This thing about me becoming a girl

"Why do you think you did something wrong, or rather, where did you go wrong?"

Sawamura Mari Aoi hesitated again, and Kitajima Crow's few words disturbed her.

She wanted to say that she couldn't stop it in advance, but it seemed that she never knew these things at all, so how could she stop them.

Eventually she wrote: "I shouldn't have given that call to my grandfather, or this wouldn't have happened."

Bei Daoya also knew what the phone call she was talking about was. After the matter was over, Miss Zhongju told her everything.

She spoke in a somewhat cold tone.

"But if you don't hand over the phone to your grandfather, I will kill your father without any effort, and you will still be kept in the dark, and you will eventually regard me as the enemy who killed your father. Maybe one day you will know When the truth came out, I had already died under your knife.

Will this result be better? "

"Hmm..." Mari Aoi Sawamura's throat was choked up, no, this is wrong, she felt that Bei Dao-san was deliberately leading herself to an incorrect direction, she wanted to refute, but she didn't know how to refute.

Bei Dao Ya just looked at her calmly. This young girl was perhaps the easiest type of person she had ever met.

Bei Daoya saw her through, and naturally knew what she was thinking, what was worrying her, and what answer she was looking for.

She actually knew it herself, but maybe she was still hiding in the corner of her consciousness and didn't find it, or she didn't want to find it.

she said.

"In your eyes, what kind of person is Shang Shanmu? Have you ever considered it?"

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Sawamura Mari Aoi was still thinking about how to refute the previous question, and Kitajima Crow threw out a new question.

"In your mind, what kind of person is Shang Shanmu?"

Bei Daoya used an extremely light tone, as if he was talking about something that had nothing to do with him, although it was true.

Sawamura Mari Aoi thought of a series of beautiful words such as gentleness, calmness, justice, and kindness to describe Uesugi.

But in the next moment, she thought of what happened to Bei Dao's mother and daughter, and the facts described by Aunt Isuzu, as if the beautiful appearance was torn apart, revealing the bloody flesh. The skin and flesh are also real.

Although Mariko Sawamura had a language barrier, she still felt the words stuck in her throat. She didn't know whether to say the father in memory or the father outside of memory.

She also doesn't know which is real.

The more Sawamura Mari Aoi thought about it, the more she felt that she had never gotten to know her real father.

The way the two get along determines the gap in the middle. They have never had a real heart-to-heart conversation, and they are not like father and daughter at all.

This also led to the lack of protection, love, and even more emotion in the childhood of Mari Aoi Sawamura... It was as if he had set what kind of person an ideal father should be on Uesugi, and wishful thinking that it was in this way.

And it turns out that's not the case.

After the incident happened, Mariko Sawamura realized that she never knew her father at all. She didn't know why he framed Mr. Sakano, why he bullied Bei Dao and her mother, why he had to betray the family, and why He's...so obsessed with power.

She didn't understand all of this.

The gentle voice of Shangshan in the past is still in front of my eyes, which is real, and the disaster he caused to others is also real.

So she couldn't answer Bei Dao Ya's question because she didn't understand it.

Bei Dao Ya looked at her who was silent, and said nothing.

It is always difficult for gentle and correct people to survive in this world, because this world is neither gentle nor correct. If you want to survive, you must give up something. This is the truth and the rule.

Pure and clean people are difficult to be compatible with, although in the concept of rightness and justice, they have done nothing wrong, but they are also regarded as stupid.

This is not the case with Sawamura Mari Aoi. She is naive and stubborn, but she is also cowardly and timid, and she is not correct.

She is not someone who goes on a rampage for her ideals and is unwilling to compromise, but she is not someone who is easily assimilated by society when encountering setbacks.

She was just caught in the middle, ordinary people who could be on either side.

because she is not enough

Under the dazzling appearance, there is such a dazed soul.

She said she had been thinking about it for more than two months, but in fact she didn't know what she was thinking, she was just escaping, she didn't want to face it, and she didn't want to face it, so she just procrastinated, comforted herself, and let what had already happened Don't collapse the crumbling scaffolding that makes you up.

It is said that it was more than two months of shutting up and thinking, but in fact, she was just at a loss.

Lost justice, lost correctness, no longer want to hold a knife, and have no friends. No matter what kind of intentions she once had, Shang Shanmu, who once enlightened and led her in confusion, is no longer there.

Sawamura Mari Aoi suddenly felt that everything was lost...she didn't know what to do.

Because she doesn't have a specific goal that she wants to achieve.

So also cowardly, love to escape, not perfect, with many flaws.

But it cannot be denied that her tenderness and kindness are pure, but often this word also represents weakness and inability to control one's own destiny.

Kitajima Crow looked at Mari Aoi Sawamura, who was hesitant and troubled, but expressionless and less intelligent, just talking.

"Actually, that incident has nothing to do with you, so it's just embarrassing for me to feel guilty, but I accept the apology, and thank you for the gift you handed over. I will thank Mr. Morishita when the time comes."

After finishing speaking, Bei Dao Ya smiled calmly: "That's it, I'll take my leave first."

After that, she turned around and walked towards the front of the path.

Although what Sawamura Mariko said was meaningless, at least Kitajima Crow knew the attitude of the Sawamura family.

Sawamura Mari Aoi came on behalf of her own consciousness, and there is no shadow of the Sawamura family behind her.

But of course, how could Sawamura care about these things?

They didn't care whether Shangshan was dead, nor did they care about Bei Dao Jiu or Bei Dao Ya, maybe this matter had never entered their eyes, and they were slightly disdainful, maybe they had forgotten who Bei Dao Jiu was.

Knowing this was enough, Bei Daoya didn't look back, his back looked thin, and he left straight away.

Sawamura Mari Aoi looked at her back, a little frustrated.

She is not stupid, since Aunt Isuzu can tell herself what her father has done these years, it means that even if she only found out about it recently, someone must have known about it long ago.

But she couldn't understand why the man didn't stop.

I didn't know how to face Bei Dao Ya before, even now, but since I faced it, I couldn't escape it.

She began to face up to this problem, in order to give Bei Dao an explanation.

She will never apologize in the future, because the apology is to ask for forgiveness, and what Uesugi did cannot be forgiven, so Sawamura Mariko can only make atonement.

It's just that she still seems to be an empty shell with nothing, no goal, no direction, just doing what should be done.

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The sky has gradually dimmed, and the festival street is still very lively and noisy.

Next to a crowded festival street, there is a temporary izakaya with a small space, only five seats in front of the bar, and there are only two employees in the store.

"The grilled platter for the two of you is here! Please use it slowly!"

The shop owner with a kind face put the sizzling grilled platter in front of the two of them, and said again.

"Need a beer?"

Uranaki Wanhua took his eyes off the skewers upon hearing this.

"Just give me a Coke, how about you?"

Hearing this, Sawamura Isuzu nodded, and then gave her a cold look, as if saying that an izakaya without beer has no soul at all.

Li Yuanmu Wanhua just said: "Mr. Boss~ Remember to add more ice to the Coke."

She didn't come here for beer in the first place, but she was obsessed with the appetizers in izakaya recently, so she tried to hang out in various taverns in the city.

Soon, large glasses of beer and Coke were served, and Li Yuanmu Wanhua took a sip and breathed out, obviously very satisfied.

And Sawamura Isuzu didn't show any restraint, and picked up the skewers in a dignified and cold manner.

The two have known each other for a long time. They happened to meet on the festival street before, so they wanted to go to the izakaya together.

It's hard to imagine that the two important people in the family who were almost killed before and who have always had serious conflicts can do this together peacefully, and with the status of Sawamura Isuzu, they absolutely know that Saharaki Wanhua planned.

Sawamura Isuzu said coldly and unceremoniously while twirling Uraaki Wanhua's skewers.

"You should be in a very dangerous situation now, after all, the battle for the crown prince of Baihechuan is about to begin, and the quickest way to stand out, of course, is to start with the previous crown prince.

It's fine to idle around like this and suddenly die suddenly. If the situation is so close, maybe it will be treated as a plaything and you can't die if you want to die. I don't think that the younger generation of your family is a good thing at the moment, and has bad intentions. "

Hearing this, Yuan Mu Wanhua was not angry either, and was still grinning with his chin on his hands.

"Isn't that good? Find a backer, eat and drink all day and wait to die."

Sawamura Isuzu just raised his eyebrows and said sarcastically.

"I'm afraid it's not as simple as confinement, does rbq know? It's shared by multiple people."

What kind of tiger-wolf words at this time, it is particularly contrasting to say such words with a cold expression.

Li Yuanmu Wanhua smiled lazily while holding his chin.

"Hold on~ Don't break other people's fantasies so ruthlessly."

Regarding this, Sawamura Isuzu just put the beer into his mouth, and after a moment of silence, he said slowly.

"Why did you change your mind in the end?"

Li Yuanmu Wanhua looked at her after hearing the words.

She knew what this sentence was asking. It stands to reason that Sawamura Isuzu's position should not be asking these questions, even sitting together to eat is a taboo.

But Uriharagi Wanhua knew what she was looking forward to.

"Isn't this good? It's safe and sound, and no one's interests are harmed. Well, except for Jishuji, it has been suppressed by the joint efforts of Baihechuan and Sawamura during this period."

She said this with a gloating smile, and then said again.

"In short, the result is very good. If it really goes smoothly, then we won't be sitting here like this at this time."

Hearing that Sawamura Isuzu took a sip of beer, he said again.

"I'm just curious about what made a heartless and heartless woman like you change her decision, and she didn't hesitate to fall into this situation."

Li Yuanmu Wanhua ate the skewers, with something in his mouth, he said vaguely not too concerned.

"Don't think I'm so ruthless. I've saved a whole boat. It's okay if I suddenly soften my heart."

Just after she finished speaking, she waved to the bar again: "Mr. Boss! It's delicious! Please have another one!"