Darling, I want to marry you

You should be happy to suddenly see your long lost mother, shouldn't you?

The heating was clearly on in the ward, but Gu Yan felt the coolness coming up from the soles of his feet and spreading to all his limbs. The deep cold could permeate all the places he couldn't see or touch, and didn't let go of any corner of his body. She even felt that even her bones were cool and cold.

Once thought her heart had been numb with pain and would never be hit by anything again, but now when she suddenly saw her mother who had not met for more than 20 years standing in front of her so gracefully, her heart still felt uncontrollably painful, and more of it was the chill of bone erosion.

The woman in front of her was dressed in a noble dress, a gentle moon white cheongsam and a fur shawl. Although there were traces of time washing on her face, there was still charm between her eyebrows and eyes, and she still vaguely retained her beauty when she was young. Her body was well maintained and very symmetrical. The temperament from the inside to the outside is the calm and elegance that can only be obtained after going through the world, which makes people feel good about this elderly woman. The only discrepancy is the faint sadness between the eyebrows.

Seeing her biological mother who had disappeared for many years standing so vividly in front of her, her eyes looked like guilt, loss and sadness. Subconsciously, what she thought in her mind was to use false evaluation. She just wanted to ask why the woman in front of her, who was well-dressed, elegant and well-off, had ruthlessly abandoned her?

The quartz clock on the wall is ticking, which is particularly clear and slow in this silent room. It has been a long time, but none of them has broken the silent atmosphere in this room. Everyone has their own worries and mixed feelings.

Gu Yan thought sarcastically. At this time, pan Jing's ideal must be the most complex! Finally, I met my daughter who had been abandoned for many years. Is she panicking now? Or regret it? Or is it finally beginning to feel guilty?

They have been silent for a long time. It's time for them to officially say hello!

"Hello, Mrs. pan!" Gu Yan broke the dull atmosphere with a slight tone of teasing and self mockery. When she opened her mouth, she found that her mother now has many titles, celebrities in the charity industry, the wife of the first chaebol in the United States, Miss Pan Chen's mother, and Tong chenbai's nominal mother-in-law. Oh, what should she call so many titles? She must be most proud of "Mrs. pan"! After all, this is the real name that can represent her status as a rich wife!

It's not that I haven't made corresponding psychological preparations, but it's impossible not to be sad when I really hear that my daughter born in October is so alienated and indifferent to call her "Mrs. pan".

She knew that her daughter must have hated her very much. Maybe I already hate it! The eyes were slightly red, and there was a layer of sad mist in the eyes.

Seeing this scene, the ancient wind couldn't help humming with disdain. His sister still likes to show weakness for so many years!

Gu Yan deliberately ignored pan Jing's sad face at the moment. She knew that her words must have hurt the kind-hearted woman. I thought I would feel better when I saw her sad.

She should hate her, shouldn't she?

On the contrary, she even felt a trace of pain, as if even she had been punished. It seems that her subconscious still doesn't want her to hurt her nominal mother. Years of resentment can't beat blood thicker than water after all!

I'm a little excited. I don't know if it's a psychological effect. There's some pain where I've moved the knife. Try to keep calm on her face and cover the injury quietly, she continued slowly

"I heard it was your blood..." Gu Yan paused. "So, you saved my life. I'm really sorry. Thank you very much!" there was a faint smile on her face. It didn't perfunctory. It seemed sincere but more hurtful.

Hearing this careful answer, pan Jing was a little cold hearted. Her daughter was so estranged from herself that she not only talked about her thanks, but also thanked her so deliberately. It seems that she doesn't want to recognize her mother after all.

But, yes! It was her fault first and her failure to fulfill her mother's responsibility. She deserved this alienation and indifference. Rao has thought about it many times, but pan Jing still can't cross this heart after all.

She didn't answer. It can be said that she was resisting her daughter's gratitude and alienation. More specifically, she was resisting the cruel fact that her daughter didn't want to recognize her.

"You go out first! Let me talk to Mrs. pan alone."

Gu Yan just wants to ask pan Jing why she abandoned her in those years. What is the reason why she doesn't want her daughter.

Even if the old style has told her many times, Gu Jing gave her up because of cowardice and poverty. She is a mother who dare not bear and irresponsible. Even if she has complained about Gu Jing countless times, and even now she still refuses to forgive her, subconsciously she still doesn't want to believe the words of the ancient style. She prefers that the woman in front of her really doesn't want her because she has to.

Subconsciously, she hoped that she was not abandoned, perhaps separated, and Gu Jing secretly looked for her for many years! And this may be her last glimmer of fantasy and expectation for family affection.

Hearing Gu Yan's sincere request, Tong chenbai was unwilling. He knew that Gu Yan's heart must be fluctuating. I thought I could hide it from her for a long time. At least her current situation is really inappropriate to know. The injured position was not far from the heart. The doctor told the patient not to fluctuate too much. Now, the long lost mother suddenly appeared. Moreover, the relationship between them is still so delicate.

Thinking of this, Tong chenbai is more and more worried about Gu Yan. What is she thinking now? Can she bear it?

However, looking at Gu Yan's eager and determined eyes, as well as his appeasement and abnormal calm look, Tong chenbai knows that he can't stop her anyway this time. Besides, he should respect her, shouldn't he?

The ancient wind on one side kept a cold face from beginning to end. However, although he was unwilling to hear Gu Yan's words, it was still rare. Some cooperation was pulled out of the ward by Tong chenbai. Maybe he thought it was time for the mother and daughter to have a good talk!

Finally, only mother and daughter were left in the ward.

Gu Yan put on a serious face and asked questions

"Are you really my biological mother?"

Pan Jing didn't expect her own daughter to ask her so frankly, but she nodded and admitted silently.

"Well, did you have to leave me in the orphanage or..." at this point, Gu Yan was a little sad and angry. She didn't want to say anything that would make her lose her calmness later.

Realizing that she was out of control, she withdrew her words and slowly adjusted her mood to calm it down as much as possible.

Although it was a question, from the bottom of her heart, she expected the woman to answer "yes", and there was only one answer from beginning to end. And this is the only thing she thought about the name of her mother.

But what about Pan Jing in reality? The person who kept saying that he was her mother just bowed his head in shame after hearing it. He didn't answer positively at all. He didn't even dare to look up at her. He just kept apologizing to Gu Yan and saying the three useless and hurtful words of "sorry".

Gu Yan didn't know that this question was a headache to pan Jing's heart. While she was sad and painful, her mother was not so! It was really a last resort to abandon Gu Yan at the beginning. After all, a single mother with such a small child, living in a foreign land, helpless, life is really difficult and not easy. What's more, she used to be a charming young lady. Her fingers don't touch the spring water. Where has she suffered so much and can't take good care of herself, let alone a crying baby? What's more painful is that every time she sees Gu Yan, she will think of her absurd choice. Yes, she has long regretted that she gave up everything for the so-called empty love.

She thought that the only way was to go abroad to find her former teacher and find another way to live. But if you take Gu Yan, you can't even go abroad. But if she doesn't go abroad, will she really sit here and wait for her and her children to starve to death one day?

Looking at the child crying because of hunger, helpless, she can only choose to put the child in the orphanage first, so that at least the child can grow up without worry. She had thought that when she made money abroad, she would take the child back from the orphanage.

However, the long-term placement of children in orphanages is not the way. So she thought of her parents and the ancient family. Parents should be soft hearted when they see their children! And she herself, it's impossible to go back to Gu's house in her life.

Under the dilemma, she finally made a plan and informed the people of the ancient family before leaving. She didn't want her children to grow up so hard, but she left this sad place and took the child when life abroad was stable.

Unexpectedly, she has been there for twenty years. Unexpectedly, it is not easy for children to grow up so hard.

Gu Yan smiled bitterly at himself. It turned out that it was just a fantasy after all. It's also good. Just destroy it completely and don't let her stay any fantasy. After all, most of her life was not blessed from childhood.

Perhaps, now the only thing left to support her belief that she doesn't fall easily is the child and Tong chenbai.

Obviously, I've seen it thoroughly, but why do I always flash those fragmentary pictures of childhood in my mind. I vaguely remember that during that time in the orphanage, she always liked to lie down by the door, look at the children holding their parents' hands and smiling sweetly outside the iron fence of the gate, and watch that many happy families walk through the orphanage day by day.

Those scenes are obviously boring, but she can't get tired of them! Even ridiculed by other children, teased by the doorman, and dragged back to class by the teacher. She is still reluctant to leave. At that time, she often imagined that she was also a member outside the wall and a happy child cared for by her parents.