Don’t Turn from Summer

Today is a cloudy day, and the few trees downstairs in the hotel are extremely quiet. Mu Hanxia and Lin Mochen walked to the parking lot and saw a familiar black Cayenne in the distance. Even the license plate number has not changed.

She froze.

"Don't know each other?" He said.

"No," she replied, "just find it."

Lin Mochen didn't speak. The two sat in the car as before.

Along the way, he drove in silence. Mu Hanxia's eyes occasionally stopped on his face without leaving a trace. Xu didn't sleep all night, his eyes looked a little concave, and his face seemed blue.

"Actually ... we don't have to go out, just talk in the hotel room," she said slowly. But then he was silent again. Is it really possible there? In their distressed room?

"No way there." Lin Mochen looked forward.

Mu Hanxia looked up and looked at the layers of clouds flowing slowly in the sky.

It is spring, but the weather is still a bit cold. The trees and grass are already green, but on such a cloudy day, the countryside is still a desolate scene. Lin Mochen drove for two hours and took her to a large green field. A yellow and narrow dirt road leads all the way to the depths of the green field. Mu Hanxia sees that the green grass plants on both sides are more than one person tall, there are patches of water in the land, and there are rivers winding in some places. A sign was erected on the roadside with the name: "Shenjiang Wetland".

"Where are we going?" She asked.

"I heard that a new hotel has been opened here, right in the middle of the wetland. The scenery is very good," he said.

Mu Hanxia was quiet again.

Soon, I saw the hotel. It is an elegant and quiet cottage, nestled in deep reeds and lakes. It feels beautiful to be Xanadu.

Lin Mochen went to the front desk to check in, and Mu Hanxia stood in the lobby and waited. She looked at the outside view for a while, but then turned to look at his back, thinking: Will the two of them live here tonight? No, he will be alone. Thinking of this, her nose suddenly felt a little sore, and she immediately suppressed it.

The front desk waiter said with a smile, "Sir, the restaurant has begun to serve lunch. They are all very local dishes. The fish are also wild from the lake. You can't eat outside. You can try it."

Lin Mochen looked at Mu Hanxia not far away and replied, "Okay."

It's noon, and they haven't eaten anything since last night. Lin Mochen walked back to her: "Go to eat first." After speaking, he went straight to the restaurant next to him. Mu Hanxia had to follow up.

Before the peak tourist season, it is another working day. In the large restaurant, there are only two or three tables of guests. After Lin Mochen sat down, he picked up the menu and clicked all the way down.

Mu Hanxia said, "It's enough, you can't finish it." The waiter next to me also smiled and said, "Sir, you two, you can't finish so many dishes."

Lin Mochen handed the menu together and handed it to the waiter, saying, "Order it. Let's serve."

The waiter had to retreat. Mu Hanxia looked out the window without making a noise.

After a while, a full table was served. He picked up his chopsticks and looked at each of them very calmly. Mu Hanxia was eating absent-minded, but she suddenly remembered that when she first arrived in Beijing last year, he took her to a fine dining restaurant for the first time. It was the same, ordered a table full of dishes. She also persuaded him that she couldn't finish eating. But he smiled and said, "I don't like waste either. You can't finish packing."

At that time, when he saw her first time in a big city, he was poor and timid, so he moved his heart, ordered so many dishes for her, and asked her to pack it?

...

Mu Hanxia added chopsticks and put the most famous fish here into his mouth, but suddenly he couldn't taste any, just felt that it was swallowed with a certain sour taste in the throat.

Count at the mouthful.

Lin Mochen also ate very little, and just drank almost every dish and put down his chopsticks. The rice didn't move. When she lowered her chopsticks, he smiled slightly and said, "Go out and walk."

Mu Hanxia just felt that he couldn't understand what he was thinking now, and said "um" softly.

Outside the hotel, there is a long corridor that leads directly to the water and extends far away. The corridor is about two meters wide, paved with planks, and clumps of reeds and lotus leaves are flanked on both sides. Except for them, no one was seen on the corridor today. The afternoon sky was just a little bit brighter. Between the sky and the water, there was still a grey patch.

After walking for a while, he remained silent. Mu Hanxia found a topic and said, "Here, why is it called the Shenjiang Wetland?"

Lin Mochen replied, "It is said that the land sank, and the river also sank, eventually becoming a wetland."

Mu Hanxia heard her heart stunned, looked up, and looked at the large green forest in the distance, but could not see the edge, it turned out to be a vicissitudes of life.

"Why go?" He asked.

Mu Hanxia was silent for a moment.

In the grayish sky, he looked at her and smiled suddenly: "It's still the same thing, can't you live, right? Why can't you stay with me these days? Mu Hanxia, ​​what is this?"

Mu Hanxia's tears burst out, and she couldn't argue.

What would she say?

Say I just want to spend time with you.

Said I was also eager, and almost succumbed to our possible old days.

Or, I'm really selfish. I ca n’t let go, but ca n’t resist you?

"I'm sorry," she said softly.

But he smiled again: "I never thought I would be played with by a woman. So I am sorry for you once, and you bear me once, and we are even?"

His tone was cloudy, and Mu Hanxia was afraid to answer.

In the lotus leaf near the feet, there is a frog "呱呱". And the sound of the wind blowing the reeds. The two stood silently at the corner of the bridge in the silent and rustling sound.

After a while, he said, "Where do you plan to go? Oh ... even if you divide, you are still friends. What help is needed?"

Mu Hanxia: "No, it's not needed."

"What are you hiding from me?" He asked.

Mu Hanxia was startled. After a few moments of silence, I replied, "The old man introduced ... I applied for New York University. The notice has come down."

Lin Mochen could not see any expression on his side.

"What about visas?" He smiled again.

Mu Hanxia slowly answered, "I'm doing it."

He nodded. "Okay."

Mu Hanxia stared at the calm dark green water surface, but heard his cold voice, sounded again in his ear: "So at least three months ago, you started to prepare to go abroad?"

Mu Hanxia immediately said, "No, it's not what you think. At first I was not sure at all, so I didn't tell you. Later ... something happened to Feng Chen, what should I say?"

"What about these days? We lie together every night. How hard is it for you to speak? The slightest tone of breath is not revealed?" He said.

Mu Hanxia bit her lower lip.

He spoke so lightly, how could she speak? It hurts to say that I am walking or staying?

Having said that, how else would she go?

"This is my own future, and I want to make my own decisions," she finally said slowly.

Lin Mochen's face finally became extremely cold: "Okay. Just think clearly."

For a moment, there seemed to be nothing more to say between the two.

Lin Mochen stepped forward calmly, and Mu Hanxia followed slowly. After another period of quiet scenes, he said, "When will we leave?"

Mu Hanxia calmed for a moment and replied, "I plan to leave Lin the day after tomorrow."

"Then don't give it away," he said indifferently.

"Um." Mu Hanxia's tears leaked again, slowly pressing back.

Just then Lin Mochen turned to look at her. The vast water and sky became the background behind him. His eyes were deep and silent.

"Mu Hanxia, ​​has anyone said that you are actually a very cruel woman?"

With tears, Mu Hanxia chuckled, "No, you are the first to say so."

He also smiled and pointed at his chest: "Yes, it's only me. If you want to insert a knife, you can insert a knife."

Mu Hanxia's tears fell all of a sudden, and his calm words made her feel that her emotions were about to run out of control. She reached out her hand very quietly, wiped away the tears, and said, "I think we've talked about it, and there's nothing to say. Let's go, Lin Mochen, bye." Almost changed. She turned and walked quickly. Who knew that just a few steps away, his footsteps were approaching, and he caught her.

Mu Hanxia is very clear that such entanglement will only make it more painful. She must not let herself soften and just stay there. So she cruelly pushed him hard. Lin Mochen looked at her stubborn complexion, but felt that she had never been more embarrassed. His fingers were almost to be struck into her flesh.

But when Mu Hanxia looked up, he saw his face. In the gray daylight, floating clouds, the boundless water and grass, only his face was extremely handsome and extremely close. Those eyes, those deep eyes she admired thousands of times, there was a very light and dark layer of water in her eyes.

Her mood collapsed instantly, her whole body like a woodcarving, standing still. But he flashed in his eyes, but it was more severe than her. He hugged her and suddenly jumped into the water next to him.

Mu Hanxia was stunned, and a large mouthful of water was poured from the mouth and nose. The sky couldn't see clearly, she was buried in the water, and saw the trembling water, all eyes covered with clusters of plant rhizomes. She was entangled and couldn't escape at all. The drowning pain she had never experienced before drowned her.

He struggled thrillingly, his arms stretched out from nowhere, and he hugged her waist. Mu Hanxia hated and was afraid. She was held tightly by him. She instinctively tried to push him away, but had to hold him tightly. Regardless of her struggles and pain, he kissed her fiercely in the water. Mu Hanxia was very uncomfortable. The lake, water plants, and his power seemed to lead to her chest. She cried silently in the water, and kept swilling, swilling. Until he finally couldn't bear it, he lifted her head out of the water. She pushed him away desperately, grabbed the edge of the bridge with both hands, and climbed with all her might. Lin Mochen reached out and supported her body, sending her up.

Mu Hanxia was soaked and fell on the corridor. He lowered his head, could not see his face, and climbed up with his hands on the bridge. The clothes on him are no longer the same. Mu Hanxia couldn't look at him any more, she got up and walked along the way.

"Lin Mochen, we will never meet again. I will never see you again, we are done, completely done! We have no future, no more! Don't look for me, never look for me!

She dropped these words, as if chased by a ghost, and desperately ran away. The wind in spring was still so cold that her whole body was like in an ice cellar, every bone was hurting. She burst into tears, but it seemed that she was finally relieved, and she finally lost the hope that was so secretive in her heart.

She kept running and running, and finally there was no step behind to keep up.

He didn't keep up.

She ran all the way to the hotel's doorstep, at which time there was an empty rental car and a guest got out of the car. She opened the door and sat in. The taxi driver looked at her pale face and water with surprise. But her voice was so calm: "Master ... let's go."

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Lin Mochen was in place, I don't know how long he stood.

Then he ran out of the water grass. Run to the parking lot, start the car, and rush on the road when you are commuting. However, the loess stretched all the way, and the green field was endless. He drove in this Shenjiang wetland for a long time, but there was still Mu Hanxia's figure.

Finally, he suddenly hit the steering wheel, and Cayenne finally drove into the swamp and got stuck.

He didn't get off or start the car. There was no one around, and there was silence.

A long time passed, until the twilight covered the field like a veil.

A ring was thrown out of the car window and sank into the water.