Actor, Search for Hope

Suddenly, and...

Life is a world where greed repeats itself endlessly. Only a few win in that world. Even if an exception occurs for any reason, including a victor, it is just a handful of water held in the sea. Most humans are losing. It will be the same in the past, present, and future.

Early on Epikuros' greed opens when it is empty, not when it is filled. "It is often impossible to predict the outcome of drawing clearly, even if you are a human being, and not empty your mind. Such greed eventually becomes a trumpet that calls for despair. As the sound of despair resonates, it is manipulated by the desire of a body that does not realize itself.

Like every life, something intervenes in death. Mentally or materially. Humans are social animals. So, suicide is like a mirror reflecting the impossible in the true sense.

So did the death of Rainer Maria Rilke. But the meaning of his death was somewhat different.

Rilke meets Lou AndreasSalomé at the age of 24. She was the daughter of a Russian general and a writer. And I was 14 years older than Rilke, and I had a husband. But they fall in love. Specifically, there was an active courtship with Rilke, and Salome eventually accepted it.

Funny thing is, Lou's husband and three people have traveled to Russia twice. From her husband's point of view, she must have traveled with some thoughts. Soon, Rilke broke up with Lou and married the sculptor Clara. But that marriage doesn't last long. After separating from Clara, she travels to various European cities and meets many women. And on such a journey, Rilke made love to many women, but he never forgot Salome in his life. Rilke died of leukemia one day.

According to his will, these words were engraved on the tombstone.

"Roses, oh, pure contradiction, joy. Under those many eyelids, sleep is no one's sleep.

Although it is known that this tombstone caused the death of a tetanus wound by a rose thorn, it is actually caused by leukemia. He leaves this message to his girlfriend right before he dies.

Don't forget, O Lord. that life is glorious "

Life is not as glorious for everyone as Rilke says. There are so many miserable, miserable, horrible lives everywhere. Therefore, death is equal to everyone, but that means that the circumstances are all different.

“Rilke, right? ”

The story of Lee Sang-a is a twisted story of Rilke's life. The biggest difference is that the gender has changed. However, with the exception of a few factors, the large trunk was similar. I didn't really know what the writer was going to say, but as soon as I read the screenplay, I realized it was Lilke.

“You know, you're as literary as I've heard. ”

“As I've heard? ”

Seongwoo asked me straight back to a curious feeling. I don't think my sister would have said that, and who would have heard it from?

“Director Yoo Gangjin said, I heard that you're close with Writer Kim Seol. You two are best friends. I believe I wouldn't have made the movie if it wasn't for Director Yoo Gangjin. ”

“Director Yoo Gangjin? ”

“Oh, you don't know. In other words, a famous person who works in a really famous, talented... movie theater. ”

I understood the situation before and after Chosun. Writer Kim Seol told Director Yoo Gangjin about Sunwoo. Somehow, after talking about Rilke for a while, there was a reason why he urged me to read Maltese's book.

“But casting without even seeing the audition. Is he okay?”

“I believe" shows that it's full of garages. ”

I thought there was something about casting without even seeing the audition, but there was also a cause. Writer Kim was a very difficult person to get to know because he seemed awkward and unlucky, but he became quite talkative once he got to know him. The intimacy process was difficult. He would have talked about Sunwoo.

And if there was such a famous director, there was likely to be a face between this director and each other. Or, it would not have been difficult to obtain information about Sun Woo just through the connections.

“There's no better opportunity for an anonymous actor, though it won't be much money. in terms of career. ”

“So my role is to...? ”

“A man.”

When Sunwoo looked at me curiously, Kim Lee Jin smiled and said.

“The man who makes short love on a trip to Europe with Lee Sang Ah. ”

In the script, there was no one named directly other than Lee Sang Ah. It's an unfinished script, but it's the director's intent.

“You know, from the script, there's no name, man A, man B, that sort of thing. Sunwoo is in charge of Male B. ”

“Is that even true in real life filming? ”

“Yes, except for the character called Lee Sang Ah, there is no person with a name. ”

Kim Lee Jin continued to explain Yoo Gangjin's supervision.

This is the third independent film directed by Yoo Gangjin. Director Yoo Gangjin was in charge of the whole scenario as well as the intent of the work. It was as natural as robbing Savvy.

The public's opinion of two independent films has been crossed. The first one was very popular, and the second one failed miserably. However, both works were outstandingly rated by film critics.

However, it sounded like a good story to Sunwoo. Of course, it wasn't that I wasn't grateful for this good opportunity. But it was the most urgent question of what the experience would be like.

Let's accept this casting offer for now. I had to see if what I experienced would happen again. Another chance to get another clue about love. I also wanted to know more about love, and I wanted to understand it.

The thing that Seongwoo felt strongly because of the character Kim Yi-jin was that the form of love was not fixed. I just vaguely knew that Sunnybo, which I initially painted, was just one kind of love.

After all, B was in love with the weirdo. I was more curious about the love story of Guy B and her than what she wanted to say through her life. What kind of love did they have? I wonder how Male B left her.

Sunwoo thought that Man-B was worth holding onto her for once, but he didn't. The script is a really neat, so-called cool breakup these days. It was cool in a good way. It was a good-bye, even though I thought it was cruel.

Once you act, you will know. If the experience is monotonous, that's it. Life as an actor may not be possible, but I never intended to be an actor in the first place. If that's the case, I'm sorry for Writer Kim Seol or Director Yoo Gangjin for casting this piece, but I have no choice. It was neither the experience nor the ability I wanted.

But what if it keeps repeating itself? Is it right to live life as an actor? Writer Kim said it was a gift from heaven, but there was something too much to say about it because he felt it himself.

As a sunbae, I wanted to experience something again. Not from the standpoint of a third party, but from the standpoint of being me. Then I thought I could understand and make sense of Kim Yi Jin's love.

It may be difficult to call Lee Sun-woo if directly influenced by such a person. There will be those who say that they are completely themselves. There must be a change in values, or in ego.

But something must have changed. Even if the endpoint drops. As a sunbae, I wanted to have such an opportunity.

After separating from casting director Kim Yi Jin, the meal alone at home was somehow tasteless.

Kim Seol came a few days later.

“It's been a long time, Sunwoo. ”

“You haven't called recently. It's been a long time...”

“It's been a long time since I've actually seen one on the set. ”

Seonwoo said with a smile. Not the first weird smile I've ever seen, but just the look on everyone's face. That smile made me feel like a typical local man.

“I feel like I'm under a lot of pressure. I didn't really do much. ”

“Isn't it you who recommended it to Director Yoo Gangjin? ”

“I'm sure I brought up Sunwoo's story, but that shouldn't have affected Kangjin much. I like this actor, he is really handsome and outstanding. I'm going to invest some money, so use this actor, etc. I hear that a lot. Everyday life, that's the story. So when you get a recommendation, it's entirely up to you to decide. No investment, so I don't take it. because if you get invested, that's when you can't stop reflecting on your opinions. ”

Chosun felt a little relieved by what he said. It was because I thought that I was overcompensating because of myself. Seonwoo was very grateful for Kim Seol's favor, but it was quite burdensome.

“Of course, it's a private-made film, so you can't afford it. But there's Merritt who can give up commerciality. So there's a chance for anonymous actors. Kangjin might want to use a top-class actor, but he knows there's a financial problem, so he's looking for an actor who's not famous, but he's good at it. Then we give each other a win-win. Kang Jin is able to write talented actors while making movies on his own terms, as well as solve financial problems. Learning can have a good impact on your career. You don't seem to know it, but it's quite powerful. In the movie edition.”

“Thank you, though. You wouldn't have had a chance if you hadn't brought me up. ”

“Say thank you to this director later. I was the one who talked to Kangjin, but this director is the one who appealed actively. ”

I was surprised to hear about this director, but Sunwoo nods. Gratitude is gratitude.

The reason Seoul-si cares so much is because Sunwoo looks very dangerous. Of course, I liked the fact that I understood his work and rated it, but the more I talked, the more I felt like a child who put it on the water. So I became more nervous.

The same was true of this director. The atmosphere is in jeopardy, and he cares about it as much as he can because he looks like he's riding a wire.

“Are you here to tell me that story? ”

Then Sunwoo smiled and said.

“I saw the face of Mr.Sunwoo Gyeom. I have a gift for you. ”

Artwork Reviews

I feel the word "frontal wall."

And I woke up and I saw a huge number of hits, and there was a huge number of sailors, recommendations, and comments.

Thank you so much for your interest in the short work.

I would especially appreciate a spoonful more for pointing out the typos and inscriptions.

I couldn't afford it, so I kept looking, and I kept seeing typos and inscriptions. It really hurt me, especially to hear that typos and inscriptions blur the flow of writing.

We will continue to correct any typos and inscriptions over time.

And I'm sorry, but this weekend is going to be tough.

I feel a bit unwell (it's not a big disease), so I need to go to the hospital and do some housework.

Once a regular reinstatement day wins 5 days a week (Monday-Friday), but I want to continue the reinstatement every day so that it is still early in the series, but...

I don't think I'll have to skip this weekend because I'm going to be forced to finish writing.

I would like to apologize.

And let me tell you a little bit about the work. This epic is also love.

You can't leave out a story about love, no matter what artwork or genre it is.

And that's the theme of the affair.

I think infidelity is also love. (Adultery is a lot of affairs.)

I especially empathize with the words "domestic fires."

I think you might think differently about affairs.

For once, I want you to think about having an affair with Sun Woo.

p.s Say anything about me. I like criticism, I like criticism, I like swearing.

(Please don't do the Fawdrip.)

The most important thing is not to fight.