Cold Palace’s Abandoned Consort

Mother raised her eyebrows slightly.

She kept looking at me quietly, and seemed to be waiting for my question, but when she heard me asking about this, she seemed a little confused. After thinking about it, she said, "He has three children in his family, but , I just met for a while and didn't have much impression. "

"..."

I froze, and then looked at her indifferent eyes, suddenly there was an urge to laugh.

Sometimes, some people and things are extremely important to us, as if they are full of our lives, but for others, it is probably just a little coolness blown by the wind, not even memories.

World affairs are just such irony.

Mother glanced at me and said, "Do you remember him?"

I jumped in my heart and looked up at her again. She said, "You went to that child to play with."

"..."

"However, the child is too young to be sensible. When you take him out, you fall and everyone is afraid you will hurt him, and you dare not let you touch him again."

"Is that right……"

I was a little stunned and didn't know what else I could say for a while. I didn't remember what I was doing at an early age. If I could really remember it, it would be great.

It took a long time before I took my emotions away from the incident and asked, "Why mother, why should you give half of the Qian Kuntu to Liu Shizhou's daughter?"

"That was just an accident."

"..."

"When I was making the Qiankun map, I accidentally found that Kuntu looked backwards, like a 'Li' character. Just then, Liu Shizhou was about to leave Xichuan. Before he left, he wanted me to name his daughter. I gave her that word. "

"..."

"Give her, myself, and I'm determined."

"So after that, for so many years, you've been planning this, haven't you? Until I leave Xichuan."

Mother nodded slightly.

That sour feeling rushed up again, and my eyes were hot again, but stubbornly opened her eyes and looked at her: "You, for so many years, you haven't mentioned me a word."

"..."

"You didn't even scam yourself, you didn't tell me."

"..."

"Do you even hide me?"

My mother looked at me for a while and probably realized my grievance and indignity at the moment. She looked at my eyes with kindness, but without any guilt or apology, she just said calmly: "Because the mother has something to do, I can't hide from you, I can't let you go. "

"So you would rather give me down!"

"..."

"Aren't you a mother? As a mother, you can bear your own daughter ?!"

I originally thought that after seeing her, everything could be forgiven and everything could be put down, but at this time, I still couldn't help it, and even couldn't control my resentment and questioned her with a whisper.

She looked at me for a moment and then said, "Of course I am a mother to you."

"..."

"But I am myself."

"..."

"Lightness, you're already big now, and you shouldn't use your mother to tell you this."

"..."

"If you limit your identity to others, you are just a subsidiary of others and you can never be your true self."

"..."

"You can be a man's wife, mother, or even grandmother, but most importantly, you are yourself."

"..."

"Mother taught you, did you forget it all?"

For a moment, her expression returned to the solemnity she had taught me when I was a child. The feeling of self-indignation was once again over my head. I almost thought that I was going to cry, but at this moment, she stopped crying It just stared at her blankly.

With her silent but magnificent commentary, I finally sighed and lowered my head deeply.

In fact, it is not the question of righteousness that can support me.

Just wronged.

I just wanted to get a little soothing, I held on for a long time, and finally choked, "I ... I always ..."

I just don't want to.

Not willing to her, for me, is the standard of all right and wrong, is the ultimate pillar of my heart, but I am a person who can be abandoned to her.

I whimpered and murmured, "I always ... I ..."

A hand stretched out gently, stroking my hair.

At that moment, I seemed to be back in my childhood, and after every strict word taught to me, she would touch my hair so gently, although there was no more words, but the tenderness revealed from her fingertips, just It's enough to calm me down.

I looked up at her, tears dripping down one by one.

She whispered, "Don't cry, it's so big."

I sobbed, raised my hand to wipe away the tears on my face, but still couldn't stop the tears from falling, she looked at me and sighed softly.

"In fact, my mother also has selfishness."

"..."

"My mother knows that when you go, you will not be at peace for half of your life. You will definitely experience a lot of twists and turns. If your mother is outside and knows everything, it will worry you, but you can do nothing, and your mother will also be miserable ; So, in this place, you do n’t know anything. As soon as you open your eyes, you already see you now— "

As she said, she reached out and gently wiped the wet corners of my eyes, softly said, "At least my mother can be lucky."

"..."

"You're all here."

"..."

"And it's up to you."

"Actually, I'm not totally on my own," I breathed heavily and sobbed slightly. "A lot of people have helped me along the way, and these people whose mothers stay in Xichuan are very kind to me OK. Even— "

"what?"

"Even Mrs. Yan, it's for me-it's for me."

Mother's face shook slightly.

Almost for a moment, her look looked a little older, and a few strands of snow-white hair dangled from her forehead, covering her eyes.

I couldn't see her eyes at this moment, but only heard her breath hold, and sighed again.

I went on to say: "Master Zhengjue-my second uncle, he has also passed away."

"..."

"There is also Qinghan. He mistakenly thought that the Qiankun map in my hand was a secret map of the treasures you sent overseas, and he went overseas to find and died overseas."

"..."

"And, aunt, and Mr. Ma ..."

"..."

"And Uncle Ai ..."

I said one by one, I couldn't see the look on her mother's face and her eyes, only to see that strand of hair trembled with her nose.

In the end, my tears burst into my eyes again.

"Mother, and, and-"