A Wave Of Desire

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Kai

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His tongue had slipped into my mouth and tangled and twisted with mine while his lips were pressed against me. I couldn't believe it, Ocean was kissing me. He was holding me to him with a strong grip on the back of my head.

I could feel that he was leaning up from the sand and pressing his chest against mine. The whole situation was mind blowing. I had fantasized about this but I never thought that it would come true. I never imagined that I would ever be kissing this mind blowingly hot guy that was laying on the ground beneath me.

After a few minutes Ocean pulled back from the kiss. He was breathing heavily, a pace that nearly matched mine breathing perfectly. There was a heated look in his eyes and I felt that his body had begun to respond to the kiss the same as mine had.

"See, if you were real you never would have kissed me. And if you were real then we wouldn't be lying here like this."

"Ocean, I am telling you, I am really here. How can I make you understand that?"

"You can…. Y-y-you….You c-can." Ocean seemed dazed and his eyes glossed over. The next thing I knew his eyes rolled back and he passed out.

I knew he had been drunk, I could see it when I first heard him call out to me. I had heard the slur in his words when he spoke. I could smell the beer on him and I could even taste it on his tongue when he kissed me. I just didn't know he was this drunk.

"Dammit." I swore at him as I stood up awkwardly. "He fell asleep without even talking to me. Not to mention he kissed me and then fell asleep. That is so not fair." I sat myself on a large rock that was close to him as I waited for the excitement to pass from my body. If it didn't pass soon I might need to take a dip in the water. That should help with redirecting some of the blood flow away from a certain area. I didn't need someone walking up and seeing me like this.

Then again, as I looked at Ocean I saw that he was sporting a rather impressive looking erection as well. If anyone walked over here they would wonder what it was we had gotten up to, or what we were planning to get up to.

Ocean's was easy to handle. All I had to do was roll him on his side and throw the nearby blanket over him. No one would see him after that. So, that's just what I did.

After about ten minutes I was finally starting to settle down. The fit of my shorts got a little more comfortable and I wouldn't have been embarrassed to stand up anymore.

I didn't know how to process what just happened.

Ocean kissed me. Yet he had done it to prove to himself that I wasn't really there. He thought that I would never kiss him back.

Why would he use a kiss to prove that I wasn't real? Did he want to kiss me for real? Did he kiss me because he had a real desire to kiss me?

Try as hard as I could there was nothing I could think of that made sense for why he would kiss me to prove that I wasn't real. If he was trying to prove that then there was plenty more he could have done. He could have just reached out to touch me for instance.

But no! He kissed me instead of doing that. He pulled my head towards him and put his tongue in my mouth. He would only do that if he liked me right? If he had feelings for me, even if they were buried deep down. He wouldn't kiss me unless he wanted to.

That was what I was going to go with. That was the only thing that would keep me sane right now. I had quite enjoyed the kiss and I would remember this for a long time. I just hoped that this meant that there would be a change between us in the future. I hoped this would mean that we could at least be friends and move on to something more later.

I sat there all night, perched on that rock. I watched Ocean as he slept. I couldn't bring myself to sleep next to him, or to sleep at all for that matter. I didn't know how he was going to act when he woke up and I didn't want to ruin things before they got going.

Just before the sun was up I went into town. I grabbed a box of donuts and some coffee. Ocean would need the sugar and caffeine first thing when he got up. I also got him a bottle of water and some aspirin.

I left the goods next to him and left. I hoped that the next time I saw him things would be better between us. I couldn't stand it if the two of us got further apart.. I needed him in my life for reasons I didn't quite understand.