Cold Palace’s Abandoned Consort

The night wind will move the window, hit the wall, and make a "snatch" sound. In this sound, I slowly raised my head, looking at the swaying residual candle, watching the candlelight, and the pair of wonderful words Red eyes.

She looked at me with tears on her face: "Mother, why did you lie to me?"

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"The person in Uncle San's heart has always been you."

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"Then why don't you tell me? You keep telling me about the eldest princess, how good my aunt is to him, how well they are, and making me think that uncle and her will be heaven The happiest person below. I think so because you say so! "

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"Since you said so much, why don't you tell me directly, in fact, the person that Uncle San likes is you?"

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"I like him. I want to marry him. I told you everything, but mother, you hide everything from me. You do n’t even tell me about his relationship with you. You just look at me like this silly every day. Yes, tell you how much I like him and how much he likes him, watching me run after him every day after him ... but you know in your heart, he likes you in your heart! "

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"You hide everything from me!"

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"How many more things are you hiding from me!"

I felt terribly uncomfortable in my heart. In words, every sentence was like a blow, hitting my chest heavily, and I used almost all my strength to breathe, so that I could not fall down in her offensive. Looking at her tear-stained face, stubborn expression, after a long time, I finally smiled miserably.

"Yes, the person he loves is me."

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"The person I love is him."

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Feeling the body of the wonderful words tremble slightly, as if to fall, I still looked at her calmly-maybe only at this time, I can have the courage and strength to take everything that cannot be said in the past, in the future I won't say anything, tell her all.

As she shivered and was about to speak, I took a step and said calmly, "Your uncle-to be precise, was your father."

She suffocated at once.

I said calmly: "Your mother, I used to be a little maid in this palace, because of some things, was watched by your father and emperor and included in his harem. But at that time, he had the person he loved, and I, I also do n’t want to feel wronged, so your mother ’s first child, maybe your brother, or sister, has a miscarriage. This hurts me deeply, and even makes me unable to forgive your father-in-law. But, after all, it came to an end. After experiencing something, I jumped out of his boat into the river, and wanted to commit suicide, but also relieved. "

Miaoyan opened her eyes in horror, and reached out to grab my sleeve.

I said lightly, "But I didn't die, but I was saved. That person is your third uncle."

Her hand holding my sleeve sank again.

"Your uncle rescued me, but at that time, I found out that I was pregnant. Although I used death to escape from your father-in-law, I still left one of his children in the stomach-it was you."

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"In those days, your third uncle was taking care of me and was very good to me, not asking for returns. Later, I married him until you were born. He stayed with me and was always caring. Take care of you. Do you remember the silver lock? Remember the words above? It was the long-life lock he gave you after you were born. I hope that the three of us will not be separated in this life. "

I saw a lot of tears falling from her eyes, and fell on the sleeve that I was holding by her, and after a while, she had a large area.

The cold wetness soon soaked into my skin, making me a little shudder.

I can imagine how big a wave these things made in her heart.

However, at this stage, I can no longer conceal, and there is no way to conceal, if my daughter is doomed to suffer some pain, then, now, now.

I took a deep breath and went on to say, "I originally thought that we could not be separated for a lifetime, he would treat you as his biological daughter, take good care of it, and live like this for a long time, in fact, for a long time It ’s all like that, it ’s just that, God has teased us—I was found by your father, he, he used some means to force us to separate, and later, you were robbed by others, and I— ”

Suo Yan suddenly looked up at me: "How are you?"

Her eyes were a bit scorching. I finally gritted my teeth under that kind of eyes and slowly said, "I was locked in the palace for more than two years, and then I managed to escape."

At this moment, she suddenly said, "Is that so?"

"..." My eyebrows frowned slightly, looking at her.

The words of the wonderful words flickered, as if the whole person was shaking, looking at me: "These days, when I sneak out to see you, I heard some palace people talking about you in the back, talking about me, and talking about that— —Mother-in-law. What they say is different from mother-in-law. "

My eyes darkened, "What do they say?"

"They said, my mother is crazy. For more than two years, you have been a lunatic."

"...!"

My heart was sore.

I didn't expect that these things had been known to her, but I didn't want to let her know at all-she is now, just when she was growing up, there are some things that she knows, while receiving the sympathy of her children, the majesty of her parents also It will collapse suddenly at this time, so if I can hide it, I will try to hide it.

But did not expect that those who chew the tongue in the palace let her know about it.

I gritted my teeth fiercely and didn't speak, but the wonderful words looked at me scorchingly: "Mother still refuses to tell me the truth ... how did the concubine treat you, these days, I heard a lot."

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I was silent for a long time before realizing that it was time to tell the truth.

She, probably already, has to face the cruel reality.

So, I finally said, "Yes, the mother is crazy. For more than two years, the mother has been locked in a room by the door, and many pillars have been nailed to the door and the window, like a cage of wild beasts. The mother eats Meals are going to make people go crazy. As long as the mother eats it, she will start yelling, screaming like a beast, and your throat will bleed. I will also see a lot of hallucinations, such as-I will see Someone snatched you from the sorrow, or threw you off the cliff, or drowned you in the water. "

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"Every time I start to hit people desperately, sometimes I realize that what I see is an illusion, but there is no way to get rid of it, I will hit my head against the wall, here, here, all broke, blood Flow around. "

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"After a few times, I didn't dare to eat what they gave me, so I put those things in the corner and led the rats to eat, and then I caught the rats to eat. And the leaves and wood **** that the wind blew to the door, everything Have eaten. "

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"In winter, they gave me the quilt. It looks good outside. Actually, the catkins are mixed with shredded cotton wool. It's cold, so I made a kind of lighter and wanted to lighten things and bake them. When the guards saw me, they grabbed my hair, dragged me out, and beat me in the yard for a long, long time. "

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I felt that the sleeves were getting heavier, and she was holding my sleeves hard.

Therefore, I did not go on.

Although she probably heard a lot from those palace people, but she really heard every bit of detail from her mother's mouth, and it was different.

And personal experience is even more different.

The so-called "same empathy" is just a useless nonsense. No one will really understand how much I hate in my heart, how much pain and unwillingness in my heart, even more. Understand that when you are beaten, when you are hungry, and when you hit the wall again and again, the intense pain.

Miaoyan's eyes were full of tears, but she didn't dare to move. It was like she was afraid that when she moved, the tears would burst out again. She looked at me and shivered, "Why do you want to take me, Read her Heart Sutra. Why are you— "

After watching her stop talking, I said lightly: "You want to ask, why is it like this, mother still survives, right?"

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"It's for you. At that time, the only belief of the mother is you, to survive for you, to survive to find you. Without this belief, without you, mother, I don't really know what it will look like, though "It won't go crazy, but maybe one day they will be killed by their hands, or one night they will be frozen to death and starved to death."

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"Just died in that cage."

"mother!"

She cried in pain, tears finally came out, she looked at me and asked, crying:

I heard her painful cry, and tears finally came out, but at this time, I calmed down and looked at her calmly, saying, "Why don't you resent mother tell you nothing, tell you nothing. Yes, mother I don't intend to tell you, because people have to experience too many things in their lives, old and sick, resentment, love, parting, can't ask. "

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"However, you should go through your own experience, not the experience of your mother-in-law. Mother-in-law does not tell you that she wants you to face your future life with a happy and positive attitude. Those ups and downs that may occur unfortunately."

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"Reading the Sutra to her is not forgiveness. The mother did not have such a good heart to complain with virtue. The mother just complained directly. In the night, the Sutra was actually reading for you. I hope that in the future, you wo n’t have to bear the mother Resentment. "

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"As for your third uncle ..."

When I was here, I finally choked and saw her suddenly broken eyes. I said, "I did not tell you early in the morning, because these things-my mother couldn't speak."

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"With his past, everyone doesn't want us to mention it, whether it's your father or your father."

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"We are also very clear that some things are impossible. So sooner or later, your feelings for him will be left. For no other reason, it is stronger than others. He just treats you as a daughter and as a junior; he is about to marry him. It's your aunt, and in his heart, he likes ... "I choked, and continued:" All of this is doomed to you to have no results. "

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"So, my mother didn't tell you, I just hope that this thing will fade away in your life and become a little memory. Maybe many years later, when I think of it, there will be a little pain, but the lover's mood is Good. "

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"In fact, my mother is proud of you."

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"My daughter, when she loved someone, she didn't just stare at the person's skin, she didn't have the origin and status of the disliked person. In this regard, the mother is most fortunate. Because even if you can't be with him, The person you fall in love with will never be worse than your uncle. He will have a kind and upright soul and a brave and gentle heart before my daughter will fall in love. "

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She frowned, as if trying to say something, but couldn't say it.

I said softly: "There is no shame in loving someone, no matter what status or status he is, even if he doesn't love you, even if he loves others, but when he loves him, enjoy the sweetness of missing him , Remembering the past you have experienced with him, and using the years you spent with him as the best treasure of your life ... will these make you miserable? "

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"Love, originally a pure joy, will only be painful when you want to force it."

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"Man's life was originally free and easy, but he put a lot of yoke on himself, with grudges and hatred, and wealth and fame, but the thing that should not be used as a yoke is love."

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"Don't use love as a shackle, lock yourself up, and lock up others."

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Miaoyan's eyes flashed a lot of emotions, confused, lost, helpless, doubtful, clear, all of which made her look a little confused. After a long time, she looked up and looked at me with a complex expression, He said, "So mother, what are you locked in?"

"……I?"

When I heard this question, there was a hint of confusion.

What am I locked in?

Looking at her **** and white eyes, there were tears in her face, and there seemed to be many emotions, but at this moment, she only asked me for an answer.

What am I locked in?

I was a bit helpless, with a slight smile, and felt a cold wind blowing in, blowing the already faint residual candle on the table and swaying. I turned around and saw the dark window outside At night, a tall figure stood in the middle of the courtyard, watching us quietly.