Bestfriend With Benefits

"Ryan?"

Everything is blurry. I blinked my eyes slowly as I saw a woman with long dark hair approaching me. She's crawling slowly above me, I was on the bed and froze couldn't move a hand, she holds my cheek with her warm palm. "Tiere?" she looks very pretty and hot at the same time. Her dark brown eyes gazing mine. She looked at me deeply in the eyes, leaning her head forward to press my lips, as her lips meet mine, the world melted away. My heart begins to pound, then it became faster and faster. I can hear it loud from my ears, it is killing my chest slowly. "Kiss me.. I want it so badly" she whispered. Her lips are soft and moist and hot and breathy, not trying to win a battle but seeking union and closeness and the sharing of one breath, one sensation, one timeless and passionate moment. Her fingers touched my neck and her hair is sweeping my face which nearly gave me the chills.

DDRRTTT...DRRRTT...

My face crinkled with sleep as the morning light caught my eyes through the open curtains. I reached my alarm to push them off, sit straight and slapped my forehead for several times.

"this is a disaster" I moaned in desperation.

I did enjoy our kiss yesterday, but regret it so much. I don't want to hurt or take any advantages from our friendship. Does Tiere remember that? Or no? I don't know. I rose from my bed to take a glass of water. Then, there's a pinged of my phone as I gulped. I walk back to my bed to reach my phone.

It's Tiere again.

"Hey" she texted.

"Hey" I text back. "How are you? Feeling better? You are wasted last night" right Ryan, try to look as normal as you can. Maybe Tiere didn't remember anything about last night, it's better that way.

ping ping

"Where do you live?"

Eh? Tiere is asking where do I live? Does she remember everything? OH NO THIS IS BAD. This is really bad.

Let's try to remain calm. "Swiss Living, 003" I typed.

"Okay, on my way" pinged as it replied.

Wait, Is she really coming here?

I took a bath immediately, trying to keep all my private stuffs like my underwear and else inside the drawer.

DING DONG

My biggest fear creeping inside me, I feel my adrenaline floods inside my blood, pulsing through my veins. What if she really remember everything about last night? I keep on concerning about the kiss, which is a big disaster to me. Tiere must be really pissed off, damn.

I should have to push her back when she tried to kiss me, she was so drunk, Ryan. You are the guilty ones.

I tried to stay calm, I took a deep breath and walk towards the door, peeping through the peephole as I can see her standing there waiting for me with a brown plastic bag of something. I clicked the door open, then she jumped over me, hugging me real tight. I don't usually get freak out when she hug me cause we used to be like that, but this is extremely awkward since the kiss she gave me last night. I must be rotten because I never date a girl until now, how pathetic.

"RYAN!" she exclaimed. She looks happier than ever, like just won a lottery. Is something good happen to her? But I don't want to ask her because as long as she is okay, means she has moved on, and she must be clearly happy right now. She let herself in, observing the surroundings of my penthouse.

"Whoaa this is so big" she said. "You live alone in this big apartment?"

"It's a penthouse..." I corrected her.

She clicked her tongue and hissed "Show off"

I followed her down to the hallway to the minimalist kitchen, she dropped the plastic of something on the countertop.

"You know. Since you accompanied me last night, I should have to treat you.. but you know.." she exhales a deep harsh breath, catching a glimpse on me.

"it is just bad. Cause I just resigned from the Sugar company so I have to keep my money and my savings balance.." she added.

She lifted her finger "But, you need to remember that I'm just okay. When my parents divorced, I asked them for a big amount of money. I told them, it's okay if they want to get married again. Give me the money and I will stay away from their life forever!" she gestured.

"I don't give a fck man" she shrugged. "then they gave me a big amount of money. Half for the apartment, half for my own savings and deposits, so at least I could get the interests from the bank. And then I work out myself like a bitch" her hands are busy rummaging the plastic, pulled out a box of instant spaghetti, and a bottle of milk.

She passed the milk to me. "Here.."

"Gonna cook something for you as a thankyou" she smiles.

"You just need to wait cause I don't need any help"

I walked backwards and sat down on the dining table, watching her cook. She is very clumsy and ..cute sometimes. She is different with the old Tiere, I mean her appearance. She will kill every guy with a glace, Caroline's beauty is almost beaten by her. Puberty changed her a lot, I'm surprised.

"So.. how about your thesis?" she take a glance on me, while I busy day –dreaming about things.

I shrugged my shoulders "Almost done"

"then how about yours?" I asked.

"I took a diploma for interior designs. That's why I quit the fcking sugar company"

"Graduated?"

"HAH! Of course.. the certificates are safe inside my apartment" she hissed and chuckled.

"I registered myself for some online jobs. I have one, and it's still in progress. Quiet big amount of

money" she clicked the stove on, start boiling the water.

"what are you going to do after graduation?" she asked.

"targeting the gaming company by the beach. We only need to work half a day, like 8 in the morning until 2 in the afternoon"

"Whoah. Good ones. Not gonna try to make your own game?"

"I will.. but I need practical experience though before I really make my own"

"I see.. "

"then.. how about Caroline?" she made another question.

Talking about Caroline, she is always single all the time and now she is one of my closest friend in the university.

"We are still friends"

Tiere won't say anything about Caroline, besides she admitted that she isn't that expert in love life, which is actually the same tragic as mine. Come to think of Caroline, I haven't talk to her since we finished our class, she doesn't even ask me out. Or maybe

she is busy with her own thesis? Well, I haven't date a girl until today, I want to date her so bad since grade school. But I ever kiss a woman...wait...

My brain cracked, I feel like something breaking inside my head. I JUST KISSED TIERE YESTERDAY!

I pound my forehead, pushing away the vivid memory of me kissing my own best friend, and it was my first kiss... damn!

She looked at my face, which suddenly felt like it's made of stone, "Ryan?" Tiere narrowed her eyes, "Are you okay?" quirking an eyebrow.

"Ah...I am fine" I give her a thin smile. I have to remain calm. She doesn't remember anything.

The not so pretty spaghetti served on the table. I laughed so hard at her cook and she pouted "at least I tried my best!"

She sat down in front of me and start eating.

"So.. you never talked to Caroline anymore? About your confessions?"

I shook my head as I put a fork –full of spaghetti inside my mouth "I did, about last year. But she changed the topic. She treats me very well I don't know why she didn't accept my confessions"

Tiere eats a quick bite of the fork –full spaghetti, chewing as she thought "you guys.. ever go on a date?" she lifts her eyebrow, looking suspicious.

"Often. Quiet often. Mostly she is the one that ask me out, cause if I did the first she will never say yes. She has a lot of excuses to reject me"

She took a deep breath, put her forks down on the plate. Then she rests her chin on her palm, looking at me

"Do you think Caroline like you?"

I shrugged my shoulders. The way Caroline treats me sometimes is like more than friend whenever we go on a date. "She cares, cook for me. Is that a prove?"

"I don't know.." Tiere continues her spaghetti.

We finished our brunch. Tiere's just walking here and there looking through my things. She likes to go through people's stuffs. I was lucky that I kept all my underwear in the right place.

When she is tired, she sat down on the edge of my bed. I stood in front of her, watching her face, her beauty makes my heart beats faster, but a flash of vivid memory about last night threatened me a lot, I threw my gaze away trying to do something else so the kissing scene will stop appearing in my head, then she held my arm to stop me.

"Ryan" she lifted her head to catch my eyes, I froze. "You must be thinking I forget those things" she grinned.

My heart's pumping faster. I feel tight in my chest plus an extremely dizzy in the head, then I broke out in a cold sweat of fear. F*ck I'm screwed. I'm really really screwed. This is the end of my life.

SHE REMEMBER?!

I have to remain calm, "What do you mean?" but pretty sure my expressions do differently, I failed masking my own anxiety. She pointed her lips and smirked then she narrowed her eyes.

"You must be thinking I was drunk and don't remember anything, do you?"

"You know what Ryan?" she cut me off. She stood up catching my gaze, then tip her toes to reach my face. She leaned her head forward like we are about to kiss again "Tiere..." I try to stop her, but she moves closer to me, pressing herself against my body. "Shut up" she whispered, her lips are getting closer to mine, my heart skips a beat, it beats so strong I think my chest will burst. Why is this keep happening to me? She gives me an intense eye contact, with slighty parted lips. My body froze. This is going to happen.... again..

Then in a moment she stopped... she sat back on the bed and start snorting a laugh. "I was just teasing you".

Damn, that was close! I almost had a heart attack. I feel relieved, the tightness in my chest has gone, I finally can breath properly. "Sorry Tiere" I sound pathetically disappointing, and guilt made my stomach spasm. I move and sit beside her on the bed.

"You never date, do you?" she asked, hasn't stop laughing. The kiss keeps on bubbling inside my head. My face warmed with embarrassment. I can barely look at her anymore. This is so humiliating and very disturbing.

I nod my head slowly. "I am a guy... Tiere" I tilted my head towards her. "I am a guy... and I .."

She smiles, nodding her head excitedly. "Wanna fake date?" she cut me off. I'm startling by that, I look at her with jaw hanging open. "Are you insane Tiere?" I huffed.

"I think I am. But I want to move on. Please help me. Please..please.." she said, begging for help. "Plus. I think Caroline might freak out. If she does love you, she will be so pissed off, at least we know the answer. And my ex –boyfriend would eat his own shits too, cause he chose to give up on me. We both have our own benefits. That's how we get use this situation. To freak everyone out" she added.

What? Tiere? That sounds childish! I shook my head, "No Tiere, that's too childish"

She caught my eyes, detecting my unsteady words. "Are you sure you don't want the answer? You sure you don't want to see her expressions?"