A Wave Of Desire

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Makai

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"Thank you, officers, but I think I will stick with my decision. I won't be changing my mind anytime soon. Just so you know, this is the right decision." I couldn't believe what was happening. How? How could he have just told the cops that he didn't want to press charges? How could this be happening?

"Yeah, sure it is, kid." The cop that had been laughing this whole time just rolled his eyes at my Ocean before he turned around and left the room. "Don't call us the next time that that guy kicks your ass."

Oh, that cop was lucky that I couldn't do anything to him. If he wasn't a cop and if I wasn't in a hospital filled with witnesses, then I would have kicked his fucking ass right then and there. Yeah, I might be pissed as all hell about what was happening right now, but that didn't mean that I was going to just accept that some fucking prick just spoke like that to my boyfriend. That stupid asshole better watch his mouth around people, especially victims of vicious assaults that were making horrible, horrible decisions right now.

The moment that it was just me, Ocean and Dr. Malachi in the room, I turned to look at my adorable, sexy, stupid boyfriend that had just made one of the biggest mistakes of his entire life.

"Ocean, what the hell did you do?" I snapped at him the moment that I could unstick my tongue and form words.

"Makai, you don't understand, it's-."

"You're right, I don't understand." I snapped at him angrily as I interrupted his words. "Why? Why did you tell them you're not pressing charges? I can see that he assaulted you again. Your wrist is covered in bruises, there are tear stains on your cheeks from the pain you felt. Your gown was torn and exposing your fucking dick to the room. And I can see a goddamn hickey on your neck that I know for fucking certain that I didn't give to you. So yeah, I don't know why you would drop the charges when you were clearly physically and sexually assaulted again. What the hell?"

I could see the way that Ocean's face crumpled when I spoke. I think he had somehow hoped that I wouldn't have figured out what had happened to him after I left the room. I think he thought that he had hidden it all. Well, there was no way for him to hide the fact that I saw him exposed for everyone to see. Not to mention the giant purplish bite mark on his neck. Justin had clearly been frantic, or overzealous, or something when he went after my boyfriend. That was not something that I was going to let slide. This was something that required Justin to pay, and if I could, I would make him pay with his fucking life.

"I'm sorry for disappointing you, Makai. You just don't know what happened. It's hard to explain, but all of this was my fault. Everything from the taunts and fights at school to everything that happened today. It was all because of something that I did."

"What in the actual fucking hell?!" I roared the words way too loudly. 

I could not believe the words that were coming out of my boyfriend right now. He was blaming himself for all of this. How? Did Justin get to him? I mean, aside from physically. Did he manage to brainwash and manipulate my boyfriend in that short amount of time? How the hell did this happen?

"Ocean, this was not your fault." I took his hands then and tried to sooth him. I needed to make him see reason now. I needed him to understand. "You're the victim. This was all Justin's fault, not yours. He did this to you. He hurt you. Why can't you see that?"

"No, Makai. It's not as clear cut as you think it is. There's more to the story than what you know. You see-."

"Ocean, son, Makai is right. This was not your fault. I have seen victims blame themselves before. They think that they were attacked because of something that they did but it's never their fault. When someone makes the choice to attack another person like this, it is never the victim's fault. You have to understand that, son. It's not your fault." Dr. Malachi was doing his best to make Ocean see that this was all just crazy.

"No. It is. You have to listen to me. Please. Both of you, please ,just listen to me." Ocean looked so scared and worried right now. What could possibly be going through his mind right now? And how was I going to fix all of this?

"Fine, Ocean, we will listen. I won't interrupt you anymore. I am all ears." I sighed, sat in the chair next to the bed, and held his hands in mine. I needed to touch him to make sure he was real and that this wasn't all just a bad dream. Then again, I would rather all of this just be a dream instead.

I watched as my boyfriend took a deep breath to steady himself. He closed his eyes, let the breath out slowly, then turned to look at me.

"Listen, Makai, this really was all my fault. Justin wasn't responsible for what he did because of something that I did. Something that I did to him without meaning to." I didn't answer him, I just nodded to let him know that I was following along. "You see, I don't know when or where it happened, but Justin heard me singing."

OK, so Justin heard my boyfriend's beautiful voice, how did that change anything at all? I didn't understand, but apparently, Dr. Malachi did.

"Oh!?" He seemed to instantly understand what Ocean was talking about and he looked so worried for a moment. "That actually explains a lot."

"How? What does it explain?" I asked him, still angry that I wasn't understanding this.

"Makai, when Justin heard me singing, he was put under a spell. I didn't mean to, but for some reason he kept getting messages in his head that I wanted him. He must have heard me singing after I got with you. I didn't even know that I was doing it, but it had to be about love or sexual desire. That is all that I can think about when I try to put it together. But he said that I was begging for his touch and that he needed to make the voices stop. He hated me for feeling the way that he did because he isn't gay but was feeling compelled to take me."

"So, he was bespelled when you sang?" I was still confused. "But I don't understand, I wasn't affected by your voice when you sang in front of me."

"Ah, there is an explanation for that." Dr. Malachi gave me a knowing look. "You are Ocean's mate, so you will not be affected by him."

"And what about his family? He said that he used to sing all the time when he was younger. Why were they not affected by his voice? Hmm?" I was looking for a way that it wasn't Ocean's fault at all, and it was still just Justin's fault.

"That is easy to answer as well. His family already loved him. They loved him as a son and a brother. There was no need for them to be affected by the Siren's Song. That, or the song was less effective when he was that young." Dr. Malachi looked like he wasn't completely sure of the reason, but he was acting like he knew everything, nonetheless.

"Still, that doesn't make it Ocean's fault. Justin attacked him because he was an asshole. He hurt my boyfriend and he should have to pay for it." I was losing this fight here and that was annoying me. However, there wasn't much left for me to do about it.

"No, Makai, you still don't get it. Had Justin not heard me singing, he never would have done that to me. It was all the power of the Siren Song." Ocean's eyes were pleading when he looked at me.

"Ocean is right. The Siren Song can do many things to humans. They can make them desire someone so much that they would go to war for them. They will attack them if they can't have them. And they even gain strength from it. The strength is so that the men that the Sirens attract can survive the encounter. So, that explains how he was able to hurt Ocean so badly as well. He was fighting with strength that was more than an average human's." GAH! Why did Dr. Malachi has to say that? 

"Shit." I had lost the argument. They were right and I was wrong. Dammit! I didn't want any part of this to be my Ocean's fault. I know that he is going to internalize this incident because it was his fault and all that.

"Now, do you see, Makai? I had to tell them to let him go. I know that Justin won't hurt me ever again. I know that he will just go back to being the guy that didn't like that I was better than him at swimming." Ocean sounded so weak and hurt just from saying these words.

"Look, Ocean, you might have inadvertently caused this, but that doesn't mean that it is your fault. You didn't mean for this to happen. You didn't want this to happen to either of you. So don't blame yourself." I didn't like that he was trying to make himself into some bad guy here.

"No, Makai, it is my fault. I shouldn't have been singing. I shouldn't have done that to him." Ocean hung his head in shame and that broke everything inside of me.

"It was an accident, Ocean. You didn't do it on purpose. You didn't know that your singing would have that effect on people. None of us did."

"I should have. I am a Siren, for crying out loud. I know the legends. I should have known better than to ever sing again. I vow never to sing again, for the rest of my life. I can't do it. I can't let that happen to anyone else."

"Ocean?" I stood up abruptly then and pulled Ocean into my arms. I needed to calm this broken heart of his. I needed to make him feel better. I had to make him understand that he was not to blame. If Justin wasn't to blame, then no one was. Ocean didn't mean for this to happen anymore than Justin did.

"By the way, son, how did you break the spell?" Did Dr. Malachi really have to ask that right now?

"Oh, well, I tried to just tell him that I released him, but it didn't work. In the end, I.. I uhm.. I had to sing to him to break it."

"More singing?" I asked with shock in my voice as Ocean blushed embarrassedly.. After that, we all three started laughing at the absurdity of it.