This thing about me becoming a girl

Otherwise, Bei Dao Ya might find it a bit difficult, not because he was afraid of the stage lighting, but rehearsing would take up a lot of his time.

She was reviewing her homework during get out of class. After all, there was a week of blank time. Even if she was at home, she would just read books when she had nothing to do, but it was inevitable that she would be left behind.

She looked at the content that she had explained in class more than a week ago but she hadn't heard it, and when she encountered something she didn't know, she circled it with a pen, and took the time to ask the teacher.

This was also explained by the teacher in charge, because she didn't come to school for a week, so if there is anything you don't understand, you must ask as soon as possible, otherwise it may be difficult to learn the following content because you don't know the previous content.

In short, Bei Daoya spent his day at school like this.

Back home after school as usual, the apartment was quiet without the lights on, and there was no sound of gas or the sound of a knife cutting on a cutting board in the kitchen.

Bei Daojiu hasn't left work yet.

But yes, it's still early.

She put the single gray handbag on the top of the shoe cabinet, "I'm back."

She had a pale face, then bent down, raised her heels, her black hair drooped, and she took off her shoes with a gentle hand and put them neatly behind the door.

A pair of slender feet with black knee socks put on cotton slippers and came to the not-so-spacious living room, turned on the TV and sat on the sofa, changing the TV station until it stopped in a variety show.

The sky outside the apartment was gloomy, and it seemed that it was going to rain again. This is the case during the cherry blossom season. The rain can't stop, but it will clear up soon.

Although it is still relatively early, the light in the room without the lights is a little dim because of the reason why the lights are not turned on and the dark clouds are thick.

Bei Daoya was sitting on the sofa, the TV was not far away, the lights in the room were not turned on, only the flickering light of the TV was reflected on her cold face.

She looked at the picture shown on the TV, because a funny artist threw a very interesting meme just now, all the guests and the host were laughing, and even tears were about to come out.

She looked at the lively and laughing scene on TV with a cold face.

But it is a pity that the sorrows and joys of human beings are not interlinked, and the Bei Dao Crow just kills the time waiting for Bei Dao Jiu to come home.

The time should be fast, and soon she will hastily open the door and say energetically, "I'm back, little crow!"

Then dinner will be prepared.

By the way, turn on the light.

Although Bei Daojiu has always been in full charge of the meals at home, and doesn't let Bei Daoya into the kitchen, every time he wants to help, he just smiles and says that Xiaoya should just wait for the meal.

But this doesn't mean that Bei Dao Ya doesn't know how to cook at all, and can only wait for Bei Dao Jiu to cook.

Just don't have the tools.

Since that time, there have never been any sharp objects in the apartment. The few necessary kitchen utensils and a few sharp objects are also locked in the kitchen cabinet, and the key is held by Bei Daojiu.

Although doing so would have little effect on a person who was determined to commit suicide, Bei Daojiu still worked hard to guard against all possibilities, which would make her feel a little more at ease when she was afraid of something happening again.

Bei Daoya knew it, even though Bei Daojiu would always have a cute smile on his face whenever he faced himself.

But Bei Daoya also knew that Bei Daojiu would hide in that small storage room alone several times at night.

The dark and closed atmosphere will calm her flustered heart a little.

Bei Daojiu is under a lot of pressure, life, money, work, all kinds of pressure keep squeezing her heart.

So from time to time, she would hide in the storage room, which was the second place where she felt safe besides Bei Dao Ya.

But she couldn't bring this kind of negative emotion to her lovely daughter, so she could only hide there.

Bei Daojiu's childhood experience made her very fond of this small space.

When I was a child, every time my father came home drunk, Bei Daojiu would be terrified, because a drunk father meant that he or his stepmother would be beaten and scolded. Whenever this happened, he would crawl into the closet or storage room and curl up in it , so that his father would not see himself and escape from beating and scolding.

And there is no need to face anyone, and no one can pay attention to yourself. It is completely a small world for one person, and it is a very safe place.

Kitajima has always felt this way.

But... you know, Mom, I used to be terrified of places like this.

Every time Shangshan comes to the house, the phobia of the North Island crow will attack, and Bei Daojiu always thinks that the specific scene that induces the North Island crow’s phobia is to see the appearance of Shang Shanmu beating and scolding himself, so every time he will Push her into the locker so she doesn't see this scene.

(Phobia is a neurosis with phobic symptoms as the main clinical manifestation. Patients have strong and unnecessary fear of certain specific objects or situations.)

But no... What the North Island Crow is really afraid of is the storage room.

The fear of being in some dark, cramped room listening to the yelling and whimpering outside would break her down.

Bei Daoya didn't mean to blame Bei Daojiu, Bei Daojiu just gave her the place that she felt the safest, and she had been silently bearing it without saying that she was actually very scared of that place.

The wrong family environment and indoctrination of wrong ideas since childhood have created Bei Daojiu's values ​​and three views are somewhat different, and his tolerance for evil is much higher than ordinary people.

But she still poured all her love into Bei Dao Ya.

Even though she has never been loved, and does not know how to love, Bei Daoya even spent those days relying on non-stop Google when she was born.

While not knowing how to raise them, some wrong concepts have continued to the North Island crow.

But she is not wrong, even if everyone says she is wrong, Bei Dao Crow cannot.

Bei Daojiu just left all the good things to Bei Daoya.

But now it seems that all the hardships are coming, it seems that life is slowly getting on the right track, everything is getting better, and the smiles on Bei Daojiu's face are getting more and more day by day.

But... the North Island Crow knew that it was just a layer of foam, so fragile that it could be broken with just one breath.

As long as Bei Daojiu still feels that the storage room is safe, she will not be truly happy.

As long as you live on a fir tree for a day, you will not die.

Their mother and daughter still live under the shadow of that bastard.

Bei Daoya looked at the TV, but his eyes seemed to be looking at other things through it. His dark eyes were cold and indifferent, especially cold.

She kept her fangs closed and did not show them to wait for the opportunity, but she was ready to start sharpening the knife.

-

It was still raining.

No one walks on the remote road in the middle of the night, and only occasionally two or three vehicles pass by.

Bei Daoya walked, holding a black umbrella, the surface of the umbrella made a pattering sound, and stepped lightly on the brick pavement that was dripping with rain.

She was wearing a large navy blue coat and single gray sweatpants on her lower body. She was dressed a bit heavy, not like the clothes that should be worn this season.

The black umbrella leaned forward so that her face could not be seen. Covered by the pure white thick fluff of the coat and hat on her head, it was a pure black mask without facial features.

Time has passed for so long, and the fangs of the North Island Crow, which had been keeping it closed, stung his jaw a little.

She was ready to take out the knife, stab Shang Shanmu's knife.

Although it is still a blunt knife.

35. Komachi Street

There was a drizzle in the sky, and the silver-gray silk threads were continuously intertwined and poured down like a spider's web, falling on the ground and splashing in circles.

On some cold nights, it is very suitable to lie on the bed and cover the quilt, and fall asleep peacefully listening to the sound of pattering outside the window.

In a relatively remote neighborhood on the edge of West Tokyo, the old potholed roads are dripping with rainwater and garbage, and a row of street lights erected on both sides have long been damaged, leaving only a few flickering faint lights, which seem to be falling intermittently. It will go out in a second, taking the last light of the street away.

This is the junction area between West Tokyo and Nerima District, a street of about 40 meters, which divides the two districts into two.

There are many abandoned truck boxes wrapped with rusty wires in the block, the mottled walls are covered with graffiti of various colors, and the torches extinguished by the rain are inserted in dry oil drums.

I don't know if it's because of the night or other reasons, but everything here looks dim.

Unlike the bright and clean cities that are only a few streets away, this is the area where violence is most rampant in Tokyo, where there are all kinds of dangerous elements such as rioters, violent gangs, and bad gangs.

The original name was "Komachi Street", so it is also called "Border Street".

In fact, it was not like this more than ten years ago. It was a rented apartment street. Although it was not prosperous, it was also safe. It was a very common area in the city where all kinds of salarymen lived.

Until the head of the largest Yakuza organization in West Tokyo died tragically in this area, the biggest suspect was another Yakuza organization headed in the Nerima area.

The two sides have been feuding for a long time, and conflicts often arise, but it has always been a small-scale friction between the people below, so despite mutual hatred, there has not been a full-scale war.

But later, due to a certain interest dispute, the friction between the two parties escalated, and they gradually developed in the direction of fighting. At this time, the young master of the Nishitokyo Yakudo Organization happened to have an accident. The most important thing was within the industrial scope of Nerima District, so it became a matter of course. The biggest suspect.

Although there was no definite evidence to confirm this in the end, the two sides still fought in this area. Although it was all at night and they deliberately avoided ordinary people, it still caused panic, and the residents who rented here one after another move away.

It wasn't until the destruction of the Yakuza in Nerima District that the nightly fighting in this area stopped. The Yakuza organization in West Tokyo also ushered in the two jurisdictions of King's Landing, and the power expanded rapidly.

But at this time, "Komachi Street" was no longer inhabited. It was originally a rented apartment area, and the people who lived there were all tenants, and there was no commemoration when they left. Although the procedures for changing places would be troublesome, it is better than safety.

Although the tenants have left, the streets after the Rush have attracted countless "flies". All kinds of restless elements gather here, and the more chaotic they are, the more they like it.

And there is no one here, and the destruction of Nerima means that there is no owner of this place, and the Yakuza of West Tokyo is busy taking over other fat meat industries in Nerima, so there is no time to govern here.

So these unstable elements seem to have found the long-awaited area where they can do whatever they want, no one governs them, it seems that the wings that have been closed for a long time are finally ushering in the wings, they can do whatever they want, fight, fight, party and play. here.

After West Tokyo Gokudo completely took over the Nerima area, quite a lot of unstable elements have been mixed here, and basically all the gangsters in Tokyo gathered here.

A little tricky, but not too tough.

After all, the real estate is theirs, and the reason is theirs. It can be solved simply by calling the police. Although the police may not necessarily contribute, it is not impossible to drive them away by force.

But you must know that these unstable elements are basically young people. Although not all of them can be said, some of them will step into the gray area or go to extremes in the future, and expulsion at this time means making enemies with these people , and may therefore hate the Yakuza organization in Upper West Tokyo.

Maybe it doesn't matter if there are few people, but if there are more such people, who can guarantee whether there will be a big shot among them in the future.

Moreover, this area is originally a low-cost rental housing for the working class. There is no lucrative money, and the renovation will cost a lot of money.

So the Nishitokyo Gokudo Organization is free to do so, but this does not mean that it is so generous to let them have fun with their own industry. It's a petty meat, this is not the ultimate style.

The most important reason why Nishitokyo Yakudo did not take back "Komachi Street" is that instead of driving them away, and then doing a business like transforming the street that doesn't know if it will make money, it is better to make good use of these unstable elements.

After all, this kind of person makes the best money.

Sure enough, as soon as "Komachi Street" was opened for rent, a large number of gray businessmen were attracted because of the gathering of a lot of gangsters, and gray industries such as brothels, casinos, bars, and boxing rings gradually sprang up.

Sure enough, the restless youths were excited. Although they were free and unfettered before, there was nothing there, which was too boring.

These industries are full every day, and as the reputation of Komachi Street spreads, more hooligans are attracted.

Nishitokyojidao can just lie down and collect the lucrative rent paid by these industries, and the reason why they don't do it themselves is because they know that the most attractive reason for these gangsters in Komachi Street is the feeling of not being restrained, and Once I, as the owner of this place, intervene too much, it may not be so attractive.

So there is no jurisdiction here, just collect money on time every month.

As time went by, "Komachi Street" gradually became the current gray area full of violence and crime. Although the scope is small, it seems to contain the chaos of the whole of Tokyo.

It is a place that ordinary people regard as snakes and scorpions and dare not approach, also known as "Border Street".

(I really don’t have enough words!!! There are several foreshadowing!!)