Days after Breaking up with My Ex

In fact, I wanted to meet ding ge in my heart, although I knew it would only add to my sadness.

Well, you can decide when and where.

I sent Ding Ge a text message. This time, she came back soon. Tonight, at the old noodle chowder restaurant on north street, where she used to go, she wanted to have some.

Okay. Contact me then.

I sent the message.

I closed my eyes and let out a long breath.

The upcoming meeting with Ding Ge didn't make me very happy, but more heavy. It was as if when I thought of her in the past, my heart was filled with suppressed pain. It was like a whirlpool, making me unable to escape no matter what.

However, the meeting at night became the only thing I was looking forward to, leaving only waiting for one day.

Thinking about seeing Ding Ge, I couldn't calm down no matter what.

It was a bit agonizing, as if every time I thought of her exhausted night... While I was waiting, I accidentally received a call from a recruiter who asked me to go for an interview. So I dressed up excitedly and went out for the interview, but when the two sides talked about their salary, I was discouraged. Their salary was too low!

This is undoubtedly a blow to me!

I felt the pain of falling from the sky, and my mood suddenly became bad, so I wandered on the street next, and I think my face must be filled with desperation.

How pitiful is a guy who can't even find a job?

I looked at the windows of a building, at the piles of withered leaves in the flower pool, at the bricks under my feet, and felt more and more small, like a grain of sand in the air.

This bustling city will never be kind to you!

Finally, he sighed and continued to search tomorrow.

When I saw that it was almost time to get off work, I didn't go back. I called Ding Ge. Naturally, the former relaxation wasn't there. Ding Ge said to meet her in front of the noodle restaurant, so I waited for her there first.

I stood at the entrance of the restaurant, bored, and kept looking at both sides. I didn't know which side dinger would appear from.

We used to come to this street often just to have a bite of this delicious noodle chowder shop behind me.

Ding Ge was a foodie, always taking me to all kinds of old shops to taste all kinds of delicious food. I especially admire her persistence, even if she can find a small shop in a corner.

I turned around and took a look at the sign on the storefront. It was the same old brand as before. It hadn't been renovated. It's just that I didn't expect that ever since I broke up with Ding Ge, I've never been to this chowder shop again.

I wonder if ding ge has been here before.

There were more and more cars on the streets. From when on, Pucheng became as busy as a big city.

I thought Ding Ge should be here soon, but he didn't. The business of this noodle chowder shop was still very hot. At this time, many people or a few friends or a family or a couple walked in, talking and laughing. Only I stood alone at the door, and no one understood the sadness in my heart.

The sunset in the sky had already dissipated the last remaining heat, and the whole street had been painted with another layer of cold color. Those expressionless people walking on the street looked as if they had become mindless mechanical bodies as those passing cars.

If only people had no feelings...

I wanted to call Ding Ge, but I was afraid that this worry would turn into a rush, so I had to wait a few more minutes in my heart.

I didn't like to wait, but now I don't have a lot of impatience in my heart, but an unspeakable sadness about the upcoming meeting.

Yes, sad, I don't like this slightly sentimental word, but now, it seems that only such a description of my mood.

When I looked at the crowd again, I finally saw Ding Ge.

She's really easy to recognize. I can always easily find her in the crowd.

I have always been reluctant to use too many words to describe Ding Ge. She has always been a special girl in my eyes, so I don't want to use those words to describe her.

The last time she appeared before me as a drowned rat, today she appeared before me as a goddess.

The gesture was not made out, but a natural expression.

Ding Ge was dressed in a light-colored girlish outfit, young and beautiful, as if we had just met, beautiful and unparalleled.

All these years, she didn't seem to have changed much. She should have just washed her hair, and her long, fluffy, black, shiny hair moved over her shoulders, making her heart flutter.

She also saw me, and her mouth seemed to have a faint smile. When she saw me, she said, "Wait a long time."

I curled my lips and said softly, "Not really."

"Let's go in." Ding Ge pursed his lips and a trace of shyness seemed to pass his eyes.

I nodded and the two of them walked into the restaurant.

We found an empty seat and sat down.

After the waiter came over, we ordered two bowls of stewed noodles, ordered two cold dishes, and brought Ding Ge a bottle of juice. Then the two of them sat face to face and waited for the dishes to be served.

Ding Ge shook his hair that was still wet, looked inside the restaurant and said, "It's been a long time since I came here."

"Me too." Sitting across from her, I could also smell the scent of her hair mixed with shampoo. "I don't know if it's good now."

Actually, sitting with Ding Ge, the feeling of isolation always made me feel very uncomfortable. I didn't like it, I didn't like it very much. But there's no way. Our relationship is like this. I hate it!

The inner conflict between wanting to end quickly and wanting to look at Ding Ge a little more was like a star war going on.

"The old cold skin shop in dongguan is not as delicious as it used to be. I wonder if it's closed now."

We talked about unimportant topics, very life-like topics, just like a couple talking about trivial things in life.

It was as if Ding Ge and I were talking about which supermarket had cheaper carrots and more expensive potatoes. This was supposed to be a normal conversation, but now it seemed to be a conversation to keep the conversation going.

Ding Ge seemed to be in a good mood today. She was basically the one who was talking about the topic. I followed suit and came up soon after. We chatted as we ate, just like a normal couple.

But most of the time, I didn't dare look into Ding Ge's eyes for too long, and then I looked away like there was no money in the world. There were a lot of people in the restaurant, and the hall was filled with the hum of laughter.

I suddenly had an illusion that no one else could see me. Although I was in this restaurant, it was transparent. I could see the joy in the corners of other people's mouths, but they could not see me. We seemed to be in two completely different worlds, one warm and lively, the other quiet and cold.

"Hello, Xing Yun."

At this moment, Ding Ge called out to me.

"Ah?" I came to my senses and asked, "What's wrong?"

"I said, what have you been up to lately? It took me so long to remember to invite me to dinner. I thought you forgot." Ding Ge asked me.

"No." I replied faintly, "I've been looking for a job these days."

"Really?" Dinger looked at me and asked, "Have you found it?"

"Not yet."

"Oh. Don't worry, take your time." Ding Ge lowered his head again to eat the noodles.

I looked at Ding Ge in front of me and felt that there was a huge difference between us. Seeing her like this, she should have a good life in normal times. She had a job that was not tiring, and she was beautiful. She would have a happy future no matter what.

And I...

I suddenly felt a little shameful. Why did I come to see Ding Ge? I shouldn't bother her anymore. If I see her again and again, I'll get addicted!

I want to see her again and again. I want to miss her even more. In the end, I don't know when I can't control myself and disturb Ding Ge's life. How could I do that?

I've already hurt her once, I can't hurt her again!

I secretly clenched my fists, and my heart seemed to be beating violently.

In fact, I should be able to feel more or less that Ding Ge did not forget me, or else she would be ruthlessly far away from me instead of sitting with me today.

Although I did not dare to speculate on her thoughts, I did not dare to be sentimental, but I would rather reduce this possibility to zero.

So I thought about it and wanted to tell her about my blind date. If she really had a little fantasy in her heart, then let her give up completely.

We should all give up completely!

Ding Ge seemed to see that I had something to say and asked, "What's wrong?"

"Ding Ge..." I looked at her and tried to say in a calm tone, "I'm going on a blind date tomorrow."

Although I tried my best to restrain myself, I knew that Ding Ge would definitely be able to sense my inner turmoil.

Ding Ge raised her head slightly and was stunned for a moment. Then, with a slight curve of her mouth, she picked up the stewed noodles in the bowl with chopsticks and picked them up twice. At the same time, she said to me, "Yeah, congratulations."

I could see her sadness in Ding Ge's actions, but I wasn't sure. Through her eyes, I couldn't see through her heart. Her eyes seemed to be filled with laughter, and the smile on her lips was natural, as if she really wished me well.

"Congratulations on what?" I smiled disapprovingly and said, "Probably not."

"Why do you say that?" Dinger looked at me and continued, "Why would it turn yellow to dress up tomorrow and go on a blind date? Have some confidence in yourself."

I didn't want to talk to Ding Ge about this, so I didn't answer.

But I didn't know what to say to her to make her forget that I was looking for my own happiness. How would I know she wouldn't?

Ding Ge didn't seem to have much to say next, but she still looked happy on the surface. After we finished the meal, I returned the money I owed Ding Ge to her.

At the end of the day, Ding Ge seemed to have something to say, but she didn't.

After paying, we walked out of the restaurant together. The two of them stood side by side, as close as they had been in Green city railway station, but they could no longer warm each other.

"Goodbye." Ding Ge's faint voice came in the breeze.

I think this is really goodbye!