After I Wear the Book, I Bend the Heroine O

"Like the morning star that guides the way in the night sky, you guide me to find the light to approach you..."

Tomorrow is the second anniversary of Mangypsing's debut. Today is the last stage of the rehearsal. The song "Star Language" on the stage ended perfectly as the end of the chorus. ? Withdrawn from the stage?

At the moment when the lights on the stage ended, Lin Qingyan subconsciously wanted to touch the phone, but when she was about to touch it, she retracted her hand as if it was hot.

The chatting time between her and Le Jiaxuan became less and less, and it changed from Le Jiaxuan's initiative at the beginning to her initiative - not because there were so many gaps, but because the people there basically didn't Will come again and again to stir up the topic.

A long time ago, she remembered that although the two were not together, Le Jiaxuan kept sending her photos of her life to share bits and pieces. It’s so big that it’s filmed today? What’s the role, so small just now? It was chased away during dinner?—? Only a fly, she will not let go of any—? A thing that can be shared with her, and also send her a morning message every day. Good night and good night.

She will sometimes reply, sometimes she will go to work after looking at it, and when she receives the news, the throbbing will be slowly retained and squeezed in the bottom of her heart, and after she is busy, she will gradually be There is no trace of the wind blowing.

The girl group that just debuted is really tired, especially for the captain, the burden to carry is more than that. Among so many people, only she has experience in debut, and the rest are just blank sheets of paper, which need to be filled with color by her.

In such a day-to-day exhaustion, it was more difficult for her to give Le Jiaxuan more attention, and she was more inclined to her teammates. Although there is an inseparable piece in my heart, it seems that I don't have to pour out my longing every day.

Until she felt Le Jiaxuan's indifference to her, was Lin Qingyan busy for a few days? It's reasonable for Le Jiaxuan, but she continued to operate on Weibo as per the manager's request. .

The "double yan" CP is getting stronger and stronger now, and it even entered the top ten after starting from ?-?

Did the two of them say yes? It is impossible to receive the benefits of the hype. Lin Qingyan started to resist strongly and gradually accepted it calmly, but sometimes she would think about that person who doesn't know what she is doing now. People, the pain in my heart is slowly tightening like a shrinking lemon.

Later, Le Jiaxuan chatted with her less and less frequently, from dozens of times a day to a dozen times to several times, and even started every other day, and after the next day, it began to become - again every week and occasionally - a few sentences.

Occasionally, when Lin Qingyan wanted to go back to look for Le Jiaxuan after she was done working, she was not found in the chat records of the blockbuster movie.

The company sometimes confiscates the mobile phone, and I don't know if it is there. Others will look at it. In order to ensure that it will not be discovered, Lin Qingyan will not put Le Jiaxuan on the top. But every time, Le Jiaxuan sent a message first, and the frequency of the message was relatively high? Sometimes when you want to chat, you can find it without much effort.

But today, the rare news has not been received.

Not yesterday, maybe not tomorrow.

The last time the two chatted was two months ago. In order to prepare for the concert during this period, Lin Qingyan was so busy that she could barely touch the ground, and later she had to guide the dance moves of the team members. —? I will ask the instructor to arrange a seat later.

When she finally remembered the person who existed behind the scenes, it was as if two months had passed.

She has not been in contact for two months? Has she contacted Le Jiaxuan?

In the past, when Le Jiaxuan sent messages, Lin Qingyan always felt warm. In the past 20 years, she finally got the girl she liked for the first time? The warmth of care, but such a persistent habit, On her side, it gradually became a habit.

She was accustomed to Le Jiaxuan sending her messages, and also getting used to Le Jiaxuan taking the initiative to contact her, and getting used to the other party—everything. Whether it's birthday wishes or special holiday care, she sometimes just laughs off, and when she gets really busy, she forgot to give that condolence message.

Looking at the cold dialog box, the words Lin Qingyan originally wanted to type out were deleted.

There are about two concerts held by Mangypsing every year, but the tour concert only started this year, and it happened to be the second anniversary of their group's establishment.

Last year, if she shared such happiness with Le Jiaxuan - she would definitely get an extremely enthusiastic response, but when she sent it out at this time, Lin Qingyan didn't know what kind of cold news she would get.

Is it a cold "congratulations", a string of faint ellipses, or a tragic joke shared by those people on the Internet-? But it's a bright red exclamation mark?

Lin Qingyan had never thought about it this way before, but before the news was about to be sent out today, she couldn't help but hesitate.

The fingertips were slowly withdrawn from the screen, and only after touching the cool and cool snow falling from the ground, Lin Qingyan looked at the already darkened sky with hindsight.

It turned out that she had stepped out of the stage without knowing it, and after coming off the glamorous stage, they were nothing but ordinary people among the multitude.

It turned out that the two years were really a matter of flicking the finger.

Lin Qingyan is usually busy and rarely has time to hurt the Spring and Autumn. All her emotions, whether positive or negative, are hidden by people with exquisite packaging, and even sometimes they are forgotten? She is still a person with emotions. Gypsophila's debut is a very healing thing for her. Compared with foreigners and domestic teammates, she can get along better. The only regret is that the honor is not available at this time. ? There is a participation with the person who started it.

But after getting along for such a long time, she also understands that Chi Shuangyan is not the person she thought she had no heart and lungs, and the mistakes at that time should not be blamed on this girl. I don't know when, she also started to get acquainted with Chi Shuangyan. Although she is not as close as other teammates, the relationship is obviously not as deadlocked as before.

On the day she went out to dinner with Chi Shuangyan alone, she even thought about whether this was a small betrayal to "teammate Le Jiaxuan".

Mingming held her at the time and said that no matter when she would be replaced by a new teammate, she gradually accepted it? Chi Shuangyan.

She remembered again that after everyone's first large-scale stage performance was a huge success, at the celebration banquet that day, she ran to the rooftop and stood alone on the rooftop?—? After that, Chi Shuangyan also walked out wearing a coat.

"team leader."

Although the two of them appeared to be more intimate than others on the stage, they were just that. At that time, Lin Qingyan was not willing to have any contact with her, and could basically avoid it. Just avoid it, if you can't avoid it, it's all borrowing. This habit is still in use to this day, even if I have a good relationship with Chi Shuangyan, I will maintain a social distance in the future.

Therefore, whenever Chi Shuangyan calls her in private, she always calls her captain respectfully, and has never called her by name.

"Why don't you like me, is it because of Le Jiaxuan?"

Lin Qingyan didn't even think that Chi Shuangyan would be so straight to the point, but before she had time to respond, she saw the girl talking to herself again.

Of course, at that time, every time she said a sentence, it would ignite Lin Qingyan's anger.

"I'm not the royal family you imagined to enter the group. When I entered the reserve group, my ranking was only lower than that of Zhang Tang. If you don't believe me, you can go to the archives to find the unpublished ranking at that time? Look. Le Jiaxuan is gone, Zhang Tang is fifth, and then goes down—the first one is me, that's why I came here."

Chi Shuangyan looked into her eyes.

"Natural and man-made disasters are often unavoidable. I can't predict Le Jiaxuan's sudden car accident, and you know it's even more unlikely that it was my hands and feet. If you want to be with Le Jiaxuan, you must be open and honest- It will ruin your chance to debut now. Or just keep working hard in peace, and announce to the world who you like when you stand on the top of the mountain. Take your anger out on the innocent, Captain You are really doing what a coward would do under the name you like."

At that time, Lin Qingyan was naturally very angry, but after gradually calming down, she had to admit that what she said was very reasonable.

Why did Le Jiaxuan reject her at that time? Of course she also understood that after the excitement over the moment had faded away, the two of them needed more long-term stability together.

Le Jiaxuan is afraid of losing, and she is even more afraid of losing the chance to debut that she finally won again. This relationship is destined to be buried in the ground for a long, long time. Their personalities and personalities are definitely not bumping heads. Breaking blood still has to hit a wall, but he is not willing to give up.

So she began to reduce her contact with Le Jiaxuan subconsciously. While controlling herself, she quietly hoped that the other party would give her more contact, so that she would have that kind of feeling. You can support yourself to work harder.

After at least giving and responding less became a habit, she forgot that people on the other side also needed to ask for it.

A long time ago, when the two of them rarely met and separated, Le Jiaxuan went to pick her up, and Lin Qingyan was in a panic at that time.

But after waiting? A few days later, she quietly went to play again. Lin Qingyan, who never believed in any ghosts or gods, suddenly became a little superstitious at that time. Didn't she have that? Is she so hopeful that the old man with divination can draw something that will strengthen the love between the two of them, so that it is like the destiny of God, so that she can persist more The courage to go down.

But what was drawn in the end was the "unlucky" sign, which made Lin Qingyan sad for a week.

Now that I think about it, where is the ill-fated, it's just that I just don't like it enough and I'm willing to let the other party hurt for myself.