This thing about me becoming a girl

But what is very paradoxical is that he began to have suspicions again. As long as his wife is no longer in front of him, he will wonder if his wife is cheating again.

Under such double torment, he almost collapsed, but he couldn't tell his wife about these things. After all, he also understood that his wife was also living in pain, and she finally recovered. He didn't want to bury this scar again. torn apart.

Or maybe something else happened during this year that we don't know. In short, Hideshi Usaharaki, who went to see a psychological counselor at the time, already had the idea of ​​ending this marriage.

But I also think about what he said, not to voluntarily abandon Urihara Mujiu, this is his promise as a man. "

Xia Zao of Huashanyuan sipped the tea that the waitress had just brought for him.

"But in fact, in my opinion, the more reason is that Eiji Uraharaki still loves his wife, so he is so hesitant.

At this time, the counselor gave him a suggestion, since he was unwilling to take the initiative to speak out about the divorce, let Urahara Mujiu do it.

As for the method, it is to let Hideshi Satoharaki make mistakes, mistakes that his wife will never forgive, and let your wife understand your thoughts and attitudes, so as to let go and help both parties. "

Having said that, Huashanyuan Xia Zao looked at Bei Dao Ya and said.

"I don't know Mr. Kitajima, do you remember what I said before, when I visited the friends of the Uriharaki and his wife during their early school days, they absolutely did not believe the reason why Uriharaki Hideshi would commit domestic violence?"

Hearing this, Bei Dao Ya nodded slightly.

Seeing this, Huashan Yuan Xia Zao said.

"Yes, because according to what they said, when he was a student, Kazuo Urahara hated violent men, even to the point of extreme disgust. Just hearing this word, he would unconsciously frown, so if Hideshi Urahara really There is a tendency of domestic violence, there is no way for those two to be together."

Huashanyuan Xia Zao squinted her eyes.

"So if there is any mistake that Urihara Mujiu absolutely cannot forgive, it is violence, that is, domestic violence.

This also means that Hideshi Uraharagi, who has heard the advice of a psychological counselor, will definitely think of this.

This also explains in a disguised form, why Hideshi Uraharagi changed his personality and suddenly caused domestic violence.

But I still have some doubts, that is, Hideshi Urahara at that time, obviously in love with Ku Uriharagi, so even if he really made up his mind to divorce, and then used domestic violence to show his attitude, it would not be too much at all. The heavy hands are most likely just for show, to let Urahara Mujiu understand his thoughts.

The paradox is that, according to the data, Hideshi Uriharaki's domestic violence is definitely not just for show. Many times, the bruises on Jiu Riharaki's body have reached the level that cannot be covered with cosmetics, and even fractures have occurred several times. Second-rate.

This can no longer be explained by expressing an attitude, it is completely beyond this category, but in fact, at least as far as I know, Eiji Uraharaki is definitely not such a violent person.

So some time after he left the counselor, something definitely happened again that caused him to become like this.

And also, I am very puzzled, why is it like this, Urihara Mujiu did not choose to divorce, but endured it silently, and never even said it to the outside world, obviously she hates violence to the extent that she hates it, even if she loves herself again Husband, but under such day-to-day violence, it should be unbearable.

Most importantly, there is another thing that makes me more confused, that is, the relationship between the two of them has already reached this level, why did they choose to adopt Mr. Yuan Mu?

The time when Uriharaki and his wife adopted Mr. Uriharagi was about half a year after Uriharaki went to see a counselor. At this time, Uriharaki had already had domestic violence, and it was not a short time.

The reason why I adopted Mr. Li Yuanmu has always been a mystery to me until now, but the first two doubts were answered when Yingshi Li Yuanmu went to see a psychological counselor for the second time.

There was about a year and a half between Eiji Uraharaki's two visits to a psychological counselor.

In the past year and a half, Hideshi Satoharaki's mental state has become even worse, and he is only one step away from collapse.

And according to what he said, he had clearly committed mistakes that his wife could never forgive, but his wife never asked for a divorce.

Even.. Even the more mistakes I make.. On the contrary, my wife is more gentle and tolerant towards him, and smiles more and more..

As for the content of this mistake, he did not tell the counselor, but he knew very well in his heart that it was domestic violence. "

Having said that, Huashanyuan Xia Zao was silent for a moment, as if the matter was so complicated that he didn't know what to say.

"At this time, I probably understood why Hideshi Uriharagi became like that...and why Kuku Uriharagi chose to endure all the time. These two people...have been distorted.

From the fact that Yuan Mujiu was domestically abused, but her smiles increased more and more, it can be understood that she is willing to do so, and she will be happy about it, and the reason?Perhaps there is only one, and that is to make up.

The same is true for Urihara Mujiu. Her heart is always in pain, and she has never healed for a moment.

The accidental death of her son because of her own fault has caused Urahara Mujiu to blame herself to the point of being almost distorted. This kind of pain almost made her unable to breathe, but she also knew... this was caused by her fault, so she put all her The love is all put on Eiji Uraharaki, only by making up for it can she feel a little bit better..

This is already her obsession... She is too self-blaming, too guilty, and desperately needs a way to relieve her guilt.

In particular, her husband forgave her generously, which made her blame herself even more and was tortured, almost reaching a peak, and she could only frantically try to please her husband.

And her husband's domestic violence is undoubtedly a way to alleviate her guilt...

Instead of her husband treating her tenderly all day long and making her feel more guilty all the time, it is better to feel better in the face of such a domestic violence husband.

Perhaps for her, this is redemption, and the pathological self-blame that has almost reached its peak in her heart finally has an outlet.

In fact, in real life, there are many such people. The self-blame caused by their mistakes has collapsed their hearts, unable to vent, and eventually become extremely extreme.

As for Urahara Mujiu, the same is likely to be the case. Facing her husband's beating and scolding, she not only felt no pain, but also felt the long-lost relief, because the self-blame that made her distorted finally had a place to vent.

So she is willing to bear it, and even becomes more and more dependent...it is even possible...she is enjoying it.

But this...caused Hideshi Satoharaki to completely go to another path.

As he said, he actually knew that his wife was making up for himself.

And what is the premise of making up for it?I really feel ashamed.

And this guilt...what the hell is it?Is it the child's death?Or... Was it because the child's death was caused by derailment that day?

Perhaps only Satohara Mujiu knew.

But what is not surprising is that looking at his wife's appearance, Hideshi Satoharaki must have thought that his wife was making up for himself because of the accidental death of the child caused by cheating.

It used to be suspected that it was okay, and he could still comfort himself...but now when this point was almost confirmed in his heart, Eiji Uraharaki's scar was torn open again bloody, and a knife was even inserted again, giving He brought a blow that was impossible to bear.

And which man can endure the accidental death of his child at home alone because his wife left home and cheated?

So Hideshi Uraharaki collapsed, and it was probably at this time that the domestic violence against Uraharaki Kuu really started.

But as for why Hideshi Uraharaki is still unwilling to take the initiative to propose a divorce... There is no explanation.

Maybe it's because they want revenge, or maybe they just don't want to break their previous promises.

In short, the domestic violence of Uriharaki's family started from this moment.

And it lasted for a long, long time, until Hideshi Satoharaki went to see a counselor for the second time.

Uriharaki Ku, can rely on such extreme compensation methods to alleviate inner pain and self-blame... But Uriharaki Hideshi, there is no way, the more crazy he is, the more pain he suffers, which will inevitably lead to mental problems.

And at this time, he couldn't stop, whether it was domestic violence or other things.

Similarly, in various senses, he has been unable to propose a divorce himself.

After all, Urihara Mujiu has never personally admitted to cheating, which means that if Uriharaki Hideshi voluntarily proposes a divorce, it will prove that he is at fault from the beginning to the end, and the domestic violence for so long is all because of him. extreme.

Are the two of them still in love?Maybe, but it is undeniable that it is more about obsession. The hearts of both of them have become distorted because of the pathological obsession.

At that time, the psychological counselor also made suggestions for Eiji Uraharaki, that is, to find out the mistakes made by his wife, which made this marriage impossible to continue.

And after hearing this sentence, what will appear in Hideshi Uraharaki's mind?

Derailment, only derailment, is one of the main reasons why Eiji Uraharaki has been suffering so much.

At this time, Mr. Uraharaki has been adopted by Uraharaki's family for about a year..

Judging from the time, the time of the transaction between Mr. Uraharagi and Eiji Uraharaki mentioned by Ms. Nakaju happened to be around this time..."

574. All the Hypocrisy

Bei Dao Zhaizi, inside the tea room, Xia Zao of Huashan Yard and Bei Dao Crow sit opposite each other.

"After getting advice from the psychological counselor, Hideshi Uriharaki left. Similarly, this was the last time the counselor saw Hideshi Uriharaki. If I hadn't gone to find him, maybe even Hideshi Uriharaki would have died news, don't know.

So all the things happened in the year after Hideshi Uraharaki went to see a counselor for the second time.

Now let’s sort out the chronological order of the whole incident. In the second half of 2007, the death of Uraharaki Yuhiko caused the Uraharaki family to suffer a major trauma, and this is the source of all distortions.

In 2008, Hideshi Usaharaki, who was overwhelmed, finally had the idea of ​​divorce, but because of the promise he said, or various unknown reasons, he didn't want to take the initiative to speak up.

Not surprisingly, the reason why he asked his colleagues about the law firm was that he wanted to consult about divorce.

At the same time, he met the counselor for the first time, and immediately after he left, he had domestic violence against Urihara Mujiu.

At the beginning of 2009, the 8-year-old Uraharaki-sama was officially adopted by the Uraharaki family. At this time, the domestic violence in the Uraharaki family had lasted for nearly half a year.

At the beginning of 2010, Hideshi Uraharaki found a psychological counselor for the second time. Not long after he left, the victim of domestic violence changed from Ku Uraharagi to Mrs. Uraharaki.

At the beginning of 2011, in the so-called coldest winter in the past 20 years... Hideshi Uriharaki was found to have died violently at home, the murderer was confirmed to be Jiu Uraharagi, and the mother and daughter Uriharaki disappeared from the world, and a week later they were found somewhere It was discovered in the mountains of the village, and Urihara Mujiu was dead at this time. "

Huashanyuan Xia Zao turned the teacup on the low table in front of her, her eyes were serious.

"According to the sequence of these events, we can know that the trigger for the Uraharaki family tragedy should have occurred at the beginning of 10, when the domestic violence target changed from Uraharagi Ku to Uraharagi-sama.

After all, Urihara Mujiu has always regarded Uriharaki Hideshi's beating and scolding as a breakthrough to alleviate guilt, so if this continues to develop, it is not surprising that this situation will last for a long, long time until the two have a relationship I really couldn't bear such a twisted marriage, and finally divorced.

But the strange thing is that the person who was subjected to domestic violence suddenly became Lord Uriharagi, which interrupted the distorted relationship between the Uriharagi couple in a disguised form.

Mr. Kitajima also knew about the previous events, including Hideshi Uraharaki’s mental state, why he had a sudden domestic violence, and the reasons why Uraharagi Jiu was willing to suffer long-term domestic violence.

As for why Mrs. Uriharaki suffered domestic violence, she had been adopted for a year at that time. It stands to reason that if Hideshi Uriharaki wanted to abuse her, he should have done it long ago, and he shouldn't have waited so long. right.

According to what Ms. Nakaju said, this is the content of the transaction between her and her father, and I have a corresponding guess.

As I mentioned before, for Master Uraharagi, Uraharagi Jiu is definitely a beam of light that illuminates her suffering life, because it was she who gave the most painful time when Master Uraharaki was abandoned by his biological parents. she loves.

So Urahara Mujiu must occupy a very, very important position in her heart, even unique.

Moreover, Mr. Uranaki, who has experienced so many things, is also more precocious than his peers.

So if it is known that the adoptive mother is in a situation of domestic violence, Mr. Yuan Mu will definitely find a way to help her.

As for why Urahara Mujiu wanted to help her after she had endured domestic violence for a full year from the time she was adopted, although it is a bit puzzled, it is impossible to verify now.

In short, only the reason of saving the adoptive mother from the clutches of the devil can explain why Mr. Li Yuanmu is willing to become the second person to be subjected to domestic violence, and the timing is just right.

Therefore, the deal that Ms. Nakaju mentioned should be an agreement reached between Mr. Uraharaki and Hideshi Uraharaki, so that Uraharaki Ku would no longer suffer domestic violence, so the target of domestic violence became herself.

Although this is indeed a bit nonsense and outrageous, not to mention the age at which Mr. Uriharagi chose to take the initiative to endure domestic violence, just that as an adult, Hideshi Uriharaki would really follow the agreement with the child and kill the child. Outrageous enough, normally speaking, it is not realistic to think about it.

But according to Hideshi Uraharaki's mental state at the time, it was possible.

As for what the agreement is, I want to break my head, but I don't have any thoughts, and no one will know. After all, after Hideshi Uraharaki's death, the only person who knew about it was Uraharagi-sama.

In short, this agreement absolutely occupies an extremely important position in the whole matter.

As for the fact that Mr. Uriharamu wanted to protect the adoptive mother, why didn't he just let the adoptive mother divorce, but used such a method? It was also because, Uriharamu Jiu, it was impossible to divorce.

As I said before, Uriharaki’s heart has been distorted to the extreme long ago. For her, this marriage is the only way to alleviate her morbid guilt, and it is also her obsession. Uriharagi Yuhiko because of her The accidental death by mistake left her with countless holes in her heart, and she could only put all her love on Hideshi Usaharaki.

It can also be said that for her, Hideshi Uraharaki is the meaning of a son after his death, and only making up for it can make her feel better.

Therefore, under such circumstances, it is impossible for Urahara Mujiu to take the initiative to divorce Urahara Mu Yingshi. If she really divorces, she will be crushed by the pressure in an instant.