Be Fascinated

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Chapter 25

Didn’t she already know about the case in the past, when a woman who was engaged to a Margrave family crossed the border without permission and was raped?

“Since there was no princess, they were thinking of trying to make peace by using the saint. No, if there was a princess, the Empress would never have sent her there.”

“That… how.”

“Unlike you, I come from aristocratic origins, and as soon as I arrived I knew how this place worked.”

Philia was overwhelmed just by being a saint. However, Bianca was different. She took control of this place and knew all the circumstances.

“Then, knowing that, why did you become a saint? If that’s the case, then you too would be a victim of peace.”

“First, I wanted to revive our family. The second is…”

“…….”

“Because I was confident that I would not go as a token of peace.”

Unlike you.

Philia could tell what Bianca was saying behind. She looked at Irik.

“Brother, did you know?”

“That…”

“You said to me that mixing bodies is dirty, priest. Wasn’t it filthy to mix bodies with the barbarians of Kshamil?”

When Bianca had said something like that, she frowned slightly and looked at Irik. What, did everyone know everything except herself? Her position had already been decided, but she was the only one who didn’t know the direction of her life?

What’s more, the savage Kshamil, to become the King’s ‘second wife’. She was told to stay away from men. How could she live as a savage’s wife?

“I was against it. There were also a lot of people who were against the idea of ​​the saint being a token of peace. So did the dead priest.”

“…….”

“I just thought it wouldn’t happen. I have no intention of sending you as a bride.”

However, Irik was not almighty. For example, wasn’t he helpless when she was accused of being fake?

If she was sent to Kshamil as a peacemaker, could he use his power?

No, at least Irik hid the facts from Philia. A feeling of betrayal ran through her body. Claude and Irik were all the same.

“Change your clothes. You’re going to catch a cold.”

Bianca said warmly. But she couldn’t hear Bianca. Philia looked at Claude and Irik with helplessness.

She was pulled away by Bianca’s hand.

At dawn, Philia entered the sanctuary. It was where she found out the entire truth.

To be honest, when Philia prayed, she never felt the presence of God. She mechanically recited the prayers, and she only released her own inner feelings as if complaining.

But today, just for today, she was thinking of pouring it on God.

What kind of existence are you, so that you can make fun of me like this? What a great being you are to make me like this!

Of course, the only clothes in the temple were holy clothes, and Philia was deceptively wearing the holy clothes worn by the saints.

Even though she’s fake.

Philia sat down in front of the statue familiarly. There was still holy water poured down by beautiful angels, and in the midst of it, Saint Ziklande was praying while looking up at the sky.

As she saw Ziklande, who represented human beings, Philia put her hands together and prayed. There was no prayer this time. It was just a mumble in her head.

Why, why did you make me like this?

God, what do you want?

What, what do you want me to do?

Philia could claim that Bianca was a fake. It would be difficult to beat the smart Bianca, but even if she won, what would that change?

In the first place, she didn’t have the personality to rush and ruin everything. All she could do was pour out her resentment while clasping her hands together.

She didn’t know how to get angry. She didn’t even know how to be sad. In the first place, what had she been living for?

When she heard that the oracle was broken, she thought it was something that was inevitable.

Who would have known that the oracle was wrong? It was something she felt forlorn about, but she accepted it.

But what was this? It was a deliberate deception from the beginning. Besides, she was destined to be sold later.

Did others know? She raised her head with a tear-soaked face. Then Philia was startled. Claude was standing in front of her.

As if, as if he was God himself.

Philia lowered her hands, which she had clasped together, and looked at Claude.

“I wondered how long you would pray like that.”

“If you already know, why do you continue to be kind to me? Were you just toying with me?”

“No. I didn’t even think about making fun of you. I do respect you.”

“Is that a way of respect? You killed the priest and got me kicked out for you to pick up?”

“What’s bad about it? Didn’t that priest also deceive you?”

“You, what is wrong with you?!”

Philia exclaimed. She got up. Tears fell again from her eyes.

“Philia.”

“Stay away from me!”

Philia exclaimed. Claude withdrew his outstretched hand.

“It was all your plan, wasn’t it?! Everything! You made it all up to satiate your petty possessiveness.”

“So, did you want to get married to Kshamil?”

“There was another way! Not that way…”

“Why use another method other than the easiest way to have the person I want be right next to me?”

“Ha…”

“Why would I need to use any other roundabout method.”

Philia could see this man’s mess. Claude’s mad obsession was visible. Nothing was scary anymore. Whether Irik died or not, it was not her business.

“You could have told me everything from the beginning.”

“Would you have believed me then?”

“Even if I didn’t believe it, you could have at least done that out of respect for me.”

“…….”

“Even if a saint was mistreated by everyone, you should have told me about that!”

Philia exclaimed. Seeing Claude’s face, she couldn’t stand wanting to say something mean to him. Philia cursed for the first time, and shouted.

“You, you’re just greedy for me. I’m different from other women… Because I was a woman you couldn’t reach. You greedy devil!”

“I can’t deny it.”

“I am just the rarest for you to collect!”

“…….”

“You were the one who killed the priest. You killed my family too. You were the one who made Logan give me the drug. You are the devil, the devil!”

Despite Philia’s accusation, Claude didn’t say anything. Is her anger something fun to see for him? After all, no one would be afraid of the growling of an animal they were raising. It’s just that the sassy appearance was cute and lovely, and that was all.

“You disgust me, I despise you, I hate you!”

Philia screamed harsh words at him. As if to vomit out all her emotions, she gasped for breath as she screamed. Her chest was pounding.

Tears welled up again in Philia’s eyes. Claude didn’t say anything. It was when she raised her head in silence.

“…….”

“…….”

Claude’s face was what Philia saw, and she couldn’t say anything. She only doubted her own eyes.

Tears flowed down his eyes.

Tears? Tears? He looked at Philia with the face of a wounded and helpless child.

“I… I disgust you?”

“…….”

“You despise me, you hate me?”

“…….”

“I killed your family and gave you the drug?”

Claude burst out laughing. But it was definitely tears that flowed over his cheeks. Like those tears that flowed from Philia’s eyes. Philia’s heart sank at that sad scene.

Wasn’t it his intention to kill her family and give her the drug…?

“Philia, I didn’t do anything like that.”

Is your head crazy? Have you already lost your mind? Why was it that you were shocked to see that? Why are you feeling sorry? No. He was the one who played with her, wasn’t he?

Claude’s madness stopped. He smiled and looked at her, Philia.

“Yes, you’re the devil’s rarest trophy.”

“…….”

Claude’s reddish-brown eyes gleamed and gleamed. Warning bells echoed in Philia’s head. But Claude was quick. Claude grabbed her wrist.

“The devil must do evil things.”

“Let me go!”

“What’s wrong, saint? Aren’t you a pitiful being captured by the devil?”

“Claude, please…!”

Claude embraced her. She struggled, but she couldn’t escape. Philia wept.

“You are beautiful in colored clothes, but you are also beautiful in these types of robes.”

“…….”

“It’s fun to mess you up… Philia, you said you wanted something like this, right?”

“…….”

“You are not interested in me. You’re the only one. You’re weak and I’m afraid you’d collapse, but as I fall silent, I become someone who doesn’t care.”

“Claude.”

Philia widened her eyes. Claude was muttering like crazy. His voice had a hint of sorrow.

“You think of me as a bad guy, yes, I am a bad guy. I don’t really know what that delicate feeling is. I was just hoping to understand a little bit because you let me know.”

“…….”

“I threw everything away for the marriage you wanted.”

“…….”

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