Americana

I awaken in my bed.

With a note 'you were no use to us.'

I'm home.

They let me go?

Why?

Wait where's Jen?

I get up and throw on the first thing I see.

I jump into my car.

On my way to the hospital I look at my phone and see missed calls from the hospital.

I get out of my car and run into the hospital.

I ask for the room Jen was staying at.

I run to the room but someone else is in there.

He looks at me with that look.

The look that usually means something bad.

He shakes his head.

'Didn't you get my messages? I'm sorry but jenny passed a few days ago..'

'What? no. She has too be here.'

'I'm sorry.'

The tears start to come down my cheeks.

' no. I- I didn't get to say goodbye.'

I lay on the floor utterly cry like there's no tomorrow.

I have no one.

I didn't get to say thank you. For everything she did for me.

For taking care of me while I was sick,

Or when she took me to a mother daughter dance.

Or when dad wasn't there to pick me up from school so she drove 2 hours to get me.

Or when we watched sad movies together and cried a lot.

I didn't get to say thank you..

When I collect myself I stand up.

'Where's her body?'

'Someone already signed for her ashes.'

'Who.'

'His name is Kan.'