Cannon Fodder Strategy

Looking for regrets in life (10)

Only in this way can we explain why Su Bairong's personality changed drastically after she woke up, why she understood Buddhist ethics, and why she seemed to have changed a person in an instant and seemed to have grown up overnight. Su Bairong's current life is the life that Su Bairong has experienced in the plot, not to mention that Baihe also vaguely feels that what Su Bairong said is not a lie!

"I am." When Su Bairong heard this, she seemed to become a little angry. She took several deep breaths: "I am Lily Su."

"You were originally Lily Su." An inexplicable resentment surged out of Lily's heart, and she subconsciously said: "You were originally Lily Su, but Lily Su in your life was already dead, why do you want to come back again?"

"You always want to make the decision for me. You always want to have everything in your hands. Have you ever thought that others also want to live their own lives?" Lily did not control her body at this moment, but let it go. It was up to him to say everything the body wanted to say: "You shouldn't have come back."

As if she had been rejected by herself, Su Bairong turned pale for a moment: "Why shouldn't I come back? I just don't want to go back to the same old path, so I'll help you..."

"That's just what you think. Your so-called old path has always been you living. Have you ever thought that I don't want someone to live my life instead of me? Since you said you are me, you also know that my character is the most You are so competitive that even Su Bairong and I fought endlessly. Why do you think I will accept you when you come back?" As soon as these words were spoken, Lily's heart felt like a bright mirror. She had understood that this time she The whole story of the mission. A big stone hanging in my heart fell to the ground.

No wonder my memory is blurry after the age of twelve. Because she has always represented the Lily Su before she was twelve years old. After she was twelve years old, because the dead Lily Su returned to her body, she swallowed up Lily Su's original self before she was twelve years old. She disappeared before she was twelve years old, but she was not willing to do so, so she was born. A one-time mission.

If she guessed correctly, the real plot should be that on Su Baihe's twelfth birthday, she and her sister Su Bairong had an endless fight, and they both fell into the lotus pond. Su Bairong died on the spot. Although Su Baihe survived, she was tricked into marrying the Crown Prince of Xiangyang as a concubine. She lived an unhappy life. She probably died at the hands of Liu Mingyue, so she was reborn and returned to the world. When she fell into the water at the age of twelve.

When Lily Su entered the mission that night, she felt an inexplicable severe pain in her head, as if someone was trying to force her out of her body. This was when Lily Su was supposed to be reborn. The next scene Lily saw should be the scene after Su Lily was reborn. She did not marry the prince of Xiangyang as a concubine like in her previous life, but instead married into the Zhenguo Duke's mansion. Becoming Liu Yuanshao's head wife, she changed her destiny in her previous life, found a husband and gained everything she had never gotten in her previous life.

Just because of her personality, Lily Su had never suffered any blows or hardships before she was twelve years old, so she still had that intolerable personality. She should have had her own life. After Lily Su died, she would come back to face her original self. At that time, the souls of both parties should have been independent individuals in a certain aspect. Lily Su annexed her before she was twelve years old, and only then did Lily Su become successful.

But before she was twelve years old, Lily Su was unwilling. She didn't want her life to be replaced by someone else. Even if the person who made the decision for her and lived for her was her many years later, she wouldn't care about it, just like she did back then. Competing with Su Bairong for something, no matter how bad it is, she doesn't care about it. Just like other people, she has to taste the hardship and fatigue by herself. But she didn't even have a chance to try, so everything was already done. The later self that has been experienced replaces it.

"I just, I just don't want you to suffer." Su Bairong looked hurt. It felt uncomfortable to be rejected by 'self'. She stammered and tried to explain: "I told you before, I, I have no ill intentions towards you..."

"My life, no matter good or bad, I hope that I can live it by myself, not someone to replace me, and I don't want anyone to help me, even if that person is myself." This echoed in my heart. In a word, Lily said this softly. Lily Su in the plot didn't even have the chance to say such words. Even after rebirth, Lily Su didn't even give her the right to choose. She also wanted to experience her life by herself. , instead of being guided by people who have experienced life to guide you how to live.

It's like adults always like to tell rebellious children that I'm doing it for your own good, so they stop the children from doing anything that the adults think will be harmful. But the child wants to experience it on his own, rather than someone else telling him whether it is good or not.

The same person, but different ages. The target of this mission is herself, so Lily can't feel Su Bairong's malice towards her. Even though Su Bairong has done a lot to her, Lily can't hate her, and she can't like her either. , she couldn't even guard against Su Bairong. After all, in a certain way, after Lily entered the mission, she was Lily Su, and Su Bairong was her. Who would defend herself? Even sometimes it was clear that Lily would doubt her, but subconsciously couldn't bear to doubt her. This strange feeling finally had an answer at this time.

"For you, you have experienced it, but for me, I have not experienced all this. It is just like having something beautiful, you have tried it, and you know it is poisonous, but have you ever thought about it, I am also Do you want to try this thing to see if it's poisonous?" Su Bairong really didn't hurt her. Maybe she just wanted to get back on track because she had gone through too many detours. It's just that God has nothing to do with a reborn girl like her. It was already a blessing to let her know how things would develop in the future and give her a chance to start over after she made a mistake. Unfortunately, in the plot, she did not give the person she swallowed up when she was twelve a chance to taste it. .

Although they are all the same person, after a long time, they have formed independent individuals. She has experienced one life and returned to her own body, so she can easily swallow up her twelve-year-old self. But have you ever thought about it? Did she ever think about being swallowed up by her when she came back after death?

"Aren't they all us?" Su Bairong's tone was a little dry. The palms of his hands clenched tightly into fists: "It's all me. Why do you reject me?"

She was supposed to be back in her own body. But she was rejected by her original self, and in the end she could only wake up in the body of her sister Su Bairong. She lost the love of her parents, and her heart was always thinking about Lily, but she was not understood. Su Bairong felt that she was also full of grievances. .

"Mom ignores me and only cares about you. We are supposed to be one. But you are very repulsive to me. You should be able to feel it. We are supposed to be the same person!"

"Mom ignores you. I am very repulsive to you. That's because you already have a lot of things!" People who can be reborn can see the true colors of some people in their previous lives, and can choose a life that is more beneficial to themselves. People who are reborn With so many benefits already available, why would you want more:

"What's more, although we are the same person, if I am the one who can make the decision. Instead of you, I can have your memory. I can make the decision. I don't need you to live in my place. I will annex you from now on. It’s me who exists, not you, so are you willing?”

Lily's words were specious, but Su Bairong seemed to understand. After rebirth, if she was reborn in the twelve-year-old Su Baihe, but if the dominant consciousness was not the twelve-year-old Su Baihe, she would be annexed by her. Instead, she was annexed by Lily Su who was before she was twelve years old. From then on, there is no Lily Su who survives to the later years in the world, but a twelve-year-old Lily Su who foretells the fate of her death. Is Su Bairong willing?

She asked herself, she didn't want to.

Therefore, the reborn person is not willing. Su Lily was living well before she was twelve years old, but was eventually swallowed up by others. Although she was the only one who occupied her body, she was still unwilling.

Seeing that Su Bairong was silent, Lily took off the wintersweet flowers on her head and held them in her hands to play with: "Look, although we were once the same person, because of the different processes, we have different preferences and different personalities. , we are two different people. I no longer like wintersweet. It was just the smell that you once liked. This does not represent me. In fact, I think it is too fragrant. What do you want to do for my good? It's something, so I don't appreciate it. Maybe we were the same person before, but time is changing, and we won't be the same person in the future." After saying this, Lily handed the wintersweet in her hand back to Su Bairong's hand, and saw She looked a little lost:

"From now on, as long as you live your life well and don't worry about me, I don't need you to make the decision for me now, because you are no longer Lily Su." After Lily said this, she said goodbye. , Su Bairong turned her body sideways as if she was crying but not crying. The two passed by each other, and Lily could vaguely hear her saying in her ears: "Those who abandon me will not be able to stay the same as yesterday. Those who mess up my heart will not be able to stay today." I have so many worries every day. Am I wrong? Am I wrong?"

Lily didn't know if she was wrong, after all, she shouldn't answer this question, but Lily Su originally wanted to have her own life, but Lily understood.

After thinking about this problem, the fog that had troubled her for a long time in the past naturally cleared away, and Su Lily's original wish naturally came to her heart. Lily could strongly feel the original owner's thoughts at this moment. She wanted to be like an ordinary person. She wants to get married happily, she wants to get married and have children like ordinary people, and when she meets a husband she wants, she wants to grow old with him. (To be continued...)

ps: Two updates today, I wish everyone a Merry Christmas~~~~~

At this point, the mystery is revealed. The book review area has been very busy recently. Unfortunately, because I can't spoil it, I can't explain why Lily can't guard against Su Bairong. Because that's her. No one can guard against herself, so it's not that she is stupid. Her IQ is low just because Su Bairong is actually her, but she is said to be her in the future~~~~~

Who would be prepared to take a stab at him suddenly one day? Impossible, so sometimes the harm we suffer is actually caused by ourselves.

Nowadays, there may be children who don’t like this writing style, but not every story can be the same. At least before the completion, I still want to write novels with different styles. Maybe this will lose some readers, but since I started writing this The story is a kind of willfulness, so by the end I naturally cannot compromise with reality like I used to.

I love those who support me as always~~~~~~~~~

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