Surrounded by sickness, I just want to live in daily life

Chapter 135 Candid

Shen Yi originally thought very simple, to find a reason for Zou Guqing to stay, and leave the future for future consideration.

However, when he saw the girl for the first time, his thoughts changed.

If we still take one step at a time now, what is the difference from before?

Even if he kept Zou Guqing, he would still use a lie, and that would be completely meaningless.

I don't know if what the driver said played a role, these coincidences in life always push people forward again and again, even if there is an abyss ahead.

Be frank, frank, how can I be frank.

"So, can you give me another chance?"

Shen Yi turned around and rested his finger lightly on the door, the girl's weeping sound could be heard on the other side of the door, and it was the crime he committed because of being dishonest.

I owe Zou Guqing, I have always known it, but I deny it every time, just to make myself feel a little better.

"Actually, I don't really like the way you wear a hat, it makes me feel distant."

"I don't blame you at all, it was my fault."

Shen Yi laughed at himself, the girl on the other side of the door closed her eyes tightly, and sat on the ground weakly, her pretty face pressed against the door, as if she could get closer to the boy this way.

"no."

Zou Guqing finally spoke, her voice was hoarse and distressing, but the first sentence she said was that she didn't want Shen Yi to deny herself any more.

"It's not your fault...it's me, too greedy."

Zou Guqing's nature is like this, she is actually the same type of person as Shen Yi, after an accident, she will put the blame on herself and will not criticize others.

"I've tried my best to restrain myself, don't let myself be jealous, don't make myself uncomfortable, but every time you talk to other girls, I feel so uncomfortable."

Because there was a door between the two, Zou Guqing finally let go of the pretense she had kept in her heart for a long time, and truly expressed her thoughts.

Listening to the girl's cries, Shen Yi's heart was heavy, as if he was locked at the door, unable to move an inch.

"I know I shouldn't be like this, it's weird isn't it?"

The girl became emotional, grabbed her hair with both hands and then pulled it crazily, her tall body curled up into a ball, only in this way can she reduce her pain.

"It's strange. You should chat with others, and you should communicate with others, but I can't tolerate such a simple thing."

"I really want to tell you that I'm really sad. Shouldn't you be my only friend? Because I only have you as my friend."

"You have others without me, but I have nothing without you."

"Isn't that unfair?"

The crying was intermittent, and sometimes Zou Guqing had to rest for several seconds before she could finish speaking, her lungs were a little swollen and painful due to the intense breathing, she pressed her stomach tightly, and curled up on the ground like a hedgehog.

"no..."

Shen Yi opened his mouth, his voice became strange for some reason, from the girl crying just now, his heart was like a giant drum beating, shaking his soul.

The girl has been burdened so much without knowing it, but she didn't reveal anything on the outside, is she pretending to show herself?

She is not frank enough, because she thinks this kind of feeling is strange and hurts herself, and she will never accept it.

So she sealed herself off, calm on the surface, but turbulent inside.

And I am not frank enough, I have missed many opportunities, should I let it slip this time?

After saying no, Shen Yi didn't continue. He tried his best to breathe, but the oxygen in the air seemed to become thinner.

He began to understand Zou Guqing's thoughts at that time, the girl's pain that he couldn't feel when he was strangled by the neck, now all returned to himself.

If she didn't take that step, if she didn't explain her thoughts to Zou Guqing, she would really leave.

I will lose this friend...lose this...relationship.

"I can not live without you."

Shen Yi muttered to himself, but the girl on the other side of the room caught the sound, and felt as if struck by lightning.

Regardless of the discomfort in her heart, she got up from the ground in embarrassment, and then moved to the door.

Put your ears against the door, your heart is pounding, just to hear the sound clearly.

"Gu Qing, what you said is wrong, I cannot live without you."

After the first sentence was spoken, the boulder in Shen Yi's heart rolled down the hillside, he let out a long breath, and his breathing became smoother.

Is this the case, as long as you follow your own ideas, is it the best choice?

Elaborate calculations, the reasoning of playing games with criminals should not be used emotionally, you only need to do what you want to do.

"You said I was the most important person to you, and you are to me."

"I'm stupid, I can't think about feelings, and I'm not sure if I like you or not."

"But when you said you were leaving, I literally died of pain."

The louder Shen Yi spoke, the smoother he spoke, which was a feeling he had never felt before.

The bond between the girl and himself was as intricate as a spider's web, and he had been sorting it out bit by bit before trying to find a way to escape.

However, having died once, he still chose to live.Jin Xiaotao gave herself a chance to escape, but she still chose to stay.

Since I have such feelings for the girls, I should make it clear that I really don't want to live a life that is so restrictive.

I... don't want to see any girls blackened anymore...

Every time, it was my heart that was bleeding.

"So, give me a chance, I'll handle it this time, it's going to be different this time."

Shen Yi patted the door lightly with both hands, the girl on the other side of the door was already sobbing, but the pain from just now was also weakening.

She leaned weakly on the door, her right hand was already raised on the doorknob, but she still didn't turn it.

"You will be different, but I may not be able to change."

"I can't go back to the past, I can't be as gentle as before, and I won't have so much patience with you."

"I may be a lunatic, and I will be jealous when I see you staying with other girls for a while, and even do extreme things."

"It's dangerous to keep me around, I might hurt you again..."

The girl lowered her head, and put her right hand down from the doorknob after much deliberation.

It was like this at the beginning, when Shen Yi stretched out his hand to her, the girl's first choice after being overjoyed was to shrink back.

She was afraid of being deceived before, but now, she is also afraid of her unstable self.

It doesn't matter what others think of me, but Shen Yi, what does Shen Yi think of me.

Can he forgive himself and treat himself the same as before.

When I strangled his neck, what did his eyes look like? Was it disgust, fear, or incomprehension.

Zou Guqing leaned her head against the door, quietly recalling the boy's reaction at that time.

His eyes seemed to be worried, but also tolerant and gentle.

It seemed so, but at the time I was blinded by anger and didn't realize it.

"I don't even care, we can start over and get to know each other again."

"We were so good before, but we were not honest enough. Now we start again, I think we still have a chance."

"So, stay with me, okay?"

Shen Yi let out a long breath after saying this, the mess in his mind was cut off, and everything was clear at this moment.

He has already figured out that freedom is not deprived, but something more important that he has chosen on his own initiative.

Girls are their own wealth and their ultimate possessions.

After thinking about these things, the closed door finally opened slowly.

Chapter 136 Lovers

The door was pushed open, revealing the figure of a girl.

She stood a little shaky, and pressed her hands tightly on the doorknob so that she could support herself to stand up.

Shen Yi's words just now moved her, and the sincerity made her want to try again.

What if there is a good result this time?

The peaked cap was taken off and thrown aside casually, revealing the girl's pretty face covered with tears, her beautiful eyes were also red and swollen from crying.

Shen Yi smiled happily, but he knew that the hearts of the two were connected at this moment while standing outside the door.

The girl lowered her head shyly and guiltily, unwilling to look directly into the boy's fiery eyes.

People always make mistakes and grow up, and things that they didn't do before will change.

Her gaze was hot, it was Zou Guqing's gaze when she looked at Shen Yi, and it was the gaze she only dared to show behind the young man's back.

I have always looked at Shen Yi's back, but now, I am facing it directly in another way.

Shen Yi moved, and he didn't need Zou Guqing's invitation to directly step into the room. In the room, there was always a place for him in the girl's heart.

And now, he finally decided to check in.

After taking a few steps to the girl, the door was closed casually, and then he directly embraced the girl in his arms with one hand.

Different from the girl's subtle embrace in the past, this is the first time that Shen Yi took the initiative to hug Zou Guqing.

My heart beat before, but it wasn't as strong as it is now, as if my heart was about to jump out.

Smelling the fragrance of her body, he used so much force that he almost rubbed the girl into his body.

It was not out of evil thoughts, but the backlog of previous emotions, the unresponsive emotions, suddenly broke out at this moment.

"Gu Qing, I'm sorry."

Shen Yi apologized, rubbing the girl's hair, but the girl didn't say a word, she just bit Shen Yi's shoulder, her teeth tore at the flesh, and the blood bloomed like a peach blossom.

Bright red, but not dazzling.