Confession

After Xu Sui returned to school, she went to the cafeteria to eat a bowl of wontons. Because she went too late and the soup was a bit cold, she ate very slowly and her expression was weak. It seemed that nothing happened, and she even followed. The aunt who gathered the tableware greeted her.

After eating, Xu Sui still felt a little hungry, turned around and went to the canteen to pick ice cream, and bought a mung bean smoothie, a piece of glutinous rice, and lychee sea salt ice cream.

Xu Sui opened the green wrapping paper and took a bite. It was so cold that it was very sweet. Xu Sui's white lotus-like arm slung a white plastic bag of ice cream, and went back to the bedroom in a daze while eating.

After returning to the bedroom, the pear vortex on Xu Sui's cheek appeared: "Would you like to eat ice cream?"

"Yes, it just happens to be so hot to me." Liang Shuang walked over.

Xu Sui put down his bag, just pulled out the chair and sat down, the phone screen lit up. It was a message from Hu Xixi: [Follow, isn't it Zhou Jingze's birthday today? Why aren’t you and the protagonist here, just let us play here]

Xu Sui lowered his eyelashes and typed in the dialog: [I and him... broke up. 】

After sending the message, Xu Sui put his phone aside and went to wash his hair and take a shower. After finishing his work, Xu Sui read a book for a while, couldn't get it in, and simply turned on the computer to find a horror movie he liked.

Liang Shuang was playing a game, and when he saw it, he put down his mobile phone and took up a stool to watch with her. In order to create a movie atmosphere, Xu Sui turned off the lights, leaving only a crack in the door.

Surrounded by darkness, the weird background music of the film sounded, Liang Shuang touched his neck: "Why do I feel a little weird? No, I have to get my party membership card to avoid evil."

"...You can also." Xu Sui smiled.

Xu Sui put her feet up, hugged her knees, watched seriously, watching the movie all the time, Liang Shuang held her arms tightly, because Xu Sui was wearing a cotton suspender skirt, she slipped off several times.

Xu Sui joked: "Did you take the opportunity to take advantage of me."

"Who doesn't like taking advantage of beautiful women?" Liang Shuang said with a smile.

Liang Shuang saw the focus, and the movie was at the climax. A cat's pupils suddenly mutated, and the music suddenly frightened. The cat tilted its head and a mouthful of the little girl's neck.

"Ahhhhh-" Liang Shuang screamed out of fright.

At the same time, a screaming female voice echoed outside the door. Xu quickly turned on the light and patted Liang Shuang's arm: "It's okay."

The bedroom door was opened, and the classmates from the bedroom next door walked in and pressed his chest: "Xu Sui, your bedroom is too scary. It almost scared me out of a heart attack."

Xu Suixiao: "In fact, it's okay, are you here to borrow something?"

The girl shook her head with excitement: "Zhou Jingze is waiting for you downstairs in the girls' dormitory."

Xu Sui nodded, glanced at the time, and said: "It's eleven o'clock, I should go to bed."

It means she won't go down.

"But he said he would wait until you go down." The girl was worried.

Xu Sui would not believe the same trick a second time, and her tone was cold: "Whatever."

The refusal was obvious. The girl left in a shameless manner. Liang Shuang sent the girl out and closed the door with her backhand. She wanted to ask Xu Sui and Zhou Jingze what was going on. one time.

Xu Sui watched the interrupted movie, turned off the computer after watching, and went to bed. At one o'clock in the morning, there was a sudden gust of wind, doors and windows were slammed, clothes on the balcony swayed in the wind, and some were blown downstairs.

It seems that it is about to rain heavily.

Xu Sui and Liang Shuang woke up in the middle of the night to collect their clothes. Xu Suiyu took a pair of rabbit slippers and leaned on the balcony of the corridor, collecting clothes one by one.

Dou Da's raindrops smashed in diagonally, and Xu hurried up as she collected the clothes, and when she finished taking the clothes, she inadvertently looked down, her eyes stopped.

A tall figure was standing downstairs, and he was still there. The violent wind was turbulent, the shadows of the trees swayed, and the dim street lights stretched Zhou Jingze's figure, looking cold and precipitous.

He bit a cigarette, lowered his head and stretched out his hands to the fire, the scarlet flames burst out of the tiger's mouth from time to time, and were blown out by the wind, and his eyebrows were dark and sharp, still with that careless face.

The smoke finally ignited, Zhou Jingze took a sip of the cigarette in his hand, and exhaled a puff of gray smoke with squinting. He raised his eyelids as if he had a sharp heart, and the eyes of the two collided in mid-air.

Xu Sui was caught in sight, but calmly withdrew his gaze, holding his clothes back to the bedroom and closing the door to sleep. Liang Shuang obviously saw this scene and couldn't help but said:

"Tsk, the prodigal son has become a kind of love."

Xu Sui took a sip of water, with a faint tone: "Then you are wrong."

No one knows him better than her.

The next day, when the sky broke, Zhou Jingze waited all night downstairs in the girls' dormitory, with sporadic cigarette butts on his feet. He had a dark eye and stayed up all night. At this moment, his throat was a bit difficult to swallow, and he could only make a single syllable.

He was so embarrassed for the first time in his life.

Zhou Jingze tapped his toes and made a crunching sound when he stepped on the stone. After waiting early in the morning, he didn't see Xu Sui's figure. He sneered, but didn't believe it, and Xu Sui didn't even go to class.

After finally catching her roommate, Zhou Jingze walked over with a hoarse voice: "What about Xu Sui, why didn't you come down with you?"

Liang Shuang was shocked by his aura and shrank his neck: "She...she walked away from the back door."

"..." Zhou Jingze's face was dark enough to drip ink.

Xu Sui smoothly escaped the catastrophe, finished the class steadily, and went to the laboratory after a break at noon. However, on the way to the laboratory, when he passed the school's botanical garden, he was intercepted by Zhou Jingze.

Zhou Jingze stood in front of her, staring at her with dark and narrow eyes, suppressing the surging emotions, and said in a dumb voice:

"Talk."

Xu Sui took a step back subconsciously holding the book, and reminded her quietly: "We have broken up."

Zhou Jingze sneered, his eyes pressed down with brutal and strong emotions: "I didn't agree."

Xu Sui was about to detour, Zhou Jingze moved, stood in front of her, and grabbed her arm. Zhou Jingze leaned over, shoulders close, the two were very close, Xu struggled, but his hair was entangled in the buttons of his collar, and his cheeks were forced to stick to his broad and warm chest.

He was trembling in his chest as he spoke, and Xu Sui was indulged in his familiar breath and wanted to escape but couldn't escape. Every word Zhou Jingze said grabbed her weakness and made her unable to move.

"You haven't finished drinking so many boxes of milk in the refrigerator at home. You have to put the succulents on the side of my bed. If you are not there, I won't care." Zhou Jingze spoke slowly, looking at her, "1017 you can raise it. Don’t get fat anymore? And—

"I, are you willing?"

Xu followed the wetness in his eyes, and two different voices clamored in his heart. One is to be with him, those happiness is real, and the love is true.

But another voice was saying: Don't you need the only love, he can't give it.

The air was silent for a while, and suddenly, a sharp cell phone rang, breaking the deadlocked silence.

Both of them looked at their mobile phones, and she glanced at his mobile phone calling, Ye Saining called, Xu Sui's shaking eyes faded cleanly. Zhou Jingze pressed and refused, and the bell rang reluctantly.

This time, Zhou Jingze directly shut down.

Xu Sui finally untied his hair, took advantage of the situation, and withdrew from his arms, staring directly at him: "Don't pick it up?"

Zhou Jingze didn't speak. After keeping a distance from him, Xu Sui began to speak, his eyes were clear and cold: "You can't drink milk, you can give it to other girls. Throw it succulent.

"1017, I don't want it anymore."

Seeing that Zhou Jingze was about to take a step forward, and Xu then retreated. She has always had a good temper and would not say anything hard to others. She knows Zhou Jingze, is arrogant and frivolous, and has a high temperament. She knows what to say that can make him agree to break up.

Xu Sui took a breath and thought about it. For the first time in his life, he said such vicious words, his tone was impatience: "Can you stop pestering me, look at your face for a second—"

"I feel sick."

Zhou Jingze stopped and raised his eyelids to look at the girl in front of him. He kept looking at her, but within three seconds he recovered his arrogant appearance. He looked at her and said slowly:

"Okay, I won't look for you again."

Zhou Jingze turned around and left. It was very hot in summer, and the flowers in the botanical garden were a little wilted, casting a curved shadow towards the ground. Zhou Jingze raised his eyelids and flicked it quickly. At this moment, he entered a message with the phone just turned on in his hand.

Grandpa sent: "You kid, didn't you say you want to take your girlfriend home?" How about people, are you still coming? 】

Zhou Jingze typed word by word: [Not coming. 】

The sun was violent, and the shadow stretched his figure. Xu Sui stared at his back and his eyes became sour. When Zhou Jingze passed through the thicket, the branches and leaves that jumped out blocked his forehead. He hid his face and walked down the steps. The back disappeared in the corner.

Up to this moment, Xu Sui couldn't support his whole body, squatting down, feeling that he couldn't breathe, and his heart was aching, large and large tears dripped on the hot ground, and quickly melted.

This feeling is too uncomfortable.

After a while, the teacher actually sent a message that Xu Sui squatted on the ground and clicked on WeChat. It was a very long sentence: [Xu Sui, the number of exchange students in Hong Kong will be determined today. Are you really not considering going? B is mostly good. You don't know if the opportunity is rare. The teacher wants you to go. Of course, if you have personal reasons, I respect your wishes. "

Tears dripped on the phone screen, and his vision was blurred. Xu Sui wiped his sleeves and replied: [I have thought about it, I want to go. Thank you school and teacher for this opportunity. 】

Zhou Jingze did what he said, and Xu Suizhen never saw him at school, and never even had a chance to meet him outside the school. I don't know if he said something to Hu Qianxi, the outspoken eldest lady never mentioned this person before Xu Sumian.

Zhou Jingze completely disappeared into her life.

It's as if... this person has never appeared before.

When roommates learned that Xu Sui was going to Hong Kong to exchange for a year, they all expressed their reluctance. Hu Qianxi rubbed her nose and tears on her clothes: "Ouuuuu, follow along, no one will give it to you if you leave. I have a quilt."

"It's not that I won't come back. In just one year, I still have a senior year and a fifth year." Xu Sui smiled and patted her on the back.

Hu Qianxi wiped her tears: "But I majored in veterinary medicine, and I graduated from my senior year. I really don't have much time to see you."

"Fool." Xu Sui stretched out his hand to wipe her tears.

The separations have always come quickly. After taking the exam, Xu Sui went back to Li Ying during the summer vacation. He flew to Hong Kong early in mid-August and was ready to enroll.

It seems that I really want to say goodbye to this city.

In fact, Xu Suiyou met Zhou Jingze. After the exam, Xu Sui went to his uncle's house, sorted out previous teaching assistants and math notes and sent them to Shengyanjia's house.

After sending the notes, she came out of Shengyanjia’s house and subconsciously glanced in when she passed the convenience store, wondering if there would be a teenager in a black T-shirt lying lazily at the cash register, eyebrows Tiredly playing the game, the mint in his mouth rattled.

Unfortunately not.

It was a completely strange face.

Xu Sui retracted his gaze and hurriedly walked forward. When he raised his eyes, the person he wanted to see was not far away. Zhou Jingze was walking the dog with a cigarette in his mouth, pulling the leash.

I haven't seen him for a while, he seems to have changed. Zhou Jingze wore a black letter shirt, black sweatpants, white pants, tall and tall, white sneakers, showing an ankle, and the wrist bones were clearly prominent.

Becoming more and more handsome, but also has a whole new side.

His hair has been cut short, and his head has changed back to the inch, pressed against the green skin, against an unruly face, it is eye-catching wherever he goes.

Master Kui was halfway thirsty, Zhou Jingze stopped, unscrewed a bottle of mineral water, poured it in his palm, and squatted down to feed him a drink.

The girl passing by looked twice more, her eyes shone, and she didn't know if she came to his face or really liked the dog. She gave a "Wow" and proactively accosted: "What kind of dog is this? Handsome."

"German Shepherd." Zhou Jingze reached out his hand and dusted the soot, in a loose tone.

The girl looked at him expectantly: "Can I take a photo with it?"

Xu Sui didn't intend to listen any more, turned and left. At dusk, Zhou Jingze's low magnetic voice followed the wind to her ears, and he paused:

"Can."

—

When Xu Sui flew to Hong Kong in August, the whole city was as hot as a big steamer. She remembered that this year seemed to be the highest temperature in recent years.

Since Xu Sui only came here to exchange for one year, Big B didn't provide accommodation, so he had to find a house on his own. The rents in Hong Kong are extremely high and small, and it is now in the peak season, and she has not found a suitable house after looking around.

Fortunately, a senior sister helped to make the line. Xu Sui shared a rent with a girl of the same level in the same school. In the West Loop, the small size is a bit small, but the price is within the acceptable range and the transportation is convenient. The Broadway movie is only ten minutes away from her. Life is convenient, Jusco and Baijia are also nearby.

The climate in Hong Kong is very suitable all year round, especially in winter, like in autumn, when the weather is good, you can still wear skirts.

The time Xu Sui had exchanged was pretty good. He learned a different kind of medical thinking and gained a lot in medical school.

She tried to participate in various social activities, learned how to play Hong Kong mahjong, dance a little waltz, and also learned how to bake. It seems that I have experienced the little fun in life besides studying.

Xu Sui likes to finish the experiment on weekends and set off from Central alone to take a boat to Lamma Island to relax. It's just that the house she lives in is backed by the sun and the windows are small.

When it rains, the room will be too wet, and the clothes will get wet and need to be dried on the roof to dry. At this time, I miss the dry and cold Beijing city.

The one-year exchange study period soon ended.

Another summer.

The classmates organized a party for Xu Sui. After a group of people gathered for a meal, they transferred to KTV, and didn't know who ordered a separate song in the middle.

Roommate Carrie hugged her tearfully: "Follow, I can't bear you."

Xu Suishun hugged her back, and his eyes happened to meet a boy, Lin Jiafeng, a boy in the class. The relationship between the two will be good. They usually do experiments together and often take the subway home together.

He sat on the sofa and joked: "Me too."

The atmosphere was a little sad, Xu Sui let her go and smiled: "Come and adjust the current atmosphere personally, or let's play a game."

"Yes." Someone agreed.

The games they play are very ordinary—truth or dare, whoever the bottle is transferred to, will be punished by the other person, truth or dare.

The red lights are dim, and some people lose the phone number of the handsome guy who needs to be assigned, and some people lose the tortoise dance in front of everyone.

Xu Sui leaned on Carrie's shoulder, holding the wine glass and laughing staggeringly. A decent face was reflected in the transparent glass, and his eyes were full and ethereal.

She seems to be different from before.

The old saying goes well, one can't get too proud. In the next second, it was Xu Sui's turn to suffer. Lin Jiafeng held the green wine bottle and asked her what to choose.

Xu Sui thought for a while and replied: "Just tell the truth."

A friend pushed Lin Jiafeng up quickly, suggesting that he seized the opportunity. Lin Jiafeng hesitated and asked a very boring question: "Do you have anything you want to say to your ex-boyfriend?"

When everyone heard it, "cut" one sentence, and a girl replied, "Are there still questions about this kind of question? Of course, I wish me an early shit."

"Yeah, I hope that my ex-boyfriend finds girlfriends to be inferior to me. My appearance is not as good as me, and my personality is not as good as me. The dead man will regret it for the rest of his life."

…

Xu Sui thought for a while, tapped his index finger on the glass, drank a cup of strong alcohol, and his throat burned like fire: "I don't wish him a bright future, I wish him a safe landing."

After saying this, everyone was silent. Before long, someone broke the topic and quickly entered the next game. That night, Xu Sui drank a lot of wine.

People who have been blushing after a sip of wine have learned to drink a lot of wine without changing their faces. She was so drunk that her roommate Carrie dragged her home.

When he got home, Xu Sui immediately rushed into the bathroom, holding the toilet and vomiting. In fact, it didn't feel good to be drunk. Her stomach was burning like a fire, and she felt that bile was about to be vomited out. The soul and body of the whole person were separated.

In fact, a week ago, Xu Sui saw what Sheng Nanzhou was doing. They flew to the US training base, and he should have gone too. Xu Sui vomited as she thought, she went back to her senior year, Zhou Jingze went to the United States for a year, and she was preparing for graduate school in her fifth year, and Zhou Jingze had already graduated and became a real pilot.

The breakup was too ugly and ended in a scribbled way, she thought, I should not see him in the future.

Got it.

After Xu Sui vomited, she stood in front of the sink and washed her face. The faucet turned away. She took a handful of water and poured it on her face. The light bulb above her head was a little dark, and she looked at herself in the mirror.

The skin is white and greasy, the face is oval, and the nose is tall and straight. If it is different from the previous one, it seems to be a little more beautiful, the black eyes have a firmer layer, and the temperament is getting colder and colder.

Very well, I didn't cry, and I didn't shed a single tear, but my eyeliner was a little dizzy.

Xu Suiyi woke up to noon the next day, woke up and poured himself a glass of honey water. She opened the window and the wind blew, the hot sea breeze.

The green fan whirled at her. Carrie was patting her cheek with the air cushion. The cicada screamed outside the window. She lowered the air cushion and complained: "It's noisy, but fortunately summer is almost over."

Xu Sui took a look outside. The sunlight outside the window was like a waterfall, the blue waves were endless, the green trees were verdant, and the light and shadow intertwined. The summer was about to end in a blink of an eye.

She suddenly remembered that the day when she transferred from high school, it was the same blazing summer. Xu Sui ignorantly encountered a young man who was like a scorching sun, but she was humble like a moss.

A heartbeat happened in the summer.

A secret love with a beginning and no end also ended in the sound of cicadas.

Someone next door was playing Hong Kong Music with a stereo, and it came faintly, with a hint of sadness, Xu Sui leaned at the window, his shoulders trembling, and after listening, tears finally fell.

"I hope I can imagine that I can't grow up, and I can find an object entirely by intuition. If I am obsessed with you vaguely, just when the tide rises under wind and rain."

Yes, just when the tide rises under wind and rain.