Broken-Winged Angel

I went back to the small village where I left when I first left. The difference is that when I first went, I was wandering aimlessly, but when I went there, I had the feeling of going home.

Seeing my arrival, the doctor hired me again without asking much. I feel very touched, it has been so long, they still remember me.

I once again became a nurse and teacher in a small village.

I don't know why I came back here, maybe because I think the most dangerous place is the safest place, or because in my consciousness I used this as a peach blossom source and my last refuge.

After arriving here, I discovered that the original doctor was actually Yan Shuilin’s eldest brother, Yan’s eldest son Yan Bonian who left home. I think that fate seems to be tricking me. Why do I still encounter people who have trouble with me after I have escaped so far? But I still haven't left.

"You look like you have eaten ten pounds of berberine." After dinner, he sat next to me and said.

"Because your craft is too bad, I am very painful to eat." Because my hand was accidentally nailed with a blood hole, in order to avoid infection, the wound can not be wet before healing, so dinner is what he did, indeed taste very bad. I don't know how he can persist for so many years?

"You are going to sneer if you let me eat for free." He gave me a look.

"Doctor, why are you coming here?" I suddenly asked, although I knew that it would be a sad thing to let him escape from here, but I still asked. I would like to know.

He glanced at me and set his sight on the starry night sky, silent.

I suddenly regretted it. The feeling that the old wound is uncovered will make people feel more painful. I shouldn't be so cruel because I was hurt.

Just as I was about to turn the subject away, he suddenly spoke.

"I came here to avoid suffering."

This is why I came here.

"After graduating from medical school, I entered the company at home under the arrangement of my father. I soon got married under their arrangement. The bride was chosen by my parents because her family and my family are right. She is a beautiful woman. The supple woman, soon we have a very cute son. But all this makes me feel breathless. It seems that my life is in the hands of others, I am not happy, I like medicine, I have always dreamed of one day. I can fly high, fly out of this cage, find the life I want, I want to escape everything that binds me - family, work, marriage, even family, love. I only want freedom. So I escaped." Slowly telling the story, the voice is very low, I want to come from a very distant place.

"There was heavy rain on that day. I came back from work in the company. On the way back, I suddenly felt that I was so small and so poor. I was determined to escape from it. I went home to take out my important documents and packed up some clothes. And the money was then ready to leave. When I left, my wife was still asking about where I was going, but I didn't answer her, I pushed her away and drove away from home."

"I lived in a hotel and started to enjoy my freedom. I never thought about the feelings of others."

"A few days later, I read a message in the newspaper, and one almost made me bloody. My wife and son were seriously injured in a car accident. I rushed to the hospital. But I am still a step late, my son. I have closed my eyes forever and will never call my father with his lovely voice."

"My wife is also in a coma because she is too hurt. She seems to feel my arrival when I hold her hand. She opened her eyes miraculously. The first thing she said to me when she opened her eyes was "Are you okay? I am so worried." I shook my head and saw her showing a beautiful smile."

"She seems to know that her baby has passed away. She said that she is going to accompany her baby. She can't take care of me. Let me pay attention to my diet. When I am cold, I have to add clothes myself. I don't have to work too late to pay attention. I clenched her hand and felt that vitality was draining from her body. But I couldn't say anything, I could only hold her hand tightly, and it seemed that I could catch her."

"In the end, she closed her eyes, and the soft little hand became cold and stiff in my palm. At this time I suddenly realized that I always loved her, but I never said to her. love you"."

"Her parents kicked me in anger and said that I killed them. If I didn't leave, she wouldn't drive out to find me in the rainy night, and wouldn't happen because she was worried that the child would take care of the baby at home. accident."

"I killed them, it was my extravagance to kill them. It was my heart and soul that killed them. And she didn't blame me at all, but still told me to pay attention to my body." He still looked up at the night sky. But a crystal of light slipped from his eyes.

"People always know that they are valuable after they have lost. Don't let their stubborn and secular eyes blind their eyes. Some things can't be recovered if they are missed."

He stood up and patted his pants and walked toward the room.

And I sat down and meditated.