Clear and Muddy Loss of Love

My name is: Qiyan Agula, is the first child of Sukhbalu, the king of the plow department Khan of Beibei, and his mother is a Wei national. My father used to be the grandfather's family, and he met my mother. On the eve of the marriage of Father Khan and his mother, he was recovered by the steppe warriors. He took the stormy plow tribe from his grandfather on the day of dying, and led the plow tribe warriors to sweep out a sky. The joint support of the patriarchs also caused Father Khan to be constrained everywhere after he inherited the Khan position. Even the mother who was already pregnant was difficult for Ke Dun. Six old ministers and Father Khan entered into an agreement. If my mother had a child, When they can give birth to a prince, they no longer object.

The village where the mother was located was closed, and the father suddenly left on the eve of becoming married, leaving the two elderly people with rumors and depression.

A few years later, Father Khan returned to his mother in accordance with the agreement. They are a couple in distress. Father Khan naturally cannot wrong my mother. So on the day I was born, Father Khan announced the identity of my prince and stabbed it in my chest. The wolf king totem that only a royal man can have ...

Since I remember, I often feel that my mother always has an emotion in my eyes that I can't understand, and the whisper of the mother I hear the most is: "This child must be a son ..."

I was ignorant when I was young, I just wanted my mother to be happy, and I was looking forward to the arrival of my brother. It was not until I looked back many years later that I realized that the mother's eyes were love and guilt. What she expected was not just one Real son, but it will allow me to restore my daughter's identity as soon as possible.

...

Qi Yan's voice is very light. She speaks the most standard Wei Guoguan dialect, and calmly recounts the saddest past with her beaded and mellow voice.

She thought that she would never have a chance to talk to others in her life. These past events would rot in the bottom of her heart a little bit over time, could not heal, would not disappear, and would bleed at the touch.

But today, Qi Yan sat opposite the daughter of the enemy, and cut open these wounds unreservedly, but her heart was dull but she was relieved like never before.

Nangong Jingnv's tears stopped, and there were still two dry tears on her cheeks. Her eyes were a little dizzy, and the focus of Hitomi's focus did not know where to stop, except for the undulation of breathing, there was no movement, and it was stiff like a statue. statue.

Qi Yan exhaled the staleness in his chest and continued: "In the year I was three years old, the second child of the Pili Royal Family was born among many expectations, although it did not go as expected by my mother, but my joy was up to eight I ’ve never been young. Before I was a kid, every time I went out with Anda and children of the same age, my mother pulled me aside and told me: 'No clothes, no physical contact with boys, no bathing in the river, more Do n’t allow a small solution outside the king ’s account ... ”So although I have an Anda who is better than my brother, I am not happy. The boys of the same family do n’t like me, and my alienation makes them feel that I am a prince. For this reason, Anda accompanied me a lot of grievances. The birth of my sister made it all different. I looked at the younger sister like a little pink dumpling. She was like a gift from God ... I swear to protect my life. She. Just as I thought, the first person my sister would call was 'brother'. She had stuck behind me all day long since she could walk. Even if she fell ... she wouldn't cry. Every day, I and the same male Children put horses back The first person to greet me was my sister too. At the age of eight, I had a conflict with a subsidiary elder's home, a boy seven years older than me, because of the ownership of a wolf. The boys were watching the excitement. Only my sister, who was only five years old, picked up a stone and broke the boy's head ... "

Qi Yan's expression was soft and soft, whispering: "I should protect my sister ..."

Qi Yan: "When I was eight years old, Father Khan was already recognized as the King of Khan in the Prairie Ministry. The former opponent of the Plough Ministry was driven by the army of the Father Khan to the Luochuan River. A few months later, the grassland was once a year. At the ceremony, Nagus Eri, King of Tubabu Khan, and Princess Giya, who was the prairie pearl, came to the Plow Department. In order to ease the relationship between the two races, Eri and begged his father Khan to marry Tuba. In the grassland All the Khan kings, except the father Khan, look down on the Nan people. Although I am a half-walled Nanwei bloodline, I have a little reputation on the grassland because of my natural ability to communicate with horses. Erihe hopes to minimize her. My daughter stayed in the plow department and was raised to thirteen before marrying me. Just because I was a woman ... Father Khan rejected the request of Erihe, and the two warriors almost started on the spot. Later in those few who were in exile In 2013, my uncle who escorted the warrior told me: Father Khan publicly refused the King Tubabe Khan ’s consecrated daughter to seek peace, which is equivalent to declaring war. Erihe knew that Tubabe was not an opponent of the plows, so they colluded with the Wei Kingdom. Winter ... the plough department is dead. "

Qi Yan supported the tabletop, holding the temples with both palms, inserting his fingers into the meticulous hair of the comb, and said painfully: "If I were a real prince ... Erhehe would not lead Nanbing into the country, but she would Ministry, Weike Ministry ... The entire grassland will not perish! I failed to persuade Anda, and I couldn't save my sister. Our team was dispersed, and we were wandering in the grassland for more than half a year under the guard of more than a dozen people. Later ... I met Ding Yi! The warriors were tired, and the horses were tired ... I know we can't escape. I let the warriors run with their sister to the north, and the rest of us fled south. Ding Yi led the army and chased me to the Luochuan River. During the flood season of Luochuan, the river was turbulent and all the warriors escorted me to death. I and Liuhuo swore to die and were not willing to be slaves, so I jumped off Luochuan. Liuhuo I died on the shore and exhausted, and I also lost my life because of the flood of rivers. Fortunately, the Supreme Master was rescued, and he was raised in an unknown valley for half a year before he saved his life. The Supreme Master ... Is the sister-in-law of the former emperor, who accepted me as a disciple and taught me to read Word learning, chess theory, medical strategy ... She wears a black robe and a black iron mask all day long, and I have never seen her true face around her for many years. Every thunderstorm night, she will go crazy and torture me, force As I review the past of the prairie over and over again, let me shout out my parents, sister, Anda's tragic death. At that time, I was willing to do anything for revenge, even if it fell into a nightmare, even if she drank the wonderful things she developed for me. Poison ... As long as I can get revenge, I'm willing to do anything, even torture me to death! "

Nangong Jingnv's eyes restored a little focus, she looked at Qi Yan expressionlessly, and tears came out.

Qi Yan's heart seemed to be pierced by needles. In addition to the tears that popped out from time to time, Nangong Jingnu was calm and terrible.

Qi Yan's lips shuddered, wondering whether she should continue or not, how cruel is the truth? The liberation of his conscience was passed on to Nangong Jingnv in return for the pain!

Why bother? Ended with one sentence: Am I the prune princess from Wei Kingdom's revenge, isn't that enough?

Bullying, treason, princes, cruelty to the emperor, framed courtiers, coaxed the market price, shorted taxes ... Which is not a capital crime?

Qi Yan hesitated a bit, feeling that at least he had to finish what he had to say.

At the moment when I decided to confess, I gave this life to Nangong Jingnu, but my plan to find out the masked man failed. If you can use this to let Nangong Jingnu know what the masked man is terrible, it will be the last for her. Do something more.

Thinking about it, Qi Yan took his heart sideways and continued: "Four years before Jing Jia, the former princess found me a new identity. My pseudonym Jinzhou Qi Yan went to Yunzhou government school to take a child test. Every year, the princess will give My dossier contains detailed information from the top to the middle of the book to the long history. The records of several princes and concubines in the middle of the North also contain their portraits, their lives, origins, preferences, factions, and places of origin. Even the character has been analyzed. I have been familiar with this information for a long time. Although I have not taken half a step in the unknown valley, I know most of the things in the middle of the DPRK. So I got to know Yang Yanghuai and started from his report. I figured out his identity. I pretended to associate with him but I fancy the identity of his Shiqing family. Zongzheng Temple was in charge of the royal affairs and it was easier to get revenge with Gongyanghuai. Later I used to The information that the princess gave me was to try to understand the thoughts of the examiner of the autumn test and the test of the spring palace. When writing, he devoted his best and won the second test all the way. The former princess knew the emperor very well. She concluded that the third test of the palace must come from Hanmen. I practice calligraphy It is necessary to allow Xiandi to take a closer look at my paper. The former princess also said: Try to avoid being spotted as a flower, according to the agreement of the inner court: the flower or the courtier ’s invitation to make a fool, no matter how difficult it is. Unfortunately ... , Even though I tried to be ugly when I was walking the street, I still couldn't escape the end of the finger marriage ... "

Qi Yan's throat narrowed, making it harder to speak.

Are you really unwilling to end this end? The answer is obviously negative. Qi Yan is afraid that if she goes on, she will say something against her heart, but as a woman, how can she tell Nangong Jingnu facely: Being able to get married under the moon is the best thing about coming to Wei Kingdom.

Is that enough?

Should the remaining sins be confessed?

Want to say?

Qi Yan is not afraid of death. She is afraid that she will die a hundred times, but she will leave an endless nightmare for Nangong Jingnv ...

But should she lie to her for so long, shouldn't she tell her all?

By the way, if she asks, she will answer truthfully.

...

No intentional concealment, these are already insurmountable to death.

And ... Qi Yan still has a little selfishness in her heart. She doesn't want to wipe out the last trace between her and Nangong Jingnv, even if she does ... it's shameless.

Qi Yan sighed and remained silent for a long time: "Do you have anything to ask, Your Majesty?" Qi Yan forced his tears back, ready to accept the final trial.

Nangong Jingnu's eyes gradually returned to focus. She looked at Qi Yan, shed tears, and tried to move the corners of her mouth as if to smile, but her expression was a little stiff.

After several failed attempts, Nangong Jingnv trembled with a trembling voice and begged: "Don't make trouble, okay? I ... don't ask you about feeding me medicine, can you ... don't be brave and make a story ? "

Qi Yan's tears came to an end. On this day, she deduced many times in her mind, and even imagined that Nangong Jingnv would kill herself on the spot, but never expected it would be so.

For the first time in 19 years since Beibei's destruction, Qi Yan gave birth to remorse for the first time.

It was not until this moment that Qi Yan understood that she despised the situation and misunderstood Nangong Jingnv.

Qi Yan thought that there was no real marriage between them, maybe ... Nangong Jingnu still had a retreat.

Qi Yan originally thought that after having experienced so many Nangong Jingnus, she was able to stand on her own, and gradually became an "impassionate" emperor.

However, I was wrong and wrong.

Qi Yan, who confessed to being steadfast over the years, was thinking at the moment, if not, how good it is ...

Qi Yan clenched her fists, biting her cheeks without making herself cry, and Nangong Jingnv lost her consciousness.

Qi Yan: "Your Majesty!"

Nangong Jingnv's face was bloodless, her eyes closed tightly but she couldn't stop leaking tears, her brows were locked deep, her lips curled into a line, Qi Yan held her in her arms, how could she not wake up.

...

Nangong Jingnv had a long dream. In the dream, she returned to Jingjia for seven years, when she was only thirteen years old.

The second sister pretended to go to the poetry club again, apparently out of the palace to accompany me, but always ran out "by reason".

Nangong Jing's girl thought anxiously: This time she tried to make fun of her second sister ...

I came to the back door of the second sister who usually returned to her home, and stood by the rabbit!

After the second sister came in, I took a snap shot from the back, and a folding fan fell out of the second sister's cuff. I first picked up the folding fan and shook it apart, but it was an ordinary white paper fan, but it was flying on the fan surface. The color of the ink dazzled ...

Favored by my father, my palace never lacks rare treasures. Famous calligraphy and paintings and self-inquiry have seen many masterpieces, but I was amazed by the self-styled pen on the fan.

So he read involuntarily: "Sisi Yangliu Sisi rain, spring is in the cymbals. Lou Erzhang Xiaobu hides his sorrow, several times and Yunfei went to find the boat. Tianlian Kezi Township Guanyuan, borrowed flowers Sorrow. Begonia red was nearly green, and it was only after Zhulian that it was cold. "

It's a pity that I don't read too much on weekdays, so I can't appreciate the mood in this little order, but in my mind, I sketched a melancholic young man with a good look.

But can't imagine what kind of eyes each other has? Only with such a good hand.

I did not miss the soft shame in the eyes of the second sister, and joked about the second sister for a while.

Later, I often recite this little order in front of the second sister. Finally, a few days later, the second sister couldn't bear the grind, and promised to take me out of the house.

That day ... I was very happy. This was the first time that I had visited the people. The people's life was so colorful and interesting.

The hour is almost over, the second sister proposes to go back to the study again.

When I came to the door of the study, I saw a teenager dressed as a student rushing out in a hurry, knocking down the second sister and even leaving without apologizing.

This is the first time I have ever seen a person so daring and smashed into the royal family and relatives and still want to run away?

Humph!

I grabbed the scholar's cuff and yelled, "Why are you so rude? When you hit Ben, why can't my second brother help?"

I was a little guilty when I finished the murder: I didn't bring a guard this time, and I wonder if I could hit the person in front of me?

He turned around and I saw his face.

The fear and anxiety in my heart went to most of them. Perhaps the outline of this man is not as tough as an adult man, or he has a weak scholarship on his body, which seems to be very easy to handle ...

I suddenly remembered my father's past teachings, and showed the princess's full momentum, glaring at him.

Why doesn't the scholar seem to be afraid? There was a hint of wonder in his eyes, and a little searching but calm and clear.

"Hey ..." I heard it, though it was very quiet!

Nangong Jingnv: "Do you know how sinful it is to run into the relatives of the emperor ?! How dare you even pose as a" delay to me? "

I really want to get more and more angry, raising my leg is a kick, I looked at the scholar who looked like a cricket, and my heart was so happy!

The next moment I read a trace of ... from the scholar's eyes ...

Wow, this princess is a magnificent princess, how dare you rise to the spotlight ...

Nangong Maid: "Jinger, come and help me."

Hearing the second sister's words, the scholar also followed, and stretched out his hand to the second sister: "Sorry, where can the son be hurt?"

I patted his hand without hesitation. Can you touch the daughter of Tianjia?

Nangong Jingnu: "Take off your dirty hands!"

Nangong's sister-in-law: "Jinger, don't be rude."

Nangong Jingnv: "Second Brother, I help you."

Nangong Jingnu: "Second Brother! Your hand is bleeding!"

"I ran into the boy in a hurry down the road, I wonder if I should go to the medical museum to have a look?"

Nangong's sister-in-law: "Anyway, I can go back to the house to deal with this minor injury."

"That's it, don't stop there."

I watched as the scholar escaped like grease on my feet, angrily: "Two ... second brother! You just let him go?"

Nangong's sister-in-law: "It wasn't intentional, maybe it was urgent."

Not intentional? can you……?

Nangong's concubine: "The man who heard the accent is not from Beijing. If you look at him in plain clothes and carrying a cage, it is likely to be a taxi driver who enters Beijing to take the exam. Why is it difficult for him to make a diagnosis?

After listening to the second sister's words, I thought about it carefully: The man's clothing was indeed different from what he had seen, and the touch of the hand was extremely rough.

Nangong Jingnv: "Is this what my father said is" civil suffering "?"

Nangong Maid: "Jinger is so smart."

After getting the compliment from the second sister, I feel better, and then I turned to look at the direction of the scholar's departure. He has disappeared. Forget it ... I don't know the innocent, let him pass this time!

In the future, I should never see you again! I am thinking liberally.

Although there are a few episodes in this trip, the capital is really fun ~.

"Second Brother, can you take me out to see more later?"

Nangong Maid: "Okay."

But I never expected that I would meet the scholar again soon, although I did not recognize him at that time ...

Later ... he became my pony.

...

I married you at the age of 14 and my husband and wife for nine years. This way you spoiled me. Even though I have been with me through the most difficult and dark years, you have given your life to save me. Lin rebels, trying to turn the tide.

How could I take the position of the emperor without your insight?

You know, even though the dust is settled, every time I think about it, my heart will spit out?

You know: I'm willing to confide with you, I want to give you the best in the world, and when I'm forty, I will take off the weight of this river and swim with you ...

However, you said to me: everything is just a mirror, "Jun" is not a monarch, even the name is false.

how can that be possible? How could we ... be enemies who don't share the sky?

You obviously ... treat me sincerely.

Qi Yan ... how can you?

...

Nangong Jingnv was not in a coma for too long, and Wang Yuyi's silver needle woke her up.

Everyone saw His Majesty staring at the "Imperial Husband" obliviously, and retreated with interest. Qi Yan's eyes were red, sitting on the bed and watching Nangong Jingnv.

Nangong Jingnu shook her lips: "I just ... had a dream."

Qi Yanbei begins, softly: "Your Majesty ..."

Nangong Jingnu: "Are you tired? Go back first, you go back first ..."

Qi Yan: "Your Majesty ..."

Nangong Jingnv's tone became more and more urgent: "Go back, I want you to go back, to return to the palace!"

Qi Yan stood up: "Yes."

After Qi Yan left, Nangong Jingnv was lying motionless on the bed. She didn't want to think about anything. As if she didn't think about it, she was lying here motionlessly. What happened just now was just her dream.

I don't know how long, Gong Yanghuai personally reported: "Many courtiers have been waiting outside the court hall, please see Your Majesty."

Nangong Jingnu got up and shouted "Autumn Chrysanthemum", but she walked in with a new face, and gave a timid gift to Nangong Jingnu: "Slaves and stars."

Nangong Jing girl wanted to ask: What about Qiuju? The words drew near the lips, and tears came out.

Xing Xing knelt on the ground, and said terrorly, "Slave slaves."

Nangong Jingnv raised her hand to wipe away the tears, and said lightly: "Anyway, I just dozed off for a long time and my eyes were a little dry."

Fan Xing: "Yes, Your Majesty."

Except Qi Yan, Nangong Jingnv will not expose her fragility in front of anyone, even if her heart is so painful that she can't breathe, except for the momentary dislocation, there is no clue.

Nangong Jingnu: "Bath and dress."

Stars: "Yes."

Nangong Jingnv came to Chaotang by car, where Manchu Wenwu was kneeling and waiting.

Nangong Jingnv: "Everyone's family is free of charge."

Everyone: "Thank Your Majesty!"

Nangong Jingnv: "Well ... these few days have shocked your Qing family."

The crowd echoed some beautiful words and fell into silence again. After a few breaths, Zhongshu Province's left servant shot broke the deadlock.

Lu Boyan: "His majesty, the impeachment of imperial prince Yang Huai, there are three crimes: unscrupulous and unscrupulous, staying in the palace is one crime, and privately adjusting the army to block the capital is two crimes, and using Dingfu soldiers to replace the palace door. Guard, this is also three crimes. Taiweigong Yanghuai is suspected of rebellion, abusing his powers, disrupting the inner court of the capital, and punishing several crimes and punishing him according to law. He should be dismissed and demoted to the public. Sin is true. Sin can wipe out the nine! "

Gongyang Huai came out on his knees to the hall: "Your Majesty, there is a cause for it, but also Majesty Mingjian."

One of the two in the hall was the sister-in-law of the prince's house in the past, and the other was the lieutenant of the court. The military attache group did not stand well and kept silent. The Civil Service Group also held a wait-and-see attitude. Although Lu Fu's strength was weak, the foundation was still unshakable. The Rams had a weak foundation but the eyesight could see that the Ram Yanghuai is now a hot character in the North Korea. Wonderful, and see how your Majesty decides.

Nangong Jingnv was silent for a long time. She remembered every word that Qi Yan said, and knew that Yang Yanghuai had been ordered by Qi Yan.

Nangong Jingnv raised her hand and pressed her chest. There was real pain in her, but her face was not exposed.

Nangong Jingnv: "This is the concubine's intention, and the reason is inconvenient to elaborate. Lu Qing's family is loyal, but the charge of impeachment is not true. Gongyanghuai, get up."

Ram Yang Huai: "Xia Xie!"

Gongyanghuai returned to the team, but his back was sweating coldly ... So it seems that His Majesty has no disagreement with Yuanjun, and his own head and the whole family ’s life have been saved.

Lu Boyan's face changed a bit, and he was interrupted by the Chinese scripture order Xing Jingfu without waiting to speak. "Since Her Majesty Kang Taichen waited, he was assured, but the capital was blocked for a few days, and the adults delayed the journey. , Please also His Majesty make a decision early. "

Nangong Jingnu: "Hey ... I'm very tired today. Everything will be discussed at the court tomorrow. If you don't want a copy, then retreat."

After the next dynasty, Yang Yanghuai asked her father and son, Nangong Jingnv, how to set it up. Nangong Jingnv: "I know what they said, let them go back to the house and discuss it in Japan."

Gongyanghuai passed by and took the opportunity to knock on the father and son of Ding family: "Master Ding, Qi Yuanjun is a royal husband of the dynasty. His majesty is no better than a man. The royal husband is also a country. Your father and son ... still be careful Good behavior, there is no remorse in this world. "

Ding Yi's face was red and white, leaving Ding Fengshan.

Qi Yan returned to the palace of Cheng Dynasty and entered the study room. There are not much left in "On the Ten Disadvantages of the Old Politics", and frankly he lost his goal and retreat at the same time. Qi Yan did not know what he should do, waiting for the general manager. It's hard, it's better to do what you can.

Nangong Jingnv returned to Ganquan Palace, ordered someone to lock the palace door, ordered no one to be disturbed, went back to the dormitory alone, and fell to the bed and wept silently.

As soon as I woke up, the sky was sinking, and the impact was one after another. Nangong Jingnu no longer knew which one to face first.

Should it be sad Qiuju, the death of Chen Chuanxi and Xia He, or should we be shocked that there is such a huge frontal force in Wei Kingdom? Or go face-to-face ... Identities of Agula and women?

Nangong Jingnv didn't dare go face to face with Yan or Agoura. She didn't know what she should say and how to face her ...

How can a woman who has loved her for many years be a woman?

She said she was here for revenge, and she has been living for so many years ... How much is it done? Nangong Jingnu dare not think deeply.

It's just these two things ... that is unforgivable.

To punish her?

Then she ... there is only a dead end.

Nangong Jingnv completely closed herself and did not hear the report from the palace: Princess Zhuohua took the Yuci token and entered the Ganquan Palace. Both the palace and the housekeeper were new officials, and they did not dare to drive, and followed the palace all the way.

Seeing that there was no promise in the palace, the maid of nangong pushed the door and walked in.

Stars: "His Royal Highness!"

Nangong's maid: "Let's all step down. Your Majesty will explain this to you, and I won't blame you."

Fanxing: "Yes ..."

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The update is here. I'm dissatisfied everyone. I suddenly felt at 12 o'clock last night. I wrote it until 6 o'clock this morning, went to sleep at 10:30 and wrote it now. Although the number of words is a little bit, I am basically satisfied.

If this chapter is read in conjunction with 13.14.15.16, it is better to read it. In addition, the reaction of Nangong Jingnv's side should not be anxious. Isn't this the end? Qi Yan has done everything in these small books for many years. I have shaken her out these days.

Nangong Jingnv doesn't know the main show yet, so I just do n’t want to accept it and I do n’t know how to solve and face it.

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