Defeated By Love

Hearing this, Shunian looked at the rehabilitation doctor and asked hesitantly: "Do you usually encourage him like this?"

The rehabilitation doctor raised his eyebrows and smiled ambiguously at Xie Ruhe: "Yes."

"..." Xie Ruhe's eyelids moved slightly, and his lips were pursed, without saying anything.

Shunen thought about it, and suddenly pointed to the position between the parallel bars: "Can I stand here?"

The rehabilitation doctor said: "Of course it can."

Afterwards, Shunian walked up and stopped at a position roughly three steps away from Xie Ruhe. Her expression was serious, as if she was carrying out this matter as work.

"Just three steps, one, two, three..." Shunen lowered his head and tapped three times with his finger, and then looked at Xie Ruhe, "You are here, and I will encourage you."

The tone of the latter sentence is exactly the same as when Xie Ruhe tried to lure him with sugar in order to get Xie Ruhe to send her home every day after encountering the pervert.

Xie Ruhe was taken aback and nodded subconsciously.

Although after repeated training, he can stand without supporting anything for about a minute. But without relying on things and taking three steps, Xie Ruhe still cannot do it at this stage.

He held the parallel bars with his hands, and when he was ready, his upper and lower limbs worked hard at the same time.

There is tingling and pain in the thigh.

Xie Ruhe's sweat fell down, his masseter muscles tightened, his upper body was tight, and he seemed to exert his whole body strength. The muscle lines were stretched straight, and the blue veins were visible.

He exhaled slowly, letting his mind go.

Because of his state, Shunen became nervous and watched his movements with bated breath.

Xie Ruhe's movements were slow, and there was even a feeling of stagnation in the picture. After a while, he lifted his left foot slightly and moved a step forward with difficulty.

For ordinary people, an action that could not be simpler, for him, was extremely difficult.

Shunen's nose was inexplicably sore.

Xie Ruhe breathed again, and after adjusting, began to raise his right foot.

The second step.

The steps moved very little.

The three-step distance Shunen just calculated is about 1.5 meters. But at this moment Xie Ruhe took two steps, but it was less than half a meter. The distance between the two seemed to have not shortened at all.

After the second step, Xie Ruhe's complexion turned pale, as if he was enduring some great pain.

He closed his eyes and said hoarsely, "Sorry, it hurts..."

He can't take the third step.

Obviously, he was only one step away from the goal, but it was a distance he couldn't walk desperately.

At the same time, the rehabilitation doctor moved the chair over and said, "Take a rest, don't practice."

The next moment, Shunen suddenly took a big step forward, as if completing the unfinished step for him. She leaned over, stood on tiptoe, hugged him gently, and patted his back with her palms, with a soothing touch.

The soft and small body immediately surrounded him, and he could feel her breath against his chest. Xie Ruhe was wet all over, and sweat fell down his jaw.

But Shunen didn't seem to care.

Unexpectedly, she would make such movements, Xie Ruhe's body instantly stiffened, and she didn't know how to react.

Soon, Shunen retracted his hand, looked up at him, and said, "You did a great job."

"..."

"You did a good job." Shunen repeated it, as if saying something extremely important, "Xie Ruhe, I think you will get better."

Xie Ruhe's voice is low: "Really."

"Yeah." Shunen patted him on the shoulder again, her face straightened, like an old man, "It will be all right."

Xie Ruhe looked at her steadily, and then hummed.

"Great."

There will be times like this.

No matter how embarrassed, no matter how powerless and difficult, no matter how desperate and tired, the overwhelming negative emotions eroded in a moment, and it is no longer worth a word of someone.

It was like a moment when the sky was bright.

He just needs to believe it.

She said he would be well, then he would be well.

Shunen’s birthday happened to coincide with the day before Valentine’s Day.

February 13th.

After entering high school, Chen Han was nicknamed a "nerd" because of her personality. But Shunian is not a student who can only die, so this nickname focuses on the word "nerd".

Later, after learning about Shunen's birthday, she changed her lip to call her "Second Force".

Others thought it was funny and shouted.

Shunen has a good temper. Although he doesn't like them shouting like this, he doesn't care too much. She had her own way, and she would only treat it as she hadn't heard it at all when others called her like that.

One time between class, Shunian sat in Xie Ruhe's position and told him a question on the test paper.

It happened that a boy came back from the office and looked at Shunian, but he didn't call her name: "Second, the teacher asked you to go to the office."

Hearing this, Shunen's pen nib paused without lifting his eyes, and continued to give Xie Ruhe the topic.

The boy's patience is not good, and he yelled: "Have you heard? Secondly, should I say yes when I hear it?"

But Shunian did not respond, but Xie Ruhe raised his head: "Who are you calling."

The boy raised his eyebrows and pointed his chin to Shunian: "She."

Xie Ruhe looked gloomy: "Don't call your name?"

"What name do you call." The boy smiled hippiely, "Isn't this a good classmate? A nickname is a good relationship."

Shunian raised his head and said to Xie Ruhe, "Just ignore him."

Xie Ruhe didn't seem to hear him, he fixedly looked at the boy, then suddenly smiled and leaned back in his chair.

"I think you look like a scum." Xie Ruhe's peachy eyes narrowed, as if angry, and he spoke sharply and without mercy. "I will call you a scum?"

Later, Shunian asked Xie Ruhe secretly.

Do you think she looks like a "second force", so she would say that to that boy. After all, they gave her this nickname only because of her birthday number.

Xie Ruhe was silent for a while and ignored her.

Since becoming an adult, Shunen has not had much sense of expectation for birthdays. This day will only tell her that she is one year older and her short life is missing for another year.

The days when I didn't feel lonely seemed to have become deserted.

Shunian had forgotten about his birthday.

But when I was sleeping, I heard the movement of the door, and when I came out to look, I found that Deng Qingyu was here, busy working in the kitchen. There was a cake box on the dining table before she remembered it.

This annual day.

Shunen opened the cake box and secretly ate a piece of strawberry on it.

Deng Qingyu happened to take out a bowl of hot noodles, put it in front of her, and then touched her head: "Eat bowl of noodles first, one year older."

"Yeah." Shunian smiled at her.

Deng Qingyu sat opposite her.

Shunen lowered his head and took a sip of soup, and suddenly remembered something: "Mom, I checked the ICBC card yesterday and found that you are still transferring money to me."

"..." Deng Qingyu's expression paused, "Yes, you have to see a psychiatrist. You still have expenses every month. Besides, doesn't your job mean you don't make much money?"

"I have money to spend." Shunen lowered his eyes. "You don't want to give me any more money. I will transfer the money back to you later."

Deng Qingyu shook his head: "Wait until your situation stabilizes, okay?"

Shunen insisted: "I'm fine now, Wang Linxi is about to go to high school, and you all have to spend money."

Wang Linxi is Wang Hao's son, Deng Qingyu's stepson, and Shunian's stepbrother.

Deng Qingyu's expression remained unchanged: "It's okay, you don't need to worry about this."

"Don't give me money." Shunen bit his face and said vaguely, "I have money myself."

Deng Qingyu wanted to say something, Shunen spoke again, as if he didn't know how to say it, and the rate of speech was a little slow: "I...went to you once before, and I heard you and Uncle Wang were arguing."

"..."

"He is a good person." Shunen's expression was serious, "I hope you can be well."

"..." Deng Qingyu's expression was stunned, "What did you hear?"

——"I haven’t been cured for a year for any disease! Isn’t it normal when I saw your girl last time! What is the difference between this money and a burn! How many times have I reminded you, did you mention it to Shunian? Ever?!"

——"I really don't want to quarrel with you. You just want to tell you that you can't just focus on your daughter. If I have money, do I have to bother with you?"

Shunen didn't speak any more, eating noodles in silence.

Deng Qingyu looked at her, her eyes gradually reddened.

Before moving to Ruchuan City, Deng Qingyu sold the house in Shiyan Town. She used the money to add most of the savings that Shu Gao Lin left to Shunian, and bought a house for Shunian in Ruchuan City.

At that time, she and Wang Hao had been married for less than a year.

Shunian was completely unfamiliar with the father and son, and became extremely guarded, unwilling to live with them.

The house itself is not big, only one bedroom.

Deng Qingyu moved to live with Shunian by herself, taking care of her every day. Wang Hao underestimated Shunen's condition, but she got along with Shunian day and night and knew how serious it was when Shunian was serious.

She didn't dare to go out, couldn't eat and sleep every day, she would cry at every turn, and she would only chant three words over and over again-"Help me". In a short period of time, he lost weight, like skin and bones.

Hearing a small movement, his whole body trembles, and his spirit is extremely sensitive. I always say that I can hear the sound of water droplets and my head hurts. In severe cases, she would have difficulty breathing, sweating all over, lying on the bed unable to move.

It seems to be dying.

Shunen would only stay in his small room, living life like a dream. Deng Qingyu will always coax out of that room, eat and take a bath in the bathroom.

There was a big problem with her spirit, as if she had no hope of surviving.

Deng Qingyu checked it online.

Knowing that Shunian got PTSD, that is, post-traumatic stress disorder, and also caused mental disorders such as depression and anxiety. During that time, Deng Qingyu was exhausted physically and mentally, and was in a state of mental tension every day, as if it was about to break in the next second.

Deng Qingyu knew that there was a problem with his idea. Even if she knew that Shunen's current situation was serious, she didn't want to take her to see a psychologist at all. She felt that the people she knew knew, and it would not sound good to say it.

She is waiting for her studies to get better.

Such thoughts finally disintegrated one day.

Deng Qingyu will always remember the scene she saw when she went out to buy groceries that day and walked into the room-Shunian was holding a knife and wanted to scratch her wrist.

Deng Qingyu immediately slapped the knife in her hand, collapsed in an instant, holding her in arms and crying.

Shunen looked at her in a dazed expression, looking at her tears, her eyes slowly reddened for unknown reasons.

the next day.

Shunian took the initiative to leave the small room for the first time. She stood barefoot and watched Deng Qingyu's blank expression, tears silently. He seemed to be awake, but his expression was still cowardly.

She wants to save herself.

She didn't want to live anymore. Every day she felt that she didn't want to live, but she really wanted to survive.

God gave her a chance to survive, not for her to live like this.

For a long time, Shunen sobbed, crying like a child, begging for what she wanted.

"Mom... I want to see a psychologist."