Days after Breaking up with My Ex

I'm almost drunk, but I'd rather be drunk, even if I were sober.

But I'm still thinking about Ding Ge. It's still raining outside. I don't know how she's going back.

A lot of people drank today, but it was raining outside, so they had to be sent home.

So after the discussion, Guzheng, Hu Zi, Liu and Jiang and I squeezed into a car together. Xiao liu could drive, but she didn't drink. Xiaolian, Xiaoyi and Jiang Yan then asked Xiaolian to drive back, while Old Gao drove Guzheng back.

But Ding Ge didn't want Old Gao to give her a ride, but it was so late and raining that she didn't know if she could take the car. Old Gao was more determined, so Ding Ge agreed. I also want Old Gao to send dinger back, because it's raining so hard now, and I'm really worried about her going back on her own.

As a result, the three cars in front of the door all rushed into the rain in different directions.

I turned around and looked at the restaurant. My cousin closed the door and it was dark. I looked at the car Old Gao was driving, but I couldn't see it anymore. The heavy rain blocked my view, leaving only a blur in front of me.

Liu was driving, Hu Zi was in the passenger seat, and Guzheng and jiang and I were in the back. I sat by the side, and Guzheng sat beside me. She leaned on me slightly and looked a little drunk.

I looked out the window, but my vision was blurry. The window was covered with misty water vapor and rainwater splashing on the glass.

At this moment, although he had drunk a lot of wine, he was somewhat inexplicably sober, and his whole mind was filled with Ding Ge's figure, unable to drive away.

I wanted to get drunk and forget everything, but I didn't expect this to happen.

I did make it this way!

I really don't understand why it became like this.

I remembered Ding Ge's behavior at the dinner table. Could it be that Ding Ge didn't like me? She treated me like a normal friend before, so even if I was with Guzheng, she wouldn't be sad, because she just treated me like a normal friend!

Is that true?

I don't know if I'm using self-hypnosis, but would it make me feel better?

However, many images came back to my mind.

Ding Ge asked me to go to the movies. Ding Ge called me because he was sad and sad. Ding Ge hugged me tightly. Ding Ge texted me that she believed me. Ding Ge ate hotpot with me.

No!

She can't have no feelings for me. I know she must love me!

At this moment, inexplicably, there were so many times before I couldn't confirm Ding Ge's true feelings for me, but today when I was drunk, I was so sure that Ding Ge loved me!

Therefore, all she showed today was a disguise. She just didn't want everyone to see her joke, not to see her embarrassing side, but also to retain her last bit of dignity, so she could only smile the whole time, even if her heart was already riddled with holes.

I suddenly remembered our breakup.

I can still remember Ding Ge's heartbreaking cry.

And today, although Ding Ge had a bright smile on her face, what about her heart? I'm afraid her pain is no less than last time.

The thought of this made my heart ache violently. I couldn't help but grit my teeth again and again and swallow all the pain back into my stomach.

I want to cry, especially!

But I did not shed a single tear after all. If tears could make me feel better, then let me not cry. Keep those emotions in my heart until I can't bear the pain.

When we got home, we said goodbye to Guzheng and the others, and then we went home with Hu Zi.

When I returned to the bedroom, I suddenly fell on my bed and felt as if I had been hollowed out, losing all my strength.

But I wasn't sleepy. There was some pain in my head after getting drunk, but I was still thinking about Ding Ge. I can't help but wonder, did Old Gao send Ding Ge home safely? Should I call Old Gao and ask?

Actually, I wanted to call Ding Ge more, but I didn't dare!

Did Ding Ge cry?

Was she sad?

I don't know, but all I can think of is Ding Ge crying.

I didn't know how long I had been lying down, but I couldn't help but call Old Gao. Fortunately, Old Gao answered.

"What's the matter?" Old Gao asked.

"Did you send Ding Ge back?"

"Sent back." Old Gao replied faintly.

"Yeah, is she okay?" I asked again.

"Nothing."

It's okay. Old Gao said she's okay.

I turned over and looked up at my head, as if I were dead.

I was thinking again, after tonight, tomorrow, what will my life be like?

I'm afraid Ding Ge and I will never be the same again.

I don't dare to think too much. I think too much. My heart hurts like a knife, and my head hurts like a crack!

I feel like I'm going crazy, but this is the first day of my relationship with Guzheng. How am I going to live the rest of my life?

Can my life return to peace?

Maybe it can't be positive anymore!

...

The next day, Lin Ya called me and asked me to pick her up at the train station.

Finally, Lin Ya came back after the trip. I had a strong feeling in my heart that a storm was coming!

It was already two or three o' clock in the night when Lin Ya's car arrived in Pucheng. Lin Ya told me that if I was scared, I could find someone to accompany me. I listened to her as if she was implying that I was going with Ding Ge. I didn't know if she meant that.

But I have a question in my heart. Does Lin Ya know that I broke up with Ding Ge now?

I don't think so. If she knew, she would have scolded me on the phone when she didn't come back, which was very suitable for her character.

Since she asked me to pick her up, I don't think she knows what happened.

But I have a little doubt in my heart. It can be said that lin ya is Ding Ge's best friend. Then why didn't Ding Ge tell Lin Ya?

This is unknown.

Thinking that I was going to see Lin Ya soon, I was not as happy and excited as usual. I was even a little scared and didn't dare to face Lin Ya.

My relationship with Ding Ge is broken, so what about my relationship with Lin Ya?

There's already another wound in my heart. I really don't want another one!

But I still have to face Lin Ya after all, just like I have to face Ding Ge, many things can't escape! Since I have made that decision, since I have decided to bear all the grievances, then I can only face everything.

I drove to the train station at around 12: 00 pm because I was afraid that I would be a little confused driving to the train station after I fell asleep. After all, two or three o' clock at night was the time when people slept the heaviest. It was winter now and I didn't remember when I got into bed. I thought it would be better to wait at the train station for two or three hours. I could sleep in the car anyway.

So when I drove to the square in front of the train station, I called Lin Ya and told her that I was waiting for her at the train station. I slept in the car and woke her up when she came.

Then I fell asleep in the back of the car. It was cold. When I came, I took all my blankets. Then I got out of the car and went to the back row, wrapped in blankets, and started to sleep.

Maybe she was really tired and fell asleep soon after.

But he still felt uncomfortable in the car with the quilt over his head.

"Knock, knock, knock!"

I was woken up by the sound of knocking on the glass. I opened my eyes in a daze and saw a man standing outside the car.

In the cold wind, she was wearing a white hat, a kind smile on her fair face, and a familiar face. That smile made me feel much more comfortable.

She was shaking her hands at me with a pair of white gloves.

It was Lin Ya who had returned from the journey!

After a long time, Lin Ya seemed to be the same as before. She seemed to have a great time traveling, and her face was full of smiles, as if she had no worries.

Lin Ya opened the car, and instead of thanking me for waiting so long in advance, she took the lead in reprimanding me, "Why don't you sleep and lock the car?"

"I..." My mind was still a little confused, and I was still surrounded by a thick sleep. I squinted and said vaguely, "I forgot."

Actually, I just didn't think there was anything wrong, so I didn't bother to lock the car. Lin Ya told me again, "Remember to lock the car next time, okay? You're too dangerous."

I made two feeble "Yes."

Lin Ya said to me again, "Where are the keys? Go back to sleep. I'll call you when you get home. I'll drive."

I gave the key to Lin Ya, and then I went back to sleeping in the car.

Lin Ya was driving. She probably knew I was sleepy. She didn't talk to me. She was driving alone. After a while, I fell asleep again, and then Lin Ya woke me up.

The feeling of being woken up while sleeping was really terrible!

"Okay, we're here. Go back to your room and sleep."

I finally rubbed my eyes and got out of the car slowly, but when I saw the building in front of me, I couldn't help but frown and say, "How did you pull me to your house?"

At this time, Lin Ya and I are not in my neighborhood. This is obviously her home.

Lin Ya said rudely, "I'll send you back in the middle of the night, and then I'll drive back by myself. You have a conscience. Besides, I've been in the car all day in the middle of the night. I'm tired too. Hurry up and get some rest. I'm so sleepy!"

Lin Ya yawned and I followed Lin Ya upstairs. Lin Ya kindly helped me and told me to slow down.

Neither of them spoke much. After entering the room, lin ya went into the bedroom and I slept on the sofa separately.

I think that although Lin Ya woke me up twice this night, it was probably the best night I had slept in more than ten days.

But I don't want to wake up.

I was afraid, I was afraid to see Lin Ya's angry face again.

How would she react to the news that Guzheng and I were together?