Destiny or Coincidence?

Abhilash Ponnam

Whoever said that falling in love is like being in hell and heaven at once is absolutely true because the way i feel for her, the way i will always be ready to get hurt for her and the way i always find solace in her arms says everything. 

She is the kind devil and the naughty angel in my life that always captures my heart and steal it repeatedly with just one smile of hers. She just needs to say a word for me to get the world around her feet but she being herself never asked anything except my time which i can gladly give her all the time. 

She is everything to me and even more than that. I can toss everything aside to just be with her and to make her happy. 

Now, I am on cloud nine because now I can show all my affection and love for her without hiding it from her in fear of hurting her. Now I can show how much she means to me, what I can do for her and how much I need her in my life. 

She looked like an angel while sleeping peacefully in my arms that I want to protect her forever. She is so delicate and innocent that I want to keep her away from this ugly and heartless world. 

I know that I might be sounding like a possessive ass but I can't help it. She brings out the worst and best side in me and at the same time she can also bring out the jealousy and possessiveness in me. She is my lifeline that I never want to lose it, otherwise, I fear that I might lose even my breath with her.

But I know that if she finds out the date of tomorrow then she will definitely get hurt but what surprised me, even more, was that she forgot about it and didn't even remember it. Although i would be glad for it because i cannot see her in pain but i also know that it is inevitable. So, I made up my mind to be with her this time no matter what cost me the price. She is my queen and I cannot let her deal with the pain alone.

I even know the reason behind father's lack of response to the calls but she is so excited about her friend's proposal that she might have forgotten about it. And I don't want to be the one to remind her, so I just shut my mouth by looking after her because if not today, then definitely she will remember it tomorrow. So why not delay it until she had the time to enjoy with herself.

I clearly remember the day when i got to know that her mother died and immediately rushed there just to see if she was fine or not. I even clearly remember how broken she was at that time and if I am being honest with myself, then I clearly know that she didn't move on from that trauma but still grieving in her mother's death.

So, when her father called her now, I knew that some or the other way she is going to find out even if his father refuses to open up in front of her. 

She sounded so excited while talking to her dad that i didn't want to interrupt her but i want to have her in my arms when she gets to know the reason of her father's lack of response. So i just slowly made my way to the couch where she sat while talking to her dad. I can see the slight hesitation and confusion in her eyes while talking but then it's gone again replacing with a smile. But I knew that she will find out. So I just sat beside her my picking her up and making her sit on my lap so that i can hold her close to me if anything goes wrong.

"Dad, is everything alright? Your voice is not the same as it used to be and I can feel that you are hiding something from me. And from when you started working your ass off? I warned you to keep a check on your health after the last time you behaved like ..." She was rambling on with anger and upset on her father until she realised what she said and meant. 

And as expected, she suspected her father's lack of response over the call and realised the meaning behind it because the moment she said those lines, she froze realising the meaning and reason behind it. 

It has been 5 years since her mother died but still, it affects her the same as it used to be in the past. 

"Take care dad. I will talk to you later" She said hanging up the call because I can clearly see the change of posture in her body and also the breathing of hers. It's like she was controlling everything within her to maintain the same voice so that her father doesn't know that she was going to cry or get hurt again. But i think it's too late since i can see the change in her voice which betrayed her and relayed the message clearly to her father. 

But I am not going to reveal it to her though since she might get even more tensed up, so I just left it there to concentrate on her because I can see that at any moment she can burst out crying.

But what I didn't expect is for her to get a panic attack. 

Shit… dammit…

"Athira…" I called repeatedly by tapping her cheek but still, there is no response from her. She is unable to breathe and was gasping for air.

"Athira can you hear me?" I asked once again but still, she was the same. She was looking into my eyes but nothing else.

"Fuck…" I cursed feeling helpless but i really need to do something otherwise i don't know what will happen to her.

Relax Abhi. You need to concentrate. Control your emotions and concentrate on her. You can do it. 

I took a deep breath and then remembered that we need to bring them back first so that they would be able to listen to us and then instruct them.

So i just tapped her cheek a little bit forcibly so that it can make her come back to conscious from her frozen like state. And I prayed to god to make it work because I don't know any other way but to call the ambulance if it didn't work out.

"Thank god…" I breathed in relief because she gasped a large amount of air by saying my name.

Thank you thank you thank you so much, god. Common Athira, you are stronger than this. You can make it.

"Athira… now look at me" I said rubbing her back and looking into her eyes seriously to make a point. And as instructed she looked into my eyes.

"Now, do as I say. Just breathe in" I said to which she obliqued.

"Now breathe out love," I said rubbing her back repeatedly to give friction in her body.

"Repeat it until you feel fine dear. Breathe in and breathe out" I instructed her repeatedly until she was able to breathe back normally and look into my eyes with so much pain that it tugged my heart a lot.

"Mom….." She gasped sobbing the only word which made my heart go wild with so much pain for my love that I embraced her tightly in my arms because her whole body was shaking with loud sobs of hers.

I always knew that she loved her mother a lot and was closer to her. Hell, i have even seen her crying for her mother for more than six months when she died. But god, never have I felt this way. It was like someone was ripping my heart and cutting it into pieces just by seeing her in pain.

I wanted to strangle everyone who is responsible for her pain but god only knows that it's not possible. It would have been easy to strangle someone than seeing the love of my life in so much pain. 

I want to take all her pain away and make her happy but i am unable to do anything but just to sit here and console her. 

It's eating me away by seeing her sobbing in my arms like a broken girl by clutching my shirt for her dear life. 

I can feel and understand her pain because I too lost my father. But i can never really know the depth of it scars because I lost my dad when I was a child but that's not the case for her. And moreover, losing mom is more heartbreaking than losing dad. 

Yes, we feel pain, hurt and everything when father dies, but it feels double and even more when it comes to mother. But he is the only one on earth who is selfless and caring. She is the only one who sacrifices anything and everything just to see their child happy. So, yes, I can understand her pain but not the depth of it. 

But still i made myself a promise that I would be staying by her side at all times to protect her, so I am going to keep my promise and stay by her side. 

Even if it means to just hold her close while she is crying her heart out, then so be it. I am ready to do anything for her. 

After some time, she cooled down a little bit from sobbing but still, her body is shaking from her silent cries. So, I just kept on repeating the soothing words near her ear by telling that everything will be alright and kissing her forehead continuously. 

"You know Abhi…" She whispered in her hoarse voice because of her crying so much.

"Yes, love?" I whispered caressing her hair with my right hand and rubbing her back comfortingly with my left hand while she still clutched onto my shirt by resting her head on my chest. 

"I know baby i know. Mother will always play every role in their child's life to make sure that we are happy. And your mother is awesome i think" I said looking into her eyes by making her frown at me.

"Because she gave birth to this beautiful princess and guided her to make her even a perfect woman. I will be forever in debt with your mother for creating the best thing in my life." I explained with so much love in my eyes that she smiled with a teary face.

"She is the great woman because she guided you about what is wrong and what is right so that now you are able to take the right decision in your life," I said with a prideful look by making her look into my eyes with happiness and sad expression of hers.

"Wherever she might be today, she will be proud of her daughter at the moment by seeing how beautiful she grew out to be and how she got well settled in her life by achieving her goal," I said with the most sincere tone of mine by caressing her cheeks and wiping away her tears.

"She will be proud of you Athira. And she will be devastated to see you break down like this. All she wanted was for you to be happy in your life." I explained and continued "You need to move on from her death and live your life baby. She won't be happy to see you in this state. She wants you to remember her with a smile but not with tears." I said with a kind tone that she just stared into my eyes with so much emotion in them. 

"I know it's easy to say but hard to implement. But you need to take a step darling. And I promise you that I will be there with you in each and every step you take and make sure to catch you if you fall down again." I said with sincerity and love in my voice that tears started brimming at the corner of her again that I hugged her once again to me to make sure that she is alright. 

"I love you Abhi," She said whispering near to my ear that I smiled listening to it and kissed her forehead when my mobile started ringing in my pocket. I took it out to see that it was from Dev making the realisation hit to the both of us about the plan we have to execute.

"Shit…" I cursed looking at the time which is showing 9.00 AM already and we need to get Charitha out by 10.00 AM with girls team while we do the rest of the planning by the time we have to implement it. 

"God, I need to make Charitha drag from this hotel. I totally forgot about it Abhi" Said Athira starting to panic that I shook her shoulders to get her attention.

"You are not going anywhere, baby. Look at yourself. You have a lot on the plate now and I don't want you to force yourself by acting like everything is normal" I suggested by requesting her to stay at the hotel because i know for sure that she will be getting hurt again because of all this happiness. She will definitely remember her mother again and go through all the pain again which i don't want it. 

"Abhi… look at me" she said making me face her that I silently tried to convey my feelings to her by looking into her eyes.

"I know that you care for me and looking out for me. I even know that you don't want to see me in pain again. I appreciate it. I really do." She said with a grateful smile that i wanted to talk with her again but she stopped me from talking and continued.

"But Abhi, I will be even more in pain if i won't come with you. He is my best friend and he needs me now more than ever. I just can't leave him alone in this crucial time and be selfish about it. I want to be beside him and encourage him at every step of the way. I want to see him happy Abhi." she said looking into my eyes with a desperation in her eyes that I sighed in resignation because i know for a fact that she had made up her mind to go and i won't be able to stop her. 

Even if i wanted to stop, I can't do it because I know that Dev needs his best friend on his side more than ever. He is looking so nervous that he might faint at any moment if Athira is not with him at present. So even if i wanted to keep her safe and all, I even wanted to make her happy, so i just silently nodded my head in agreement that she squealed on happiness by hugging me return and kissing my cheek with love-filled eyes.

I decided then and there itself that i will be there for her no matter what and I will be staying with her throughout the proposal by giving her comfort in my arms and never let her feel alone in this moment. Because I even know that she needs me now desperately even if she won't accept it directly. Her eyes convey a lot without her telling it out loud. 

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