Back Then, I Adored You

Before Qin Jiayan left, the relics that left the Soviet Union in the Lin family were taken away.

Back to Gu Yusheng's villa, Qin Jiayan ignored the mother's greetings, and did not respond to the small peanuts rushing to the hug, straight upstairs, locked themselves in the bedroom, began to sort out the relics of Su Qing.

There are a handful of clothes, some that don’t have big brands of cosmetics and jewelry, and an old diary.

The diary book, Qin Jiayan knows that when he and she were together many years ago, two people were selected together at the stationery store opposite the school.

Qin Jiayan turned the light on, leaned on the bed, opened the diary, and caught a picture.

It was his and her high school graduation photo. She stood in front of him. The other classmates had been cut off by her scissors, leaving only her and him.

He thought, this is probably the only one she has collected and she took a photo with her.

Su Qing did not remember the habit of diary, so for more than a decade, he wrote a diary of one-third of the page.

Every diary is written around him, from the beginning of her heart to her, to the description of her after he was with him, and the sadness of his breakup with her, and her thoughts after leaving him.

The last diary was written ten years ago.

All of them are empty pages in the back. Qin Jiayan flipped one by one and turned to the last few pages of the diary. He thought that there would be nothing when he saw two dense words.

It is a letter to look at God.

A letter that I did not intend to send.

"Jia Yan, after waiting for so many years, I finally waited for a reunion with you. Everyone said that all the long-distance reunion is a feeling of regret, but I know that my fate has already been exhausted. See you live. It’s better than I thought. I’m really happy and really happy. But, when I see you standing with you, but the middle is as far away as the whole world, my heart is It’s very sad.”

"Jia Yan, do you know? In the years after I left you, I lived like a corpse every day. Lin’s family still has some skills. I can’t resist it. I can only obey. I am suffering in such a full house. In the middle, you are the only hope that I have supported, because I am imagining that I can meet you one day. God will treat me as thin and satisfy my only wish. I am really satisfied, you don’t know, I am now When I wrote these notes, my lips were raised."

"Jiayan, that night is the happiest moment of my life. Do you believe it? I don't regret it. Even the next day, I will part with you, and I have no regrets. Then you called in the middle of the night. Looking for me, wearing pajamas, telling me, let me go with you, that is the most beautiful and touching words I have heard. Jiayan, in fact, I really want to go with you, but I can’t because Lin’s Our handle. Now you are so beautiful and clean, so love me, how can I make you stained?"

"Jiayan, I heard that you are getting married. I am sad and give you more blessings. You deserve better girls. If you are not perfect, I will stay with you in your world. Destroy the perfect you?"

"If you can, Jiayan, I really want to see your happiness, but I can't hold on. Jiayan, I have been supporting for more than ten years, I am really tired."