Days after Breaking up with My Ex

"Let's eat first."

Ding Ge only said a few words briefly and even chewed on the food. Her commanding tone made me lose the courage to refute.

Although this scene is like the past, it is only superficial, everything has changed, we will never be able to return to the past, like a broken mirror, even if it is repaired intact, it is not the mirror before.

I have been speculating in my heart about the reason why Ding Ge sent me here today. She must be as clear as I am that we can't go back to the past, but why do we have to do this today?

After dinner, Ding Ge brought the dishes into the kitchen to clean up. I wanted to help her, but she said I could wait for her in the living room.

Sitting alone on the sofa, I still felt uncomfortable, as if I didn't feel comfortable no matter what. I stood up and looked at Ding Ge's room in boredom, but it didn't look good either. It was so orderly and simple that I could see no man's clothes or shoes, only Ding Ge's personal belongings.

Fortunately, it didn't take long this time. Ding Ge cleaned up and went to the living room. I sat down on one side and Ding Ge sat down on the sofa next to me.

She looked at me.

I looked at her, at her eyes, and I knew what she wanted me to do. Although Ding Ge's expression was still very indifferent and calm, it was as if I saw her complicated thoughts and her tormented heart as mine.

"You owe me a favor, and I want you to repay it, will you?" Ding Ge said softly.

I took a deep breath, nodded, paused, and asked, "What do you want me to do?"

"I want..." Ding Ge glanced at it and said faintly, "I want you to accompany me to the seaside once."

It was as if something was stabbed in the bottom of my heart...

I frowned. I didn't understand why dinger made such an inexplicable request. When I was in Green city, I had no choice but to call Ding Ge. I admit, maybe I was hit by weakness for a moment when I didn't have any thoughts and had the thought of seeing Ding Ge!

But, in contrast, Ding Ge asked me to accompany her to the beach. Why?

When we were together, I promised her that I would take her to the beach one day because she liked the sea.

However, I also promised too many other things, I said I would give her a grand wedding, I said I would give her a lifetime of happiness, I said I would take care of her for a lifetime, I would love her for a lifetime, but there were too many things I didn't do!

Those promises from the beginning now seem to have turned into lies, yes, lies. They mocked my overestimation!

I gritted my teeth and subconsciously clenched my fist. Why Ding Ge? Why did you make such a request?

But even so, what's the point?

"Why?" I asked, trembling.

"Will you answer whether you want to or not?" Ding Ge looked me in the eye.

"Does your boyfriend mind?" I smiled bitterly and gritted my teeth again.

"It's none of your business. Just tell me if you want it or not?" Ding Ge asked in a cold voice.

"No," I stood up, swallowed, took a deep breath, and then said, "I'm afraid my girlfriend will be angry."

I said something in a bad tone. I don't know why Ding Ge wanted me to accompany her to the beach, but I know I can't. What right do I have?

In Ding Ge's love, I'm out!

"You mean Guzheng?" Ding Ge asked with a frown.

I didn't say a word or even nod my head. I just remained silent, expressing a tactful acquiescence.

But Ding Ge said impatiently, "Okay, stop acting. I know she's not your girlfriend."

Ding Ge's words surprised me again. I always thought that with just a little hearsay and a misunderstanding when Ding Ge was in the ward, she would think 100 % that Guzheng was my girlfriend, but I didn't expect her to say Guzheng wasn't my girlfriend!

How did she know?

At this point, the two of us had almost no contact, and the only connection seemed to be a few friends we knew together, so we could get some information from them. But why was Ding Ge's tone so sure? It was as if she had been watching me and knew all about my life!

I don't know how she got the answer that Guzheng isn't my girlfriend. Did Lin Ya tell her?

But I don't know if Ding Ge has a boyfriend or not.

I fell silent and lowered my head slightly, not knowing how to face Ding Ge.

Ding Ge stared at me again and asked slowly, "Now, can you give me an answer?"

I didn't give Ding Ge an answer until I left the Dinger house.

As I sat in the back of the taxi, my mind was still filled with Ding Ge's words.

"Actually, whether you agree or not, I will definitely go to the beach next week. This week, you should think about it, if you go. I'll be waiting for you at the station next week. Before nine o' clock, if you don't come, I'll go by myself."

Without me, Ding Ge would still go to the beach.

I lay in my seat with my eyes closed and my heart pounding.

With the slight jolt of the taxi, I seemed to have lost my way. I didn't know which direction I was going and where I was going. I felt dizzy and my mind was blank, as if I had lost the ability to think.

When she got home, she lay in bed and tossed and turned.

The torment I felt in my heart was like the waves on the calm sea. I don't understand, I don't understand, I don't know why dinger did it!

Does she really... Still like me?

Haven't you given up on me yet?

I don't know how to answer Ding Ge, because I don't know whether I want to go or not. This choice is too difficult, as difficult as the sky!

The next day, I went to work in a bad mood. I still had a week to go anyway. I don't know what to do now. I can only do this. I have no other way.

One day in the pond, I was a little lost. Many times, I just stared at the pond, looking at the calm water in the pond. I didn't know where my thoughts drifted to. Sometimes I suddenly feel like this is the seaside. I can hear the sound of the waves, feel the sea breeze on my face, and hear the sound of the waves hitting the rocks on the shore...

I don't know how she would feel after rejecting dinger.

Ding Ge, why did you choose to be hurt by me again and again?

But why should I reject Ding Ge? If there was any reason not to reject Ding Ge, I would dig three feet to find it!

Do I really have to find a girlfriend so that I can reject Ding Ge?

It's not a lie, but a real girlfriend. Would Ding Ge not want me to go to the beach with her?

Guzheng appeared in my mind again, but I shook my head immediately. This idea was crazy. What would I do to Guzheng?

I didn't expect Guzheng to call me before I got off work.

Guzheng asked, "When do you get off work? Let's go to your house for hotpot tonight. I've prepared everything. The balls at the supermarket are on sale. I've bought a lot of them. I've also bought lettuce, lettuce, potatoes, tofu, lamb... Well, I've bought soups and sesame paste. Do you have anything else you want to eat? I'll buy it again."

I never rejected Guzheng. I let her finish such a long sentence and sighed deeply. I couldn't help but think of that classic song.

The people who love me are infatuated with me.

But I'm willing to spend the rest of my life grieving for the person I love.

Those who love me give everything for me

But I cry for the one I love and my heart is broken

...

All I could do was escape!

"Well..." I hesitated and said, "Guzheng, I can't go back tonight. Well, uncle meng of the pond has something to do today. I have to watch at the pond."

"I see," Guzheng said, unable to conceal her disappointment, "Well, are you all right there alone?"

"Nothing."

After hanging up the phone, I had to tell old meng that I was not going back tonight, so I slept here.

Old meng nodded.

After work at night, only old meng and I were left in the pond. Old meng simply cooked a few dishes and said to me, "Let's have a drink?"

I was already very upset and nodded without hesitation.

Soon, old meng brought the food to the table and took out his wine. Old meng was almost addicted to alcohol. We used to drink together before. His capacity for alcohol was awesome. I was a rookie when compared to him. Of course, it was not that old meng was not drunk, but that he would reach a certain level of intoxication after drinking to a certain extent.

Old meng seemed to see through my mood as well. He took the initiative to pour me some wine and asked, "What's wrong with you today? You haven't been in the mood all day. Is something wrong?"

I shook my head and said, "Nothing."

Old meng and I clinked glasses, pointed at me and said, "You are such a person. Everything is good. Sometimes, you just don't like to interact with others and don't open your heart."

In fact, in the past, I talked a lot and had a lot of close friends, but gradually people would change. Gradually, it seemed that I didn't talk as much as before and became much more silent, and rarely talked about my own thoughts with others. Old meng was right.

"It's all right. Let's be open-minded. There are no obstacles in this world that we can't cross. Today, uncle has a good drink with him. If you drink too much and sleep, don't think about anything."

I nodded and felt like indulging myself again, especially with old meng's company.

Old meng squeezed a few peanuts and asked as he ate, "Is there something wrong with your relationship?"

I nodded. Although I'm still single, it's still a matter of relationships.