A Wave Of Desire

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Ryan

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Ben and I were already having such a good time.  Just exploring the room was fun, and then we ate dinner together in the amazing suite. It was just the two of us and it felt so romantic. Now, though, we were done eating and that was when Ben said that he wanted to take a shower. This was going to be the first time that we showered together.

I was definitely not going to let this opportunity pass me up. I mean, Ben didn't specifically say that we were going to shower together, but he didn't say that we weren't showering together either.

I wanted to see him in all his glory. Outside of the school locker room that is. I couldn't properly take my time to look at him when we were there, surrounded by the rest of the team. No, I needed to be alone with him to appreciate that. 

And, up until now, I hadn't been able to see him at home because he had insisted on us changing in the bathroom and not seeing each other. I was so pissed and slightly annoyed about it. I mean, he was my boyfriend, we loved each other, shouldn't we be able to see each other? That was obvious to me. And I know he felt that way too, he was just nervous. He was a lot more shy than I was.

After we were in the bedroom, and close to that awesome bathroom, I took Ben's hand and pulled him toward the door.

"Come on, my love. Let's go take a shower together."

"U..uh..uhm a..are you s..s..sure you w..want to..?"

"Shh." I shushed him while kissing his tender lips. "Yes, Ben, I want to take one with you. This weekend is about pushing past our boundaries and limits. It's about exploring each other and taking steps that we've been too hesitant to take before now. I love you, Ben. I love all of you. And I want all of you. So, please, don't be scared or nervous." I kissed his lips gently once more. "Come with me, my love."

"O..OK." He nodded almost as if he were in a trance. He was so nervous and so scared, but I could see that he wanted this as much as I did. "Yeah, let's go." He was feeling more confident by the second. I could tell by the way that he was starting to smile at me. "I love you too, Ryan. You know that. I was the one that confessed to you first. And I don't want to be without you. I want you. I want all of you. And I want to stop doubting myself."

"Then, come with me."

I pulled him into the bathroom then. He didn't fight me, and he didn't try to leave either. That was definitely a good thing, in my opinion. I started the shower so that the water could get hot and then I walked back to his side.

I wanted to be the one to undress him. I wanted to have that privilege since it was going to be our first time together. I wanted to unwrap him like a present. And dammit, no one was going to take that away from me.

I started with the shirt that he was wearing. In true Ben fashion, he was wearing a dark colored button up shirt. I started to undo those buttons while kissing and licking on his neck. He always tasted so good to me. It was not like he had a specific flavor or anything, it's just that my tongue loved the way that he tasted and felt against it.

With all the buttons of the shirt undone, I slid it down his arms and off of him so that it landed on the floor.

"Haa." He seemed to shudder and cry out from just the feel of my hands brushing along his arms. Now though, it was time for me to remove that t-shirt of his. It was light gray and it clung to him just right so that it showed his beautiful muscles and perfect swimmer's body. I couldn't wait to taste more of him. More than just his lips and his neck.

With my lips pressed to Ben's, I started to undo the belt and then unbutton his jeans. Thankfully, he wasn't wearing his shoes, and neither was I, this meant that they wouldn't get in the way when I was trying to remove his pants and boxers, which I started to push down together.

I couldn't get them off of him completely while still kissing him. I needed to bend down. So, what better option did I have than to go all the way to my knees and gently pull his legs from the articles of clothing? There were no better options. I just followed that instinct that told me to do it and moved to rid him of the last layers of clothes, including the black socks that he had been wearing.

I was now on my knees, looking up at Ben in his fully naked glory. He wasn't hiding anything from me, and he wasn't trying to rush to get dressed after swim practice was over. This was just my Ben and nothing else. And, damn, was he fine.

"Glorious." I smiled at him, and I knew that there was heat in my eyes. He blushed, but I could tell that he was done letting things stop him.

"Get up here. It's time for me to undress you. I get to have that privilege too, don't I."

"Oh yes, baby, you do." I quickly rose to my feet and waited for him.

"You're such a dork." He leaned in and kissed my lips while he reached for the hem of my shirt. I could feel the heat of his hand as it brushed against my stomach and I shivered just like he had.

"Haa." I moaned just like he had and that made him laugh, but he didn't stop. He just reached for the button of my jeans and followed the same pattern that I had. He was kissing me until he was unable to bend down without pulling away. He got to his knees, pulled the jeans off and then stared up at me.

It was so erotic. Looking at him kneeling there on the floor before me, fully naked. It made me want to be with him even more. Damn, I could hardly wait to have him.

Without warning, Ben leaned forward and pressed his lips to my already hardening shaft.

"Ahh. Hahh." I cried out and shuddered again. His breath had been like a sweet enveloping cloud around that sensitive part of my body.

"I'm sorry, I couldn't help myself." He was smirking when he stood up then. Damn him. That was not fair. I should have done that too. I didn't know it would be allowed just yet. "Come on, Ryan, let's get in the shower."

"Y..yeah." Now he had me stuttering here. Oh, he was good.

I would have liked to do something in the shower. It would have been fun. However, every time that I got close to Ben, he could tell me that he didn't want his first time to be in a shower and that we both deserved more than that.

OK, so he wasn't wrong. And yeah, I technically agreed with him. But it was so hard to stop myself. I just wanted to touch him. To feel him. To kiss him.

"You can kiss me. You can touch me. But nothing else here. Nothing at all. Got it?" When I pleaded my case with him, this was what he told me, this was all that he was going to let me have in the shower.

"Yes, my love. I understand. Kissing and touching, but nothing more."

"Good."

He was the first one to kiss me after that. I think that he just needed me to accept that we weren't going to have sex in the shower right now. He was right, that wouldn't be very comfortable for our first time together. We can do that later when we are more used to being together. I know that neither of us have ever had sex before, let alone with a man. This was going to be tough for both of us.

Still, I wouldn't change a single thing about this moment. I was running my hands down my boyfriend's back as he kissed me. I moved my hands across the water slicked skin all the way until I could cup his ass in my hands. I squeezed his ass cheeks firmly. Hard, but not enough to hurt him.

"Nghn." He moaned into my mouth while kissing me. So, I knew that he was enjoying himself. And to prove that he was enjoying himself, he slid his hands across my chest, down my stomach, and all the way down until he could cup my manhood. He squeezed it gently and I felt myself stiffen even more than I already was. That part of me was so hard that it felt like it was never going to be soft or limp again.

"Oh God!" I broke the kiss to tilt my head back and cry out. Ben seemed to be proud of himself as he gave me a satisfied smile.

We barely took our hands off of each other. We washed each other so that we didn't need to let go of each other more than just grabbing soap and rinsing out bodies.

Finally, we were both fully washed and rinsed off, so it was time to turn off the hot water, dry ourselves off and move into the bedroom.. There was no reason to get dressed since we would just be getting naked again almost immediately.