Days after Breaking up with My Ex

I returned to the hotel at 4 or 5 pm. I couldn't just be lost. I had to suppress all negative emotions so that I wouldn't be confused and make mistakes while I was busy.

It was late at night, and everyone had already gone home. Hu Zi and I stayed at the end to clean up. After that, he said to me, "Come, come with me."

I didn't know where Hu Zi wanted me to go with him, but I didn't care. I followed Hu Zi to the door. Hu Zi drove over. I locked the door of the hotel and got in the car.

Hu Zi drove the car into the road. He drove very fast. I quickly grabbed the handrail above and steadied myself. At the same time, I asked, "Where are you going? This is?"

"Look at your sad face these days. I'll show you around." Hu Zi looked ahead and said faintly.

In the dark, my old face turned red, but my mouth denied it, "When have I been sad?"

"All right, stop quibbling." Hu Zi smiled and said, "It's just a fight with a girl. I said you two have known each other for so many years. Why are you still arguing? It's a good thing that you two are friends, not lovers. Sooner or later, the lovers will part."

I curled my lips and smiled, not knowing what to say.

Hu Zi pulled me further and further away, and the buildings and plants along the way receded like a tidal wave. I couldn't help but wonder, how good would it be if life could go back?

I was not in the mood to look at the lights in the night, watching them exude an indomitable light in the night. I felt that they were very lonely. When the whole night was like a million soldiers attacking them, they lit up as usual, but they could only illuminate a small area.

One light and one dark, black and white!

You are in your territory, I am in my territory, no one should disturb anyone.

Hu Zi didn't talk much to me, but he just focused on driving. The car gradually drove to no one else's land. I looked around at the grass and the wider view, and gradually understood where Hu Zi was taking me.

Train tracks!

Hu Zi and Li Xiaowei's first date was also where Hu Zi buried their love. I don't know how Hu Zi would feel when he saw this place.

Hu Zi turned to me and said, "I always come here when I'm in a bad mood."

I looked at Hu Zi. There was no sign of Hu Zi in the dark car. He was driving calmly, one hand on the steering wheel, and his eyes seemed to shine.

Hu Zi added, "It calms me down here."

As we spoke, the train tracks were already in front of us. Hu Zi stopped the car by the side of the road and the two of us got out of the car. It was a remote place and the wind was much stronger. There was a roar of the wind in our ears. It blew on our faces and made us feel cool.

I looked over to the place where Hu Zi had burned the wedding photos. After such a long time, the burnt ashes had long dissipated in the fields, but I could still see the black from the burning.

"Do you come here often?" I asked Hu Zi. Sometimes Hu Zi didn't come home with me. Did he come here alone to relax?

"Yeah, I'm in a bad mood. I'm tired of it, so I'm here." Hu Zi looked up at the train track. There was no train passing by, so it was very quiet. Hu Zi continued, "Stay here for a while, and you'll feel much better."

Hu Zi took out his cigarette case and took out a cigarette. Then he took out his lighter and lit it in the wind.

I looked at Hu Zi. He was already very familiar with the way he smoked. He had been smoking for only a few months, but he probably smoked more than others in the past few years. I sighed in my heart and couldn't help but think back to the time when Hu Zi didn't smoke.

The reality is really cruel. Sometimes it can change us in some ways. It was like a remover, erasing the past, never finding the past, leaving only new things to show in front of you and me.

But now we are created by our past experiences.

I looked at Hu Zi, who was puffing out a cigarette, and couldn't help but think of Li Xiaowei again.

I always thought they were a perfect match. In the past, they were joking until after they had two children. Who would have thought that they would be separated on the eve of their marriage?

Old Gao and I had more than one relationship. Only Hu Zi and Li Xiaowei were his first love. He loved each other for so many years. He loved each other deeply and hurt each other even more.

It hurts!

So I, who saw their relationship in my eyes, hated Li Xiaowei very much, but how much Hu Zi hated her to the bone.

I thought of the child in Li Xiaowei's womb. Now, she was almost the mother of a child. And Hu Zi walked with Xiaoyi.

In fact, sometimes it might be a good thing for Hu Zi to think about separation. After all, Li Xiaowei is such a character. Her vanity in human nature is like a bomb, which could ignite their lives at any time. Rather than being separated now, it was better than being separated after they were married and had children.

Sometimes, it's really to make you meet someone better.

Hu Zi said in the wind, "Every time I come here, I can remember the days when Li Xiaowei betrayed me. I keep telling myself that I must live better than her, better than the man she's looking for, defeat her man, and show her what a stupid decision she made!"

Listening to Hu Zi, I felt very uncomfortable. I thought Hu Zi would be relieved after having Xiaoyi. Xiaoyi was very good, really no worse than li xiaowei. I couldn't help but say, "Hu Zi, you already have xiaoyi now. Just think about your future. Don't live in hatred all the time."

"But I can't forget." Hu Zi shook his head and said stubbornly, "It can be said that revenge is my motivation! I will make myself stronger, and I will step on the people who have stepped on me one by one."

Hu Zi gritted his teeth, his eyes gleaming with hatred.

But I really think that since it's been so long between the two of them, it's better to let it calm down. Otherwise, the damage would be mutual. Even if Li Xiaowei did not live well, it was her own karma, not Hu Zi's revenge.

When I found out that Li Xiaowei was pregnant, my heart softened, so I didn't even tell Lin Ya that she didn't leave yellow-haired.

Now, I really hope that both Hu Zi and Li Xiaowei can calm down and live their own lives without disturbing each other.

Of course, he wouldn't tell Hu Zi about it. It would only upset him. Why would he tell her? Li Xiaowei had nothing to do with him.

But you can't just use revenge as your motivation. You have a girlfriend, and you can use your future life as your motivation. Revenge can be a part of your life, but it can't be the main part. Do you understand?" I advised more tactfully.

Indeed, let Hu Zi completely forget the unrealistic betrayal, just like the humiliation that Ding Ge's parents brought me, I can't forget either.

Some things are really ingrained in their bones.

He had never been betrayed, and he might not be able to experience that kind of pain.

Hu Zi didn't say anything. He just took a deep puff, as if he wanted to inhale all the smoke into his lungs.

I looked at this place that meant a lot to Hu Zi, but I couldn't figure it out. Could Hu Zi really calm down here?

I always felt that this was not good, and it was easy to make Hu Zi's character dark. I didn't want Hu Zi to be like that. He could go to the top of his life through hard work, so that he would naturally leave Li Xiaowei and yellow hair behind, without deliberately tying them together through hatred.

"All right, let's not talk about the unhappy ones. Let's talk about the happy ones." I said to Hu Zi.

"Sure." Hu Zi replied, his eyes narrowed slightly as the wind blew.

"How are you and Xiaoyi?" I asked. The two of them were still in an underground relationship. If I hadn't known by coincidence that they were together, I wouldn't have seen any traces of their relationship at the restaurant.

"It's good."

"Have you thought about getting married?"

Hu Zi looked at the pier burning photos under the railway and replied, "It's too early."

Maybe he was hurt too much. Hu Zi seemed to have a conflict with marriage.

"It's getting late, okay? How old are we?"

"Don't just talk about me. Where are you and Guzheng? Where did it go?" Hu Zi asked with a smile.

"We..." I smiled bitterly and shook my head. We didn't do anything!

"Guzheng is very nice. Don't think too much about it. If you can't, you can settle down early."

"Let's wait until you and Xiaoyi make it public." I smiled and replied.

"Sure." Hu Zi raised his eyebrows and smiled.

Then Hu Zi and I chatted about the restaurant. It could be said that Hu Zi had devoted almost all of his energy to the restaurant and was ashamed to think about what he had done during this time.

It's chinese new year, and everyone wants to go home and get together, but we had discussed it with Old Gao before. During the new year, our restaurant will not close. After all, the new year's day is also a good time for the hotel business. We can't miss it in vain. Now we owe Guzheng money, we should return it to her in peace.

We talked about the arrangements for the new year, and it was inevitable that we would give everyone a few days off, but we could only take turns to go home for the new year. Shi Yuan and Jiang Yan, xiaoyi and Xiaolian, and a few of us, we took turns to rest, the restaurant did not stop.

I said to Hu Zi, "It's chinese new year. You should stay at home for a few more days. It's been so long."

"Let's talk about it then." Hu Zi didn't say anything.

I sighed in the wind and looked towards the city of Pucheng. At this time, I could only see some buildings on the edge, and the rest was just darkness.

I can't help but wonder, is this the end of the year?

Although this year had been like a roller coaster up and down, it still seemed that time passed quickly in retrospect.

Life is always like this, looking back on the past, as if it was just a blink of an eye, looking back at the past difficulties at this time, it felt nothing.