Actor, Search for Hope

“Here's some ice water. ”

Kang Tae-hyun, who was watching the appearance of Sun Woo, came and brought out the water bottle. Since it was cold water that Sunwoo often came after acting, I prepared ice water at all.

“Oh, thank you. I'm a little worried about the future, by the way. ”

“Did you have any problems earlier? ”

“I thought we were supposed to be close. Well, no. Don't worry, everything's fine. I'll tell you if anything happens. ”

Once Noah and Sun Shi-hyun play the role of Kim Seo-hyun in the play, it becomes a relationship in the drama.

Should we get along? That would be nice.

As it is written in the script, we cannot know everything about that person. Some of the facts you could find out about him weren't written down in such far-fetched stories.

A line of characters that Sunwoo saw as setting.

Past settings: A childhood friend sees it and decides to become a doctor

That one line was too short to capture Lee Si-hyun's past.

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It was different when people looked at people for the first time, but the reaction was usually similar.

Especially the eyes of men. Most people, regardless of their age, had similar feelings when they looked at me.

Desire for reason. Otherwise assess the product as well. Celebrities were often treated with goods rather than people.

Maybe that's why. There were a lot of people trying to do something once, and spawning was common. Especially until it became popular a few years ago.

Anyway, there were enemies everywhere. I put spines around it for myself, except for my colleagues. Sharp, sharp. Don't let anyone treat you lightly.

So the other actor's gaze that I saw today was quite fresh. It feels like a long time ago. Except when I was acting, I felt like I was seeing rocks. Is it like looking at passing passerby 1? Rarely did anyone look at it that way.

Rumor has it she's a genius actress.

I was a little curious about who he was.

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While I was filming, I decided to take another surgical scene.

The ambulance comes running with a red light, and it goes crazy. The people around the scene, the people who are filming, are distracted.

“Are you the patient's guardian? ”

“... Yes... Ah...”

Several emergency patients arrived. There's been a huge traffic accident.

“You know there's blood in the abdominal cavity, right? ”

“Ah. Yes... yes... I heard...”

I can't speak properly. Mother's heart to look at the injured child is usually Daedongsoo. The patient's condition is too severe, so he can't cope mentally.

“I'm Lee Si-hyun from Surgery. I'll do my best, so don't worry. ”

Apart from the complicated hospital situation, Lee Shi-hyun laughs as quietly as she can. As if it's nothing, be confident. Like it's nothing.

“Ready?”

“Yes, now…! ”

Patients, of course, should also be cared for as doctors. When the doctor is shaken, the guardian must be shaken even more.

“Sir, sir... my daughter, my daughter... please. I feel like I can live now... Why...”

“Don't worry. ”

On the other side of the road, which was busy, another person seemed to have died. It was like the scenes that Lee Shi-hyun experienced, not actually filming. This is what happened in Lee Si-hyun's world.

Isn't that right? It's in Lee Si-hyun's past. At first, things that were clearly distinct began to get confusing.

“Patient 13, Lee Jeongyeon (pseudonym), has died. ”

What I heard after the surgery. I was in the same accident.

“Is he dead?”

“Yes, this teacher seems to be explaining and organizing to the guardians. ”

“Whew.”

I need to cool my head and hands for a moment. As I took a step, I heard a voice next to me.

“Where are you going?”

It's Seohyun Kim.

“Cigarette.”

“Come with me. One died, and the other almost died. I heard you were on your way back from your honeymoon. ”

I don't know how much longer the surgery's gonna take. Smoking a cigarette, keeping your mind clear, so that it doesn't fall apart. If you don't smoke, it's too much for you mentally.

“Every patient has a story. No one has to die.

“Could it have been faster than a helicopter? A little faster, and he wouldn't be dead. ”

“… I don't know. ”

Cigarettes were bitter.

“Ten minutes, maybe five minutes earlier, would have survived. … whoo.”

A dead patient's life was like a figment of smoke rising from the end of a cigarette. The life of a loser cannot be adapted no matter how much he sees it.

You reach out your fingertips, you touch them, and then they disappear. I look at the grey smoke rising in the sky and draw for a moment. Life that you couldn't hold by your hand.

If there was a faster way than a helicopter, we could have caught it. I transferred it as quickly as possible from a realistic point of view, but eventually I died. Her face looks too tired to tell you that it might have been possible to live a little faster. It was common in hospitals, but every time, my heart seemed to break.

Especially when you see the faces of the families who heard about the death.

I was immersed in thoughts about the calm but deep feelings of Lee Shi-hyun, a doctor who was so picky.

Death.

Life.

It was such a beautiful word for Sunwoo.

So, for some reason, I was not interested in praising each other at all, whether it was NGs or dramatic filming.

Because of this, the appearance of Sunwoo aroused admiration from the people around him.

Because they were so eager to prepare, even those who were quite proud of themselves as actors silently shut up while looking at Sunwoo. This was a different class, as they call it. So when I saw it like that, I said quite a lot.

“You're a real genius. ”

“But I have to say, it looks dangerous. Maybe it's because he's too immersed. ”

“He's been like that since he started filming in the morning. ”

“By the way, Director Yoo Gangjin didn't put up with it for nothing. They say it's a rumor. ”

The staff continued to be amazed at the look of the sunshine as they became more immersed.

“It's a false rumor that someone got jealous in the middle. ”

There are still rumors that Kim Yi Jin has forged for Sun Woo's contract. Rumors that have to be spread once are not easily dissipated.

Because there was so much chatter around me, I could even hear it in Sunwoo's ears, but I couldn't at all. Quiet, continuous fluttering feelings that begin with a continuous slate sound. And on the other hand, it is the body and hands that move coldly. So I was a little dizzy after the acting.

I could have forced him to wake up, but it also worked because he didn't want to.

A little more, a little more.

Feeling human emotion seems worse than talking drugs.

I want to know more.

I want to feel more.

Just a little more. Just a little more...

Even though NGs were born a few times while Choongwoo was not paying attention around it, it was not a matter of Choongwoo, Lee Si-hyun. Excessive or trivial mistakes. Or a twisted cord, or a metabolic spurt. There were several reasons, but frequent NGs occurred because the character of Lee Jae-gyu, who was leading the work, could not give up anything small. But everyone is familiar with it. No one was particularly complaining.

It was because Lee Jae-kyu was a decent person with a personality, and he explained everything because he said NG first and foremost, what was wrong and how it went wrong. It was quite rare for the PD to be so kind as to explain everything.

“Are you feeling better? ”

Maybe it's because Sunwoo looks too threatened. Kang Tae-hyun approached and carefully spoke to Sun Woo.

“I've been thinking a lot about what to do. ”

“Yes?”

The patient was so badly injured. The specific illness would not appear on the screen, but Lee Si-hyun's head was flowing complicated.

I usually wipe my hands, get ready for surgery. I think while smoking a cigarette.

How to minimize organs that need to be resected. I think he had a brain bleed. Looks like a liver or gallbladder injury, right transverse fracture of lumbar spine 5, left inferior pubic fracture. Traumatic subdural hemorrhage, etc. It's too bad. I think I can save this patient, but I'm so worried about the sequelae. Mmm, mmm. Looks like the mandible's a little damaged, too. To minimize sequelae…….

Unrecognizable terms go around in my head.

What to do, what to do.

“Sunwoo, it's break time. Are you okay?”

“Ah.”

Kang Tae-hyun reached out and waved his shoulders. Then I came back a little sane.

“Do you have any water? ”

“Here you go. ”

Kang Tae-hyun handed me the water bottle that had been prepared. As soon as I gave him the water bottle, he sniffed and said.

“Can I have an ice americano later? Much thicker.”

“I understand.”

Cold water was good, but I needed a bit of bitterness.

Americano. Aside from cigarettes, Americano was the drink Ishi-hyeon used to drink. That's why I wanted a bitter Americano. Even during that brief break, Lee Shi-hyun was always filled with thoughts about the patient.

A moment to look around.

Filled with anxiety, I stopped on my way

How sad life would be if I didn't have time to look around for a while.

Like sheep or cows standing under a tree.

If you don't have time to stare at it for a long time,

When you go through the forest, squirrels come into the grass.

If I don't have time to look at hiding dog cancer,

Sunny Daytime, Night Sky

If there's no room for starry waters,

Beautiful women's eyes and feet

And if I don't get a chance to watch those feet dance,

Her smile that started in her eyes

If we can't wait for the lip to spread,

Such a life is filled with pity and grief.

If you don't have time to stop and look around for a while "

There was a beggar among the poets. British poet William Henry Davis (W. H. Davis, 1871 ~ 1940). He specializes in the masterpiece Leisure, which made him a celebrity.

In this poem, we talk about the leisure that exists in everyday life as it is titled.

Time to take a break. However, even without that time, Lee Si-hyun's life doesn't seem sad or sad. Because he thought that relaxation was a luxury. Of course, people were not machines, so I needed time to lay down my body and mind for a while. Nevertheless, even that time is for the patient.

I liked the relaxed Lee Si-hyun speaking in Leisure. A time like that, if you can save a patient. Sunwoo was close to madness. Why is Lee Si-hyun so obsessed with life?

Chosun wondered about it. Is there a reason for that obsession? There's a reason for death fans to go chasing celebrities. I knew, of course, that people's thoughts and feelings may not have a reason because they vary in values. When I postponed seeing people until now, I thought of things that I could not build.

However,

I wonder if there is such a reason in Lee Si-hyun's life.

I haven't found a reason for that yet from Chongwoo's perspective. If we continue to observe the phenomenon a little more, we will know. If you're obsessed with it for no good reason at all, it's a little sad for you.