A Wave Of Desire

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Abraham Malachi

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When I saw Ocean sitting on the beach, I found that he was sitting just like the man named Hudson had been. His knees were pulled up to his chest and he was hugging them. Only Ocean had his chin resting on his knees as well, propping his head up as he watched the water.

I saw that Ocean wasn't blinking, which was fine with the state that we were in. He didn't need to blink here. And I could also guess that he was refraining from blinking so that he could have an unobstructed view of the horizon. He was doing all that he could to make sure that he was watching his favorite thing in the entire world.

"Did you find what you needed to?" He asked as he watched me, still unblinkingly. His eyes didn't move at all when I stepped out of the water and onto the sand. He didn't shift his eyes at all as I walked to sit next to him.

The only thing that Ocean seemed to have done after I left was to move from sitting on the tree to sitting on the sand. Other than that, nothing appeared to be different. And even though Ocean wasn't looking at me directly, I still felt him staring at me as I sat on the tree beside and slightly behind him.

"Did you find the memory?" He asked me, speaking again before I had the chance to.

"Yes, I did." I nodded and sighed.

"That doesn't sound like it was a very pleasant memory. Was my mother that horrible? Does that explain why I do so much wrong? Am I a bad person like she is?"

"Where the hell is that coming from, Ocean?" I was shocked by his words. "You're not a bad person. Hahh." I sighed again. "Your mother is a bad person though, and I am glad that you never knew her."

"Are you going to tell me about her now?" He sounded like he was uncertain. Like he didn't know if he wanted to know but the curiosity was growing stronger and stronger.

"I will tell you later. I don't think now is the right time. You should be awake for it before I tell you."

"Yeah, that sounds good." He nodded, the first actual movement he had made since I came out of the water. "Dr. Malachi?"

"Yes, Ocean?" I answered him when he called out to me.

"What happens if you tell me about my mother and then I decide that I don't want to remember that particular part of my past? What happens if it's too much for me?"

I could tell that this was something that Ocean had been dwelling on. He had been thinking about it a lot and it was causing him some anxiety. My guess was, he had been thinking about it the entire time that I had been searching his memories.

"If that happens, Ocean, then I will just hypnotize you again and destroy those memories for you. If you wish to not know about her after all of this is done, then there are options for you."

"That is good to know." He finally lifted his head from his knees and turned to look at me. "How do we get home now?"

"I need to end the hypnosis. However, that means that I need to get out of your head first."

"Understood. What should I do?"

"Talk to me. Not here but with your body. I need you to describe the house to me. Tell me all the things about the living room that we're sitting in. That will give me a connection back to the real world."

Ocean didn't respond to me, he just nodded at me and scooted back so that he was resting against the tree behind him. He closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and then started to explain it to me.

"It is like any other living room really. There is a TV, only this one is quite large. There are two couches, two love seats, and four chairs that fill the large space. Several side tables and coffee tables are sitting around the comfortable places to sit down. There are some photos of Makai and his family on the wall about the fireplace. There are also several of me and Makai together, new photos that we have taken together over the last few months. These are scattered on the mantle, the piano, and on the walls. There are even pictures of my family, my parents, my brother, and my sisters. Makai did that so that I would be more comfortable in his home and not miss them so much. The carpet is a bright, perfect white, even when it gets stained with something, the maid works her magic and makes it like new again. The wall is white as well, but there are pictures, curtains, and furniture all over the room so it doesn't look as overpowering as it could. It's a beautiful home and I am glad to call it my home."

As Ocean had woven together the picture of the room, I leapt into the air and pushed my way through his mind and back out onto his shoulder. I could once again see the place that he had been describing to me. And just like before, there was a shining bridge of words that was connecting us.

I leapt from Ocean's shoulder and landed lightly on that bridge. It was sometimes easier to move as a chibi than as a full size person. At least in my opinion it was.

I ran across that bridge and back to my own body. This part was easy and wouldn't take that long. I just needed to jump back into my own body and I would be good to go. From there, I would wake up Ocean and bring him back to the real world.

I settled into myself quickly, ready to finish my job. My eyes had been open this whole time so I didn't need to open them to see Ocean sitting across from me, but I did  need to blink several times, wetting my eyes after they had been opened for so long.

Now that I was able to see and control my body again, I focused on the boy in front of me. I knew that I needed to speak in that soft and compelling voice once more. Only this time, I was going to be pulling him with the voice rather than pushing him.

"Ocean, can you hear me?" He had been telling me about the house still, having moved on from the living room to the kitchen.

"Yes, Dr. Malachi. I can hear you." His voice was even and flat and monotone.

"Good. I need you to come toward me. Not your body, but your mind. Follow my voice and let it take you back to yourself. It's time to wake up."

"OK." He was so agreeable at the moment. He was not fighting me at all. I was quite shocked with this whole experience between the two of us.

"Come on, follow the trail of light that my words are making for you. When it ends, you will be back in your body."

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Ocean

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I had been describing the house to Dr. Malachi when all of a sudden, he spoke to me in my head and asked if I could hear him. I told him that I did, but I was also now standing up and looking all around me. I was trying to see him since I could hear him. That must mean that he was still here, right?

"Come on, follow the trail of light that my words are making for you. When it ends, you will be back in your body." That must mean that he wasn't in my head anymore. If he wanted me to move back into my body and wake up.

The moment that I stopped looking around, I saw that there was a bright, golden light that was stretching out before me. It went from my chest and out of sight. When I looked behind me, I saw that there was no light stretching past me. I took a few steps and looked again. I had moved forward about four feet and then looked behind me again, still there was no light behind me.

"OK, so the light is only from the point I am at to where I am going."

I followed the light for what felt like a long time. It was going through the parking lot, away from the beach. It almost felt like it was taking me toward the house that I shared with Makai.

I was moving faster than I would in real life though. In a matter of minutes, I had gone from the beach to looking at the gate at my home. Then I was through the gate and standing in the living room. I could see Dr. Malachi and me in the room. He was guiding me, talking to me, telling me to follow him.

I was home, and it was now time to slip into my body. I did this next part on instinct alone. I moved to sit on my own body to go back into myself. But that didn't work. Maybe it was more Hollywood movie memory than instinct.

"Ocean, when you are ready to wake up, just put your hand on your head. Not your mental head, but your actual head on your body. Make that connection between the two parts of you."

OK, I did as he told me to and I was almost instantly sucked into my body. It was quite scary to be honest. I went flying forward and crashed through my head and settled on the inside. At least it didn't hurt.

The next thing that I knew, I was opening my eyes and looking at Dr. Malachi. I was sitting in a chair in my living room and there was nothing at all out of the ordinary. This had all been so different and so crazy yet there was nothing to prove that it had actually happened.

"Welcome back, Ocean." Dr. Malachi looked at me and smiled. "Did you enjoy your journey? I am often told that people usually feel a lot better after they experience this form of hypnosis."

"Actually, I do feel better. It's almost like my mind was reset. I had been worrying about a lot of things lately and I was really worried about what I was going to do. Now, though, it's like my mind is so much lighter. What did you do while you were in there?"

"You know what I did, Ocean. I was only there to see your memories. This wasn't the only way that I could find them out, but I thought it best not to have you relive them yourself. I wanted to see them in a way that didn't hurt you."

"Oh, OK.." I was still a little confused from just waking up, but I knew that he was telling me the truth.