A Wave Of Desire

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Ocean

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I climbed up onto the bed with Makai and scooted next to him. I sat with my back in the crook of his arm so that he was holding me against him. Though I think that I should have been the one holding him instead. I had a feeling that he was going to get upset during this conversation.

"Comfy?" Makai asked me once I was settled into my position.

"As comfortable as I can be when I am about to hear about my fiancé's promiscuous past." I made a playful joke as I settled in a little more.

"Oh yes, it was so scandalous. Just wait until you hear it all." I was glad that he was still being playful here. I didn't want him to be sad yet. 

"Yeah, OK, I think that I am ready to hear it all. So, why don't you start at the beginning. Let's not start with Trent, start with the first person that you dated. Who were they?" I wanted to have it all. "Who was your first kiss?"

"Well, if you want to go back that far, then I guess that I need to include Ollie and Ellie Sage. They were twins that I went to kindergarten with. They both had a crush on me so they asked me if I would be their boyfriend. I didn't mind that Ollie was a boy at all. So, the two of them became my first ever boyfriend and girlfriend. And I ended up kissing both of them on the cheek before we were told that we couldn't see each other anymore. Their parents weren't happy with Ollie being gay or bisexual at such a young age. I don't know what ever happened to them."

"That is sad." I felt bad for the little boy and girl. But I also had to laugh as well. "However, I see that right from the start you were a two timing cheat. Do I need to be worried?" I asked him playfully.

"Nah, that was the only time that I wasn't monogamous. And that was only because they were twins and did everything together."

"OK, so you aint a polyamorous player, that is good. So, who was next on the list?" I wanted this to be playful until we got to the asshole.

"Well, I never hid the fact that I was bisexual. As soon as I was older and realized it, I was proud and accepting of who I was. I dated a girl in sixth grade named Mindy but that didn't last long. After that was a guy named Jason in the seventh grade. He opened the door to a lot more people to go out with me because they weren't so nervous anymore. And by the way, Jason was my first kiss. He was an adorable little kid and we got along OK."

"I hope that it wasn't a major kiss. At twelve and thirteen you shouldn't have been doing much, should you?"

"Well, I didn't do much with Jason, but I did lose my virginity in the eighth grade when I was fourteen.

"Seriously?" I was at loss for words. He was that young? And I didn't lose mine until I was eighteen. "You were a promiscuous little player, weren't you?"

"I admit that it wasn't planned. She and I were hanging out and one thing led to another. Her name was Lauren, and it was the first time for both of us. It wasn't the last time though. We learned a lot from each other over the next couple of months, but we didn't love each other and we moved on to other people."

"I don't know if I am happy to hear this or regret it all." I laughed awkwardly.

"It's fine, Ocean. There aren't that many left to tell you about." He was trying to make this as painless as possible for me. I knew that, and I was very appreciative. Still, it wasn't easy hearing about his past like this."

"I know, Makai. Go ahead and continue."

"Thanks Ocean.'' He kissed my cheek and went on. "After Lauren, I met Gregory. He was the first guy I had sex with. It was over the summer before high school started. It was the first time either of us had done it with another guy. And he was a bottom. He wasn't ready for it, and neither was I, really. I thought it would be just the same as being with a girl, but it wasn't. I ended up hurting him a little bit, but nothing too bad. He didn't resent me, but we went our separate ways shortly after that. I had some boyfriends and girlfriends through freshman and sophomore year, but I didn't sleep with any of them. Do you want their names?" He looked at me with all seriousness. He would have told me if I wanted him to.

"No, that's fine. If they were nothing serious then it's fine."

"They weren't." He assured me. "The next serious thing after that was Trent. We were in the same grade, on the same swim team, and we're both mermen. He knew what I was because of my mark that he saw in the locker room. He came out to me as bisexual and asked me to go out with him. I was excited. We were the same in a way and he was good looking, so I agreed. Things were fine in the beginning, and it took me a while to realize that things weren't that great."

"Really? What happened?" I was now more curious than worried. I don't know why. Maybe because I wasn't threatened by this man anymore.

"Well, we had sex right away because we had both been with people before. He had had a lot of partners that were older than him. He had learned to give and receive, as well as a lot of other things that I hadn't done yet."

"So, he was a slut that slept with older men and women?"

"Mostly older men. They apparently paid him well for it, but he was looking too old for them by then. Even though he was only sixteen he was looking a lot older than that as you saw."

"Yeah, he didn't look like he was eighteen." I commented as I remembered the way that he looked. "More like early twenties or so."

"Yeah. And it took me a while to realize that he only wanted me because I could provide for him. His plan was to convince me to marry him so that he could live an easy life, but our relationship was anything but easy." That made me think that he had hurt Makai a lot when they were together.

"Tell me what he did to you, babe. What happened?" 

"Well, it started with mental manipulation. I didn't notice it and neither did anyone else. Not at first. But from there, he did eventually get abusive. I don't know how, but I let him convince me that he loved me and that I loved him. The sex, after the first few times, was good. But in the beginning it was painful and rough. I thought that it was just because I was inexperienced with taking it from someone else. That was my first time being a bottom after all. I'm not a hundred percent sure though. I have a feeling that he was trying to hurt me because one of his former partners showed interest in me. I refused, of course, but it made Trent jealous."

I did not like what I was hearing. It was pissing me off, and putting me in a murderous state. Makai had been through so much. I both did and did not want to hear the rest of the story.

"Trent would punch me, slap me around, and do a lot more. However, he would disguise it as us wrestling around at first. It wasn't until he started to just outright hit me that I realized what he had been doing. He was grooming me and conditioning me. I knew that I needed to leave him and be done with it forever. I was never going to be with him again after that."

"And he just let you go?" I knew that men like that didn't like giving up their partners.

"He had no choice, others in school knew what was going on and they kept him away from me. They watched him try to slap me around. I admit that when I was with him, I wasn't as manly as I am now. I have grown a lot over the last year and a half, and I started to work out a lot after I left him. The problem was, he was still there all the time and I hated that."

"So that is why you chose to move even though you were old enough to stay behind." I finally figured out why he had moved to California. "Well, I am glad that you came to my school, or we wouldn't be together." I smiled at him, trying to let him know it was all OK now.

"I am not disgusted by my time with Trent, I learned a lot from him. And I will never forget what I learned. But I will also never let that happen to me or anyone else ever again." He sounded so determined.

"I would never hurt you, Makai. Never. I love you more than anything." My sincere words made him smile and I loved that I was making him feel a little better.

"I know, Ocean.. I know."