After Crossing, I Made Conan Cry

"But this is the optimal solution. If there is a straight line, why take a detour? It's just a gamble."

There is a bit of deepness in Yoyo's eyes.

She knew she had a degree of self-destructive tendencies, or perhaps self-loathing would be more accurate?

But in the dark world, how many people don't have some fluffy little problems.

Normal people can't survive here.

There are only two paths to choose from if you want to survive.

One doesn't think about anything, doesn't struggle, is completely affected by the environment, is controlled by the environment, lives day by day, and finally is completely assimilated and loses himself.

It's like what boss and Rum have been doing all along, trying to erase all of her ego and make her completely obedient and available to them.

After all, weapons don't need self-awareness, they just need to obey orders.

Most of the people in the dark world chose this path, because it was the easiest, and the price was only the bottom line that a person should have.

The other is thinking too much and struggling too much, because he doesn't want to be affected by the environment, and hopes to keep the bottom line, so people who often choose this path will gradually walk on the path of self-destruction in the end.

The reason why Yoyo was able to barely maintain this balance before was that while retaining her bottom line and humanity, not being completely assimilated, and losing herself, she hadn't completely walked on the road of self-destruction.

In the final analysis, it was just because I didn’t want the boss and Rum to get what I wanted, so I kept holding the mentality of ‘Since you didn’t let me have a good time, and you have to plot me, then you don’t want to have a good life from now on’.

But if it really fails in the end, it won't have any impact, will it?

Apart from the fact that there is no more 'Mochizuki' in this world, only 'Kamu', it doesn't affect Gin or anyone else, does it?

Even she herself sometimes thinks, if only being 'Kamu' would be fine, wouldn't it be as painful as it is now?

With her ability, she can do whatever she wants, the big deal is that in a certain mission, she meets an enemy stronger than her and is killed by the opponent.

Just like what she did in the past, those who kill must be prepared to be killed. This is common sense in the dark world, and it is also the ultimate destination of all people living here.

But you can do whatever you want, no matter what impact it will have, or whether it is right or not, is that really freedom?

Yoyo used to be superhero obsessed for a while back when she was just 'Yoyo'.

Whether it's DC's Batman and Red Hood, or Marvel's Iron Man and Spiderman, she has liked them all.

Thinking about it now, how ironic that she, who used to like superheroes, has now become a criminal.

But at that time, she didn't really understand their principles.

In the past, she couldn't understand Batman's principle of not killing, and even for Yoyo, she actually agreed with the Red Hood's policy of stopping killing with killing and using violence to control violence.

I also can't understand what Spider-Man said with great power comes great responsibility.

Because she was just an ordinary person, she was incapable of managing many things, even in many cases, as long as she could manage herself well, she would be fine.

So although she could understand the meaning of this sentence, she couldn't feel the weight of this sentence.

It wasn't until now that she gradually understood that Batman's principle of not killing was actually a warning to herself not to cross that bottom line. At the same time, she also understood the weight of the phrase 'with great power comes great responsibility'.

Everyone needs a bottom line.

Especially the more capable people are, the more they need to set a bottom line for themselves.

In the past, she didn't need to think about these things, she only needed to think about 'where am I going to play today' and 'what delicious food should I eat today', so she was very free, because even if she really made a mistake, she would not There is no great harm.

But it's different now. While she understands that the greater the ability, the greater the responsibility, she also realized that "when you are staring at the abyss, the abyss is also staring at you".

Because that's where she is now.

So if it's really up to her temperament, who can guarantee that she will never change?

If she really doesn't even know who she is one day, what will 'Mochizuki' do?

What about the 'Mochizuki You' who likes sunshine, food, and games, is smart, but a little lazy, loves to act like a baby, never ambiguous in front of right and wrong, and does everything he needs to do to the best of his ability?

After all, anyone can be 'Kamu', but there is only one 'Mochizuki Yu'.

That's why Yoyo stretched out her hand to Gin and the others, seemingly to hold them back, but in fact, she was subconsciously asking for help, so that they could hold her when she was about to collapse.

Even when Yoyo realized that this pair of glasses could no longer block her ability, she spent the past six months using her ability to make the pendant her last trump card.

As long as it is there, as long as it is seen, she will wake up.

That's why she said before that this pendant is something that can prove the existence of 'Mochizuki'. This is not a simple metaphor.

But do they really need 'Mochizuki'?

Wouldn't they be more comfortable if there was no 'Mochizuki'?

Yoyo understands that she is now in a period of confusion. On the one hand, she is very clear that she wants to seize power in order not to change herself, and to no longer be controlled by Rum and Renye Karasuma.

But on the other hand, in the process of seizing power, she inevitably changed herself in order to gain their trust.

So what is she fighting for now?

Just to survive?

If it is just to survive, then it seems that there is no need to keep one's own self at all.

And it's really tiring to be in such a position of actively reaching out for a long time...

She inadvertently recalls the day she first met Furuya Rei.

If there was anyone who walked towards her and stretched out his hand to hold her before she reached out, he would be the only one.

That's why Furuya Rei is different in her heart.

Although Yoyo himself knew that under the circumstances at that time, no matter who was lying there, he would not ignore it.

But so what?

Since the 'light' shines on everyone, is it not light?

It still is.

It's just that she also knows that if she gets too close to the 'light', she will be burned.

Just like Furuya Rei.

Because of her position, she would not trust him completely, but on the other hand, she believed strangely that he would not hurt her.

But she didn't trust herself.

She didn't believe that she would not hurt him, and she was afraid that one day she would do something too much in order to keep this beam of sunshine by her side.

No one should pay for another person's negativity.

So be it...

Just stay away so completely...

Anyway, 'Mochizuki You' is not worth having these, is it?

How can a person who is so terrible that he can use himself deserve these things.

So take this opportunity to stay away from him completely.

And she can use this incident to pull Zhu Fu Jingguang out of the black whirlpool of the organization, and let him go to the sun to continue to be his police officer.

This is already a perfect ending, isn't it?

As for the rest, what does it matter...

Anyway, even if 'Mochizuki' really disappeared, for other people, 'Kamu' is still there.