Burning Passion

CHAPTER 36: I DON'T UNDERSTAND HIM AT ALL

I opened my eyes and morning light blinded me. Was I on the bed?

Last night, he seemed no more restrained doing it with me. It must be, as I am responding to him boldly this time. Ugh. I was embarrassed to even for the second time around. I was glad I didn't know him, or else I wanted to be swallowed by the ground.

It's not because we did it, but because my body reacted to his touch, and I was yearning for more. I say no word, but he left me with contentment. He knows how to please my body.

I feel ashamed. More likely, I was shy about how our body was lost to carnality as he has the capability of turning my body like this...

Ugh. Why do I think about this stuff? This only made me flush more.

I hide from the covers. How did we end it last night?

Let me recall what happened. He carried me upstairs after his second burst. And we did it over again on the bed. Now I can't move my body.

I cannot much remember after then, as I lost to his embrace. But I did feel his fingers brushing up my face, and then he gave me a feverish kiss that lasted longer until exhaustion dragged me to sleep.

Um… my body.

I stretch my legs and lay on my back. I was staring at the ceiling and lost in thoughts again.

The entire time I made love with him, sometimes, I could not avoid thinking about Theo.

I must be crazy how I imagined somebody else while I was enjoying someone's embrace.

I'm glad I did not blurt out his name while I was crying in pleasure with someone's touch.

Nikki, you must sort out what your head has been thinking, and you must practice less to ponder things from now on.

I should need to do that. Or else, I would be shameless and cry Theo's name out of nowhere while I make love with that man.

But sometimes, I wonder when I will meet him? I don't have the face to show him, yet, I want to meet him one day. Also, he has to meet his child in the future.

Moreover, he provided for mama's life and paid for everything. From mama's surgery, treatments each month, and the rest of the hospital bill. He shoulders it all now, and I want to thank him properly, but not when we are both naked.

Nothing I have to worry about now. Also, my grandparent's property is secure. Doctor Ben gives back the land title. I need not sell them anymore. Certainly, mama would wonder, but I will just tell her I got a loan from the bank.

I know it is another lie, but I should not make her worry about me right now.

My phone? Is that my phone? But I left them in the living room?

I sat up, and my hips were killing me. Maybe I will ask something else next time that won't suffer my back, or if there is a next time? What was I thinking! You're crazy, Nikki Noreen! Do I wish to be with him once more? This made me blush.

I have to hurry. Today is Mama's treatment and blood transfusion. He was at the hospital! Is he giving his blood by now, then?

But what identity could I use to know it was him when we crossed in the hospital? All I ever remember is his naked body above me and only touching him when I have a blindfold. I don't have any idea what kind of person he is before my uncovered eyes. One thing only I could imagine is he was as tall as Theo. However, I knew a lot of tall men around in this city. Powerful and wealthy.

But who could it be? Ugh. I worry too much again. I should not concern this yet. But of course, I also want to know what kind of man my child's father is.

I dragged my body out of bed, but it felt like it wanted to break.

Wrapped my body with a blanket, I reached my shoulders. I could feel the bite marks he left as a bit of tingle in my skin. He was like marking my body as he owns it, and no one should touch me but him.

I shook my head. My brain is concluding things again.

Slowly, I step toward the nearby couch. I could see that he brought my stuff from the living room. My clothes and purse are now on the coffee table, and as usual, there was a paper bag.

I hurl a long breath before I sit on the couch. I reached for the shopping bag to check what clothes he bought for me this time.

I gasped at how beautiful it was. A light blue V-neck dress, which length is down to my ankle. This time, he avoids leaving a mark on my neck and collar, so this dress is enough to hide the marks on my shoulders.

If he's trying to please me as the mother of his child, then I'll buy this act, pretend we were in a normal relationship. We can boast to our future child about our relationship; however, it didn't work out.

It was a good plotline. But I am not a good novelist. Right now, I am just working my hardest on what journey has given to me. Shaking my head, I sat up and headed to the bathroom.

My eyes quickly glued to the bathtub. I love to try it out, but I must hurry to be a mama's side during her therapy. Next time, I will gather the courage to ask his permission to try this jacuzzi. It was big and wide. Even two huge people would fit on it.

Shot. I almost imagine that we do it next time in the bathroom. Now my head having crazy thoughts. And before I could think of more embarrassing ideas, I better take my shower in a hurry.

I was drying myself after the warm shower, and then it made me wonder why is he buying me expensive clothes when he wouldn't see me wearing them? Is it because he is watching me in secret? Then, okay. Let him be flatter. This time, I brought my makeup set: a pressed powder, red lipstick, and a liquid brow liner. I did apply a light CC Cream with high sunblock protection beforehand and followed the other ritual in front of his grand sink in the bathroom.

I scanned myself wearing the blue dress he prepared before I went downstairs to taste the food ready for me. He left a note saying there was food on the table.

I found out it was garlic fried rice, bacon, ham, and then toasted bread with a bottle of jam on the side of the plate.

It was homemade. So probably Miss Erika will prepare them for me? This is the breakfast mama always makes for me before she goes to the store, and I was still sleeping. How did Miss Erika know them? Ah, whatever. It made me hungry. It doesn't need a super expensive breakfast to please me. I am happy with these already. I also enjoyed the fruits that were sliced already. Suddenly, I felt delighted to be served like this...

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I watched the car moving in my direction. Stepping inside, I glance at Miss Erika. Hesitant, I want to talk with her. But I wonder if I can even ask a favor.

"Something you want to ask me?" She asked without looking in my direction.

Oh, she could tell, alright... "Um, Miss Erika. Can you drop me by at the hospital instead? I want to be there during Mama's treatment today." I said. After all, her boss was there giving his blood, so maybe, by chance, I will see her approaching her boss later. It was like a sneak plan.

"It instructed me to make sure you are safe home."

"Thank you."

After a few exchanges of words, silence surrounded us until we arrived in the hospital.

"Thank you, Miss Erika," I bowed before I closed the car door. I made my way to the Entrance Door then I caught a group of men coming out from an elevator.

One of them is Theo. My heart is suddenly beating crazily, and I don't know why it crosses in my mind to hide. I watched him passing by to where I was hiding, peeping at him. What's wrong with me hiding like this? I could just casually walk and pretend we didn't know each other. Am I doing this because I am embarrassed? Oh, well… I am guilty, yes, because he was in my fantasy. Darn it. Get a hold of yourself, Nikki.

My gaze followed him. He was with other handsome men, and it looked like their assistants were following behind. They are also good-looking men, but among them, he was the most attractive one for me. And I knew these other men he's with. The Japanese man is the one in the café incident, the President of the Kobayashi Enterprise here in Mainland City, and the other is a European business tycoon, Larius Anthony. I saw them both featured in the magazine, the Most Successful Youngest Business Men in the world.

Such men made everyone glances in their direction. All the crowd in this lobby was staring at their god-like looks.

"Nik? Is that you?"

"Sid? Hi!"

Sid Lorenzo. He is a classmate back in college. Also, a suitor of mine back in those days. Although I turn him down, he begs me to allow him to stay to be friends. Hoping we can move our relationship to the next level. He is one of the nicest guys who courted me, so I agreed. But after a year, I firmly turned him down to look for someone to love who would love him back.

I admit that friendship has a worth. That is why I am now exchanging hugs with him. I was glad to see him again after three years. But then, I could feel a burning glare shooting in our direction. I glance at the Entrance Door, and I meet Theo's dark glare. Is he angry? To whom?

"Nik! I have to go; Flora texted; she wants the water now."

"Oh, sure! Bye!"

I smiled while waving at Sid, watching him heading to the elevator. Flora is our schoolmate who has a secret love for him, and I was happy they ended up together. They were expecting their second child soon.

Hmm... now, everyone has their own family. Somehow, it saddened me, and I was now envious. But I choose a different path for my life.

Oh well, it is not the time for a drama. Mama waited for me already.

Theo! I turned around, and only his back I caught. He was now stepping into the car and disappeared before my eyes. But something made me wonder.

A while ago, why does he be giving me that kind of look? Most of the time, he shows me different expressions that I don't understand at all…