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Speaking of these, a pair of peach blossom eyes rarely flash a trace of sadness, but also mixed with a few threads of pain.

He stopped and sat down on the sofa in frustration, his long fingers scratching the edge of the sofa uneasily.

"Sorry, I don't know what I'm talking about." Qin Sheng lowered his head with a weak but clear tone.

"No, you did a good job." Vivian stopped his pen and looked into his eyes.

Her voice is very good, between you wan and sweet, like a gust of wind slowly blowing to him.

"I know you're just comforting me." Qin Sheng chuckled.

He didn't want to show his vulnerable side in front of others, so when he made a fuss, he began to regret coming to the psychologist.

"No, I'm not comforting you. You've just said a whole thing. Some things are like nightmares, which make you unable to sleep at night. When you think of it, you will feel stiff, sweating and shaking hands. You have explained the main symptoms. You come to me because you know in your heart that these symptoms come from your psychological problems. Most patients don't say that. They even refuse to believe that they have psychological problems. Therefore, you have to have confidence in yourself. "

Vivian at the moment has long lost his fiery appearance that night, giving people a feeling of intimate friends.

Qin Sheng didn't speak and focused on the sofa.

"The sofa is made of genuine leather. It's expensive. Are you sure you want to continue shaving?" Vivian saw the movement on his hand and kindly reminded him.

"Sorry." Qin Sheng chuckled.

"As I said just now, you have to have confidence in yourself. You know your defects and you are facing them bravely. That's great. At the same time, I hope you can have confidence in me. This kind of confidence tends to trust. You have to believe that I am your friend. I will always stand with you and I will face with you what you dare not face."

Vivian's eyes twinkle, as clear as spring water, without any impurity.

"No, you can't face it with me. You don't know how terrible it is!" Qin Sheng couldn't help raising his tone and staring at her tightly, "have you ever experienced it, how can you feel it?"

"Mr. Qin, we have to step by step. One day you will believe that I can face it with you. Besides, you don't know what I have experienced, so don't deny me so quickly." Vivian's voice was calm.

"Or I need some drug inhibition, just make me feel a little better than before, not so much trouble."

Qin Sheng scratched his head impatiently.

Vivian looked at her seriously, red lips gently, "Hey! It's just a psychological problem. You don't have to be so impatient. You know that medicine can cure the body but not the mind. So I hope you can try to tell me what you said just now. Of course, I'm not forcing you to solve all the problems at once. You can tell me as much as you like. We have to take our time. You know, the general psychological patients are just emotional problems, but your body is abnormal, so it may be more difficult to deal with. "

"Sorry, I can't do it." Qin Sheng held his forehead and lowered his eyes, making his expression hard to see.

"What you can do is try, try to tell me what's bothering you all the time, and you know exactly what's going on." Vivian frowned and encouraged him, "we need a breakthrough."

Maybe her words played a role, Vivian's face in front of him became blurred.

In front of Qin Sheng's eyes, the memory is like a flood of water and beasts devouring him, and the scene appears again in his mind.

The bright red blood, the face full of pain and fear, the sound of shortness of breath, and finally the body as rigid as ice, he stood quietly watching, his body seemed to be frozen.

Nothing to do, nothing to do

"Sorry, I really can't!" As soon as his back cooled and his eyes swelled with warmth, he jumped up from the sofa excitedly.

The scarlet eyes gave Vivian a deep look and walked towards the door.

"Come back!" Vivian reached out and grabbed him with amazing strength.

"Let me go. I can't stay here any longer. I don't want to think about it. I don't know anything!"

Qin Sheng roared incoherently. There was pain in his eyes and endless sorrow. There was a layer of mist in his eyes. His chest fluctuated greatly because of excitement. It was like a century's long run.

This is the memory he wants to delete all his life. For him to face the past, it's just salt on the wound.

"I know, I know. Well, we won't think about it. You sit down and calm down." Vivian's tone is still calm, listen carefully, a little more gentle, "do you like green tea or water? I'll pour it for you. "

As she spoke, she pushed him back to his seat.

In fact, Qin Sheng has now fallen into a trance state, staring at the air with dull eyes, feeling tired and weak, like losing his soul.

"Green tea or water?" Vivian repeated.

"Water, thank you." His tone was light, heartbreaking.

"Chopin or Mozart?"

"Chopin."

For a moment, the soft notes were floating in the big room, and Vivian recorded them in the book with his pen.

During this period, Qin Sheng never spoke, and his eyes seemed to be fixed on the floor.

"Feel a little better?" Vivian's bright eyes flashed something, the corner of his mouth slightly raised.

"Well."

It seems that something has gone out in his eyes, and the smile on his face is as if it were nothing, which gives people a feeling of powerlessness. It seems that Qin Sheng, who is careless and playful, has never existed before.

"Since you don't want to talk about you, would you mind if I talk about my experience?" Vivian looks at him with light eyes, and his voice is very soft, which makes people have no way to refuse.

Qin Sheng nodded.

"Do you know why I suddenly became a psychologist from a surgeon?" She took off her glasses. "Don't be nervous, just talking."

"I don't know. I... I'm curious, too." Qin Sheng took a deep breath and tried to adjust his mood, trying to bury those memories in his heart again.

"I think my driver told you that on the day I met you, I had a failed operation." The straightforward tone makes Qin Sheng feel that she is not talking about her own experience, but rather someone else's story.

"Patient, is he dead?" Qin Sheng finally looked up at her.

"Yes, I died. Even though we had prepared for the worst in advance, as the chief surgeon, I still couldn't accept it. It was a person with congenital heart disease. To be exact, it was a little girl, a lovely little girl, only 12 years old."

Vivian said, with a slight smile, but the smile was a little bitter.

Qin Sheng didn't speak and listened quietly. When he heard that the patient was only 12 years old, he felt that his heart was stabbed by something.

"That is a very strong little girl. She loves to smile and is warm, like a little sun. Even when she knows her illness, she smiles to comfort her parents and the nurses who feel sorry for her. We made a comprehensive plan to operate on the girl, and we decided to spare no effort to save the young life. "

Vivian's bright eyes flashed a dark light. This is the first time Qin Sheng has seen her expression change since she came in.

"Did the operation fail?" He asked, frowning.

"No, in fact, the operation was very successful, unprecedented success. The reason why it was called failure is that when we thought it was safe, we advised the parents who had not slept well for several days to go home to rest. However, no one knew that it was the last time. The little girl died suddenly in the middle of the night, and the rescue was ineffective."

Vivian said with a sad smile. "The girl's father turned pale all night because he couldn't accept the news. You know, the girl's father is just a young man about 30 years old. In fact, no one can accept this fact. Ups and downs, like a joke from heaven... "

There was a flash of tears in her eyes.

"So you gave up your career as a surgeon." Qin Sheng added that there was a soft light in his gloomy eyes.

Twelve, it's twelve!

Qin Sheng sneered in his heart. This is probably the so-called nature.

"Yes, you know, the most painful thing is not to experience death, but to see others dying but helpless. This is the most painful and desperate thing!" Vivian paused and continued, "as a doctor, rewriting the book of life and death is our responsibility and pursuit. I have seen enough deaths, but this time I really can't accept it, so I gave up this sacred profession."

She sipped a cup of tea, gently pulled the corners of her mouth, a casual look.

"In my opinion, your present profession is also sacred." Qin Sheng looked at her seriously, "because you are saving me."