Days after Breaking up with My Ex

I wanted to separate from Ding Ge at the studio, but my luggage had just been left at the Dinger house, so I had to go home with Ding Ge.

I always felt that I was no longer fit to step into Ding Ge's house, because perhaps tomorrow, the news that I was with Guzheng would spread among my friends, but now I'm still hiding Ding Ge, which is no different from cheating.

When I got back to Ding Ge's house, I didn't stay much, because I felt so guilty that I even felt a little disgusted with myself, so I took out my luggage and hurriedly said goodbye to ding ge.

Ding Ge seemed to want to keep me for a while longer, but she didn't say it out loud.

I was standing at the door, and Ding Ge's eyes were full of affection.

She seemed to have taken me back as her boyfriend in her heart, but we didn't have a clear relationship, but her intimate behavior towards me naturally explained everything.

"Ding Ge!"

I stared at Ding Ge, and there was a door between us. The door closed, and we could never see each other again.

I wanted to look at Ding Ge for a while longer, and there was a breath almost in my throat. I could not help but tell the secrets that were hidden in my heart, but in the end, I gritted my teeth and said nothing.

Ding Ge looked at me strangely, waiting for me to speak.

"Let's go."

After all, I only said two words.

Then I went downstairs and ran out of the neighborhood like crazy. I wanted to get away from here.

I didn't go back to the restaurant, nor did I go back to the rental room, but I was wandering around the street with a little dementia. I bought a few cans of beer from the supermarket, opened one and held it in my hand.

At this time, only beer can ease the pain in my heart.

I drank my beer and walked forward with heavy steps and no purpose. I felt like a fool. Even I felt so lost!

In the future...

Does Ding Ge and I have a future?

At this moment, I can still think of the beautiful smile on her face. I wish she could live happily ever after.

Can I really make Ding Ge happy?

Why do I feel that I have brought Ding Ge more pain than happiness?

Perhaps, we really are not the one destined for each other!

At this moment, I thought of letting go!

Thinking of this, my heart felt a little incredible. Because I had never thought of it this way before, even if I broke up with Ding Ge because of the medical malpractice, but my heart was unwilling, I even felt that god was too harsh on me, and felt that it was unfair.

Even if I didn't see Ding Ge for the next year, I missed her all the time. Although I strongly resisted the idea of getting back together with her, it was because the mountain of hundreds of thousands of debts was pressing down on me, and I was still unhappy.

So when the debt was paid off, I was less stressed, and the urge to get back together with Ding Ge got out of hand.

And today, I want to let go?

I don't even know what I think.

But I really love Ding Ge. I really don't want her to get hurt again.

At this moment, I thought a lot. Now that I hurt Ding Ge again, I really stabbed her in the wound!

A few months later, what if the truth was revealed?

Can two layers of scars really be removed so easily?

Even if we were together again, would our future be smooth sailing?

Of course not. Ding Ge's relationship with her parents was still stiff. Just like her mother said, every day we were together, Ding Ge was not her daughter. A relationship without parents' blessing is a pity, isn't it?

After all, they were Ding Ge's parents, and even if she hated them, there must still be family in her heart.

Our journey was still long as if there was no end to it.

Thinking about it so much, I can't even breathe, and the bitterness in the corners of my mouth is less than one percent of my heart.

Forget it...

Let's drink.

At this moment, I really wanted to cry, but I couldn't. I couldn't cry. I could only pour beer into my stomach and swallow my tears.

As I walked aimlessly, I was completely lost in the city with the flashing lights. I had to stop and look around before I knew where I was.

It seemed to be near the place where I confessed to Ding Ge.

You actually came here?

At this moment, there was an impulse in my heart, and I couldn't say why. I especially wanted to see under the tree where I confessed to Ding Ge.

So, I took out a can of beer from my bag, drank it over and over again, and walked to the place I remembered. However, as I walked forward, I found that this place had become so strange. This place seemed to have been re-planned, and I didn't know if the tree was still there.

I continued to walk forward, but in front of me, except for the newly built tall buildings, there was no longer the thick and sturdy tree.

I can't find it.

I think the development community must have been moved away. The tree is really big and full of branches. I didn't expect that it was only a few years ago and I couldn't find it.

In his heart, there was an unspeakable sense of loss.

I just stood there, but I wasn't sure if it was under the tree, because I couldn't even find a reference, so I could only rely on my vague memory.

This is the place where Ding Ge and I have the most precious memories. I really miss it.

Even without that tree, the tree in my heart is still the same.

I closed my eyes and felt as if the tree was still there. I could even feel the shade under the tree and the sound of branches and leaves blowing.

Dinger stood under the tree in her white clothes, and time seemed to have stopped.

When I opened my eyes, everything disappeared.

I picked up the beer and took a swig!

However, I still don't want to go back. At this moment, an idea suddenly popped up in my mind. I want to go back the way Ding Ge and I went, to walk away from the place where our romantic memories were left, and to relive our feelings back then.

Of course, I know I can't finish.

I could only follow the path to find the memory points.

The park where we first kissed was not far from here, and I didn't want to take the car. I just walked like that, feeling as if I had a strong belief in myself. I didn't feel tired at all. Step by step, not long after, I came to the park.

In fact, the park is not the original park, a lot of transformation, much neater than when we were in love, there were not many people in the park at that time, and now there are many more people who come to the park to exercise and relax at night.

I remember coming here earlier and bumping into dinger by accident.

I followed my memory to the place where we first kissed. Although it had been changed, this time my memory was more profound. Thinking about that green kiss, my heart became very quiet.

After that, I walked a lot of places that Ding Ge and I used to walk through, we walked hand in hand, the shops we went to, the restaurants we went to...

Gradually, it seemed that the heart was not so painful, walking alone on the road, but the heart seemed to return to a few years ago.

Those memories were so clear.

Not even myself.

There are so many memories between us that we can't walk away for a while.

As I walked, I stopped again.

Because I found out that I was in a special place, not far from where Ding Ge and I were renting.

I haven't been here since I moved out of that apartment.

I was afraid of this place. Although it had the warmest moments between Ding Ge and me, it also had the darkest memories of my life.

Even standing on this street, my heart began to ache.

I looked in that direction, and my heart suddenly became heavy. Even my powerful feet seemed to be filled with lead, and my whole body seemed to be covered with a thick shadow.

Go over and take a look. It's already here.

I said this to myself.

So I walked towards our little nest, and those memories flooded towards me.

With every step I took, those memories became clearer.

In the past few years, this place was not so remote, but in the past few years, Pucheng's center of gravity has been moving to the southwest, which inevitably became a lot more desolate.

At that time, we just strolled here after dinner and lived happily in that small house.

It was there that I ruthlessly chased Ding Ge out, bringing her heartrending pain!

Suddenly, a cold wind blew over.

I just felt my whole body get cold and shiver.

I looked ahead and felt that the whole world had suddenly become much darker. Only the cold wind blew ruthlessly. Like a knife, I felt my hands and feet start to turn cold!

Her lips quivered slightly...

Finally, I arrived at the dilapidated neighborhood. When we rented it, it was already very old. The building was covered in dust, and now it looked even more old. It was a thousand miles away from the bustling parts of Pucheng.

It's still...

I couldn't describe how I felt. I was so tired that I squatted down on the road.

Over the past few years, things have changed. Many of the places where our memories existed no longer exist, and many shops have changed. Everything has quietly changed in this city.

I don't know when the house that Ding Ge and I used to live in will be demolished.

In a few more years, everything may change, and all the memories will be covered by time!

I took out the rest of the beer and sat on the cold ground, drinking all the beer by myself.

My heart seemed to be more desolate than this dilapidated neighborhood, and the bitterness in my heart was even more unspeakable. I was like the most pitiful person in the world, losing everything.

I'm afraid I won't be able to find it again!

After finishing the last sip of the wine, I forcefully crushed the can, and the cold touch of the bottle came from the palm of my hand.

I took out my phone and sent Guzheng a text message.

From tomorrow onwards, our agreement will come into effect!