Cold Palace’s Abandoned Consort

The fate ends up together, and the sin is always separated.

I could hear the inexplicable anxiety in my heart, as if something inexplicable hurt came to my heart.

There is a fate ... finally together, it is sin ... total separation.

It was just a short ten words, but it seemed to be able to chew too much emotion from it.

Feeling sad and helpless, as if a person is pursuing a lifelong dream towards himself, he has been so close, and he has always refused to give up, but he has never been able to grasp it, nor can he hold it straight.

Or is it a kind of determination not to give up from beginning to end?

Because faith is destined, no matter how difficult it is and how long it is separated, it is believed that there will be a day of reunion.

Qing Han, which one are you?

How do you feel about me and us when you chant these two poems?

I stood there for a while, all my mind was condensed, and I forgot everything around me. At this moment, a crisp voice came from the front, interrupting my thoughts at once-

"Aunt Qing!"

Looking up, I saw that Nianchen ran over from Chang Qing with a smile and hugged my thigh.

I was stunned by him. I was sober when I was shocked. I looked down at the bun with a fleshy face, and my eyes were bent into two crescents, sweet and greasy: "Aunt Qing, you are here."

I patted his chubby little face with a smile: "His Royal Highness."

The child did not see me for a few days and was still slimy. I reached out and patted his increasingly broad shoulders, raised his head to look at Chang Qing, she just sat there with a calm smile, and the light in the room was not too bright. Her handsome silhouette is a little deeper.

Nian Shen is still small, and he doesn't feel the undercurrent in it. He just hugged me and said, "Aunt Qing, I haven't seen you for a few days. Father Huang said that Aunt Qing is not well? Aunt Qing Where does it hurt? "

"Aunt Qing doesn't hurt."

"really?"

"It doesn't hurt to see His Highness."

As soon as he heard it, he almost laughed and his eyes were almost gone, and then he held my hand and said, "Aunt Qing, Nianshen has learned a lot of things recently. Wait until Aunt Qing gets better, and she will show Aunt Qing silently."

I reached out and stroked his little face, smiling, and said, "Aunt Qing knows that His Royal Highness has been working very hard, but the Palace may not know, in fact, the two poems that your teacher read, and the following two."

"Really?" Nian Shen hurried to me: "Aunt Qing knows, why do you want to hear me?"

I nodded, squatted down to look at his slick eyes, and said, word by word, "I'm at ease, my heart is the same."

"Gathering ... Fate ... free, my heart ... finally the same ..."

With deep age and experience, it is already very difficult to understand the previous two sentences. These two poems even twisted the little brow into a frown. I smiled and looked up at Chang Qing. She seemed to be lost for a moment, and those autumn-like eyes made a little imperceptible ripples, but she calmed down quickly and said lightly, "Well, deep in thought, I have something to talk to your aunt after the mother. Go back first and repeat your homework today. "

"Oh ... yes mother. The sons resigned."

Nianshen was still a little bit persecuted, holding my little finger, but also obedient, made a ceremony for Chang Qing and me, and turned and walked out. Kou Er and Xing Er also retreated silently and closed the door.

Then I looked up and came to Chang Qing.

The room was still so quiet, there was no wind, and the light smoke rising from the bronze incense burner on the ottoman at her hand became a straight line, and it slowly spread out to a very high place, as if it was this The only vividness in the room.

I saluted her gently.

Chang Qing did not speak, but just sat there quietly, and the eyes of autumn water restored the calm of the past, as if the surface of the lake without ripples, seemed a little confused under the light smoke, and seemed to be thinking deeply, I stood in front of her for a while, without any reaction.

I said softly, "Queen Mother?"

"..."

She was called back to me by heart, and she looked up at me blankly, and I said gently, "Is the mother calling Weichen, do you have something to explain?"

"..."

She was silent for a while, looking at me and saying, "Do you know, what does this palace ask you to say?"

"Weichen knows."

"Your answer, just like that?"

"Yes."

Chang Qing's eyes were covered with a layer of haze, like a bit of helplessness and helplessness, and he sighed softly: "How are you still so stingy?"

I listened, didn't argue, didn't answer, but just bowed my head in silence.

Actually, I don't think I'm stingy.

I can understand what she thinks, maybe everyone will feel that being with a person for too long, entangled too deeply, will inevitably be exhausted, tired, compromised, and helpless, since it has been these years, It might as well be like this. Then, take a step back and take another step back.

Slowly, everything becomes compromised, everything is tolerant, and finally, I no longer know myself.

However, I don't want to "just be like this".

What I want is always clear to me, even-I have got it before, so I know that this is not what I want.

The words that Yang Jinqiao once said to me made me understand more after experiencing so much.

People, if you don't want to become nothing in the end, the best first step is to not give in!

Because, after concession, I know too well!

Seeing that I was always calm and silent, but could not see a trembling look, Chang Qing seemed to know that she could not convince me. After thinking for a while, she slowly said, "This palace also knows that there are some things that should not be forced on you, But this palace still has to say-- "

I looked at her silently.

"Even at the court, even if you don't ask, you should know that the situation is not optimistic. The emperor is now-very bitter."

The last time she said it was not easy. This time, she said it was very bitter.

Looking back at Pei Yuanzhang's red eyes and tired eyes yesterday, I lowered my eyes silently.

"This palace doesn't force you to turn around or ask you to do anything, just at these times--"

"Mother-in-law," I interrupted her calmly, and said, "when Wei Chen woke up, she had already talked to the mother-in-law. This is already what Wei Chen can do, the best."

The word "best", I accentuated a bit more, Chang Qing seemed to feel something, and hesitated for a moment.

I still looked at her calmly.

What kind of person I am, Chang Qing may not fully understand, but she cannot know at all.

This is the best I can do. I said this sincerely, but I didn't finish it. I didn't tell her, this is what I can endure, the biggest limit.

At least, in the crisis of his administration, I didn't ignite in his backyard ...

I didn't even think about Nangong Lizhu ...

It is not that I have forgotten the pain, I am not a person who has forgotten all after the pain, and I have no kind heart to complain. I just feel that I should not entangle with him like this.

The more entangled I am, the harder it will be for me to get out.

After a long silence, Chang Qing looked at me and slowly said, "Have you made up your mind?"

I nodded slightly.

This time, she didn't say anything. I thought she would be angry. At least she would think that I did n’t know what to do, but she did n’t. She just looked at me so calmly. Clear light. After a while, she smiled slightly, as if she had cleaned up the previous conversation with me: "Let's go out with my palace."

"..."

I stumbled a little. She jumped so much that I couldn't react, but she quickly followed her and walked out.

The sun outside was a little poisonous, but she kept walking forward silently, as if she could not feel anything. In the bright sunlight, her eyes were still so faint, without a warm solitude.

I followed her quietly.

This top woman in the dynasty, she has all kinds of glory that others ca n’t imagine, even the hope of many door ladies, but only I know that the eyes she has seen these years have always been so indifferent, almost letting Unexpectedly, she once had the bright eyes of looking forward to Shenfei, raising her hands and throwing her feet on the stage, all so charming and charming.

This is where I distress her most.

The two walked into the Royal Garden for a while, where the trees are lush and the flowers are fresh, and the fresh smell in the air is more comfortable. She turned back to see me sweating, and then came back to her: "Go there and sit and cool Right. "

"Ok."

I followed her into a gazebo, and the shaded area was a little more comfortable. I took a handkerchief out of my sleeve and wiped the sweat from my forehead. Chang Qing sat beside him and looked at it suddenly, "This is your handkerchief?"

I froze and looked down at the rough white handkerchief in my hand.

This is not mine, but when I saw Qing Han in a bamboo forest outside Bieyuan, he saw me crying to me. I kept it, but Chang Qing watched it.

Although my identity is the right hand of Jixian Temple, but the food and clothing are all from the harem, such a handkerchief should naturally not appear in my hands.

"……Yes."

Listening to my somewhat hesitant answer, Chang Qing was already clear.

She turned her head slightly, looking at the lush green leaves shone by the sun, and said lightly, "You, the young mother, you are with the queen mother and you have been praying for so long, you know what compassion is meaning?"

mercy?

I looked up at her, groaned slowly, and said slowly: "Compassion is the happiness that brings all beings; sorrow is the relief of all beings."

"Do you understand compassion?"

"Weichen ..."

I sat there silently, and for a while I did n’t know how to answer, Chang Qing turned his head and looked at me with a smile and said, "This palace doesn't ask you to do the best, to do better, this palace just hopes, to the emperor, you Be compassionate. "

Be compassionate ...

I was speechless, just sitting there, facing her calm face, thinking for a while.

I don't know how long, there was a sound of footsteps behind me, Chang Qing looked up behind me and looked up, immediately stood up, and a blessing gently towards me: "Meichen meet the emperor."

It's Pei Yuanzhang.

In the past, no matter how I faced him, I didn't move at all. I was unable to stir up all kinds of emotions, but today, I just heard the word "compassion", but it made me a little confused and hesitant. After all, carefully put the handkerchief back in his sleeve, and then turned around and worshiped the people who had already walked outside the pavilion: "Wei Chen met the emperor."

"Get up."

He took a step forward and lifted me up, and his eyes seemed to be relaxed: "Queen, why are you here?"

"It's too hot in the room and I want to blow it out."

"Oh." He looked down at me. "Not sad?"

I lowered my head, was silent, and shook my head: "Weichen is okay."

It ’s okay, but it ’s such a sultry day. My forehead has been sweating for a long time, but the handkerchief ca n’t be taken out. He looked at my cheeks with redness and said, “Is it still hot?”

I didn't speak, just nodded.

Seeing me like this, Chang Qing seemed to be relieved and said with a smile: "It's a bit sweltering this year, there is no wind in this Royal Garden."

"Um." Pei Yuanzhang frowned, looking at this low gazebo, and seemed a little dissatisfied.

I looked at him, and then looked at Chang Qing, and suddenly said, "The Jixian Hall has a veranda, two floors higher than such a pavilion. The scenery is very good, and it is airy and cool. The mother-in-law can come and take a look."

"Ji Xiandian?"

Pei Yuanzhang listened and said, "Although it's cool there, it's far away. If you're not healthy right now, don't go."

"……Yes."

His words did not surprise me, a faint lip in his lips.

He was still so careful.

These days, there is no real house arrest or forcible imprisonment, but he only needs one word to stop my steps, and even the Royal Study Room that can be approached in the past can no longer go. Every time I walk to the door, Will be accompanied by a few court maids with a smile and persuaded to come back.

I looked up and looked at the red wall not far away.

With such a high red wall, no wind can blow in. What else can come in, and what can I do to get out?

.

Unconsciously, another two or three days passed.

After that day, Chang Qing didn't look for me again, and I stayed in my house in peace, and there was some sweltering ice tray that she sent. I knew that I was not healthy and I ate well. Not much, mostly to Shuixiu and Kouer, hiding in my room and eating a mouthful of juice.

On this day, Wu Yan watched them eating around the table and eating with a big mouth, smiling and came over and patted Shuixiu's head: "The things you brought to adults are cheaper for you again!"

Shui Xiu and Kou Er smiled, holding watermelons, still eating juice.

Wu Yan smiled helplessly, and brought a bowl of Xiaoshu soup to me: "Adults don't eat cold, drink this Jieshu."

I looked up at her and took it with a smile.

When I finished drinking, Shui Xiu had eaten everything, and they were packing up in Wu Yan's scolding, and they heard the humane outside: "The emperor is here."

When they heard this, they panicked and stopped the work in their hands. They knelt down in haste. I turned around and saw Pei Yuanzhang coming in from the door. At this time, the sun had gone down, but the heat on the ground was still heavy. It's so sad to come over at this time, he smiled as he entered the door, "You're still cool here."

I walked over and was about to bow down, he already grabbed my hand and pulled me up.

I could not help frowning.

He has n’t been here for several days since the day in the Royal Garden. I thought he had lost patience, and thought it was going to be a panic. He could n’t care about it, but he did n’t expect to come again today, and As soon as it comes--

"Emperor, Weichen--"

I looked at his hand and didn't finish talking, I just wanted to remind him, but he didn't seem to hear it and caught it closer.

In this weather, the touch of skin ironing is already hot.

"emperor."

"You follow me."

After he said it, he couldn't help but pull me out.

I was puzzled by the monk Zhang Er, but in such hot weather, I was hurriedly pulled out, and after a while I was sweating and went straight into the Royal Garden.

Here is still the same as before, the green trees are lush, and the flowers are more colorful because of the hot summer, and they are beautiful.

And in such a wicked landscape, a brand new veranda came into view.

I stood in the corridor, but couldn't react for a moment. With my eyes wide open, I looked at the steps winding up the corridor not far away. Pei Yuanzhang pulled me all the way up. I just felt that my vision was suddenly bright. The waterfront terrace of the Xiandian is almost exactly the same. Four red pillars support this small and large building. It is transparent on all sides, and a scent of breeze blowing in the grass and trees blows away, sweltering the sultry irritability.

this is--

"So, how?"

His voice sounded in my ear, and I couldn't react for a while, then I looked back at him slowly.

"Do you like it?"

"..."

Three days ago, it was just a low gazebo.

In just three days, there was such a veranda on the spot!

My eyebrows kept narrowing, as if condensing something that could not be undone, a cool breeze blew, blowing a ray of green silk in front of my eyes, making me look at the person in front of me, a little fuzzy and unclear.

For a long while, I said a bit hard: "Emperor, this is--"

"It's for you."

"..."

"Do you still like it?"

"..."