Alternate Titles: "The Divinity be like: Oh f.u.c.k, I'm screwed...", "Qienta Yandere Mode... Ethan's bloodl.u.s.t moment towards his divinity... meanwhile the latter is frightened to the very core, lol", "Alright, Let's make this 'Divinity' Ethan's first slave OwO")