This thing about me becoming a girl

She doesn't care about going to Shanmu, she doesn't even have any hatred at all, and she doesn't want revenge, as long as she can be with the crow, she doesn't care about anything.

Of course Bei Dao Crow knew this, and she also knew what she meant by saying that she would protect the little crow.

To bear everything alone, no matter what it is, he gritted his teeth and endured it. The side he showed to Bei Daoya was always a smile.

Mom is not cowardly, not at all cowardly, she is strong.

Knowing this and knowing how Bei Dao Jiu will protect himself, Bei Dao Crow must go tonight.

To end the source of her need to protect herself in this way.

She didn't blame Bei Daojiu for coming out to stop everything when everything was about to end.

Because if it was her, Bei Daojiu wanted to do this kind of thing, then she would also stop her, and even act more aggressively.

Mom is just doing what she always does to protect herself.

Nor can she bear the consequences of any possibility that she will be in danger.

Mom just wants to protect herself.

Bei Daoya can also guess who sent the text message to Bei Daojiu.

During this period of time, the news about this kind of thing will be sent to Bei Daojiu, and only Shang Shanmu will be sent.

Perhaps it was threatening her, or it might say that it would kill her, or it might be a warning.

But mom doesn't care about this, even if Shang Shanmu said that if she let herself out, she would kill herself, but mom doesn't care about this.

Even if Shang Shanmu really wanted to kill her, she didn't care.

All she cares about is whether she is really in danger.

Mom doesn't know what's going on or what's going to happen, she's just worried about herself.

She won't let herself go, but she will definitely go.

Bei Dao Ya tenderly touched the face of the person in front of him, and said softly.

"Don't worry, Mom, Little Crow is just going to put an end to this established result, nothing will happen.

As I said before, the little crow will protect her mother, so anyone who hurts her mother, I will make him suffer a price far beyond that. "

Hearing that, Bei Daojiu held Bei Daoya's hand anxiously, as if explaining.

"No, mom hasn't been hurt in any way, and mom doesn't hate Shang Shan at all, so Xiaoya shouldn't do this kind of thing for mom, don't take risks, don't leave mom alone."

Looking at Bei Daojiu's weak expression as if he was afraid of something, Bei Daoya said.

"Mom is still so gentle, she has always been gentle, and the little crow has always been protected by this gentleness, and because of this, Shangshan deserves to die.

Just thinking of him, Xiaoya will feel the heart-pounding torture and murderous intent, from the moment he trampled on his mother's gentleness and regarded it as cowardly, he must die. "

Hearing that Bei Daojiu panted heavily, he said something wrong while shaking his head in a panic to explain.

"My mother really didn't hate Shangshan, and she was never hurt by him. On the contrary, she was very grateful to him for letting the angelic crow come to her. Mom really never minded anything. "

"But I don't mind." Bei Dao Ya said expressionlessly.

Bei Daojiu was taken aback when he saw this, and then said in a tone that he couldn't believe.

"Shang Shanmu hasn't actually done anything, right? It's like she's never beaten Little Crow, which means she still has a place for Little Crow in his heart, right?"

Her eyes were floating around, sweat began to sweat on her forehead, and she was in an abnormal state.

She was already extremely flustered, and even started to use these lame reasons to make Bei Dao Ya give up the idea of ​​going out tonight.

She has no feelings for Shangshan, only fear.

But in her eyes, the little crow is like an angel, beautiful and pure, a gift from God and her only one.

So she didn't want the little crow's hands to be stained with blood because of her own reasons.

Bei Daojiu doesn't care about Shangshan, it's best for her that Shangshan doesn't appear in her life with Xiaoya, but she doesn't want Xiaoya to be the one who kills her.

Anyway, that man is Xiaoya's father, she doesn't want Xiaoya to suffer this crime because of herself, and she doesn't want Xiaoya to take risks.

She was in a very abnormal state, and she didn't know what she thought of, so she said in surprise with her red eyes.

"Yes, Little Crow, we can leave this city, go far away, never come back, go to a place where no one can find us, and live together, okay?"

There was water in her eyes, and she looked at Bei Dao Ya with great anticipation and eagerness, as if she had been promised that she would be ready to leave the city in the next second.

Bei Dao Crow can understand Bei Dao Jiu's inner anxiety.

She knew how much she was afraid of Uesugi as a demon, so knowing that her daughter was going to face up to this fear for her, she was extremely disturbed.

Bei Daojiu felt that it was all his fault, and it was because of him that Xiao Ya took the risk.

Bei Dao Crow said softly.

"Mom, this is our home, I grew up here, and my mother watched me grow up here, leaving too many precious memories for us.

Maybe one day we will leave here, but definitely not because of that man. "

Looking at Bei Dao Crow's resolute appearance, thinking of Xiao Ya going to take risks, thinking that he would not know anything in the process, and thinking of what happened to Xiao Ya, even if it was only a very small possibility, almost made Bei Daojiu asphyxia.

Her chest was heaving violently, and she was in an abnormal state. In fact, her nerves, which had always been fragile and had never been repaired, became more sensitive and anxious.

Seeing her like this, Bei Dao Crow looked calm, but his heart was twitching.

This is what mother must face, otherwise even if Shang Shanmu dies, mother will not get any change.

Bei Daojiu dressed roughly for a while, and seemed to suddenly think of something, so she stood up quickly, took Bei Daoya's hand, and prepared to walk towards the storage room.

Her complexion was pale, sweat was constantly breaking out on her forehead, and her once pure eyes were full of helplessness.

"Little Crow, go to the storage room with mom, it will be fine soon, it's safe inside."

When she was helpless and afraid, she remembered the only place in her childhood that could provide her with protection and lick her wounds.

Hearing that Bei Dao Ya stopped in her tracks, no matter how Bei Dao Jiu pulled her, she didn't move a single bit.

"Little Crow..." Bei Daojiu turned around, begging with eyes.

Bei Daoya looked at her with gentle eyes, but he said an extremely cruel fact.

"Mom, do you know that you have always been worried about my phobia, because you also suffer from it, so you know all the more about the torment this mental illness can cause to people.

Mom didn't want me to go through the same pain as you, so I always wanted to know what was the source of my phobia, wanted to heal me, wanted to protect me. "

Bei Daoya said this, with a soft voice, Bei Daojiu seemed to realize something, the hand holding her dropped suddenly, and his eyes seemed to lose their vitality suddenly.

"But mother, do you know that what I fear is the storage room. Every time I hide in it, I listen to the beating and scolding outside, and my mother's painful sobbing, and feel the narrow and dark environment around me. Everything, I can't breathe and I'm on the verge of collapse."

Hearing that Bei Daojiu's lips were trembling slightly, he opened his mouth to say something, but he seemed to have lost his voice, unable to say anything.

Ah... so... I was the one who hurt the crow all the time...

Her eyes seemed to lose their luster, and tears finally flowed out. Maybe it was the hatred for herself, or maybe it was the fact that she hurt the crow, which made her psychological defense collapse.

Looking at this scene, Bei Dao Crow felt no less pain than Bei Dao Jiu. Under the skin covered by the clothes, the veins surged unstoppably.

The throbbing inside made it hard for her to breathe, but she had to say it.

If mom doesn't know about this incident tonight, then Beidaoya can always be like this, keeping mom from knowing anything and protecting her forever.

But when Bei Daojiu knew, she couldn't be kept ignorant, and she couldn't get out for the rest of her life.

Although the current situation caused her only a lot of damage, Bei Dao Ya could only endure the pain.

Afterwards, she will do everything possible to heal her mother, and the most important thing now is to kill that bastard.

The bastard is not dead, and the mother has no happiness at all.

Bei Dao Crow held back the pain until his lips were already convulsed, and said calmly.

"Little Crow has never blamed Mom. It's not Mom's fault. Mom just provided Xiaoya with the safest place. Even Mom herself will not compete with Xiaoya for this safe position, just to protect little crow.

But it was only because of the existence of Shangshan that this place, which was originally the safest, deteriorated. "

Speaking of this, combined with Bei Daojiu's appearance, Bei Daoya finally couldn't restrain his emotions, and bloodshot eyes spread in his eyes.

"As long as that bastard doesn't die, mom won't be happy, and the storage room won't be safe."

She stepped forward and hugged Bei Daojiu in her arms, and said while holding back the pain in her heart.

"Mom, wait for me to come back."

After she finished speaking, she turned and left, and after hearing this word, Bei Dao Jiu seemed to have finally come to her senses, subconsciously took a step forward, but fell to her knees on the ground because her legs were weak.

Her haggard, broken face was stained with tears, pleading.

"Don't...leave me...Little Crow."

The helplessness and sadness that Bei Daojiu showed at that moment made the pain Bei Daoya endured indescribable.

If I leave now, maybe my mother will return to the look of losing her smile, or maybe there will be a huge rift between the two, and my mother will be greatly hurt.

But Shang Shanmu's survival is the greatest injustice to my mother.

She clenched her fists, Mom, I will use my whole life to make up for the harm I caused you this time, and wait for me to come back.

She opened the door, tried her best to hide the abnormality and physical weakness, and said to many men in suits outside the door.

"My mother, please."

Hearing that many bodyguards in suits nodded: "Hey, we will protect Master Bei Dao's mother."

Kitajima Crow left the apartment and took Kamijou Xing's vehicle.

In the apartment, Bei Daojiu knelt on the ground, holding his head in his hands, and buried his head between his knees.

She never hated anyone, whether it was her father in her childhood, Uesugi she met when she first entered society, or other people who hurt her.

She just hated her incompetence.

Just like this time, my incompetent self failed to guard the happiness with the little crow.

crow...

She was crying, her voice sad and helpless.

She broke down.

184. The Two Who Need to Be Saved