This thing about me becoming a girl

It's me who broke the... balance of this family.

Ah...Thinking about it this way, all the previous doubts have been answered.

It wasn't the first time what happened that night.

How can anyone fall down the stairs four times a month...I didn't know it was because of milk...

I never woke up in the middle of the night... I woke up that night because I didn't drink that glass of milk...

Every night, every night, every night, the milk that I drank before going to bed... my mother personally brought it over and supervised the milk that I drank.

Does it help sleep...and the mother's happy smile can't be faked, she really felt that her previous life...was very happy, but these days, she collapsed and haggard.

Mom didn't want to let herself know, she did it voluntarily...no one coerced her.

The construction site that does not exist near her home is just an excuse for her to go to bed early.

Everything...there were already signs.

It was me... rashly breaking the happiness that my mother carefully maintained.

But... But my mother was really hurt, I just did something that didn't want my mother to be hurt...

What Keli Yuanmu Wanhua has to admit is that the current mother has obviously fallen into despair and suffered even greater trauma.

But once, every smile of hers was gentle.

Really...really, is it my fault?

Urihara Mu Wanhua didn't understand why her mother was willing to let this happen, she didn't understand why her parents, who were happy during the day, would look like that at night, and she didn't understand why she had to hide it if there was any special reason look at yourself.

She doesn't understand, understands nothing.

But it is undeniable that everything points to what she thought was the right thing, but drove her mother to a dead end and destroyed the family.

Could it be that I did something wrong...?

Looking not far away, my heart is ashamed, as if Urahara Mujiu is about to wither at any moment...

Uriharagi Wanhua could no longer say that he just didn't want his mother to be hurt...

It was obviously not the first time that what happened that night happened. Maybe every time my mother told herself that she fell down the stairs, it was because of this kind of thing.

But father and mother can still get along so harmoniously during the day, and the love in mother's eyes cannot be faked...

As I said before, Mom really loves Dad very much.

This...maybe it's the way Mom has been carefully maintaining her relationship with Dad, protecting the family.

No matter what the reason was, it was in this way that this family was as happy as Uriharamu Wanhua had seen it in the past.

But I...broke this tacit understanding and caused all this to happen.

After sorting out all his thoughts, Uriharamu Wanhua lowered his head and looked at his trembling, pale palms covered with rain.

She is too young, in fact, she doesn't understand anything at all, and her serious tone when communicating with adults is actually memorized from watching TV dramas often.

There is no such thing as precocity, no such thing as cleverness, it is because she insists on herself like this, she just wants to be a child who will not cause trouble to her mother.

From the beginning to the end, I was just afraid that if I was not sensible, then my mother might think that adopting me was a wrong choice.

It is precisely because I am afraid of these things that I force myself to be excellent, to become a child who makes my mother proud and my neighbors praise me.

In this way... Mom will feel that adopting herself is right, so she won't experience being abandoned again, right?

The real she is just a low self-esteem, timid, cowardly, gloomy, without any shining point, ordinary to worthless character, which is why no one cares about her in the orphanage for more than a year.

She worked very hard, trying very hard to maintain her current happiness.

But...it was still destroyed by my own hands, no matter whether my father was wrong or not, but I destroyed such happiness and forced my mother to such a dead end...it is an undeniable fact.

I really did something wrong...

Li Yuanmu Wanhua seemed to have disappeared suddenly, and stood there blankly, his frail body still being washed by the rain.

At this time, Yuan Mujiu said again.

"I'm sorry... Wanhua, I really can't bear to live without Yingshi."

Hearing this, for some reason, Li Yuanmu Wanhua lowered his head and murmured in an inaudible voice.

"what about me..."

The sound of the wind and rain was very loud, Urahara Mujiu obviously didn't hear it, and just continued talking.

"I can't live alone. I really don't know how to live without my father."

She cried desperately, and finally cried louder and louder, covering her face and crying bitterly.

Li Yuanmu Wanhua still lowered his head, and said again.

"Flowers bloom..."

Urihara Mujiu still didn't hear it, but fell into deep despair, and if he went any further, he would fall into destruction.

At the same time, there was another person who fell into a deeper abyss.

Uriharamu Wanhua finally stopped talking, and lowered his head quietly.

Again...abandoned.

Didn't he know it a long time ago... Uriharagi Wanhua remembered something that he asked his mother just a few days ago.

"Then you like me more or daddy more."

At that time, Urahara Mujiu didn't answer directly, but jumped up and scratched her creaky nest, and asked her where she learned these things, so she dared to use them on her mother.

There is no positive answer... Doesn't it already represent the answer?

Everything has already been answered, Wanhua Uriharaki.

I clearly said that we will always be together, I clearly said that no matter what kind of difficulties Flowers Bloom faces, the bond between family members will never be cut off because of anything...

Still haven't done it...

But I don't even have the qualifications to call my mother a liar... because it's all my fault.

It's me who caused this to happen.

That's why, I was...abandoned again.

She said hoarsely: "Go home, Mom."

This time, Yuan Mujiu finally heard clearly, she shook her head and cried.

"I can't go back, Yingshi won't forgive me, I can't go back anymore."

Her cries resounded through the roof, even drowning out the sound of the wind and rain.

To this, Yuan Mu Wanhua just raised his head, his eyes were blocked by the rain-soaked hair on his forehead.

There was a smile like a little sun on her pale face, and she said softly as if nothing had happened.

"I'll figure it out, so go home, Mom."

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Li Yuanmu's house, Li Yuanmu Wanhua knocked on the door.

After the door was opened, she looked at the familiar yet unfamiliar man inside, she was soaking wet, showing a very gentle smile just like before.

You have to make up for your own mistakes.

Ri Yuanmu Wanhua made a deal with the devil.

The sunny doll she hung up on the balcony by herself did not make the weather clear, but was vulnerable under the ravages of wind and rain, and her smiling face was full of wrinkles and broken.

Just like in her short life, every day was actually without sunshine and full of pain.

273. Withered Stars

It was still a rainy day, just like every rainy day in the past, in fact, all rainy days were the same in Wanhua's eyes.

The difference is just liking it or not liking it.

She used to hate rainy days very much, she was depressed, and her ears were full of the inescapable sound of rain.

But now, rainy days will make her feel better, at least she can have something to think about instead of being blank.

Standing on the bridge, she looked at the turbulent sea, and the countless dim lights in the steel forest on both sides.

In fact, I have long forgotten about memories, and I just remembered them suddenly when I saw Bei Dao's mother and daughter, but only to the extent that I remembered them.

There will be no sadness, no nostalgia, no feelings of loneliness, and even the slightest ups and downs in the mood.

Even, she had already forgotten what Urihara Mujiu looked like.

Maybe it was because her face was blurred in memory, or maybe it was her own blurring.

Who knows, she doesn't care about it anyway.

She leaned forward, resting her hands lazily on the bridge railing, watching the rain scene, and didn't care that she was completely drenched.

In fact, it's quite boring. Everything is so boring and boring, just like black and white photos, without a trace of color.

That's why Riharaki Wanhua is so eager for interesting things, to conquer things that he doesn't have.

Too boring, always die.

She also forgot who she promised, maybe Urahara Mujiu, or someone else.

Promise to live well.

Who doesn't want to live, at least Urihara Mu Wanhua really wants to live, as long as there are always interesting things, she will always live.

The sea breeze came head-on, raising her skirt, but the corner of her mouth was still that shallow smile that no one could influence.

It rises with the wind, but it will not dissipate with the wind.

She was looking at the rain scene, and someone was looking at her.

In the vehicle, Ms. Apricot Nakaju in a suit and leather shoes looked through the window at the girl leaning on the bridge railing and looking at the sea with her skirt fluttering.

Maybe she is also the only one who knows Riharaki Wanhua's experience during that time, so she can also understand what she is thinking.

From the very beginning, since she learned about the lives of Bei Dao's mother and daughter, she knew why the eldest lady cared so much about Miss Bei Dao.