This thing about me becoming a girl

After receiving it, there are countless changes, and it is extremely sad just to violate the order of the head of Baihechuan.

So she can only do nothing, you understand?

I understand, Miss Bei Dao also understands, even Ms Bei Dao is very aware of this, and understands the pressure her daughter is under, so she has been enduring it and not showing it.

This illusion was deliberately created by us, and we didn't try to dismantle it, because we all understand Miss Bei Dao's difficulties.

But only you, don't understand. "

Mariko Uesugi remained silent, but lowered her head lower and lower.

And Sawamura Xiaocage Bird sighed.

"Miss Bei Dao can only keep going down until she has the strength not to be used by anyone, and as someone she trusts, what you do should be to support her, not add to the chaos.

Have you ever thought about what you would do if I didn't tell you this today?There is a high probability that Ms. Bei Dao was forcibly brought back to China, right?

And maybe Miss Bei Dao won't blame you for this, but do you know what she will face?What do you think Mr. Baihechuan will do when he looks at Miss Bei Dao who stubbornly refuses his order?

It is true that the head of Baihechuan cannot intervene in the affairs of the reserve, but what about other aspects?Don't forget that the division of the Beidao family was granted by him, and he can also deny it. "

Seeing Uesugi Mariko lowering her head, Sawamura Kokoto sighed.

"That's why I said, since you don't understand, it's just a blow to you.

The moment you know Ms. Bei Dao's current situation, you should think about why Ms. Bei Dao did this, instead of coming to ask me to blame her. After all, it is impossible for Ms. Bei Dao to be worse than you for her mother's situation. I know it late.

She knew it all along, but she didn't tell you. Maybe it's because of your character that she didn't tell you.

Based on this alone, you should reflect deeply. Why Miss Bei Dao didn't tell you, it can only be because you are not good enough or mature enough.

Now that you already have someone you value very much, you should learn to consider issues from her standpoint, and make it a goal for her to share, instead of continuing to be so naive. "

After speaking, she stood up and shook her head.

"In short, I am very disappointed with you today. I thought that you should have matured a lot after leaving the family for a year, but I didn't expect that you just changed to a winged asylum, and you are still ignorant of the world."

After she finished speaking, she left, leaving Uesugi Mariko with her head lowered in a trance as if she had been slapped in the face.

613. Distance

In the huge living room, after Sawamura Kotori left, only Mariko Uesugi was left, sitting on the sofa in a trance for a long time.

she thought.

Is what mother said correct?

is correct.

Myself, some thinking is too one-sided.

When I knew about it, I didn't think about it carefully, but followed my one-sided understanding.

To put it bluntly, this is arrogance, thinking that one's views are correct.

If there is no reminder from my mother, then there is a high probability that I will forcibly bring Aunt Bei Dao back to China as she said, and even think that I have done the right thing.

The words that Sawamura Xiaocagenori said lingered in her mind for a long time.

"Why didn't Ms. Bei Dao tell you? It can only be because you are not good enough or mature enough. Just relying on this alone, you should reflect deeply."

Yes, my younger sister has long known about Aunt Bei Dao's situation overseas, but she can't do anything about it. She can only be entangled in self-blame, and there is no one to talk to.

Why not tell yourself?Because my character is not mature enough, I will do wrong things.

Uesugi Mariko sat on the sofa, silent for a long time.

I almost did it wrong again.

Is this the purpose of Uriharagi Wanhua?Knowing his character, he deliberately brought himself overseas, just to guide himself to do wrong things and put his sister in a disadvantageous situation.

However, she knew that what her mother said was right and what her sister did was right, but for some reason, Uesugi Mariko felt a little uncomfortable in her heart.

Why is it uncomfortable?Can't tell, it's inexplicable.

Obviously all of this is correct.

My sister can only do this now, and I should share it for her.

Uesugi Mariko remained silent, with an inexplicable discomfort lingering in her heart.

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In the afternoon, in the villa where Bei Dao Jiu Hai lived, Uesugi Mariko had already returned here.

Entering the villa, she asked Ebina Fuyutsu who greeted her.

"Auntie Bei Dao... is she still in the room?"

Hearing this, Ebina Fuyutsu nodded.

"Yes, Master Uesugi, Master Jiu hasn't come out all day."

Uesugi Mariko lowered her eyes, not knowing what she was thinking.

After a while, she walked up the stairs and came to the door of Bei Daojiu's room on the second floor.

Turning the handle, the door was not locked, and Bei Daojiu who was sitting on the bed came into my eyes.

She was sitting quietly on the bed. To be honest, no matter the expression or anything, she didn't feel too sad, it was just very plain, but for some reason, the moment she saw her like this, for some reason, it made people subconsciously rise Pity, feel that she is very haggard.

When she saw Uesugi Mariko pushing the door and entering, she raised her face and smiled.

"Long time no see, Truth Kui-kun, Auntie just woke up, so maybe she was a bit rude."

Her face was not too excited, but she was definitely not as absent-minded as before. There was a smile in the corner of her eyes, as if she was really happy to see Mariko Uesugi whom she hadn't seen for a long time.

But Mariko Uesugi knew that Aunt Bei Dao was very lost, very lost, very lost.

Because of my sister, I didn't come with me.

And Aunt Bei Dao's current face is also pretending, because she knows that when she goes back, she will definitely tell her sister about her current situation, so she pretends to be relaxed and doesn't want to make her worry.

Just like what my mother said...Although Aunt Bei Dao is an ordinary woman who doesn't understand the cruelty of war, she also understands the pressure her daughter is under, so no matter what, she will never distract her...

Aunt Bei Dao is actually feeling very sad, but she hides it under her smile.

Thinking of this, Uesugi Mariko couldn't help feeling distressed.

She stepped forward, squatted in front of Bei Daojiu, opened her mouth to speak, but didn't know what to say.

After all, what does Auntie Bei Dao want to hear most now?It was nothing more than a promise to reunite with my daughter.

But how should I promise myself?Who can guarantee how long the reserve dispute will end?

And to put it bluntly, although Mariko Uesugi believed in her sister, what if?What if?What if the younger sister fails in the storage dispute?Does this also mean that the days when she reunited with Aunt Bei Dao will be infinitely extended?

So this promise, Uesugi Aoi could not say it all the time.

She also subconsciously thought, sister, has this happened before?Faced with Aunt Bei Dao's expectations, he was speechless, unable to make that promise.

Thinking of this, Mariko Uesugi seemed to understand for the first time that her sister was always calm, as if she had nothing to worry about, the pain on her face.

For some reason, the inexplicable discomfort in Uesugi Mariko's heart became more and more magnified, as if things should not continue to develop like this.

Her mind was confused, but she thought of Bei Dao Jiu in front of her again, so she forcibly calmed down.

In the end, she could only say one ambiguous sentence.

"We will work hard to bring you back to China, Aunt Bei Dao as soon as possible."

Hearing this, Bei Daojiu looked at Uesugi Mariko who was half-squatting in front of him with a serious expression, and just smiled, but under the smile, there was an unconcealable sadness hidden.

In fact, what made her sad, uncomfortable, and tortured was not the fact that she was alone overseas for a year.

It's as if she saw the difficulties of Bei Dao Crow and chose to go abroad on her own initiative, this was all of her own will.

Even though she misses her, she can bear it and understands that as long as it is Little Crow, she will be taken back to China sooner or later.

Therefore, she is not suffering from the unknown return date.

What really made her unable to restrain her sadness was the growing distance.

She knew that Xiaoya was doing big, big, big things now, so big that even being by her side like in the past was a luxury.

She had known for a long time that sooner or later the little crow would spread its wings, soar in another world, go to another forest, and see the scene that she had never seen before.

This is also her expectation for Xiaoya. After all, what mother would not want her children to spread their wings and soar.

But when that day really came, she found that she still couldn't restrain her fear.

Fear of that distance.

Because the little crow will keep going forward, but he can only stand still.

Perhaps Xiaoya would be willing to wait for him, but it was still impossible for him to catch up.

To put it bluntly, it is because Bei Daojiu can clearly feel the distance, the distance is getting farther and farther, so she is afraid, which cannot be restrained.

For the past year, Bei Daojiu has been tormented by this reason, and it is only this point that makes her suffer.

614. Are you happy?

The emotions in Bei Daojiu's heart are actually very complicated, extremely complicated.

There are losses, fears, joys, loneliness, and many more. It is these emotions that have been entangled together to create a state of one year.

She also knew that the little crow would really leave her this time.

This leaving is not a literal meaning. After all, she also knows that it is impossible for the crow to abandon herself, so she said "leave" in another meaning.

It means being in two worlds.

Bei Daojiu has always regarded Bei Dao Crow as everything to herself, and being able to be relied on and needed by the little crow is also the motivation for her to work hard to live, and one day suddenly, she finds that maybe the little crow may no longer need herself When... even when I am already a burden... I suddenly feel that the only value is lost.

Yes, Bei Daojiu felt that the current self was Xiao Ya's burden, because he couldn't help Xiao Ya with anything, and would also make Xiao Ya consider herself in many things and be affected, causing her to be dragged down.

Maybe most people don't think this way, even if they know Bei Dao Jiu's thoughts, they will think too much. She is a strange woman, but this is very complicated for Bei Dao Jiu, who has a tortuous experience. deadly.

Because she will be unable to restrain herself and trap herself. After all, Bei Daoya is an overly complicated woman who is especially good at self-denial.

For more than a year, Bei Daojiu thought of a lot.

She has been trapped by the problems she has come up with, but she is also happy.