Always You

I was dumbstruck when he caught me staring at him, I didn't realize that I've been staring at him for so long.

"Oh, no… nothing." I stuttered. I'm thinking of a way to reduce the awkwardness but my mind is still blank. Then suddenly I remembered what he said earlier this morning about some interview, I think it's better to start a topic to continue our conversation than to wait for him speak.

"So, how's your interview this morning?" I asked.

"It's great. I'm fortunate enough that my clothes dried fast. How about you? It seems you're alright now, I noticed how sluggish you were earlier." He answered me almost instantly.

"Yeah, my friends and I had fun last night. So it's a punishment for having so much fun." I laughed slightly. I tried to lighten up the mood. I'm not a funny person; I think he doesn't get my joke. I pity myself for trying hard and pouted.

"Well, that explains it. Hangover." Axel said while smiling.

I took a glance at him while i finish my drink and observe him carefully. Well, he's quite attractive and neat. He has a pair of almond shaped eyes, perfect with his dark brown eyes and pinkish lips. He is fair skinned with lean muscles. I think he's hot especially when he is smiling.

I laughed at myself for thinking that way. "My gosh, Ali. Behave!" I scolded myself.

We continue our conversation for quite some time before I realized I stayed longer than expected.

"I should've said goodbye earlier." I thought to myself.

"I got to go, Axel. I didn't realize it's already so late." I said to him.

"Alright, take care Ali." He said.

But before I walked away, Axel asked for my number. I hesitated for a while but in the end, I still gave him my information.

Upon returning home, I took a quick shower and started to organize my presentation for next week. After a while, I decided to go to bed.

When I opened my eyes, I am inside a car driving in the middle of the night. "Huh, why am I here? Where am i?" I frown in confusion. My vision blurred and I felt something wet on my arms.

I looked on my arms and I saw teardrops; instinctively I stretched out my hands to look at it closely. Then, I put my hands on my face. "Tears? Why am I crying?"

I suddenly felt a crushing pain on my chest, it's hard to breath. "Why? What is happening?" I feel terrified by what I am feeling.

I can't help but put my hands on my chest because it feels heavy, it's so painful but I don't understand what is going on. I clutched my clothes to ease the pain but it doesn't help.

Why do I feel broken? Why, why can't I stop myself from crying? Why? I want to scream, I want to let it all out. But there's no sound coming out. Why am I feeling this way?

"Oh, please. Somebody, please tell me what's happening to me?"

I am alone and I feel scared. I am shaking due to the intense pain I am suffering.

I am tired, I feel exhausted. But it's not enough to numb my heart, I still feel the pain. My throat starts tightening up, it feels so dry. My chest feels like on fire, it's difficult to breath. My eyes stings, as the tears starts to fall again; it pricks my heart. Unknowingly, I started wailing and I heard my hoarse voice.

I am distracted by the sudden burst of emotions and I didn't notice I am out of my lane until a car hit me. I was shocked, it didn't occur to me that I might die due to the accident until I bumped on a tree. My mind reacted so slowly and I didn't realize I was already soaking on my blood.

I was jolted awake with a pounding heart, muscles tensed and I gasp a bit for air as if I forgot to breathe.

I feel at loss due to the excessive emotions bubbling inside me. I feel confused and can't help to asked myself, "What was that?"